Thanks

[PMilam]

Thanks to all of you that have helped me through this time.
I know that your prayers and energy have been coming my way, I feel it. I know it.
Thank you for the flowers, cards, emails, food, hand made goodies.. the chocolate bouquet (guess who knew just what I needed?!) but most of all for the love that you have poured out to me and my family.
I am stronger for it. I am healthier for it. I am blessed by it.
love,
Patt

[Becky Davis]

I am sorry that you have been ill. I have not had a pc and have been unaware. Add me to that list of folks praying for you.
Get well soon Sister.

[PMilam]

Thank you Becky.
I know that having prayerful energy coming my way is what is keeping me going.
This is no fun. I have to decide today/tomorrow if I will take the chemo that is being recommended.

It's hard to not DO.. just BE.
It is what I strive for.. just to BE, and let the river flow around me... or with it.. waiting for help with heavy things, something on the high shelf, or close the stuck window.. that is hard.
To let others cook for me.. even bathe me, at first.. whoa, nelly...
I thank God every day for the gifts of my family and friends.. and this beautuful place to be in..
love,
Patt

[Kaye Miller]

Patt-
Just BE
Do not take away from those wanting to give. Just let the love surround you and make you strong for tomorrow.

[PMilam]

Thanks, ya'll.
I am getting better.. when someone says You want tme to do this that or the other.. I say Yes!

I've decided, with input from several other docs, not to do the chemo. It would only add 3% to my survival rate.. I figure not going through that agony would add even more.

We all have to make decisions that will effect our length and quality of life.. this is a big one.

My new grandbaby is here.. the sun is shining..
life is good.

Enjoy the weather.. it's a fixin' to change on us.
love,
Patt

[MickeyMick]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by PMilam:
I've decided, with input from several other docs, not to do the chemo. It would only add 3% to my survival rate.. I figure not going through that agony would add even more.

That's a brave decision, Patt. It's one that I think of a lot. I, like you, have grandchildren. I know someone who has lived far beyond the life-expectancy given and did not choose the traditional, allopathic approach.

I just finished reading a remarkable book by Ken Wilber. It's titled GRACE AND GRIT. I'd recommend it to anyone, regardless what s/he is facing.

Much Love

MickeyMick

[2100]

My prayers are with you, Patt. Enjoy the stars tonight!

[sweetness&light]

I saw a falling star the other night while driving home. I think they're good luck and if that's true, I send it to you. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

[tulsa dawn]

Pat

Just wanted to tell you my thoughts and prayers are with you my Carnivale buddy.

Enjoy that baby!

[Dani Joy]

Patt,

Today is the first time I have heard about this. It takes courage to go through life's challenges and make decisions that effect yourself and your family. You have always been a person to display intense passion, courage, and vision. I know that you will face this with the same determination as you do everything else, and win. I send you love, peace of mind, and most importantly I send you health. If you need anything, anytime...just call.

[PMilam]

So, the Eureka rumor mill is not as active as we had thought!

Decisions that your life depend on, that have to be made quickly, can be very scary. And you just have to make it, and get on with your life, accept the consequences that they bring.

I had a bilateral mastectomy on Oct. 6. I had a 4 cm tumor in my left breast, and a questionable spot in my right. (I had the same thing in the left, in March, I went back for a 6 mo. re-check). The biopsy showed invasive lobular carcinoma. I made the decision to have both removed, since lobular is more likely to occur in the other breast, and I already had a 6 mo. recheck on the right one. I could not bear the thought of going through all this again in 6 mo. As it turned out, the right breast was free of cancer. I don't regret my decision.

I opted not to have reconstruction. At my age, and with my surgical history, I didn't want to have more surgery, and did not want to have one big ole titty keeping me tipped to one side.

I urge you to get a mammogram, if it is time.. don't postpone it, and for sure, don't skip it.

If I had skipped, or postponed my mammogram, I might not have a choice about chemo, I might not have had a choice in surgery. I am so grateful to have a choice in my treatment!

Each day is still a challenge.
Thank you for your concern and your prayers. Keep them coming, please, I'm not through this quite yet.

[This message has been edited by PMilam (edited 10-25-2003).]

[SeaHawk]

Pat,
This is the first I have heard of this also. I send you prayers, peace and healing thoughts. Hope things are improving for you. Anything I can do please let me know.