Gratitudinally Speaking

[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
Going to see "Baby Emma" this afternoon and bask in the Sacred Energy only "the children "possess."

Ahh, yes, my dear mtnviewsteve friend. I just love going to Babyville myself. What a sweet place to be. Such an honor. You may want to be aware of the healing that can be presented to you. It will just happen as you walk into that Sacred Energy.
I can just hear that southern drawl flowing around the rooms. I think that Southern Babies even burp with a minimum of 2 syllables. Something like, "ba-urp". It's so cute.
From one Southern Belle GrandmaBee to one cool dude http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Grandpa, y'all drive safe and see ya' soon, hear?

[Jeannie Jones]

Steve, glad you had the good sense to get out of the car and give your back a breather from time to time along the way. Well, it probably had less to do w/ good sense and more to do w/ pain! What a wonderful visit this will be for you. And thanks for the "spoonful"--I can't say that I realized that the part about the 45 keepin' the man away was in there. I've always found it hard to hear & understand lyrics from records unless they're well-enunciated.

As an example of my funny hearing, in Eureka, guitar/singer Doug--can't think of his last name--used to do the bluesy "I'm a Cross-Cut Saw", and for years I heard it as "I'm a Cross-Dresser", though knew that that couldn't be right. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Deb, I would tend to trust your version of where we met, rather than mine. My rememberer is kind of like Swiss cheese--full of holes. Entire people have been swallowed up by the holes. I wonder if your son ever worked on my shift at the Crescent.

Deb & Becky, who took Bill's place as night audit when he came down to the New Orleans?

Deb, did you get to spend a little time w/ Missie today at her yard sale?

I remember that when Bill & Kelly, operating as maybe "Green Tree Mgmt." reopened the Crescent after it had been closed for a long time, I was a part of the opening front desk crew. This was my first experience in hotels, and I wasn't very comfortable about doing front desk--shy. Dixie was mgr., and the late Barbara, was the accountant. Can't remember if Boyd came on as Bell captain at that time or not. I had tremendous respect for Bill when he alone rolled up his sleeves & cleaned the kitchen HIMSELF. It had been left dirty, w/ no clean-up at all. Old food was on plates, etc.

Sometime later, Dale Riggin of SIMI & his boss--can't remember his name--staged a "hostile take-over" of the Crescent. I felt so badly for Bill after the blood, sweat & tears he'd put into the place.

Well, could go on and on about the hotels, but maybe that's enough for right now. Gotta go see if I can accomplish something today.

Lovin' everyone--

J

[This message has been edited by Jeannie Jones (edited 06-25-2004).]

[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
[B] As we are better and better able to bring the joy to each and every moment, the door will open itself.

OK, Jeannie, the door will open itsself. How unZenish was I thinking? Thank you.

JJ, are you speaking of the kundalini energy? That is a force that has, in the past, created such a surge of heat through my spine, it seemed as if gravity had a dominance that I could not resist. I would either be unable to move or fall to my back as if I were attached to the earth itsself. As I write this, some old information is rising in my mind about this. It has to do with what you are saying about channeling the light through our spines. About 13 years ago I fell square on my butt and broke the tail bone along with crunching some vertebrae and the sciatic nerve. It is as though the clear channel is obstructed and I hold the majority of the back pain between 2 lower chakras. It just feels that when I am led to the right type of clearing, I will then be free of pain and finally a clear conduit of this light energy.
The 2 triangles merging feel very familiar, but haven't placed them yet. Maybe because they aren't in place yet.
According to Kryon, the lattice grid around the earth was finally in place by the beginning of this year. The Kryon group continues to be channeled even through this shift. It is one of the reasons that Native American Spirituality is being opened to non-Native Americans. We are finally capable of an understanding or possibly an honoring of the wisdom of the Grandfathers and Grandmothers. This is quite a blend of beliefs, but as I travel on my Right Red Road, it does seem to come together this way. Things are finally starting to "click".

[DaBee]

Yes, yes, met Miss Missie today. What a sweetheart! Her Mom is a sweetie too. Bought a pair of her earrings and I love them. Missie is the 1st person I've "met" from our little rotunda since the golden thread began. Can't wait to meet everyone here or there or somewhere. BTW, could maybe someone on the Eureka side of the river give Shimaka a little ringy-dingy? It has been quite a few days since she was seen at Myrtie Maes.
Going to go honor my art with a paintbrush. It's as if the rock is calling me. I'll check in later and see how everyone is doing.
loveyouguys/deb-o-rockyandbullwinkle

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by DaBee:

...According to Kryon, the lattice grid around the earth was finally in place by the beginning of this year. The Kryon group continues to be channeled even through this shift...



Yes, we're so grateful that it hasn't stopped for everyone, as Kryon, and Abraham through the Hickses.

Deb, do you see a chiropractor? Are you dealing with 1st & 2nd chakra issues? (Well, that's really none of my business.)

Y'know, I hope we haven't turned folks off with this kind of discussion in between our medical things. But, I'll tell ya, it's music to my heart.

Love,

JJ

[DaBee]

me too, jj

[DaBee]

Seems strange to quote myself, and actually it's Jeannie taking a quote from a previous entry, but the reason is to tie 2 thoughts together. So here goes:

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Originally posted by DaBee:

...According to Kryon, the lattice grid around the earth was finally in place by the beginning of this year. The Kryon group continues to be channeled even through this shift...

then going back to the Edgar Cayce link (thanks, JJ)(also, previous to this link being mentioned by Jeannie, I have been slowly reading a book written by Edgar Cayce's grandson...[a wink, perhaps?]) that I've been reading with fascination on and off for the last several hours, comes this:

The fact that the universe is organized into an octave of dimensions;
The fact that these octaves have a light, sound and geometric counterpart;
That this geometry shows up on Earth as the Global Grid;
That this Grid energy can be harnessed through building crystal structures;
That the Great Pyramid was the optimal energy-focusing design;

is showing (to me) an ongoing connecting (the dots?) of energies.
Just wanted to check in with this as I'm so very much enjoying all of the old/new information. It's like I'm collecting and pooling all of the nuances.
lt&lv/deb-o-noodledoodle

[DaBee]

Help!!!
I can't quit singing "Twilight Time"
Make it stop
Please/
deb-o-recordstuckdoodlenoodle

[Jeannie Jones]

From Nafalia:

Thanks for the laugh! I really needed it. You'll understand why when you read my post.

[Jeannie Jones]

Nafalia here--going full-circle

Don't like to bring up things that are not in a joyful nature, but it appears that that's what's happening in my life. I'm 61 now, and this started when I was 17. Actually it started when I was 14 or 15, and became defiant because I would not go to church--Pentecostal Church. So from that point on, I became the "bad child".

Married at 17, already one-month pregnant. His mother was the assistant pastor of the church, his father was a deacon and worked for the railroad, (at that time Springfield had a population of about 30,000 people). Ex-husband had already graduated high school, had exactly the same birthday as mine, had a hot rod car, a good-paying job, and was very handsome--much sought-after by all the girls.

I was a quiet, timid person at that time, but defiant to my mother. When I married Charles, it was a relief to everyone that I was out of the house and gone, and had married well, because I was the girl from the wrong side of the tracks.

My mother had been married for 27 yrs., and had 7 children. I was 4 1/2 when she left my father. All but one older sister had already left the house, because of my father's violence. I don't remember him. He was a "wino". He wasn't a drunk, he was a wino. My 2 older brothers joined the military, and my oldest sister had married. My mother was a very religious woman, so we grew up in the Pentecostal Church (the 3 youngest ones did). My mother was divorced for 10 years, and then married my step-father, who was a Pentecostal minister. Life seemed to be getting better.

My mother dated my step-father for several yrs. From the time I was 9 yrs. old and they began dating, until I was 14, I was molested by this Pentecostal minister. So around 14 I became very defiant and refused to go to church. At that point, I became the "child of the Devil". That's what I was called, the "Devil's Child".

This is why, when I married at 17, I was out of the house and gone, and I married "well", because his family had status in the community & money & were very highly thought of. Everyone was very happy that I was married, because I was out of their lives and gone.

Shortly after the marriage, the abuse began. His parents knew of the abuse, because we lived with them part of the time, but it had to be covered up because of their reputation. So who was going to believe me against them? So I kept my mouth shut--out of fear.

The abuse went on for 5 yrs., and was very violent. In that 5 yrs., I had 2 back surgeries, was in and out of the hospital all the time, spent time in the psych. ward, but everyone only said--well, she's just doing this to get attention, and she's always been defiant. She's just going to do what she wants to do. (He never hit me where it would show.)

I never said anything to anyone, because there was no need to because it would be my word against my husband and his family. Who was I but the little girl from across the tracks. The only one who knew and understood, and who helped me, was my doctor. When I couldn't take it anymore, I would call him and he would put me in the hospital for a while, so that I could rest and feel safe again.

Even the police were afraid of Charles, because he was crazy, and they knew that his father would stop anything from proceeding. So when they would pull him over for speeding, or drinking & driving, or whatever, (if they could catch him, because his car was a lot faster than theirs was), they would walk up to the car and say--Charlie, Charlie, just calm down, we want to talk to you. That was how it was.

He was highly intelligent. He was local president of the United Rubberworkers Union at the age of 23, went through high school with a straight "A" average, and never studied at all. Never opened the books. He was 6'2", slim, and I was 5'2", and weighed 110 lbs. He had the bluest eyes you've ever seen, and had the longest eyelashes I've ever seen. They were so long, they would touch his eyebrows. He had a smile that was charming, but also very sardonic. He seemed to gain his greatest pleasures from tormenting me, and told me every day that we were together, that he was going to drive me crazy. I could go into much detail, but no need to.

What this really is all about is that 40 yrs. ago, my family ignored and denied, and closed their eyes to what was happening. Now that I'm actually having to relive the whole thing because these injuries are as new again, because of the pain and the damage I suffered then, I now suffer again.

Over the years, the damage to my spine has worsened with wear & tear, and has compounded w/ other problems. The only difference now is that instead of keeping my mouth shut, I am full of anger and rage and am telling my family how I feel about how they denied what was happening to me as a child.

I'm doing this not only because it needs to be done, but because the doctors have told me that I need to get it out, that I have held it inside for way too long. I am finding that nothing has really changed with my family, because they still ignore, deny, and refuse to believe that it really happened, and that my mother knew and didn't do anything about it, either, because she was so involved in the church. So they're angry at me because I'm making them remember, and this makes me angrier at them, because they're still doing the same thing they did 40 yrs. ago. Because I am now speaking up, I am once again, the bad girl.

The reason I'm writing this tonight is that just before Jeannie called me, my youngest sister, who I've always been so close to, and have been able to share everything with, had been on the phone, and she acts as though she doesn't believe me either. Because I was the "bad girl" that I was actually treated differently by my mother & my brothers & sisters, and she does not believe that my mother treated me differently, or that my brothers & sisters treated me differently. She said "I'm going to get them all together. I want to hear it from their mouth, because I don't believe Mamma knew, and I don't believe that anyone else knew." And she asked me, if you didn't tell anybody, how was anyone to know. I told her that when you're in that situation, and living in fear, you don't talk.

What is so strange is that when we were talking about it last night, my youngest sister & I , she recalled her & her twin brother asking my mother "why is Nancy always in the hospital? Why is Nancy having so many back surgeries?"

My sister said that she remembered that when my mother would come & see me in the psych. ward, they were too young to see me & had to wait in the waiting room. She & Johnny would talk to each other, trying to figure out why I was in the psych. ward, because that was for "crazy people". When they would ask my mother, her answer was "well, she's had a nervous breakdown".

What is also so strange, is that they were only like 12-13 y/o and they remember these things, and asking questions, but my adult brothers & sisters never asked questions, and never came to see me. My ex & I would visit them quite a bit, but they say now that they don't remember that.

My doctor is now arranging counseling for me, because she says I never healed, even though I worked with domestic violence for 15 yrs., and I thought I was healing then. I helped others, but I did not heal myself. So we've come full-circle, and I find that I'm getting the same reaction from my family as I did 40 yrs. ago. They don't call me, they don't come and see me, and when I now speak up, they only say "you have the right to feel anger & rage, but we just don't remember". I tell them "there is no need to defend yourself, because it's not about you, it's about me, and I'm only expressing what I feel. This is not an attack on you. This is about me expressing my anger & rage so I can heal."

Last week when I told my older brother how I felt, he said "we failed you as a family, and we failed you as brothers & sisters, and I'll be by to see you", but that's been over a week ago and I haven't even had a phone call since.

This story I tell you tonight is not a story of sadness, but of joy, for at least now I can speak up, as an adult, (even though I pi** people off)! The only sadness I feel is that my youngest sister, who was my only ally, cannot seem to understand that I was treated differently, and questions that this happened to me. The only thing that makes me feel any sadness, is because she thinks she will find more truth about my abuse from the others, than from me.

The oddity of this situation is this--when my brother's son was on drugs, he sent him to Jonesboro to live w/ me & Phil, my 2nd husband, because they couldn't handle him on drugs.

When my sister Mary Jo was in an automobile accident 9-10 yrs. ago, and was literally down & couldn't do anything for herself for 10 months, I took care of her 24/7, as a private nurse. I did everything, AND paid her $200 a month rent.

My youngest sister, when my knight in shining armour died, I loaned her $28,000, so she'd have a nice home and also sold her my new car for $10,000 and let her make payments over a 10-yr. period on that.

I took care of my mother when she had Alzheimer's for 1 yr. before she went to the rest home, and she didn't even know who I was. It just seems odd to me that the "bad girl" has always been there for them, and never questioned why--did it out of love.

But I have Jeannie, and all of my spirit brothers & sisters to bring me joy, and comfort, and support. I already know how this story's going to end w/ my family, because I've been here before, and we've come full circle.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Good morning, dear hearts--

Blessings on Nafalia for the burden that she's carried for so very long--all alone. All That Is, please assist her in letting go of all of it, ALL of it, for the good of the Universe.

In StEvE's stead, I bring you the Good Start for today. Wishing you a bright and beautiful morning.

**Love**Peace**Joy**

Jeannie

The truth is that Life is easy. It was designed that way from the very
beginning; the infinite intelligence that created all that exists imbued its
perfect creation with its own qualities. And Spirit's nature is to flow with
ease. This is my nature also.

I understand that this doesn't mean my life will be free from all challenge!
I'll always have the opportunity to extend my edges and go beyond what I
find comfortable. Just as a sea creature outgrows its shell, I always
outgrow my old understanding. And I choose to do this in an attitude of
ease. Wherever I feel burdened, I release and let go of all sense of
doership, and understand that it is the power of life in me that is doing
the work. Wherever I experience stress and worry, I stop, remind myself of
the nature of life, breathe, and let the wave of energy and intelligence
that is Spirit carry me to a new understanding. The truth is that ease is as
close as my decision to experience it. And I decide this today, for this day
and every day. And so it is.

[DaBee]

Hi Y'all....been a long hot day for me today. Went to an all day auction with my son and was there many many hours longer than I anticipated. So I'm a pooped pup. Wanted to tell you Jeannie, that the "It Is Good To Feel Good" download resonates with me so well. I'm making it part of my morning meditation. Thank you so much.

Nafalia, I can feel all of your family taking your energy. I, at times, have the same thing happen when the memory lane walk gets going. Somehow, it's like jumping back to where I left off and picking up the anger again. I have noticed that because I so want to be able to not allow others to take my energy, that that's exactly what happens. Feels like I'm trying too hard or maybe the universe is misinterpreting my signals. It pulls me so off balance, that it seems that everything I "know" isn't right there for me.
In trying to really make a difference, a break from my norm, I've had to make some solid decisions. My siblings now know that I won't take crap from them anymore. There will be no complaining or whining or dumping and none of the guilt stuff that goes on in families. I have a brother that is not allowed to be in touch with me at all until he can complete a treatment center program and stay clean and sober for, well, probably 10 years. I'm the oldest of 4 and have been their "little momma" all of their lives. When my Mom was in hospice care and I was with her 24/7, only 1 other sister came to help me out. She came from Oregon and the other one lived right next door to Mom. I think my brother was living in a dumpster at the time. Not really, but it wouldn't have surprised me. I don't like him much. Only came to realizing that when the last thing Mom told him was that he was "awful". He was the baby brother that could do no wrong in my Mom's eyes, so her telling him that was quite a shocker. I was standing right there at her bedside and realized how right she was. Felt though, that she created this monster by doting on him so much it always made me gag as a kid. Think she scooted on out of this earthly existence at a much more balanced place by uttering those words. Actually, I know she did because I walked with her to the other side where my Dad was, then came on back home. She was perfectly at peace with All That Is.
Know that I'm rambling on about my family stuff, but feel that I'm making an attempt to let you know that even though we had different family dynamics, we still both had some pretty fierce dynamics happening for a lot of years. I got really burned out by it all. My Mom died in 1999 and it seems that I'm just now beginning to feel a semblance of balance and order. Think that when Mr. Husband skedaddles out of my life it'll be lookin' reeeeal good. Find that it is quite important for me to stay in the now and see it as absolutely perfect. One moment at a time even more so than one day at a time.
I have to be very careful as to what I subject my being to. This includes certain people (that are vexations to my spirit) and incoming information (negativity), politics, religious arguement, brutality shown in the media, a brother or sister or 2, etc.
I can feel your pain and send out threads of healing light to lessen its severity with ease to the point of vanishment. Sometimes you just gotta cut your losses and cut some strings. Hope you're feeling better and aren't having to spend any time on the floor.
Tomorrow I take the increased dosage on Methotrexate and just pray that it doesn't send me over the chemo edge. Driving to LR tomorrow as I have a very early Monday appt for the pre-op. Will find a cheap motel tomorrow night. The other day when I did the 7 hours of driving along with the appt, it sure exhausted me. When I have the surgery on Thursday, my son will do the driving!
Sure has been quiet around here, huh?
No word from Shimaka, it seems. Guess noone called her?
How you doing after the big sale, Missie? It really was great to meet you.
Hope I didn't scare you off with my hair dream, Lany. Ya,it was pretty spooky.
Miss you, sTeVe. Navigate through the mountains and straightaways and highways and biways safely. When y'all coming home?
G'nite everyone, sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite.
lt&lv/deb-o-bugbiterbacker http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/tongue.gif

[Jeannie Jones]

Nafalia returns:

Deb, thanks so much for the input. It's interesting because I had just finished talking with my youngest sister, who I'm very close to. Last night, though, I felt that she, too, had left my side. In the conversation I was finally able to get her to understand I was not placing blame, directing anger and rage at any one, but I've just been releasing.

It was hard for her to understand that I have been doing a lot of grieving, and because I could get no compassion from my brothers & sisters, then the anger became deeper, and I withdrew & went deeper inside, to the anger.

I finally got her to understand what was going on inside of me, with this little analogy. Our emotions are sometimes like muddy water. As we clear the muddy water, there's always sedimentation left on the bottom, and what I have been doing is releasing not only the mud, but also the emotional sediment that I had held within for so long. With this analogy, she was able to grasp my grieving process.

When I spoke with her tonight, she said "I'll be so glad when you get through this--releasing this rage and this anger, and MY Nancy is back, because you always spoke your mind, but you've always been so loving, giving, and caring of others. I'm not used to this Nancy full of anger & rage." I told her it would probably be soon, because now she was beginning to understand what was happening with me.

We both came to the conclusion and understood that it's necessary, as you said, sometimes that you just have to cut the bond and sever the tether with certain siblings who cannot share love, but only take your energy.

I had been trying so hard to share love with my older sister, and have finally just come to accept that there's something missing inside her that leaves her hollow and empty and unable to give love, but only take love.

I have come to accept that I must just not make any effort to connect with my older sister, because she does not want it, and will not accept it. And so I was just giving her my energy that I needed for myself.

To my older sister, people are like Bic lighters. When you get through with them, you just throw them away, especially if they become an inconvenience to her. So now I release her to her own karma, and I shall go on to my own emotional clearing and physical healing. (Sometimes ya just gotta say "SEE ya".)

This has been a good night, things are better. I feel a new healing beginning, and I thank you, Deb, for sending me your energy to help me heal. It worked very well.

I'm making Jeannie say this, [OH, NO----JJ] Jeannie is to me much more than a friend. She is my confidante, she is my light when I am in the dark, and a damn good typist! [JJ LOL] But more than all of these, I always know Jeannie will always be there with the pure Universal love for each and every one of us. So I just want to say a special thanks to Jeannie, because she's been through a couple of really rough weeks with me, and without her, I don't know that I'd have made it with any sanity left. (I love you, Jeannie.) http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif [JJ blushes and says, "I love you too, Nancy."]

So, I hope that you will all meet me in the magic circle in the forest for breakfast. We shall have honeydew & canteloupe, scooped out and made into little balls. We shall have cranberry juice, and we shall have fresh pineapple in the middle of the table. We shall be served this wonderful breakfast by the Mad Hatter, and after breakfast we shall meet with Alice in Wonderland, and play a round of croquet with the queen. And, I must say, I'm late, I'm late, for a very important date. No time to say "hello", "good-bye", I'm late I'm late, I'm late. I must go now, so I can find the magic circle within the magic forest in time to meet you there.

Rumor has it, I am told, that the secret forest and the secret circle lie just east of the sun and west of the moon in the Land of Nod. Now that we all know the way, I'll see you there. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Too short on spoons to post right now, loved ones, but I will do it tomorrow. I close now to give us a Good Start.

Always love,

JJ

[Jeannie Jones]

In StEvE's place, I offer you a Good Start for this day.

**Love**Peace**Joy**

COMPASSION

The One Life is an evolutionary and miraculous experience; its form arises
from the one formless source of all things, differentiating into infinite
variety without end. This One Perfect Source is the source of all, and it is
my source. I am formed from the formless eternal being, and in me are all
the attributes of spirit that I shall ever need.

When the need for understanding arises, that understanding can be found
within. When the need for compassion presents itself, that compassion can be
found within. And whatever it is I need to know, something in me already
knows it. My life, my spiritual journey, is a process of waking up and
realizing [making real] that which is within me as potential and
possibility.

The good news is that the evolution of spirit hasn't ever stopped! It
continues from within. Whatever the soul of me is ready to become, that
evolutionary process happens in me. Just as grapes turn to wine, I am
continually transforming into something rarer, something ever more
wonderful. I continually become more effective in my life, more loving, more
patient. The perfect qualities of spirit are revealed in my daily work and
my daily play, and I give thanks for this ever-unfolding miracle of
creation, of the ever-begetting of the only begotten One. And so it is.

[Shimaka]

Deb, my sweet spirit sister, I could feel the weight lifting from you as you made your first post about Crystal. It truly is amazing how sharing a burden can make it so much lighter, and we have been taught from the ground up that we should not bother other people with our problems, and so we feel guilty when we feel a need to do so. Fact is, I believe, that we're meant to share those things that concern us for we are one, and as one, we can certainly tackle much more together than not.

I'm sure this is going to seem way far out of order to most everyone because I have not been able to be here in days so I am answering things in the order I come upon them. I trust the understanding will come through. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Deb, I was happy to hear that, on the heels of running a marathon is when these symptoms came into full view - the reason being that it means she is in good shape physically, and strong, which will definitely be of assistance to her in her healing. Of course, my love and prayers go out to you, and to Crystal, and your whole family down there in the holler. Much, much, MUCH love.

Oh, and I wonder about the post you found of mine in the OF. Was it the one about the "Honest Muslims" in the thread started by Becky Davis? I made that last time I was posting here, and went up to the OF before I left and, oh, wow, well, that post just kind of fell out of me, if you know what I mean. LOL I will have to check back on it to see what kind of feedback thee has been. Right after I made it, I noticed two thank yous from two folks who normally don't have much nice to say about or to me so . . . perhaps someone finally noticed that I'm just not the enemy though you know how people are when it comes down to admitting they might have been wrong, especially about who is or isn't "the enemy" in the OF. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Well, I had good intentions. LOL I fell asleep as I was getting ready to sign off this post so now it is morning (I started this around 1 AM), and hopefully, I'll be able to stay awake long enough to actually answer a few posts and make my presence felt a bit. I've so missed you all. Thank you for everyone who has sent private emails and gone and posted on Bridging the Gap, and called. I feel very, VERY loved, my friends. Thanks so much!

And Deb, my love to you and Crystal, always.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
So happy that you may have a few clearer hours as the Zyvox exits your system. Thank God for small favors, eh? Sleep, sleep, beautiful, healing sleep. Then let us know after you see the doc. OK?

Ah, my sweet sister, Jeannie, thank you so very much for this. I almost feel like all I've DONE since I saw the doctor is sleep. I know that they say sleep is the best thing for healing, but I've taken it to an extreme this week. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif But, I really do feel like it was healing sleep. Two full days I did nothing BUT sleep, and the rest of the time, I would get up long enough to eat, maybe make a phone call, then go back to sleep. Last night, I actually met friends for dinner, and that felt like a turnaround toward maybe more (literally) conscious living. LOL

The Zyvox is, fortunately, in my rear view mirror as it's become obvious to both my doctor AND me, as well as the infectious disease specialist, that the first time I crashed on Zyvox was not just about the drug interactions and it playing with my seratonin levels, but I'm just flat allergic to it, period. Of course, I think a part of the sleep thing is that I was able to go back on my anti-depressant, and so I'm sure it has been working overtime to get y seratonin level adjusted to where it should be again. Thank the gods! I almost feel like Shimaka again. Hehehe, I won't say I almost feel normal again because I don't think I know what normal feels like. LOL

Aside from what we knew we had to deal with, my doc and I had two extra things jump pop up out of thin air this week that are brand new and needed to be addressed too. Mostly still related, but new nonetheless. And then, we had to decide what to do about the MRSA. As Nafalia has said a couple of times, not making a decision is still making a decision so I took that to heart, and when I went in to my appointment, I was pretty much told I had two choices at this point - either go the route of the Vancomycin, which I've told y'all about, or do nothing and live with what I have left.

Funny, my former partner, with whom I had a wonderful, loving partnership for ten years, used to irritate me no end because she always found a third alternative when given a choice of two options. But, in the interim, I've learned to do the exact same thing. I don't think I've told her that so I'll have to make sure to do that. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif Anyway, I came up with a third possibility, and it turns out my doctor like that one too.

Certainly, neither of us was happy with the second choice, and the first one, the Vancomycin, has just always not felt right to me, ever since we first started talking about it. I found out from my doctor that HE didn't feel right about it either. I had made a remark, apologizing for being a "chicken sh*t" about it to him, and he just stopped what he was doing, and said something like, "Did I ever given you the impression I felt like you were being a "chicken sh*t"? He told me if it were him, he'd be running the other way himself, and he wasn't all that jazzed on putting me on that regimen either.

I was concerned more about the PICC line than the Vancomycin itself because, being a super clotter, as well as a bleeder from taking Coumadin, putting in a PICC line is just asking for clots to form. Someone who isn't pre-disposed to clotting would still be more prone to do so with a PICC line in, but someone like me, who's already had seven DVTs, is just begging for it. Putting something foreign in the body for that length of time, and having it come out so close to the heart and lungs in the large vena cava, is kind of playing Russian Roulette with possible clots and PEs.

Then, he pointed out to me that, already having a massive internal infection wasn't the best time to get a PICC line either because it becomes like a lightning rod for further infection. I guess having something that goes from the outside world, through a vein all the way into the internal parts near the heart, is just asking for a new infection to follow that PICC and come up with a massive infection with no warning, and that's something I hadn't even considered. The possible clotting was my concern.

So,I asked him if we couldn't do a compound with the IV solution of the Vancomycin into a cream, something he had talked of some time ago, and if we could have it made trans dermal so that it would not only treat the sores/wounds from the infection, but would also get through to my bloodstream because of the trans dermal nature of it. He made a couple of phone calls, and we were a go. I had the cream by the next afternoon! And of course, Medicaid won't pay for anything that's compounded. Doesn't this surprise anyone? Duh! So, I had to reach out and ask for some help, which came to me easily and guilt-free, and if y'all are reading, thanks so much!!! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

I can't say as of yet what the outcome looks like. I know that I haven't had any trouble with the Vancomycin in my system, but then, it's not there in the kinds of levels it would be if I was taking it through the PICC, IV style. But, it is disappearing, meaning it is definitely "soaking in", as it were, crossing over the dermal layer, and must be getting into my system. If I were allergic, as with the Zyvox, I know I would be feeling it, no matter what the level because this last time on Zyvox, I was at half dose and much sicker than the first time at full dose so I'd reached my limit.

I guess we play wait and see for now. It's definitely a lot of work to keep up with the constant dressing and redressing, and I can go through tape and gauze and band-aids faster than anyone else I know. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif But, that's been true all along. It's just that now, I have to be more cautious and change dressings very much on schedule so those internal abscesses are getting as much of the good stuff as they can.

I'm not one to think I'd jinx it by saying something GOOD about it, but I'll admit, I've thought about it just because I don't want to do ANYthing to screw this up. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif But, methinks we may be on our way . . . it'll be a long journey, but as they say, each one begins with a single step.

Thanks so much for your company along my journey. You all are so precious and priceless. My love to all.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
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Shimaka,
We are focusing on you, sending Healing prayers of Love & LIGHT to you, as your soul group of loving spirits, please feel our love and comfort as we pray together. Trust we are with you always. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
*Peace*Love*Healing/Twisted-LIGHT**
Your "gratitude spirit friends"

Steve, I DID feel you with me, my sweet man. All of you! Especially when I was at my worst, and feeling the most lonely, your presence was very strong so I knew you were here, almost to a point where I felt like I could reach out and touch you. Thank you all so very much for the reminder that we are all, indeed, one, and that separateness and the notion of time are constraints we put on ourselves in order to come into 3-D to experience these constraints. The closer we get to 4-D, the less those mean, and the more we can feel that oneness and time not mattering.

We all have our lessons that we have come into this world to learn, and I seem to have chosen many that have to do with illusion and finding out how many things ARE illusory that I thought were real. It's hard to believe sometimes that I came from a scientific background, academically, before chucking that are digging into psychology and religious studies, philosophy, parapsychology, and metaphysics.

Hehehe, for some reason that old Virginia Slims commercial keeps coming back into my head, the very first one they ever did when we women were supposed to be oh so happy that we had our very own cigarette. Heheh, we've come a long, LONG way . . . indeed! And, I ain't talkin' 'bout no cigarettes! LOL

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by DaBee:
[sTeVe, thank you. How is your back?
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Sister DaBee,
Sore today, but tolerable, thanks for caring, did too much inside today. Will take it easier tomorrow! Switched today from Direct TV to Dish, now I can get Wisdom channel # 264, haven't been able to watch since getting rid of Great Big Satelite. Hope/Pray everyone is safe and doing well too! Will check back later tonite.
**P*L*T-L**
sTeVe. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif

Oh Steve, sweetie, though I can't even afford basic cable anymore, I had to do a lot of research in order to come to that eventual conclusion. And, though I may be no expert, I did see in almost all of the advertisements for DirecTV and Dish2, and others, that they ALL provide free installation. Ahem! So, what are you doing hurting yourself when they will do the installing for you? Now, I realize I am one of the world's WORST at following my own advice on this one, but really, Steve, we like having you around, and we want to see you get better and stronger and be able to take on the world. You're just not ready yet, bro. Take it easy on yourself, okay? We love you!

((((((((((*sTeVe*))))))))))

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by Lany Ballance:
...After chemotherapy and radiation treatments and removing as many lymph nodes from his body as they could, they released him from the hospital and told him "Mr. Ballance, go home and get your affairs in order; you have only six months to live." He was still a teenager. That was over 50 years ago. Guess what ... he's still alive. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Oh Lany, what an inspiring story! And, what an amazing man he must be, an inspiration to all of you, I imagine. Probably still has those Navy doctors scratching their heads. LOL Good for him! Good for the Great Spirit that lives within each and every one of us!

DaBee, may your grandma be yet another walking miracle! Blessings to you, and to her, and to your entire family.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
...'Twas asked but not answered, I think, earlier--does someone go w/ you or not when you make these big drives?...

...Love to all who stop by here.

Yes, Jeannie, it was asked, by me, though it may have been asked by others as well, and no, it was never answered. Ahem. I do believe I offered to make the trip with you, DaBee, especially since it's a trip I know really well, and one of my best things is driving on familiar roads. (Ask my doctor - it's on my disability determination! Get the picture! Arrggghhhh!!!!!) http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif If you've been doing it by yourself, love, you don't have to anymore. Understood?

And Jeannie, I do believe you have come up with what could be our group motto:

"Love to all who stop by here." Can we put this on a plaque over the door into the rotunda? Maybe just change stop to pass - Love to all who pass by here - ??

I love you folks!

XOXOXOXOOXXOX
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

sTeVe,

I don't know as I have ever thanked you for our daily positive thought, affirmation, and visualization. Please, accept my gratitude for your willingness to share these each day with all of us. What a wonderful, and yes, refreshing, way to start the day, every day, no matter what the message.

I get a number of wonderful positive messages in my mail each day, and I think I will peruse through them for a few days and see what feels right to post on a regular basis so we have something else as well. Perhaps each of us has something, or not. It's just a thought. I just so enjoy sTeVe's positive attribute posts that I thought: we can't get too many of those. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
So what I'm saying is that we can't precipitate change in a vaccuum of stillness. There needs to be a flowing out, in order to get the flowing in. To me, this is an uncomplicated example of it.

In following the guidance of the moment, day before yesterday I called a very dear friend of mind in Calif. She said--well, this is amazing! A few nights ago she had a dream that our friend Marshall walked through a door with her parents. The next day, Marshall called her from Hawaii.

Day before yesterday, my friend dreamed that I walked through a door with her parents. The next day, yesterday, I called her. She was out, but returned my call the same day. Very joyful! Love it, love it, love it!

I read the piece Deb quoted from Kryon to her, which resonated well w/in her, apprised her of the current state of Nafalia's health, and we talked of other things. She loves that we have this forum.

She shared a website w/me. One day she was driving her car, and heard to turn on the radio. At that moment, on a very narrow band channel, someone was talking about a free seminar with the Hickses. She went right to it, as it wasn't far from her. It all rang true to her & she loved the energy.

I found their website, explored it a little, & am sending you a page of it here. Check it out for yourself & see how it feels. I liiiiike it.

http://www.abrahamfreemusicdownloads.com/index.php

Wishing Deb a safe, successful trip, and hoping to hear from Shimaka today about her doctor visit.

Love to all my Spirit Friends,

Jeannie

[DaBee]

Am so happy to have woke this morning to you appearing, Shimaka. Seems that you have the solution under way. Taking the medication topically and being able to also treat the war wounds directly is brilliantly inspired (lots of light) http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif I can see the kick, back in your posts. I sure have missed them. Also miss StEvE and Missie and Lany and you out there that are hanging back for now. It's cool http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif ... just looking forward to meeting you.
I just wanted to say something quick to you, Shimaka, before you zzzzzzz'd out again http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif.
I want to talk some more, but need to wake up and let the kitties in and take meds. I'll be back real soon.
WOW...........what another beautiful day in the Ozarks!
lt&lv/deb-o-goodmornin'toya'

[Shimaka]

Well, let's see if I can get it right now. LOL I've fallen asleep during every post this morning so far. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif So, if things don't sound quite kosher, you know why. That, and my wonderful wireless keyboard with the light touch got drowned in coffee two days ago. I'm afraid it is dead. I've tried CPR to no avail. I've tried every geek trick known to man or woman to no avail. I will have to buy a new one, and lo, it is part of a set. The same receiver works for both the mouse and keyboard. So, tomorrow, I will find out from Logitech how much it will cost to just replace the keyboard. I don't think I really wanna know. Waaaaaa! This one I'm using has the keys stick. It's pretty beat up, but I'm grateful to have the backup. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Sleep, sleep, sleep is good for me, they keep saying 'cause I'm anemic. I was anemic before, but the Zyvox added to that with a little additional bone marrow suppression. - sigh - If the Vancomycin were working as usual like when they do the IV through the PICC line, it would be doing much the same thing. Hopefully, this new idea will do the job without all the complications. I sure hope so. Then, my doc can write a paper and get rich and famous - he deserves it. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
So what I'm saying is that we can't precipitate change in a vaccuum of stillness. There needs to be a flowing out, in order to get the flowing in. To me, this is an uncomplicated example of it.

In following the guidance of the moment, day before yesterday I called a very dear friend of mind in Calif. She said--well, this is amazing! A few nights ago she had a dream that our friend Marshall walked through a door with her parents. The next day, Marshall called her from Hawaii.

Day before yesterday, my friend dreamed that I walked through a door with her parents. The next day, yesterday, I called her. She was out, but returned my call the same day. Very joyful! Love it, love it, love it!

Jeannie, what I was trying to say before when all I suceeded in doing was quoting your whole post was that I LOVE your view of manifesting. And, obviously, it works for you too. I think I will either clip that out, or bookmark that post so that I can look at it several times a day and remind myself because you do seem to have it down. I'm impressed.

Love y'all!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

sTeVe, my gentle man brother, I have to say what a smile it puts on my face every time I hear you speak of Dale and Roger and how they've adopted you and Maletha. Dale is a tremendous guy, as is Roger, and in different ways. I've watched Dale go through so much in the last couple of years, certainly much more than I thought possible for one man to endure, and he's always come out the other side looking, sounding, feeling refreshed somehow. I don't know how he does it, but he does.

He and Roger used to sit at the table next to ours every time my friend Beverly and I would go to Myrtie Mae's. It didn't matter what time of the day or night we'd show up - they would either already be there, or would walk in the door behind us. It was uncanny!

Different people would come and go that would be with them for weeks on end, then disappear as quickly as they came, and the same was true of Bev and I. So, it always came back to the four of us no matter who else might show up. Every day was/is like a family reunion.

Now that Bev has moved to Washington, and Dale has had to make sure to sit on the non-smoker's side all the time, it sort of threw off the balance a bit, plus I don't go nearly as often as I used to, but it never fails - I go about once/week now, and I almost always STILL run into Dale, not always with Roger, but Dale is the constant. We three (Bev, Dale and I) would sit and talk the finer points of digital photography while boring the rest of the place to tears. We all got a digi camera within a year of one another, and it was always funny to watch Dale and Bev go at it because neither of them was ever satisfied. Dale was always going to buy a better one than the one he had, and Bev . . . well, Bev had plotted out every digital camera with its features, zoom, lenses, aperture, what came standard, warranty period, price, etc., until most of us were about ready to choke her every time she took out her Excel spreadsheet, but she wasn't going to buy ANYthing until she knew the exact one that would satisfy her every whim for the least amount of money. Only problem was that that changed every week. LOL I can truly say those were the good ole days.

sTeVe,'tis a small world, indeed.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

Only have a moment, but, hey, SHEEEE'S BACK! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Deb, I think you missed the bottom part of my private E--I used a quote from you below what I started with, then posted more after your quote.

Good day all,

Jeannie-gotta-scoot

[mtnviewsteve]

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06-27-24
Spirit-friends,
Sunday 7:35 p.m. literally just got home ‘bout 30 min. ago, unloaded “cruiser”, made a pot of good strong Colombian coffee, turned on the Wisdom channel and sat down to read & catch up on my “Spirit Friends” news. Thank God Shimaka is up and about, even if “just a little” and with some reserve. Shimaka, you have been in my thoughts & prayers “for days”, and I will continue prayer candles and “positive thoughts” for you and the rest of the band! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Don’t know where to start with our visit to the “Spirit Child”, Baby Emma! What a new, fresh, clean, positive young lady! Her aura is inclusive of the rainbow with giant crystals as the gate and pathways lined with smaller ones. Imagine a pathway of crystals surrounded by the sweet incense fragrance of flowers and small butterflies as thick as a strawberry shake. Her Earth family, Mother Sarah, and Father Bob, are “power spirits” as well. They are one of the most beautiful Earth Families I have been fortunate enough to observe. Baby Emma, in Her infant sleep, cast her “spells” on Maletha and I, accepting us joyfully to Her Spirit Family. The power this Child has, and will develop in the years to come, gives me a Happy, Hopeful, glimpse of the future.
The “trip” was long, but very spiritually uplifting & refreshing both ways. Got to visit briefly w/ friends & family, but OH BOY are we glad to be back on our own planet. Looking forward to Baby Emma, Sarah, and Bob visiting us maybe in July.
Scanned the "GJ" and will read every beautiful detail throughout the night. Did not get to use computer after 1st visit, glad to feel everyone’s love and to see the spirit faces again. Could really feel All your thoughts and prayers as we traveled safely. We were able to eat very healthy and drank lots of pure water. So glad to be closer in Spirit and to feel your presence closer. My, I’m long winded, to be so tired! My back served me well, though pretty sore, not as bad as It could have been. Again thanks for the Prayers.
DaBee, JJ, Missy, Lany, Nafalia, Becky, and Shimaka, I have missed you “one and ALL” and hope to hear from ya’ll tonight & tomorrow.
BLESS YOU ALL.
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing LIGHT**
sTeVe.
p.s. Nafalia & DaBee & Shimaka: saying “special prayers” of healing , and thanks for allowing me to learn part of the story that makes you so very important to this “Spirit Family”. What strong, wonderful, Spirits you ALL are. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif

[Shimaka]

My sweeties,

Would you believe I have now spent almost 24 hours on this thread, gone nowhere else online, not even checked my mail though it is coming in at regular intervals - I have simply not looked at it. I have read, then written, the slept, then read, and slept, then written, and slept some more, and read, and written, slept more. It is as if the gift of healing that comes with sleep just keeps descending upon me as I read or write just a tiny bit, and I feel surrounded by love and nurturing from all of you. I decided last night, when I began this journey of picking up where I last left off, that I would not read everything and THEN post, but I would post as I went along so I have yet to read everything. I am at the bottom of page 11 now, and want to respond to our dear Nafalia, and then I will turn the page to the last page (as of this moment anyway) and see what is in store for me there. I may take my healing bath before turning to page 12 first, however. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Nafalia, my dear, your story stirs my soul from within. I knew, from the moment you first appeared in our midst here, that you and I had something very special to share with one another, and now, you have brought it out into the open. Ah, the bad child, the black sheep, bad seed . . . though I am so very sorry that these labels would be put upon one so fair and just and right with the world, I do understand for I, too, am the bad seed, the black sheep, the one who never was believed no matter what was told. My family denied, and denied, and blamed and had to have someone to blame so why not me. I was convenient, and since I was trying to tell them things they did not want to know about, it made me an even more convenient target. Nafalia, my sister, I feel as if we've both come home to the family where we won't be disbelieved, where we will be loved and accepted, protected, and respected, and there will be no abuse from within this family, nor any disbelief of what we say has happened to us, what indignities we have suffered, the anger we harbor that needs to be expressed, and no one here in this family will judge us for that anger, nor deny us the right to have that anger. So, my sweet one, express it as you need to because all of us will be here for you, and no one will tell you you are the bad one, nor call you a liar, or anything of the sort. Find your healing here in the cave, or the rotunda, in the field where we have breakfast, or by the golden thread. We have our own special places, this family, and we can be here for one another, holding one another, just allowing those emotions that have needed to be expressed BE expressed, knowing that we are surrounded by loving spirit family members who love us as we are, not as they wish we would be for they know we already ARE as we should be.

So, relax in the arms of spirit, my dear Nafalia, and enjoy the presence of your spirit family. We love you just as you are, and we care both for the person you were and the person you are, and know you can feel safe here. Pick a set of arms, m'dear, and all of them, or any of them, will gladly hold you while you express whatever of those emotions you need to express. We're here for you.

My love, and my understanding to you, dear one.

Namaste!
Shimaka

P.S. Sweet ones, before I even turn to the next page, I am going to take care of a few personal things for myself, like a badly needed bath, and redressing these whatever you want to call them, throwing a meal in the microwave, and I'll be back. My love to each and every one of you. With arms spread wide, I give you all one big Shimaka hug to hold you over until I return - a little cleaner and fuller, methinks. LOL http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif (((((**)))))

[Jeannie Jones]

Nafalia questions:

Imitation is the highest form of flattery???

My sister M.J., who is 13 yrs, older than me, for several yrs. now has, I felt, been dressing and acting like me because she wanted to be like me. She has vicariously lived her life through me for many years, because I was always courageous and did what I wanted to do, and she was just the opposite--did what was expected of her. She's always been fearful of life out of the expected realm.

I've always felt an underlying current of some kind of energy when I was around her, but it always felt like resentment.

After this last exposure to her during this current bout with these illnesses, I have come to SEE her for who she is. What I SEE now is something I've never been able to SEE clearly before. She is what I've always referred to as a "psychic vampire", an "energy stealer".

What I mistook as imitation was actually stealing my energy, and, since she was my sister, I never had my guard up. I often thought to myself when she tried to act like me that she only came off as being "silly", because I am very much a spiritualist, and of a more serious mind than she. So when she would say things that were just so inappropriate in the moment, and even sometimes embarrassing me in front of my friends, I often found myself apologizing later to them for her "off-color" remarks, which she thought were funny.

When my friend Chip brought me down from Kansas City, when this health issue advanced, was the first time she had ever met him. Chip is a very complicated, reserved person with a very intelligent mind. He stayed and visited a little while when he brought me to her house, and, of course, she had to be her usual self, the center of attention, and therefore said many goofy, inappropriate things. To the point that he asked me in front of her "are you gonna be all right here, or do you want me to rent you a motel room for a couple of weeks?". Because she was so busy having to be in the spotlight, (M.J. once made the statement that she would be the center of attention, no matter what she had to do), that Chip didn't feel like she was concerned about my health at all.

Chip called me every day for several days, to see how I was doing. One day M.J. answered the phone, and Chip greeted her with general conversation, but her reply was that she'd be doing better if she were having sex in the back yard. I was shocked and astounded that she would say something like that to someone like Chip, that she didn't even know!

When M.J. handed me the phone and left the room, I apologized to him for her making such an inappropriate remark to him, and he said "I was pretty shocked myself, cause I don't even know where that came from. The woman has a real problem."

For 13 yrs., M.J. dated a very wonderful gentleman, who adored her and treated her like a queen. Recently, he had an aneurysm burst, and was in a coma & on a respirator in Critical Intensive Care for 21 days, because he had no living will. He had 7 surgeries in 2 days, a leg amputated, and ended up w/ staph infection throughout his entire body, from being left "open" from the surgeries. They had to keep him "open", since they kept going in there. He was 80-something yrs. old. One of the nurses said "I've never seen a man so sick and still live".

M.J. was with him when the aneurysm burst, and called 911 (they had just been out dancing). She spent 3 hrs. with him in the Emergency Room until his family arrived, then she left. She told me "when I walked out of that hospital, I knew I would never return to see him". Even though his family called her and asked her to come see him, and even though the Dr. said "if he could just hear the voice of someone he really, really cared for, it would make it so much easier on him". Remember, she was the love of his life for 13 yrs.

He hung on for 21 days in a coma on the respirator, and everyone knew, including M.J., that he was waiting to hear the sound of her voice to tell him "good-bye", but she would not go be by his side. He's been dead for maybe 2 months now, but from the moment she walked out of that hospital it was as if he never existed.

Wally had spent 13 yrs. totally dedicated to her. When she had her last automobile accident, which was basically a fender-bender, she milked it for all it was worth for the insurance money, and it was a LOT of money.

Wally was by her side at her home, day & night, to take care of her. For years, he always ran the sweeper, swept the floors, did the dishes, anything that she wanted done, he would do. Under normal circumstances, Wally was never allowed to spend any more time than weekends with her. If he left a shirt, or anything, she'd tell him to come & get it--she didn't want it hanging in her closet.

Wally was the gentlest, kindest, most compassionate man I've ever met in my life (outside of my late Bruce).

She loves to dance, and he was a wonderful dancing partner, so her dance partner had gone down, & it was time to dispose of him as if he were a Bic lighter out of fuel.

It has not been easy for me to say these things about M.J., nor has it been easy to cut the bonds and sever the ties with her, because I truly love her. But she drains me totally. Now that I SEE the hollowness, I've been left no choice.

M.J. has a lot of money, but her philosophy is "I only want one more penny than what I have". Maybe this doesn't sound like much, but when you realize how much money she already has, and hoards, then you realize that that statement is the ultimate statement of greed. Money has become her God.

Her philosophy about money, I have come to realize, is also her philosophy about my energy. "I only want a little more of your energy than I already have." Her greed encompasses all things, not just money. She only does this with me, not my brothers & sisters. I've always been what she wanted to be, but was afraid to be, for I have always been the free spirit in my family. Now that I have come to SEE M.J., I understand what the undercurrent has always been.

I have not told you these things about M.J. to put her down, but to share with you the lesson that I have learned from being her sister. "Sometimes the enemy is within your own camp."

So, is imitation the highest form of flattery?

Love to all of you, my Spirit brothers & sisters. May the valuable lesson that I have learned and shared with you tonight, be one you never have to experience. Let my wisdom be your wisdom.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Shimaka:

...Nafalia, my dear, your story stirs my soul from within. I knew, from the moment you first appeared in our midst here, that you and I had something very special to share with one another, and now, you have brought it out into the open. Ah, the bad child, the black sheep, bad seed...


To Shimaka from Nafalia, out of Infinity:

When I heard the name "Shimaka", it came from Infinity. I tuned in and I heard that you & I are bonded from many lifetimes ago.

It took me a while to become comfortable enough to tell my story, but when I realized I was home, and in the arms of my beloved spirit family that surround me, each and every day, I knew that I could say what I needed to say, and not be judged for it. I also know, Shimaka, that the illness you carry and the illness I carry, does not belong to us. We are carrying it for others. We are carrying it for those who called us the "bad seed", the "black sheep". They can not recognize, grasp, or understand, the concepts that we perceive each and every day. Because they are weak, we are strong. Because of the indignities that we have experienced, from the ones that abused us, we have wisdom, power, and insight. Even though our bodies suffer, our spirits remain strong and free. For those that abused us, their bodies may remain strong, but their spirits are very weak, and they don't know freedom.

So, my beloved sister, Shimaka, from your loving sister, Nafalia, as the Native American people say, let us "talk the walk", and are we not so blessed to have so many walking with us? Even in the coldest darkness of the night, we are never alone. All we have to do is reach out and know that we have our beloved spiritual brothers & sisters all around us.

So, from out of the celestial, I send to you this night, as many of my spoons as you need, along with a bouquet of star-sprinkled tiger lilies. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Good night from Nafalia--

To all my brothers & sisters in the etheric realm, I now go to the Land of Nod, east of the sun and west of the moon. See you there. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Shimaka]

sTeVe, my sweet, twisted light brother, I am so glad to see you safe and sound, back home and ready to soak in the healing of your homestead, having enjoyed a wonderful day with the babies and your sweet soul spirit mate. Thank you for your prayers and energy sent my direction, sweets, for I have felt them coming my way, as I've felt all of you putting out lots of good stuff in my direction. How wonderful! I feel so blessed!

A huge thank you to each and every one of you for reaching out to me and sending me good energy and white light because I can tell you, it has not only helped, but it continues to help and make a very real difference in the healing of this infection. What a HUGE difference I can see and feel already. Methinks a new idea in medicine might have been born with this, and I can only hope that more will take advantage of this as, well, what a gift!

Bless you all! I am so sorry I've been gone. And, Deb, I will take your advice, and at least pop in and say hi even if I don't have enough oomph to make a whole post. I'll admit that I've felt guilty that I haven't had the energy to really participate so I didn't do anything, and I'm sure I could at least poke a hand up in the air and say me, hi, I'm here too. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif I'll do that from now on if I can't do more, okay?

I think I will do something strange like go check all that mail that's mostly SPAM pouring into my in box, look over at BTG and see what's a happenin', and if I don't fall asleep before, I may even look at the OF and see what's happenin' there. And, if I fall asleep, I'll know it's just one more bit of spirit healing coming my way, and I appreciate all of it, each little bit. Thank you, my friend. I love you.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[mtnviewsteve]

SpIrIt fRiEnDs, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Jeannie/DaBee, thanks for keeping the torch lit, and the LIGHT burning in my blissful absence. Ya'LL are "true" spirit sisters. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
So-o-o glad to be HOME with you and to at least hear Shimaka is horizontal & ALIVE. We ALL know the power of "distance healing" and the power of "group LIGHT" so let's continue the Dance of Love for All our sakes.
This is going to be a Gro-o-vy week ahead for the "whole fam damily" I promise. Again thanks for ALL the prayers of support and I humbly present to you our "Good Starts":
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**LOVE**Twisted-Healing LIGHT**
sTeVe. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
The pure presence of Life has taken form as all creation! The nature of all
things is sacred and whole, and this includes me. My nature is sacred and
whole, both in the abstract and in form. I recognize this day that my body
is a perfect reflection of the wholeness of life, and that I live within a
form of Spirit that is so incredibly intelligent, that it knows how to
rebuild itself every day.

My body is inherently intelligent, and it knows what it needs. I learn how
to listen to my body, distilling its wisdom into actions that support its
health, its strength, and its beauty. The wisdom of Spirit informs all my
choices, so I naturally choose the activities and behaviors that support my
body's wholeness. I discover that this isn't deprivation or difficult. I
always hold the attitude that whatever brings more life, more vibrant
health, and more joy into expression in my body is good, and desirable! I
give thanks for this natural inner tendency towards supporting my natural
wholeness.

I also know that anything that is out of balance in my body is completely
temporary. My nature is balance, grace, health, and strength. I listen
intently to what my body is telling my about what I need in terms of food,
activity, and rest, and joyfully follow this inner wisdom. these kinds of
choices naturally reveal my whole and pure nature. For this I give thanks.
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[Jeannie Jones]

Well, sweet ones, I've kind of gone all goggle-eyed, with mush-for-brains. Thought I could address a few posts, but it doesn't seem like I'm capable at this point. (Yawn)

Soooooooooooooo glad you're back, Shimaka. And you weren't wrong--there've been several forest breakfasts & meetings. Perhaps you'll write one, or someone else will.

Say, it just occurred to me today that maybe I could set up an identity on the bbs for Nafalia. I would still post for her w/ the phone on my shoulder, but she could speak as her own identity w/o having to show Jeannie Jones on all her posts. Can we do that?

So glad to hear from Shimaka, Steve & Lany. Y'know, it really seems to take a full complement to feel the group as a whole. Y'all were sorely missed. Missy, if you're busy or not feelin' too hot, you too can just drop by & say "hi". Becky, we haven't heard from you for a while. I think you lead a very busy life. Are you doing okay with it all?

Nafalia's been troubled w/ sciatic nerve enflamed, w/no pain pills for the past few days, I think we all know what that feels like, and admire her for still being able to write, although she's had to do it from her bed, via phone. She's been quite down, but I know participating in this spirit circle is a good lift for her.

Hope maybe tomorrow I can feel more coherent, and get a post or 2 out. Deb, I'd like to dicuss kundalini fire w/you, and did you get the last part of the note I sent you via private E-mail. I thank you so much for the great honor you paid me, and hope I am worthy of it.

Stop by, visit, come, somehow though that pass by seems as if they just pass us just right by without looking in.

Really, really need to go now. Love y'all so very much. Great "Good Start", Steve.

Oh, BTW, I went through all the pages of our thread and copied all links to disk. It can feel bothersome to go back & try to find a link someone posted, to explore those links, but have to go back pages & pages to find it. So I put them all in one place.

Okay, sweethearts, hope I haven't left anyone out. My warmest hugs to all. My constant wish for cellular perfection for all of us is paramount in my being.

Love to all, including Dale & Roger, hope you pop in from time to time.

Yawning I AM.............

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

Thought this was http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Hope you like.
**Peace**LOVE**Twisted-Healing LIGHT**
sTeVe.



"Treat people as if they were what they ought to be and
you help them to become what they are capable of being."
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

"Each snowflake falling from the sky manifests its own fluffy radiance of cryptographic imprint, of geometric perfection, of unique hope, and of the grace of God's beauty. How much more, then, can the soul that is receptive to the Eternal Fount, to the pressure of the flow of Cosmic Identity, remit its darkness by transmutation into pure light?"

Vol. 11 No. 20 - Kuthumi - May 19, 1968



The seed of greatness is sown in an instant, but in this world of ours everything great takes time to grow. This means that patience, mingled with persistence, is the special nutriment that sustains all things great. Therefore, should we wish to win the Great Life, we need only add equal measures of quiet watchfulness to our spiritual willingness and a Great Goodness cannot help but flourish within us.
Guy Finley


Just for the fact that we all must go through changes in this life does
not mean that we necessarily grow spiritually because of them. If merely
going through changes caused inner growth, then a car rusting away in a
vacant lot would soon become a realized being.

In the same way as a plot of standing ground cannot be transformed into a
fertile, productive field without one's dedicated work in overturning its
compacted soils, neither can our own soul be expected to reveal the riches
of her native contents without first awakening ourselves to what lies
hidden within her darkened earth. "

Guy Finley


Holding you in your highest; honoring you where you are;
and inspiring you to go beyond!
In the Oneness of Awakening
Marcela

If you are not currently receiving my daily letters
"Spirit and Love",
and would like to, please request it at

marfil01@arnet.com.ar




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[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Shimaka:
My sweeties,

Would you believe I have now spent almost 24 hours on this thread, gone nowhere else online...

...Nafalia, my sister, I feel as if we've both come home to the family where we won't be disbelieved, where we will be loved and accepted, protected, and respected, and there will be no abuse from within this family, nor any disbelief...



As I was reading all the posts to Nafalia last night, at this point I lost it and just sort of blubbered through the rest of it, stopping after every sentence to regain some of my composure. Well, as I try to get started on a new sentence, it seems I'm just unable to go back in there, so I know you know that we love you, and I'll just have to back out of this one.

Well, when I come here I re-read quite a bit before the last post posted, so maybe will write some more later.

Within the Universal Heart,

Jeannie



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[Jeannie Jones]

Lany dearest--

Glad you still have your long golden locks. Your hair is so beautiful, though I know it takes time & care to maintain it. It just makes me happy to see it, or to visualize it.

How wonderful that you were able to spend time with your son! Oh, dear heart, that must have been such a lift! Didja take pictures? How grand.

Well, it seems I spoke to Shimaka about our parties in the forest, when it was YOU who said it. Scrambled-eggs-for-brains you say? Coooooould be!

Always lovin' ya,

JJ

[Jeannie Jones]

Steve--

Thanks for the beautiful start. We'll have it to look at every time we come to this page. Of the Ascended Masters, I feel most connected to St. Germain. I wonder why the link didn't light up? Could it have been the .ar after the .com?

So happy you're back, Steve. We sure have missed you, even though you were gone for such a short time.

Well, hope my sweet brothers & sisters have a lovely day. I'm going to the rotunda to refresh & renew.

Thanks for being here,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by DaBee:
.... the last thing Mom told him was that he was "awful". He was the baby brother that could do no wrong in my Mom's eyes, so her telling him that was quite a shocker. I was standing right there at her bedside and realized how right she was. Felt though, that she created this monster by doting on him so much it always made me gag as a kid...

That must have been quite a shock to him, Deb, no matter how "awful" his actions may have been. It was as if she were re-birthing him--he had choices there, after hearing that from her. He could choose redemption--I think that's what she offered him. (IMHO.)


...Tomorrow I take the increased dosage on Methotrexate and just pray that it doesn't send me over the chemo edge. Driving to LR tomorrow as I have a very early Monday appt for the pre-op. Will find a cheap motel tomorrow night. The other day when I did the 7 hours of driving along with the appt, it sure exhausted me. When I have the surgery on Thursday, my son will do the driving!...

Hoping you endured the increased Methotrexate, dear heart, and also praying that your procedure went well. Surrounding you in golden light.

Have a safe trip home, sweetie. Glad your son will be driving. Already miss your posts. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Love,

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

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06-28-04
As we gather in the crystal garden of healing and LIGHT, the scenery is breath taking as flowers and plants of every species abound. The seats of comfort for us are the spongy but firm giant mushroom caps the fairies placed, arranged in a "sacred" quarter moon like circle with golden moss as the ground cover blanket. The sweet smell of flowers and something wonderful cooking blends with the fresh clean air and the crisp but subtle breeze.
Fresh fruit from every continent and the most exotic, plump juicy vegetables overflow the center table of carved quartz crystal. The garden path is lit with the giant crystals, each emitting a different color auraistic
glow as we pass to our seats. The ice cold juice and the warm fragrance of mint tea causes my stomach to growl as we smile and hold hands to give thanks for what promises to be the most beautiful meal and communion of Spirits ever. Join me as we give thanks and receive the "golden light."
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-Golden LIGHT**
sTeVe.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif DaBee, Shimaka, Missy, Nafalia, Jeannie, Lany,those we're not aware of,
Please feel the "Love Energy" and the Healing prayers we are sending out to you as you face these trials. You are ALL "WINNERS".



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[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Been posting to myself, it seems today, but I've had a ball, and my back pain is reduced with LIGHT Focus. You can tell I've had alot to do. The road grader discovered our water line this am, and the repair man w/backhoe found the phone cable, ALL fixed now, still a gro-o-o-vy day!

**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing_LIGHT**
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif sTeVe http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif

Found this no author, seemed fitting.

I am a messenger of Light. I am a pilgrim on the way of love.
I do not walk alone, but know myself as one with all great souls,
& one with them in service.
Their strength is mine. This strength I claim.
My strength is theirs and this I freely give.
A soul, I walk on earth. I represent the one.
http://www.lightinfo.org/maitreya/mantras.htm

and this:
Revised prayer of St Francis

Lord, I AM an instrument of thy peace.

Where there is Hatred, I AM Love.

Where there is injury, I AM Healing.

Where there is Doubt, I AM Faithful, and

Where there is Darkness, I AM Light.


Creator, through Unconditional Love,

I choose to be Compassionate,

I choose to be Understanding,

I choose Love,

I choose to See You in All Others and Myself,

I choose to Give, Trusting in my replenishment.

I choose to Allow, Knowing that all is in Divine Order, and

I choose to Surrender, Knowing that this truly is the path of freedom.

Daniel Whittles




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[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
[B] http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Been posting to myself, it seems today, but I've had a ball, and my back pain is reduced with LIGHT Focus.


Hi mTnViEwStEvE, deb here. Be naught fraught, therist be me S E E you and perusen to the hearten contenten verrrry muchacha.
Ahhhh, road rash of the brain as a higher form of unwiiiiinging after muchabuncha turns of the rodeo wheels.
It's like coming off of a roller coaster when I get back from a long drive in the country. Lotsa country to see too. There is no stopping the tangerineorangeclockwork, so must stop 'afore I begin tumbling head over heels, landing in a pot of gold dust, scattering it to all winds, coating the vanilla path of least resistance to the point of no return. Though, fear not, I shallllll return on my beautiful balloon; if I do say so myself. And I do. Woops, must quit with the I do's. Do not you think? Of course you do. I do too.
We'll be landing shortly. Thanks for flying.
............... http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/eek.gif ....................

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Alas, fair maiden, "Ye mustoff gone duck huntin' with a rake, careful , don't bump yo head. Remember when ya fly, everything is flameable. Throw out a few mo ballast we're just barely, clearin' the trees. One mo word: "Don't forget the boogiewink http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gifHope ALL is well with you, been sendin' LIGHT yer way!!! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Peace*Love* Double-Bubble LIGHT**
sTeVe,

[Shimaka]

Ah, my dear friends, Shimaka is very tired, and it seems I've done nothing but sleep, sleep, sleep, eat, bathe, sleep, sleep, you know how it goes. Believe it or not, I have yet to look at my mail since I said I was going to do that last night. I'm almost afraid to look at how many unanswered mails there are in my in box by now as my computer has been faithfully checking the mail on all my accounts every 10 minutes all along. As a matter of fact, I have not even rebooted, much less turned off, my computer since my last post or even since my first post yesterday. Methinks I've lost a few of the marbles I had left.

sTeVe, my dear sweet one, you are never just posting to yourself. I am so sorry if you feel that way because I know I am with you even if I appear not to be. What can I do to support you more so you do not feel alone?

Nafalia, my lovely, sweet sister, I knew that you would instantly understand what I was writing when I wrote it last evening. I do apologize for not responding to you earlier for I must have missed your post in between my own. We were most likely posting at the same time as I see your in between two of mine. Thank you for your perspective. It is most enlightening as well as loving and caring, nurturing, compassionate. I knew, as a child, that, one day, I would meet up with my spirit family where I would not longer be the black sheep or the bad seed, or perhaps, I would find that my spirit family was ALL black sheep and bad seeds, meaning none of us were. You put it into such a sensible perspective, and logical as well. Of course, it all makes perfect sense. Thank you so much for being there, for being you, for being available, and my goodness, thank you for the extra spoons! Please, my dear sweet sister, be sure to maintain enough for yourself. I will admit that I haven't had quite enough to run on of late. I feel a bit like my Subaru Justy used to act when it got to reserve on the gas meter. It kind of went along find until I had to climb the slightest bit of a hill, and then, chug-a-lug, chug-a-lug --- that's been me of late. I keep telling myself it's healing sleep that I'm doing, and it will be so! Bless you, sweet one.

Jeannie, my dear, how nice to see you on Bridging the Gap these last few days. Thank you for joining and jumping right in with both feet. Dreamer is a kindred spirit, and I've mentioned to her privately about our little group here so she knows we are here, and I do not know if she will join in or not, but she may. She is a sweet and loving spirit who has helped me out more times than I can tell you. More often than I can say, when I've needed something, it has just shown up, courtesy of Dreamer. She is quite a gift. And you, Jeannie, are such a wondrous gift yourself. Thank you so very much for transcribing Nafalia's posts, and using so many of your spoons in that way, my dear. Please, reserve some for yourself so that you can tell us what your needs are as well, and can tell us your stories too. Yes, of course, you can create a persona on the board for Nafalia. Just go in and register as if you weren't registered at all, and register the new name and password, and then, when you post for you, you can use your persona, and when you post for Nafalia, you can use hers. I don't have any trouble telling who is who, to be honest with you, but it might be easier if you were to create separate personas - I think it might be easier for YOU, my dear. And, since you've become somewhat familiar with BTG, now you know where I would suggest we might put the forum if we make one just for us. We could maybe keep things more in line with knowing who is responding to what, if we want to do that. I do think that we might have problems as we go along keeping things straight, hehehe, if we want to do that anyway. LOL Anyway, the offer still stands.

Deb, oh sweet DaBee, how is your spoon count today? I feel perhaps we could meet in B-ville sometime when I go over to see my doctor. I go next Monday afternoon, a week from now, or rather six days now, I guess, at 3:30 in the afternoon. Maybe we could meet somewhere for coffee or a soda or whatever. Or if you'd want to meet at the Dr,'s office, we could do that, then go wherever. I just think we could both use a good, long hug. What do you think? http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Missy, dear Missy, how are you doing? I still have that helmet in my van if you want to use it. I cringe at the thought of you falling and cracking that sweet noggin of yours. Having done it myself a few times, I know it is not the world's most pleasant experience, and if there is a way to prevent hurting yourself, why not take advantage of it? Have you had any word from the SS folks as of yet? I am so glad that you have your family close at hand and that they are supportive of you. Sending big hugs your way, m'dear. I hope to see you soon so I can deliver those in person. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Lany, dearie, it sounds like you are maybe feeling a bit better, or am I reading the tone of your posts incorrectly? The offer of the electronic synthesizer stands anytime you may need it, hon. As I said, it has the touch of about like an electric organ and 100 voices, including 7 different pianos. I especially like how light it is to carry which is why I was thinking of you, but as long as you have those young, strong arms to bring to the stage what you need, that's great! Are you still doing double duty with your work and your mom's as well? Please, keep some of your spoons in reserve for yourself, m'dear as we all need to be able to do some things that take spoons, and we forget about them in spending them on others. Take good care of you, K? Much love. XOXOXOX

Becky, oh Becky, are you ever coming home to Eureka again? We miss you!I'm so glad that you've stayed in touch via the bbs, but I'll admit, it would be nice to have your presence in town again. I don't think I'm alone in feeling that way either. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif Come visit sometime soon, k? Or, maybe we could plan an excursion to Hot Springs. Hey, now that would be a wonderful, healing thing for all of us, wouldn't it?

Patt, oh, Patt. Calling Patt! Are you around? How are you feeling? Think about it, woman, you actually started this with a little offshoot on the side in the OF. Where are you? Not that you have to be here or say anything, hon, just missing your input is all.

Have I missed anyone? Please, if I did, don't take it personally. I've not quite hitting on all thrusters, if you know what I mean. I think I ran out of spoons quite some time ago, which is probably why I fall asleep at the drop of just about anything. Doesn't even take a hat anymore. (G) Thinking of all of you with love, feeling you all surrounding me when I'm feeling lonely, and that is such a grand treasure. Thanks to you all for that.

Sending white light and rainbow sprinkles to everyone, and lots of love with Shimaka hugz too.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

Steve, sTeVe, StEvE,

Oh, what a wonderful night! I read your post from Maitreya, and thought--aha--Steve's exploring the Ascended Masters. So I go to the site, look around, then I see the lovely Sathya Sai Baba with a link to the Gayatri Mantra in his own voice.

I had participated in a wonderful Sai Baba discussion group for a few years, which folded late last year. The Gayatri Mantra in Sai Baba's actual voice was spoken of there, I asked someone to please post the link, folks said they would, and somehow they couldn't find it.

The link to the page that you posted, Steve, had a link to the Mantra, but I couldn't get it to work for me. After a little exploration, I got it--here it is--I share it w/ so much joy! I don't know if I can figure out how to make it loop, but I'm sure going to try.

So just scroll down the linked page below, look for the guy w/ the humongous afro, & you'll get there. I suggest that one might use it in the morning, when one states his/her intentions & alignments, or before or during meditations, whatever.

Oh, I just can't tell you how excited I am about this!

http://lightinfo.org/dir-esoteric.htm

Steve, also thanks for the fabulous repast! It was truly a beautiful piece of work. Thank you, thank you, thank you! And it will continue to be there, though we may partake and partake and partake, it will still be there! How wonderful!

Loving all,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

Deb--

Hapala returningchen to youn! So gladinga you backola!

Hope everything went just fine for you this AM, and you know our assembled energies will be with you Thursday for your surgery.

Love ya so much--a hug & a squeeze & a hug--

JJ

[Jeannie Jones]

Shimaka--

Fadin' fast here, but want to say that my needs are met, dear one, (other than getting together physically w/ our little group, & w/ any who don't post regularly--but, okay, that's not a need, but a want), and more of my story will unfold however & whenever it does. This I know.

I'm so very happy to bring Nafalia into the GJ here at any time and in anyway I can. BTW, she said to tell you that you should be able to go through Arkansas Assistance for the Aging (I hope I got that right), who, because of your physical challenges, will provide some in-home assistance for you.

There was something else (probably lots of something elses)--oh, oh, I've got it--Steve, thanks also for the altered St. Francis prayer. So very beautiful.

Sai Ram,

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Namaskar,
Happy Tuesday "Spirit Friends", hope WE are as well as Spirit allows. Really did enjoy hearing from everyone yesterday.
Was up and down a lot last night, so slept in a little this a.m.
Getting a later than usual start but feeling good to have another day of "living & learning."
***Jeannie, glad you found the "Sai Baba" link you were seeking, another example of "synchronicity" at It's finest. Last time we were in Eureka I got "A Compendium Of The Teachings Of Sathya Sai Baba" (739 pg.) at the Doggie Thrift Store, brand new, and "autographed" saying "With Blessings and Love" for $0.25. Only just beginning to browse through it. Would you offer some tips or selected readings for "Ascension" or what ever I need to begin my journey? I am still a "babe" in the woods of life and have lot's to learn about everything. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-Light**
sTeVe.
"TODAY'S POSITIVE VISUALIZATION:"

In my mind's eye I imagine myself filled with beauty,
light and love. I imagine myself going through my day
radiating love, light, and beauty with every thought,
word, and deed. I imagine others telling me they can
see and feel my inner beauty. I combine these images
with joy and let them go, knowing that they will create
the good things I am visualizing and thinking.

"Good Starts"

The source of Life is a perfect, pure, unlimited source of Good, from which
all things arise. Just as a wave on the ocean is made from the sea, I am
formed of pure spirit. I draw from Spirit all that I need to live...not to
merely exist, but to live and live well. I do this by means of natural
spiritual laws that create my experience based on what I believe.

Today, I believe at depth that anything is possible. I return to a state of
knowing that all things can be accomplished with the power of Spirit.
Whatever is needed in my life today, be it something tangible, emotional or
physical healing, or a new outlook on life, I believe that the power of
Spirit can provide it in perfection and balance today. Not only do I believe
it, I know that it is happening now. I don't have to know how this happens.
Not at all. I simply must believe...and must know...that it is happening in
me and in my life now. This kind of knowing causes changes that are amazing!
Spirit goes to work immediately, by means of natural laws, to create
perfection, balance, and all that I need.

I know that this is simply the way things work. Knowing this, I use these
wonderful laws by moving my belief more and more to the side of wholeness. I
give thanks to the beloved Spirit for its infinite care and precise action
in my life today. And so it is.




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[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Shimaka:
...Nafalia...I knew that you would instantly understand what I was writing when I wrote it last evening...


Of course I understood, for I have lived the experience, and through the experience comes the understanding.

In one of my essays called "Understanding", it basically states that--seldom does the understanding come at the same time that the experience does. It says--as we travel our paths of Wisdom, the experience is only a catalyst for an understanding at a later point of life. When the revelation of what the experience truly was about, the UNDERSTANDING becomes clear, I call those "Aha's".

The "Aha's" are like a bolt of lightening hitting us as to what really transpired at the time it took place.

Whatever the experience may have been, to make the understanding clear, was what was needed on our paths to make our spiritual growth occur, and, more often than not, accelerate, with the coming of the "Aha".

So when hit with an "Aha", the experience is no longer important; it is the understanding which becomes the focal point of the situation. The experience seems to fade away with the recognition of what it was REALLY all about.

Remember, "a road with no obstacles leads nowhere", so it's obvious to me that each of us must be going SOMEWHERE, for all the obstacles we're incurring! LOL!

I always hold 1 spoon in reserve as necessary, so all the spoons I send, I can afford to send. You're more than welcome to any input I give, which lends a helping hand to one and all.

To my beloved sister Shimaka, from your loving sister Nafalia,

As above, so below

Nafalia

P.S. Watch out for unicorns and rainbows--they're everywhere this time of year.

[Flaherty]

Phyl, It's me, your friend and neighbor! I have been reading this thread till my eyes are crossed. I had NO IDEA that you were having such a horrible time. Why didn't you call me? like on the phone.?? I could be of some help maybe? Did you know that you went to sleep in your car,not long ago? you made it home fine, the husband got you inside, but you scare me. So please let me help you for crying out loud!
That's my lecture for now.I will check back here later. Gosh girlfriend you can share your troubles you know! Did you think I wouldn't get it? I admit some things are over my head but I mean well. Love you my friend. bye bye for now!

[DaBee]

Originally posted by Flaherty:
Phyl, It's me, your friend and neighbor! I have been reading this thread till my eyes are crossed. I had NO IDEA that you were having such a horrible time. Why didn't you call me? like on the phone.?? I could be of some help maybe? ... So please let me help you for crying out loud!
... Love you my friend. bye bye for now!

Flaherty - what a wonderful, caring step that you have taken. I am so happy to know that you are Shimaka's neighbor. I've thought so many times that if I was closer, I'd pop in to check on her. 30 miles or so makes it very difficult, but knowing that you are close helps me make a big sigh of relief. Hopefully, when I get over to y'alls neck of the woods, will be able to meet you both. Oh, nice meeting you cyberly (is that a possible word?) http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif
lt&lv/deb

[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Shimaka:
Deb, oh sweet DaBee, how is your spoon count today? I feel perhaps we could meet in B-ville sometime when I go over to see my doctor. I go next Monday afternoon, a week from now, or rather six days now, I guess, at 3:30 in the afternoon. Maybe we could meet somewhere for coffee or a soda or whatever. Or if you'd want to meet at the Dr,'s office, we could do that, then go wherever. I just think we could both use a good, long hug. What do you think? http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Think it's a great idea. The doc, though, told me that I can't drive for 2 weeks after my surgery (thur.), but after that I'll be free wheeling, I'm sure. Looking so forward to meeting you. Hope you're getting rested today. Will try to get back here later this evening. C is having the lymph node removed tomorrow and I'll have the Grandbabes tonight. Then tomorrow afternoon will be traveling to LR again.

Real quick, a rainbow messenger told me, maybe a year ago, that everything that will be happening in my life has very good purpose. She said to not forget that every little thing is suppose to be. She singled me out of a room full of people to get the message to me. I am dealing with some of the most negative forces that I have ever encountered and I'm seeing myself as maybe not the most well intentioned individual that I always thought of myself as being. Think it's starting to well, kinda get to me. Actually feels like I'm beating up on myself. Kinda punch drunk. Know that I've been stuttering as far as what's going on is concerned. Am not trying to be secretive or gamey, just don't know how to put it into words. Guess it doesn't really even matter. My intention is to hold my hand out and let y'all take it and guide me, along with my Higher Power. Thank you, my spirit family, for the love and support.
light~love~deb

[mtnviewsteve]

Originally posted by DaBee:
I am dealing with some of the most negative forces that I have ever encountered and I'm seeing myself as maybe not the most well intentioned individual that I always thought of myself as being. Think it's starting to well, kinda get to me. Actually feels like I'm beating up on myself. Kinda punch drunk. Know that I've been stuttering as far as what's going on is concerned. Am not trying to be secretive or gamey, just don't know how to put it into words. Guess it doesn't really even matter. My intention is to hold my hand out and let y'all take it and guide me, along with my Higher Power. Thank you, my spirit family, for the love and support.
light~love~deb[/B]
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DaBee,
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Spirit Sister, I dare say there is not too much that I and most of the others have not already gone through, or are going through as we speak. I have been through abuse as a child, my mother committed suicide, I've been through two divorces, I have "suffered" alcohol and drug dependency,I have had numerous jobs that have failed, not my fault, BUT everything has served a purpose to make me a messenger of "Twisted-Healing-LIGHT! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Your "Spirit Family" here, and your "Soul Group" will always love you and be here for you. We don't judge or condemn, we just want to help you heal with the rest of us.
Feel Free, Spirit Sister to call on any/or ALL of us if there's the slightest doubt we may be able to help.
So grab hold of a mushroom stool, feel the glow from your favorite Giant Crystal, sip some juice or tea with us, and enjoy our "Happy Meal" upon the golden moss.
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**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe
`Who are YOU?' said the Caterpillar.
This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. Alice replied, rather shyly, `I--I hardly know, sir, just at present-- at least I know who I WAS when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.'
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"For some minutes [the Caterpillar] puffed away without speaking, but at last it unfolded its arms, took the hookah out of its mouth again and said, 'So you think you're changed, do you?' 'I'm afraid I am, sir,' said Alice: 'I can't remember things as I used - and I don't keep the same size for ten minutes together!' 'Can't remember what things?' said the Caterpillar."

Lewis Carrol Alices Adventures in Wonderland



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[DaBee]

Good evening everyone. So strange; have my fingers on the keyboard posed and waiting on the brain to kick in. Guess I'm stuck in neutral. Fingers are working, but the brain isn't. I'm sure that at any moment now I'll tell me what to write. So while I'm waiting on me, let me tell you, StEvE, that I enjoyed tea today. Sipping the delicate brew flavored with honey from the bees at the clover field was delightful. It is always so relaxing to enter through the cave entrance and float down to the inner chamber and then follow the light to the rotunda. It has never failed to offer sweet relief from barometic pressures and gravity. And to now just float in the pure essence of healing light, I carry no more of what was. Now, I just Am. Thank you for reminding me that as long as I live in the moment, there are no expectations.

[mtnviewsteve]

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So glad to hear from you Spirit Friend
"DaBee", glad to glide you glimmering into gratitude so graciously, ain't that what friends are for? Let's party as soon as the rest of the Spirit Group shows up, I need a "boost" tonight myself.
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**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.
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"Cheshire-Puss," she began, rather timidly, as she did not at all know whether it would like the name: however, it only grinned a little wider. "Come, it's pleased so far," thought Alice, and she went on. "Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?"
"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the Cat.
"I don't much care where-" said Alice.
"Then it doesn't matter which way you go," said the Cat.
"-so long as I get somewhere," Alice added as an explanation.
"Oh, you're sure to do that," said the Cat, "if you only walk long enough."

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, y'know, I'd have joined the party sooner if I hadn't lost the post I worked on for about an hour, then looked through "History" and it wasn't anywhere in there, couldn't find it w/ my back browser, so here I am again.

My gosh, Steve, what an incredible book you got for a quarter! Synchronicity, indeed!

Well, my dearies, I'm posting 2 or 3 links which you might find interesting. Connie Shaw is solid, no crackpot. She has been a Sai Baba devotee for many years. I feel that this page has something there for you, sweet Deb, and the site also has info. on Sai Baba.

http://www.connieshaw.com/cbsnondualism.htm

Isaac Tigrett, who conceived and owned the Hard Rock Cafe, and then the House of Blues, (also married Ringo Starr's first wife, whom he adored until her dying day) is also a Sai Baba devotee. Here's a piece about him that's a compilation of various articles in print about him:

http://www.geocities.com/sentstarr/isaacbio.html

It's kind of long, but quite interesting (IMHO)

Here's another site for Isaac, which has photos of his lavish train car he traveled in for 5 years:

http://www.tigrett.info/

Well, that's all for now, dearies. My eyes are burning.

Love to all who enter here--

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

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Namasthe, we'll visit later.
***P**L**T-H-L***
Thanks for the links.
sTeVe0
TODAY'S POSITIVE VISUALIZATION:

I take an even breath and imagine myself surrounded by the
goodness of God. In my mind's eye I see the goodness
of God shining back at me as I move throughout my day.
The butterfly, the rainbow, the smile of a friend, and
the sounds of laughter all reflect God's goodness. For a
moment I imagine good things happening to me today. I
feel the joy and celebration these wonderful events create
in me. On the screen of my mind I see myself sharing
goodness with others and together we celebrate the goodness
of God. I combine these images with joy and let them go,
knowing that they will create the good things I am visualizing
and thinking.



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[mtnviewsteve]

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Namaskar "Spirit Friends",
Hope everyone awakes well, inspired and happy. Blessings.
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.

Good Starts

Life is always expanding, evolving, and unfolding in greater and greater
understanding and beauty. I am one with life, so this is also true of me.
Being one with the source of all wisdom, all intelligence, and all
knowledge, I continually am unfolding in my own inner understanding, both of
how the world works, and of how Life truly is.

I know that education doesn't start or stop with an educational system. It
begins in the heart. I open my heart to be educated today...not in the sense
of someone on the outside pouring something into me, but from the
understanding that education means 'to draw out'. I let that innate wisdom
be drawn from me in surprising and wonderful ways. I discover a wealth of
understanding within, and as every new realization dawns within, I give
thanks for my eternal and immutable connection with this One Source.

I am a life-long learner, always uncovering something new, always following
the thread of my curiosity. In truth, I am an adventurer of Mind! I give
thanks for the journey, and so it is.
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"Balancing Yourself With Touch"
"Self Tuina For The Head"
More than 4,000 years ago, Chinese healers mapped the meridians through which the body's life energy flows. As it became apparent that obstructions in the flow caused imbalances that led toward pain and illness, the practice of tuina, a combination of acupressure and massage, was developed. Tuina, through individual of combinations of movements, gradually helps the body cure itself, particularly of ailments such as tension headaches, migraines and soreness as well as sadness, anxiety and mood swings. When your chi becomes balanced, you are free to experience a confidence and energy like no other.

Tuina can be received as a treatment by a practitioner, our you can perform it on yourself. To perform tuina on yourself, begin by spreading your fingertips at the hairline and combing through the hair while applying a pleasurable amount of pressure, stopping at the neck.

After thirty repetitions, push and drag the middle and index fingers toward the hairline and through the hair over the center of the head, ten to fifteen times.

Next, place the center of your open palm on the temple region and press strenuously for one to two minutes to relieve tension. Circular kneading can then be used to relieve any discomfort. The thumb and index finger of each hand should move in a circular pattern over the face, never relinquishing contact with the skin.

To finish, place both thumbs on the hairline near the temple and rub forcefully backwards until all soreness and tension has disappeared.

Though the treatment is specific, the result is often holistic because when the chi of your body begin to flow unencumbered - pain, toxins and sickness are naturally purged. Self tuina, particularly when used on the face and head, creates a sense of awareness through touch that treats both mind and body, to leave you healthy, relaxed and peaceful.
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[Shimaka]

Good morning spirit family!

DaBee, my had is out and waiting for you to take it any time you like, or are led to do so. I will second what sTeVe said, all of it, about you being able to say whatever you need to say, and to add to that, there is no push here. Take your time. Perhaps, you don't know how to put it because the words aren't there yet. On the other hand, I know that there are many times that I can't quite find the words because I don't really want to find the words. You can get a no-frills guarantee on that one from my therapist, no doubt. LOL Of course, as has been said before, I'm only a phone call away as well so, if you'd rather talk than write, well, dial that phone, grrrlie. I know it's hard to get through on my regular phone because I'm always online, but the really nice thing about it is that I can always call right back on my regular phone so call if you like. It will always be good to hear your voice. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

You do have someone going with you for the surgery, do you not, Deb? I always check on things like this because I know how difficult it can be emotionally to face anything medical alone. Being single, I do it more than enough myself that I'm very sensitive to it when others have to face it so please, if you need someone to go with, let me know, okay? I am always game for IRL or spirit hand holding. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

sTeVe, I wish your back felt better. I know that sounds so small, but it really is bigger than the words. I hope you know what I mean. (((((*sTeVe*))))) I think you're wonderful, ya know. SMOOCHES! Those are sisterly smooches so . . I don't wanna get in trouble with anyone, k? http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Jeannie, I am so sorry you lost your post. Darn! I wonder what keeps happening to you that you spend all this time putting together a post, and then it disappears. I wish I could give you a geekly answer, but the only one I have that I absolutely know works is to write in a word processor where you can save every few minutes. Heck, I even save in the post window here,