Gratitudinally Speaking

[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
Going to see "Baby Emma" this afternoon and bask in the Sacred Energy only "the children "possess."

Ahh, yes, my dear mtnviewsteve friend. I just love going to Babyville myself. What a sweet place to be. Such an honor. You may want to be aware of the healing that can be presented to you. It will just happen as you walk into that Sacred Energy.
I can just hear that southern drawl flowing around the rooms. I think that Southern Babies even burp with a minimum of 2 syllables. Something like, "ba-urp". It's so cute.
From one Southern Belle GrandmaBee to one cool dude http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Grandpa, y'all drive safe and see ya' soon, hear?

[Jeannie Jones]

Steve, glad you had the good sense to get out of the car and give your back a breather from time to time along the way. Well, it probably had less to do w/ good sense and more to do w/ pain! What a wonderful visit this will be for you. And thanks for the "spoonful"--I can't say that I realized that the part about the 45 keepin' the man away was in there. I've always found it hard to hear & understand lyrics from records unless they're well-enunciated.

As an example of my funny hearing, in Eureka, guitar/singer Doug--can't think of his last name--used to do the bluesy "I'm a Cross-Cut Saw", and for years I heard it as "I'm a Cross-Dresser", though knew that that couldn't be right. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Deb, I would tend to trust your version of where we met, rather than mine. My rememberer is kind of like Swiss cheese--full of holes. Entire people have been swallowed up by the holes. I wonder if your son ever worked on my shift at the Crescent.

Deb & Becky, who took Bill's place as night audit when he came down to the New Orleans?

Deb, did you get to spend a little time w/ Missie today at her yard sale?

I remember that when Bill & Kelly, operating as maybe "Green Tree Mgmt." reopened the Crescent after it had been closed for a long time, I was a part of the opening front desk crew. This was my first experience in hotels, and I wasn't very comfortable about doing front desk--shy. Dixie was mgr., and the late Barbara, was the accountant. Can't remember if Boyd came on as Bell captain at that time or not. I had tremendous respect for Bill when he alone rolled up his sleeves & cleaned the kitchen HIMSELF. It had been left dirty, w/ no clean-up at all. Old food was on plates, etc.

Sometime later, Dale Riggin of SIMI & his boss--can't remember his name--staged a "hostile take-over" of the Crescent. I felt so badly for Bill after the blood, sweat & tears he'd put into the place.

Well, could go on and on about the hotels, but maybe that's enough for right now. Gotta go see if I can accomplish something today.

Lovin' everyone--

J

[This message has been edited by Jeannie Jones (edited 06-25-2004).]

[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
[B] As we are better and better able to bring the joy to each and every moment, the door will open itself.

OK, Jeannie, the door will open itsself. How unZenish was I thinking? Thank you.

JJ, are you speaking of the kundalini energy? That is a force that has, in the past, created such a surge of heat through my spine, it seemed as if gravity had a dominance that I could not resist. I would either be unable to move or fall to my back as if I were attached to the earth itsself. As I write this, some old information is rising in my mind about this. It has to do with what you are saying about channeling the light through our spines. About 13 years ago I fell square on my butt and broke the tail bone along with crunching some vertebrae and the sciatic nerve. It is as though the clear channel is obstructed and I hold the majority of the back pain between 2 lower chakras. It just feels that when I am led to the right type of clearing, I will then be free of pain and finally a clear conduit of this light energy.
The 2 triangles merging feel very familiar, but haven't placed them yet. Maybe because they aren't in place yet.
According to Kryon, the lattice grid around the earth was finally in place by the beginning of this year. The Kryon group continues to be channeled even through this shift. It is one of the reasons that Native American Spirituality is being opened to non-Native Americans. We are finally capable of an understanding or possibly an honoring of the wisdom of the Grandfathers and Grandmothers. This is quite a blend of beliefs, but as I travel on my Right Red Road, it does seem to come together this way. Things are finally starting to "click".

[DaBee]

Yes, yes, met Miss Missie today. What a sweetheart! Her Mom is a sweetie too. Bought a pair of her earrings and I love them. Missie is the 1st person I've "met" from our little rotunda since the golden thread began. Can't wait to meet everyone here or there or somewhere. BTW, could maybe someone on the Eureka side of the river give Shimaka a little ringy-dingy? It has been quite a few days since she was seen at Myrtie Maes.
Going to go honor my art with a paintbrush. It's as if the rock is calling me. I'll check in later and see how everyone is doing.
loveyouguys/deb-o-rockyandbullwinkle

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by DaBee:

...According to Kryon, the lattice grid around the earth was finally in place by the beginning of this year. The Kryon group continues to be channeled even through this shift...



Yes, we're so grateful that it hasn't stopped for everyone, as Kryon, and Abraham through the Hickses.

Deb, do you see a chiropractor? Are you dealing with 1st & 2nd chakra issues? (Well, that's really none of my business.)

Y'know, I hope we haven't turned folks off with this kind of discussion in between our medical things. But, I'll tell ya, it's music to my heart.

Love,

JJ

[DaBee]

me too, jj

[DaBee]

Seems strange to quote myself, and actually it's Jeannie taking a quote from a previous entry, but the reason is to tie 2 thoughts together. So here goes:

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Originally posted by DaBee:

...According to Kryon, the lattice grid around the earth was finally in place by the beginning of this year. The Kryon group continues to be channeled even through this shift...

then going back to the Edgar Cayce link (thanks, JJ)(also, previous to this link being mentioned by Jeannie, I have been slowly reading a book written by Edgar Cayce's grandson...[a wink, perhaps?]) that I've been reading with fascination on and off for the last several hours, comes this:

The fact that the universe is organized into an octave of dimensions;
The fact that these octaves have a light, sound and geometric counterpart;
That this geometry shows up on Earth as the Global Grid;
That this Grid energy can be harnessed through building crystal structures;
That the Great Pyramid was the optimal energy-focusing design;

is showing (to me) an ongoing connecting (the dots?) of energies.
Just wanted to check in with this as I'm so very much enjoying all of the old/new information. It's like I'm collecting and pooling all of the nuances.
lt&lv/deb-o-noodledoodle

[DaBee]

Help!!!
I can't quit singing "Twilight Time"
Make it stop
Please/
deb-o-recordstuckdoodlenoodle

[Jeannie Jones]

From Nafalia:

Thanks for the laugh! I really needed it. You'll understand why when you read my post.

[Jeannie Jones]

Nafalia here--going full-circle

Don't like to bring up things that are not in a joyful nature, but it appears that that's what's happening in my life. I'm 61 now, and this started when I was 17. Actually it started when I was 14 or 15, and became defiant because I would not go to church--Pentecostal Church. So from that point on, I became the "bad child".

Married at 17, already one-month pregnant. His mother was the assistant pastor of the church, his father was a deacon and worked for the railroad, (at that time Springfield had a population of about 30,000 people). Ex-husband had already graduated high school, had exactly the same birthday as mine, had a hot rod car, a good-paying job, and was very handsome--much sought-after by all the girls.

I was a quiet, timid person at that time, but defiant to my mother. When I married Charles, it was a relief to everyone that I was out of the house and gone, and had married well, because I was the girl from the wrong side of the tracks.

My mother had been married for 27 yrs., and had 7 children. I was 4 1/2 when she left my father. All but one older sister had already left the house, because of my father's violence. I don't remember him. He was a "wino". He wasn't a drunk, he was a wino. My 2 older brothers joined the military, and my oldest sister had married. My mother was a very religious woman, so we grew up in the Pentecostal Church (the 3 youngest ones did). My mother was divorced for 10 years, and then married my step-father, who was a Pentecostal minister. Life seemed to be getting better.

My mother dated my step-father for several yrs. From the time I was 9 yrs. old and they began dating, until I was 14, I was molested by this Pentecostal minister. So around 14 I became very defiant and refused to go to church. At that point, I became the "child of the Devil". That's what I was called, the "Devil's Child".

This is why, when I married at 17, I was out of the house and gone, and I married "well", because his family had status in the community & money & were very highly thought of. Everyone was very happy that I was married, because I was out of their lives and gone.

Shortly after the marriage, the abuse began. His parents knew of the abuse, because we lived with them part of the time, but it had to be covered up because of their reputation. So who was going to believe me against them? So I kept my mouth shut--out of fear.

The abuse went on for 5 yrs., and was very violent. In that 5 yrs., I had 2 back surgeries, was in and out of the hospital all the time, spent time in the psych. ward, but everyone only said--well, she's just doing this to get attention, and she's always been defiant. She's just going to do what she wants to do. (He never hit me where it would show.)

I never said anything to anyone, because there was no need to because it would be my word against my husband and his family. Who was I but the little girl from across the tracks. The only one who knew and understood, and who helped me, was my doctor. When I couldn't take it anymore, I would call him and he would put me in the hospital for a while, so that I could rest and feel safe again.

Even the police were afraid of Charles, because he was crazy, and they knew that his father would stop anything from proceeding. So when they would pull him over for speeding, or drinking & driving, or whatever, (if they could catch him, because his car was a lot faster than theirs was), they would walk up to the car and say--Charlie, Charlie, just calm down, we want to talk to you. That was how it was.

He was highly intelligent. He was local president of the United Rubberworkers Union at the age of 23, went through high school with a straight "A" average, and never studied at all. Never opened the books. He was 6'2", slim, and I was 5'2", and weighed 110 lbs. He had the bluest eyes you've ever seen, and had the longest eyelashes I've ever seen. They were so long, they would touch his eyebrows. He had a smile that was charming, but also very sardonic. He seemed to gain his greatest pleasures from tormenting me, and told me every day that we were together, that he was going to drive me crazy. I could go into much detail, but no need to.

What this really is all about is that 40 yrs. ago, my family ignored and denied, and closed their eyes to what was happening. Now that I'm actually having to relive the whole thing because these injuries are as new again, because of the pain and the damage I suffered then, I now suffer again.

Over the years, the damage to my spine has worsened with wear & tear, and has compounded w/ other problems. The only difference now is that instead of keeping my mouth shut, I am full of anger and rage and am telling my family how I feel about how they denied what was happening to me as a child.

I'm doing this not only because it needs to be done, but because the doctors have told me that I need to get it out, that I have held it inside for way too long. I am finding that nothing has really changed with my family, because they still ignore, deny, and refuse to believe that it really happened, and that my mother knew and didn't do anything about it, either, because she was so involved in the church. So they're angry at me because I'm making them remember, and this makes me angrier at them, because they're still doing the same thing they did 40 yrs. ago. Because I am now speaking up, I am once again, the bad girl.

The reason I'm writing this tonight is that just before Jeannie called me, my youngest sister, who I've always been so close to, and have been able to share everything with, had been on the phone, and she acts as though she doesn't believe me either. Because I was the "bad girl" that I was actually treated differently by my mother & my brothers & sisters, and she does not believe that my mother treated me differently, or that my brothers & sisters treated me differently. She said "I'm going to get them all together. I want to hear it from their mouth, because I don't believe Mamma knew, and I don't believe that anyone else knew." And she asked me, if you didn't tell anybody, how was anyone to know. I told her that when you're in that situation, and living in fear, you don't talk.

What is so strange is that when we were talking about it last night, my youngest sister & I , she recalled her & her twin brother asking my mother "why is Nancy always in the hospital? Why is Nancy having so many back surgeries?"

My sister said that she remembered that when my mother would come & see me in the psych. ward, they were too young to see me & had to wait in the waiting room. She & Johnny would talk to each other, trying to figure out why I was in the psych. ward, because that was for "crazy people". When they would ask my mother, her answer was "well, she's had a nervous breakdown".

What is also so strange, is that they were only like 12-13 y/o and they remember these things, and asking questions, but my adult brothers & sisters never asked questions, and never came to see me. My ex & I would visit them quite a bit, but they say now that they don't remember that.

My doctor is now arranging counseling for me, because she says I never healed, even though I worked with domestic violence for 15 yrs., and I thought I was healing then. I helped others, but I did not heal myself. So we've come full-circle, and I find that I'm getting the same reaction from my family as I did 40 yrs. ago. They don't call me, they don't come and see me, and when I now speak up, they only say "you have the right to feel anger & rage, but we just don't remember". I tell them "there is no need to defend yourself, because it's not about you, it's about me, and I'm only expressing what I feel. This is not an attack on you. This is about me expressing my anger & rage so I can heal."

Last week when I told my older brother how I felt, he said "we failed you as a family, and we failed you as brothers & sisters, and I'll be by to see you", but that's been over a week ago and I haven't even had a phone call since.

This story I tell you tonight is not a story of sadness, but of joy, for at least now I can speak up, as an adult, (even though I pi** people off)! The only sadness I feel is that my youngest sister, who was my only ally, cannot seem to understand that I was treated differently, and questions that this happened to me. The only thing that makes me feel any sadness, is because she thinks she will find more truth about my abuse from the others, than from me.

The oddity of this situation is this--when my brother's son was on drugs, he sent him to Jonesboro to live w/ me & Phil, my 2nd husband, because they couldn't handle him on drugs.

When my sister Mary Jo was in an automobile accident 9-10 yrs. ago, and was literally down & couldn't do anything for herself for 10 months, I took care of her 24/7, as a private nurse. I did everything, AND paid her $200 a month rent.

My youngest sister, when my knight in shining armour died, I loaned her $28,000, so she'd have a nice home and also sold her my new car for $10,000 and let her make payments over a 10-yr. period on that.

I took care of my mother when she had Alzheimer's for 1 yr. before she went to the rest home, and she didn't even know who I was. It just seems odd to me that the "bad girl" has always been there for them, and never questioned why--did it out of love.

But I have Jeannie, and all of my spirit brothers & sisters to bring me joy, and comfort, and support. I already know how this story's going to end w/ my family, because I've been here before, and we've come full circle.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Good morning, dear hearts--

Blessings on Nafalia for the burden that she's carried for so very long--all alone. All That Is, please assist her in letting go of all of it, ALL of it, for the good of the Universe.

In StEvE's stead, I bring you the Good Start for today. Wishing you a bright and beautiful morning.

**Love**Peace**Joy**

Jeannie

The truth is that Life is easy. It was designed that way from the very
beginning; the infinite intelligence that created all that exists imbued its
perfect creation with its own qualities. And Spirit's nature is to flow with
ease. This is my nature also.

I understand that this doesn't mean my life will be free from all challenge!
I'll always have the opportunity to extend my edges and go beyond what I
find comfortable. Just as a sea creature outgrows its shell, I always
outgrow my old understanding. And I choose to do this in an attitude of
ease. Wherever I feel burdened, I release and let go of all sense of
doership, and understand that it is the power of life in me that is doing
the work. Wherever I experience stress and worry, I stop, remind myself of
the nature of life, breathe, and let the wave of energy and intelligence
that is Spirit carry me to a new understanding. The truth is that ease is as
close as my decision to experience it. And I decide this today, for this day
and every day. And so it is.

[DaBee]

Hi Y'all....been a long hot day for me today. Went to an all day auction with my son and was there many many hours longer than I anticipated. So I'm a pooped pup. Wanted to tell you Jeannie, that the "It Is Good To Feel Good" download resonates with me so well. I'm making it part of my morning meditation. Thank you so much.

Nafalia, I can feel all of your family taking your energy. I, at times, have the same thing happen when the memory lane walk gets going. Somehow, it's like jumping back to where I left off and picking up the anger again. I have noticed that because I so want to be able to not allow others to take my energy, that that's exactly what happens. Feels like I'm trying too hard or maybe the universe is misinterpreting my signals. It pulls me so off balance, that it seems that everything I "know" isn't right there for me.
In trying to really make a difference, a break from my norm, I've had to make some solid decisions. My siblings now know that I won't take crap from them anymore. There will be no complaining or whining or dumping and none of the guilt stuff that goes on in families. I have a brother that is not allowed to be in touch with me at all until he can complete a treatment center program and stay clean and sober for, well, probably 10 years. I'm the oldest of 4 and have been their "little momma" all of their lives. When my Mom was in hospice care and I was with her 24/7, only 1 other sister came to help me out. She came from Oregon and the other one lived right next door to Mom. I think my brother was living in a dumpster at the time. Not really, but it wouldn't have surprised me. I don't like him much. Only came to realizing that when the last thing Mom told him was that he was "awful". He was the baby brother that could do no wrong in my Mom's eyes, so her telling him that was quite a shocker. I was standing right there at her bedside and realized how right she was. Felt though, that she created this monster by doting on him so much it always made me gag as a kid. Think she scooted on out of this earthly existence at a much more balanced place by uttering those words. Actually, I know she did because I walked with her to the other side where my Dad was, then came on back home. She was perfectly at peace with All That Is.
Know that I'm rambling on about my family stuff, but feel that I'm making an attempt to let you know that even though we had different family dynamics, we still both had some pretty fierce dynamics happening for a lot of years. I got really burned out by it all. My Mom died in 1999 and it seems that I'm just now beginning to feel a semblance of balance and order. Think that when Mr. Husband skedaddles out of my life it'll be lookin' reeeeal good. Find that it is quite important for me to stay in the now and see it as absolutely perfect. One moment at a time even more so than one day at a time.
I have to be very careful as to what I subject my being to. This includes certain people (that are vexations to my spirit) and incoming information (negativity), politics, religious arguement, brutality shown in the media, a brother or sister or 2, etc.
I can feel your pain and send out threads of healing light to lessen its severity with ease to the point of vanishment. Sometimes you just gotta cut your losses and cut some strings. Hope you're feeling better and aren't having to spend any time on the floor.
Tomorrow I take the increased dosage on Methotrexate and just pray that it doesn't send me over the chemo edge. Driving to LR tomorrow as I have a very early Monday appt for the pre-op. Will find a cheap motel tomorrow night. The other day when I did the 7 hours of driving along with the appt, it sure exhausted me. When I have the surgery on Thursday, my son will do the driving!
Sure has been quiet around here, huh?
No word from Shimaka, it seems. Guess noone called her?
How you doing after the big sale, Missie? It really was great to meet you.
Hope I didn't scare you off with my hair dream, Lany. Ya,it was pretty spooky.
Miss you, sTeVe. Navigate through the mountains and straightaways and highways and biways safely. When y'all coming home?
G'nite everyone, sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite.
lt&lv/deb-o-bugbiterbacker http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/tongue.gif

[Jeannie Jones]

Nafalia returns:

Deb, thanks so much for the input. It's interesting because I had just finished talking with my youngest sister, who I'm very close to. Last night, though, I felt that she, too, had left my side. In the conversation I was finally able to get her to understand I was not placing blame, directing anger and rage at any one, but I've just been releasing.

It was hard for her to understand that I have been doing a lot of grieving, and because I could get no compassion from my brothers & sisters, then the anger became deeper, and I withdrew & went deeper inside, to the anger.

I finally got her to understand what was going on inside of me, with this little analogy. Our emotions are sometimes like muddy water. As we clear the muddy water, there's always sedimentation left on the bottom, and what I have been doing is releasing not only the mud, but also the emotional sediment that I had held within for so long. With this analogy, she was able to grasp my grieving process.

When I spoke with her tonight, she said "I'll be so glad when you get through this--releasing this rage and this anger, and MY Nancy is back, because you always spoke your mind, but you've always been so loving, giving, and caring of others. I'm not used to this Nancy full of anger & rage." I told her it would probably be soon, because now she was beginning to understand what was happening with me.

We both came to the conclusion and understood that it's necessary, as you said, sometimes that you just have to cut the bond and sever the tether with certain siblings who cannot share love, but only take your energy.

I had been trying so hard to share love with my older sister, and have finally just come to accept that there's something missing inside her that leaves her hollow and empty and unable to give love, but only take love.

I have come to accept that I must just not make any effort to connect with my older sister, because she does not want it, and will not accept it. And so I was just giving her my energy that I needed for myself.

To my older sister, people are like Bic lighters. When you get through with them, you just throw them away, especially if they become an inconvenience to her. So now I release her to her own karma, and I shall go on to my own emotional clearing and physical healing. (Sometimes ya just gotta say "SEE ya".)

This has been a good night, things are better. I feel a new healing beginning, and I thank you, Deb, for sending me your energy to help me heal. It worked very well.

I'm making Jeannie say this, [OH, NO----JJ] Jeannie is to me much more than a friend. She is my confidante, she is my light when I am in the dark, and a damn good typist! [JJ LOL] But more than all of these, I always know Jeannie will always be there with the pure Universal love for each and every one of us. So I just want to say a special thanks to Jeannie, because she's been through a couple of really rough weeks with me, and without her, I don't know that I'd have made it with any sanity left. (I love you, Jeannie.) http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif [JJ blushes and says, "I love you too, Nancy."]

So, I hope that you will all meet me in the magic circle in the forest for breakfast. We shall have honeydew & canteloupe, scooped out and made into little balls. We shall have cranberry juice, and we shall have fresh pineapple in the middle of the table. We shall be served this wonderful breakfast by the Mad Hatter, and after breakfast we shall meet with Alice in Wonderland, and play a round of croquet with the queen. And, I must say, I'm late, I'm late, for a very important date. No time to say "hello", "good-bye", I'm late I'm late, I'm late. I must go now, so I can find the magic circle within the magic forest in time to meet you there.

Rumor has it, I am told, that the secret forest and the secret circle lie just east of the sun and west of the moon in the Land of Nod. Now that we all know the way, I'll see you there. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Too short on spoons to post right now, loved ones, but I will do it tomorrow. I close now to give us a Good Start.

Always love,

JJ

[Jeannie Jones]

In StEvE's place, I offer you a Good Start for this day.

**Love**Peace**Joy**

COMPASSION

The One Life is an evolutionary and miraculous experience; its form arises
from the one formless source of all things, differentiating into infinite
variety without end. This One Perfect Source is the source of all, and it is
my source. I am formed from the formless eternal being, and in me are all
the attributes of spirit that I shall ever need.

When the need for understanding arises, that understanding can be found
within. When the need for compassion presents itself, that compassion can be
found within. And whatever it is I need to know, something in me already
knows it. My life, my spiritual journey, is a process of waking up and
realizing [making real] that which is within me as potential and
possibility.

The good news is that the evolution of spirit hasn't ever stopped! It
continues from within. Whatever the soul of me is ready to become, that
evolutionary process happens in me. Just as grapes turn to wine, I am
continually transforming into something rarer, something ever more
wonderful. I continually become more effective in my life, more loving, more
patient. The perfect qualities of spirit are revealed in my daily work and
my daily play, and I give thanks for this ever-unfolding miracle of
creation, of the ever-begetting of the only begotten One. And so it is.

[Shimaka]

Deb, my sweet spirit sister, I could feel the weight lifting from you as you made your first post about Crystal. It truly is amazing how sharing a burden can make it so much lighter, and we have been taught from the ground up that we should not bother other people with our problems, and so we feel guilty when we feel a need to do so. Fact is, I believe, that we're meant to share those things that concern us for we are one, and as one, we can certainly tackle much more together than not.

I'm sure this is going to seem way far out of order to most everyone because I have not been able to be here in days so I am answering things in the order I come upon them. I trust the understanding will come through. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Deb, I was happy to hear that, on the heels of running a marathon is when these symptoms came into full view - the reason being that it means she is in good shape physically, and strong, which will definitely be of assistance to her in her healing. Of course, my love and prayers go out to you, and to Crystal, and your whole family down there in the holler. Much, much, MUCH love.

Oh, and I wonder about the post you found of mine in the OF. Was it the one about the "Honest Muslims" in the thread started by Becky Davis? I made that last time I was posting here, and went up to the OF before I left and, oh, wow, well, that post just kind of fell out of me, if you know what I mean. LOL I will have to check back on it to see what kind of feedback thee has been. Right after I made it, I noticed two thank yous from two folks who normally don't have much nice to say about or to me so . . . perhaps someone finally noticed that I'm just not the enemy though you know how people are when it comes down to admitting they might have been wrong, especially about who is or isn't "the enemy" in the OF. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Well, I had good intentions. LOL I fell asleep as I was getting ready to sign off this post so now it is morning (I started this around 1 AM), and hopefully, I'll be able to stay awake long enough to actually answer a few posts and make my presence felt a bit. I've so missed you all. Thank you for everyone who has sent private emails and gone and posted on Bridging the Gap, and called. I feel very, VERY loved, my friends. Thanks so much!

And Deb, my love to you and Crystal, always.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
So happy that you may have a few clearer hours as the Zyvox exits your system. Thank God for small favors, eh? Sleep, sleep, beautiful, healing sleep. Then let us know after you see the doc. OK?

Ah, my sweet sister, Jeannie, thank you so very much for this. I almost feel like all I've DONE since I saw the doctor is sleep. I know that they say sleep is the best thing for healing, but I've taken it to an extreme this week. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif But, I really do feel like it was healing sleep. Two full days I did nothing BUT sleep, and the rest of the time, I would get up long enough to eat, maybe make a phone call, then go back to sleep. Last night, I actually met friends for dinner, and that felt like a turnaround toward maybe more (literally) conscious living. LOL

The Zyvox is, fortunately, in my rear view mirror as it's become obvious to both my doctor AND me, as well as the infectious disease specialist, that the first time I crashed on Zyvox was not just about the drug interactions and it playing with my seratonin levels, but I'm just flat allergic to it, period. Of course, I think a part of the sleep thing is that I was able to go back on my anti-depressant, and so I'm sure it has been working overtime to get y seratonin level adjusted to where it should be again. Thank the gods! I almost feel like Shimaka again. Hehehe, I won't say I almost feel normal again because I don't think I know what normal feels like. LOL

Aside from what we knew we had to deal with, my doc and I had two extra things jump pop up out of thin air this week that are brand new and needed to be addressed too. Mostly still related, but new nonetheless. And then, we had to decide what to do about the MRSA. As Nafalia has said a couple of times, not making a decision is still making a decision so I took that to heart, and when I went in to my appointment, I was pretty much told I had two choices at this point - either go the route of the Vancomycin, which I've told y'all about, or do nothing and live with what I have left.

Funny, my former partner, with whom I had a wonderful, loving partnership for ten years, used to irritate me no end because she always found a third alternative when given a choice of two options. But, in the interim, I've learned to do the exact same thing. I don't think I've told her that so I'll have to make sure to do that. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif Anyway, I came up with a third possibility, and it turns out my doctor like that one too.

Certainly, neither of us was happy with the second choice, and the first one, the Vancomycin, has just always not felt right to me, ever since we first started talking about it. I found out from my doctor that HE didn't feel right about it either. I had made a remark, apologizing for being a "chicken sh*t" about it to him, and he just stopped what he was doing, and said something like, "Did I ever given you the impression I felt like you were being a "chicken sh*t"? He told me if it were him, he'd be running the other way himself, and he wasn't all that jazzed on putting me on that regimen either.

I was concerned more about the PICC line than the Vancomycin itself because, being a super clotter, as well as a bleeder from taking Coumadin, putting in a PICC line is just asking for clots to form. Someone who isn't pre-disposed to clotting would still be more prone to do so with a PICC line in, but someone like me, who's already had seven DVTs, is just begging for it. Putting something foreign in the body for that length of time, and having it come out so close to the heart and lungs in the large vena cava, is kind of playing Russian Roulette with possible clots and PEs.

Then, he pointed out to me that, already having a massive internal infection wasn't the best time to get a PICC line either because it becomes like a lightning rod for further infection. I guess having something that goes from the outside world, through a vein all the way into the internal parts near the heart, is just asking for a new infection to follow that PICC and come up with a massive infection with no warning, and that's something I hadn't even considered. The possible clotting was my concern.

So,I asked him if we couldn't do a compound with the IV solution of the Vancomycin into a cream, something he had talked of some time ago, and if we could have it made trans dermal so that it would not only treat the sores/wounds from the infection, but would also get through to my bloodstream because of the trans dermal nature of it. He made a couple of phone calls, and we were a go. I had the cream by the next afternoon! And of course, Medicaid won't pay for anything that's compounded. Doesn't this surprise anyone? Duh! So, I had to reach out and ask for some help, which came to me easily and guilt-free, and if y'all are reading, thanks so much!!! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

I can't say as of yet what the outcome looks like. I know that I haven't had any trouble with the Vancomycin in my system, but then, it's not there in the kinds of levels it would be if I was taking it through the PICC, IV style. But, it is disappearing, meaning it is definitely "soaking in", as it were, crossing over the dermal layer, and must be getting into my system. If I were allergic, as with the Zyvox, I know I would be feeling it, no matter what the level because this last time on Zyvox, I was at half dose and much sicker than the first time at full dose so I'd reached my limit.

I guess we play wait and see for now. It's definitely a lot of work to keep up with the constant dressing and redressing, and I can go through tape and gauze and band-aids faster than anyone else I know. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif But, that's been true all along. It's just that now, I have to be more cautious and change dressings very much on schedule so those internal abscesses are getting as much of the good stuff as they can.

I'm not one to think I'd jinx it by saying something GOOD about it, but I'll admit, I've thought about it just because I don't want to do ANYthing to screw this up. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif But, methinks we may be on our way . . . it'll be a long journey, but as they say, each one begins with a single step.

Thanks so much for your company along my journey. You all are so precious and priceless. My love to all.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
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Shimaka,
We are focusing on you, sending Healing prayers of Love & LIGHT to you, as your soul group of loving spirits, please feel our love and comfort as we pray together. Trust we are with you always. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
*Peace*Love*Healing/Twisted-LIGHT**
Your "gratitude spirit friends"

Steve, I DID feel you with me, my sweet man. All of you! Especially when I was at my worst, and feeling the most lonely, your presence was very strong so I knew you were here, almost to a point where I felt like I could reach out and touch you. Thank you all so very much for the reminder that we are all, indeed, one, and that separateness and the notion of time are constraints we put on ourselves in order to come into 3-D to experience these constraints. The closer we get to 4-D, the less those mean, and the more we can feel that oneness and time not mattering.

We all have our lessons that we have come into this world to learn, and I seem to have chosen many that have to do with illusion and finding out how many things ARE illusory that I thought were real. It's hard to believe sometimes that I came from a scientific background, academically, before chucking that are digging into psychology and religious studies, philosophy, parapsychology, and metaphysics.

Hehehe, for some reason that old Virginia Slims commercial keeps coming back into my head, the very first one they ever did when we women were supposed to be oh so happy that we had our very own cigarette. Heheh, we've come a long, LONG way . . . indeed! And, I ain't talkin' 'bout no cigarettes! LOL

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by DaBee:
[sTeVe, thank you. How is your back?
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Sister DaBee,
Sore today, but tolerable, thanks for caring, did too much inside today. Will take it easier tomorrow! Switched today from Direct TV to Dish, now I can get Wisdom channel # 264, haven't been able to watch since getting rid of Great Big Satelite. Hope/Pray everyone is safe and doing well too! Will check back later tonite.
**P*L*T-L**
sTeVe. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif

Oh Steve, sweetie, though I can't even afford basic cable anymore, I had to do a lot of research in order to come to that eventual conclusion. And, though I may be no expert, I did see in almost all of the advertisements for DirecTV and Dish2, and others, that they ALL provide free installation. Ahem! So, what are you doing hurting yourself when they will do the installing for you? Now, I realize I am one of the world's WORST at following my own advice on this one, but really, Steve, we like having you around, and we want to see you get better and stronger and be able to take on the world. You're just not ready yet, bro. Take it easy on yourself, okay? We love you!

((((((((((*sTeVe*))))))))))

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by Lany Ballance:
...After chemotherapy and radiation treatments and removing as many lymph nodes from his body as they could, they released him from the hospital and told him "Mr. Ballance, go home and get your affairs in order; you have only six months to live." He was still a teenager. That was over 50 years ago. Guess what ... he's still alive. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Oh Lany, what an inspiring story! And, what an amazing man he must be, an inspiration to all of you, I imagine. Probably still has those Navy doctors scratching their heads. LOL Good for him! Good for the Great Spirit that lives within each and every one of us!

DaBee, may your grandma be yet another walking miracle! Blessings to you, and to her, and to your entire family.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
...'Twas asked but not answered, I think, earlier--does someone go w/ you or not when you make these big drives?...

...Love to all who stop by here.

Yes, Jeannie, it was asked, by me, though it may have been asked by others as well, and no, it was never answered. Ahem. I do believe I offered to make the trip with you, DaBee, especially since it's a trip I know really well, and one of my best things is driving on familiar roads. (Ask my doctor - it's on my disability determination! Get the picture! Arrggghhhh!!!!!) http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif If you've been doing it by yourself, love, you don't have to anymore. Understood?

And Jeannie, I do believe you have come up with what could be our group motto:

"Love to all who stop by here." Can we put this on a plaque over the door into the rotunda? Maybe just change stop to pass - Love to all who pass by here - ??

I love you folks!

XOXOXOXOOXXOX
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

sTeVe,

I don't know as I have ever thanked you for our daily positive thought, affirmation, and visualization. Please, accept my gratitude for your willingness to share these each day with all of us. What a wonderful, and yes, refreshing, way to start the day, every day, no matter what the message.

I get a number of wonderful positive messages in my mail each day, and I think I will peruse through them for a few days and see what feels right to post on a regular basis so we have something else as well. Perhaps each of us has something, or not. It's just a thought. I just so enjoy sTeVe's positive attribute posts that I thought: we can't get too many of those. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
So what I'm saying is that we can't precipitate change in a vaccuum of stillness. There needs to be a flowing out, in order to get the flowing in. To me, this is an uncomplicated example of it.

In following the guidance of the moment, day before yesterday I called a very dear friend of mind in Calif. She said--well, this is amazing! A few nights ago she had a dream that our friend Marshall walked through a door with her parents. The next day, Marshall called her from Hawaii.

Day before yesterday, my friend dreamed that I walked through a door with her parents. The next day, yesterday, I called her. She was out, but returned my call the same day. Very joyful! Love it, love it, love it!

I read the piece Deb quoted from Kryon to her, which resonated well w/in her, apprised her of the current state of Nafalia's health, and we talked of other things. She loves that we have this forum.

She shared a website w/me. One day she was driving her car, and heard to turn on the radio. At that moment, on a very narrow band channel, someone was talking about a free seminar with the Hickses. She went right to it, as it wasn't far from her. It all rang true to her & she loved the energy.

I found their website, explored it a little, & am sending you a page of it here. Check it out for yourself & see how it feels. I liiiiike it.

http://www.abrahamfreemusicdownloads.com/index.php

Wishing Deb a safe, successful trip, and hoping to hear from Shimaka today about her doctor visit.

Love to all my Spirit Friends,

Jeannie

[DaBee]

Am so happy to have woke this morning to you appearing, Shimaka. Seems that you have the solution under way. Taking the medication topically and being able to also treat the war wounds directly is brilliantly inspired (lots of light) http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif I can see the kick, back in your posts. I sure have missed them. Also miss StEvE and Missie and Lany and you out there that are hanging back for now. It's cool http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif ... just looking forward to meeting you.
I just wanted to say something quick to you, Shimaka, before you zzzzzzz'd out again http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif.
I want to talk some more, but need to wake up and let the kitties in and take meds. I'll be back real soon.
WOW...........what another beautiful day in the Ozarks!
lt&lv/deb-o-goodmornin'toya'

[Shimaka]

Well, let's see if I can get it right now. LOL I've fallen asleep during every post this morning so far. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif So, if things don't sound quite kosher, you know why. That, and my wonderful wireless keyboard with the light touch got drowned in coffee two days ago. I'm afraid it is dead. I've tried CPR to no avail. I've tried every geek trick known to man or woman to no avail. I will have to buy a new one, and lo, it is part of a set. The same receiver works for both the mouse and keyboard. So, tomorrow, I will find out from Logitech how much it will cost to just replace the keyboard. I don't think I really wanna know. Waaaaaa! This one I'm using has the keys stick. It's pretty beat up, but I'm grateful to have the backup. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Sleep, sleep, sleep is good for me, they keep saying 'cause I'm anemic. I was anemic before, but the Zyvox added to that with a little additional bone marrow suppression. - sigh - If the Vancomycin were working as usual like when they do the IV through the PICC line, it would be doing much the same thing. Hopefully, this new idea will do the job without all the complications. I sure hope so. Then, my doc can write a paper and get rich and famous - he deserves it. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
So what I'm saying is that we can't precipitate change in a vaccuum of stillness. There needs to be a flowing out, in order to get the flowing in. To me, this is an uncomplicated example of it.

In following the guidance of the moment, day before yesterday I called a very dear friend of mind in Calif. She said--well, this is amazing! A few nights ago she had a dream that our friend Marshall walked through a door with her parents. The next day, Marshall called her from Hawaii.

Day before yesterday, my friend dreamed that I walked through a door with her parents. The next day, yesterday, I called her. She was out, but returned my call the same day. Very joyful! Love it, love it, love it!

Jeannie, what I was trying to say before when all I suceeded in doing was quoting your whole post was that I LOVE your view of manifesting. And, obviously, it works for you too. I think I will either clip that out, or bookmark that post so that I can look at it several times a day and remind myself because you do seem to have it down. I'm impressed.

Love y'all!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

sTeVe, my gentle man brother, I have to say what a smile it puts on my face every time I hear you speak of Dale and Roger and how they've adopted you and Maletha. Dale is a tremendous guy, as is Roger, and in different ways. I've watched Dale go through so much in the last couple of years, certainly much more than I thought possible for one man to endure, and he's always come out the other side looking, sounding, feeling refreshed somehow. I don't know how he does it, but he does.

He and Roger used to sit at the table next to ours every time my friend Beverly and I would go to Myrtie Mae's. It didn't matter what time of the day or night we'd show up - they would either already be there, or would walk in the door behind us. It was uncanny!

Different people would come and go that would be with them for weeks on end, then disappear as quickly as they came, and the same was true of Bev and I. So, it always came back to the four of us no matter who else might show up. Every day was/is like a family reunion.

Now that Bev has moved to Washington, and Dale has had to make sure to sit on the non-smoker's side all the time, it sort of threw off the balance a bit, plus I don't go nearly as often as I used to, but it never fails - I go about once/week now, and I almost always STILL run into Dale, not always with Roger, but Dale is the constant. We three (Bev, Dale and I) would sit and talk the finer points of digital photography while boring the rest of the place to tears. We all got a digi camera within a year of one another, and it was always funny to watch Dale and Bev go at it because neither of them was ever satisfied. Dale was always going to buy a better one than the one he had, and Bev . . . well, Bev had plotted out every digital camera with its features, zoom, lenses, aperture, what came standard, warranty period, price, etc., until most of us were about ready to choke her every time she took out her Excel spreadsheet, but she wasn't going to buy ANYthing until she knew the exact one that would satisfy her every whim for the least amount of money. Only problem was that that changed every week. LOL I can truly say those were the good ole days.

sTeVe,'tis a small world, indeed.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

Only have a moment, but, hey, SHEEEE'S BACK! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Deb, I think you missed the bottom part of my private E--I used a quote from you below what I started with, then posted more after your quote.

Good day all,

Jeannie-gotta-scoot

[mtnviewsteve]

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06-27-24
Spirit-friends,
Sunday 7:35 p.m. literally just got home ‘bout 30 min. ago, unloaded “cruiser”, made a pot of good strong Colombian coffee, turned on the Wisdom channel and sat down to read & catch up on my “Spirit Friends” news. Thank God Shimaka is up and about, even if “just a little” and with some reserve. Shimaka, you have been in my thoughts & prayers “for days”, and I will continue prayer candles and “positive thoughts” for you and the rest of the band! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Don’t know where to start with our visit to the “Spirit Child”, Baby Emma! What a new, fresh, clean, positive young lady! Her aura is inclusive of the rainbow with giant crystals as the gate and pathways lined with smaller ones. Imagine a pathway of crystals surrounded by the sweet incense fragrance of flowers and small butterflies as thick as a strawberry shake. Her Earth family, Mother Sarah, and Father Bob, are “power spirits” as well. They are one of the most beautiful Earth Families I have been fortunate enough to observe. Baby Emma, in Her infant sleep, cast her “spells” on Maletha and I, accepting us joyfully to Her Spirit Family. The power this Child has, and will develop in the years to come, gives me a Happy, Hopeful, glimpse of the future.
The “trip” was long, but very spiritually uplifting & refreshing both ways. Got to visit briefly w/ friends & family, but OH BOY are we glad to be back on our own planet. Looking forward to Baby Emma, Sarah, and Bob visiting us maybe in July.
Scanned the "GJ" and will read every beautiful detail throughout the night. Did not get to use computer after 1st visit, glad to feel everyone’s love and to see the spirit faces again. Could really feel All your thoughts and prayers as we traveled safely. We were able to eat very healthy and drank lots of pure water. So glad to be closer in Spirit and to feel your presence closer. My, I’m long winded, to be so tired! My back served me well, though pretty sore, not as bad as It could have been. Again thanks for the Prayers.
DaBee, JJ, Missy, Lany, Nafalia, Becky, and Shimaka, I have missed you “one and ALL” and hope to hear from ya’ll tonight & tomorrow.
BLESS YOU ALL.
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing LIGHT**
sTeVe.
p.s. Nafalia & DaBee & Shimaka: saying “special prayers” of healing , and thanks for allowing me to learn part of the story that makes you so very important to this “Spirit Family”. What strong, wonderful, Spirits you ALL are. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif

[Shimaka]

My sweeties,

Would you believe I have now spent almost 24 hours on this thread, gone nowhere else online, not even checked my mail though it is coming in at regular intervals - I have simply not looked at it. I have read, then written, the slept, then read, and slept, then written, and slept some more, and read, and written, slept more. It is as if the gift of healing that comes with sleep just keeps descending upon me as I read or write just a tiny bit, and I feel surrounded by love and nurturing from all of you. I decided last night, when I began this journey of picking up where I last left off, that I would not read everything and THEN post, but I would post as I went along so I have yet to read everything. I am at the bottom of page 11 now, and want to respond to our dear Nafalia, and then I will turn the page to the last page (as of this moment anyway) and see what is in store for me there. I may take my healing bath before turning to page 12 first, however. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Nafalia, my dear, your story stirs my soul from within. I knew, from the moment you first appeared in our midst here, that you and I had something very special to share with one another, and now, you have brought it out into the open. Ah, the bad child, the black sheep, bad seed . . . though I am so very sorry that these labels would be put upon one so fair and just and right with the world, I do understand for I, too, am the bad seed, the black sheep, the one who never was believed no matter what was told. My family denied, and denied, and blamed and had to have someone to blame so why not me. I was convenient, and since I was trying to tell them things they did not want to know about, it made me an even more convenient target. Nafalia, my sister, I feel as if we've both come home to the family where we won't be disbelieved, where we will be loved and accepted, protected, and respected, and there will be no abuse from within this family, nor any disbelief of what we say has happened to us, what indignities we have suffered, the anger we harbor that needs to be expressed, and no one here in this family will judge us for that anger, nor deny us the right to have that anger. So, my sweet one, express it as you need to because all of us will be here for you, and no one will tell you you are the bad one, nor call you a liar, or anything of the sort. Find your healing here in the cave, or the rotunda, in the field where we have breakfast, or by the golden thread. We have our own special places, this family, and we can be here for one another, holding one another, just allowing those emotions that have needed to be expressed BE expressed, knowing that we are surrounded by loving spirit family members who love us as we are, not as they wish we would be for they know we already ARE as we should be.

So, relax in the arms of spirit, my dear Nafalia, and enjoy the presence of your spirit family. We love you just as you are, and we care both for the person you were and the person you are, and know you can feel safe here. Pick a set of arms, m'dear, and all of them, or any of them, will gladly hold you while you express whatever of those emotions you need to express. We're here for you.

My love, and my understanding to you, dear one.

Namaste!
Shimaka

P.S. Sweet ones, before I even turn to the next page, I am going to take care of a few personal things for myself, like a badly needed bath, and redressing these whatever you want to call them, throwing a meal in the microwave, and I'll be back. My love to each and every one of you. With arms spread wide, I give you all one big Shimaka hug to hold you over until I return - a little cleaner and fuller, methinks. LOL http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif (((((**)))))

[Jeannie Jones]

Nafalia questions:

Imitation is the highest form of flattery???

My sister M.J., who is 13 yrs, older than me, for several yrs. now has, I felt, been dressing and acting like me because she wanted to be like me. She has vicariously lived her life through me for many years, because I was always courageous and did what I wanted to do, and she was just the opposite--did what was expected of her. She's always been fearful of life out of the expected realm.

I've always felt an underlying current of some kind of energy when I was around her, but it always felt like resentment.

After this last exposure to her during this current bout with these illnesses, I have come to SEE her for who she is. What I SEE now is something I've never been able to SEE clearly before. She is what I've always referred to as a "psychic vampire", an "energy stealer".

What I mistook as imitation was actually stealing my energy, and, since she was my sister, I never had my guard up. I often thought to myself when she tried to act like me that she only came off as being "silly", because I am very much a spiritualist, and of a more serious mind than she. So when she would say things that were just so inappropriate in the moment, and even sometimes embarrassing me in front of my friends, I often found myself apologizing later to them for her "off-color" remarks, which she thought were funny.

When my friend Chip brought me down from Kansas City, when this health issue advanced, was the first time she had ever met him. Chip is a very complicated, reserved person with a very intelligent mind. He stayed and visited a little while when he brought me to her house, and, of course, she had to be her usual self, the center of attention, and therefore said many goofy, inappropriate things. To the point that he asked me in front of her "are you gonna be all right here, or do you want me to rent you a motel room for a couple of weeks?". Because she was so busy having to be in the spotlight, (M.J. once made the statement that she would be the center of attention, no matter what she had to do), that Chip didn't feel like she was concerned about my health at all.

Chip called me every day for several days, to see how I was doing. One day M.J. answered the phone, and Chip greeted her with general conversation, but her reply was that she'd be doing better if she were having sex in the back yard. I was shocked and astounded that she would say something like that to someone like Chip, that she didn't even know!

When M.J. handed me the phone and left the room, I apologized to him for her making such an inappropriate remark to him, and he said "I was pretty shocked myself, cause I don't even know where that came from. The woman has a real problem."

For 13 yrs., M.J. dated a very wonderful gentleman, who adored her and treated her like a queen. Recently, he had an aneurysm burst, and was in a coma & on a respirator in Critical Intensive Care for 21 days, because he had no living will. He had 7 surgeries in 2 days, a leg amputated, and ended up w/ staph infection throughout his entire body, from being left "open" from the surgeries. They had to keep him "open", since they kept going in there. He was 80-something yrs. old. One of the nurses said "I've never seen a man so sick and still live".

M.J. was with him when the aneurysm burst, and called 911 (they had just been out dancing). She spent 3 hrs. with him in the Emergency Room until his family arrived, then she left. She told me "when I walked out of that hospital, I knew I would never return to see him". Even though his family called her and asked her to come see him, and even though the Dr. said "if he could just hear the voice of someone he really, really cared for, it would make it so much easier on him". Remember, she was the love of his life for 13 yrs.

He hung on for 21 days in a coma on the respirator, and everyone knew, including M.J., that he was waiting to hear the sound of her voice to tell him "good-bye", but she would not go be by his side. He's been dead for maybe 2 months now, but from the moment she walked out of that hospital it was as if he never existed.

Wally had spent 13 yrs. totally dedicated to her. When she had her last automobile accident, which was basically a fender-bender, she milked it for all it was worth for the insurance money, and it was a LOT of money.

Wally was by her side at her home, day & night, to take care of her. For years, he always ran the sweeper, swept the floors, did the dishes, anything that she wanted done, he would do. Under normal circumstances, Wally was never allowed to spend any more time than weekends with her. If he left a shirt, or anything, she'd tell him to come & get it--she didn't want it hanging in her closet.

Wally was the gentlest, kindest, most compassionate man I've ever met in my life (outside of my late Bruce).

She loves to dance, and he was a wonderful dancing partner, so her dance partner had gone down, & it was time to dispose of him as if he were a Bic lighter out of fuel.

It has not been easy for me to say these things about M.J., nor has it been easy to cut the bonds and sever the ties with her, because I truly love her. But she drains me totally. Now that I SEE the hollowness, I've been left no choice.

M.J. has a lot of money, but her philosophy is "I only want one more penny than what I have". Maybe this doesn't sound like much, but when you realize how much money she already has, and hoards, then you realize that that statement is the ultimate statement of greed. Money has become her God.

Her philosophy about money, I have come to realize, is also her philosophy about my energy. "I only want a little more of your energy than I already have." Her greed encompasses all things, not just money. She only does this with me, not my brothers & sisters. I've always been what she wanted to be, but was afraid to be, for I have always been the free spirit in my family. Now that I have come to SEE M.J., I understand what the undercurrent has always been.

I have not told you these things about M.J. to put her down, but to share with you the lesson that I have learned from being her sister. "Sometimes the enemy is within your own camp."

So, is imitation the highest form of flattery?

Love to all of you, my Spirit brothers & sisters. May the valuable lesson that I have learned and shared with you tonight, be one you never have to experience. Let my wisdom be your wisdom.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Shimaka:

...Nafalia, my dear, your story stirs my soul from within. I knew, from the moment you first appeared in our midst here, that you and I had something very special to share with one another, and now, you have brought it out into the open. Ah, the bad child, the black sheep, bad seed...


To Shimaka from Nafalia, out of Infinity:

When I heard the name "Shimaka", it came from Infinity. I tuned in and I heard that you & I are bonded from many lifetimes ago.

It took me a while to become comfortable enough to tell my story, but when I realized I was home, and in the arms of my beloved spirit family that surround me, each and every day, I knew that I could say what I needed to say, and not be judged for it. I also know, Shimaka, that the illness you carry and the illness I carry, does not belong to us. We are carrying it for others. We are carrying it for those who called us the "bad seed", the "black sheep". They can not recognize, grasp, or understand, the concepts that we perceive each and every day. Because they are weak, we are strong. Because of the indignities that we have experienced, from the ones that abused us, we have wisdom, power, and insight. Even though our bodies suffer, our spirits remain strong and free. For those that abused us, their bodies may remain strong, but their spirits are very weak, and they don't know freedom.

So, my beloved sister, Shimaka, from your loving sister, Nafalia, as the Native American people say, let us "talk the walk", and are we not so blessed to have so many walking with us? Even in the coldest darkness of the night, we are never alone. All we have to do is reach out and know that we have our beloved spiritual brothers & sisters all around us.

So, from out of the celestial, I send to you this night, as many of my spoons as you need, along with a bouquet of star-sprinkled tiger lilies. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Good night from Nafalia--

To all my brothers & sisters in the etheric realm, I now go to the Land of Nod, east of the sun and west of the moon. See you there. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Shimaka]

sTeVe, my sweet, twisted light brother, I am so glad to see you safe and sound, back home and ready to soak in the healing of your homestead, having enjoyed a wonderful day with the babies and your sweet soul spirit mate. Thank you for your prayers and energy sent my direction, sweets, for I have felt them coming my way, as I've felt all of you putting out lots of good stuff in my direction. How wonderful! I feel so blessed!

A huge thank you to each and every one of you for reaching out to me and sending me good energy and white light because I can tell you, it has not only helped, but it continues to help and make a very real difference in the healing of this infection. What a HUGE difference I can see and feel already. Methinks a new idea in medicine might have been born with this, and I can only hope that more will take advantage of this as, well, what a gift!

Bless you all! I am so sorry I've been gone. And, Deb, I will take your advice, and at least pop in and say hi even if I don't have enough oomph to make a whole post. I'll admit that I've felt guilty that I haven't had the energy to really participate so I didn't do anything, and I'm sure I could at least poke a hand up in the air and say me, hi, I'm here too. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif I'll do that from now on if I can't do more, okay?

I think I will do something strange like go check all that mail that's mostly SPAM pouring into my in box, look over at BTG and see what's a happenin', and if I don't fall asleep before, I may even look at the OF and see what's happenin' there. And, if I fall asleep, I'll know it's just one more bit of spirit healing coming my way, and I appreciate all of it, each little bit. Thank you, my friend. I love you.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[mtnviewsteve]

SpIrIt fRiEnDs, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Jeannie/DaBee, thanks for keeping the torch lit, and the LIGHT burning in my blissful absence. Ya'LL are "true" spirit sisters. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
So-o-o glad to be HOME with you and to at least hear Shimaka is horizontal & ALIVE. We ALL know the power of "distance healing" and the power of "group LIGHT" so let's continue the Dance of Love for All our sakes.
This is going to be a Gro-o-vy week ahead for the "whole fam damily" I promise. Again thanks for ALL the prayers of support and I humbly present to you our "Good Starts":
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**LOVE**Twisted-Healing LIGHT**
sTeVe. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
The pure presence of Life has taken form as all creation! The nature of all
things is sacred and whole, and this includes me. My nature is sacred and
whole, both in the abstract and in form. I recognize this day that my body
is a perfect reflection of the wholeness of life, and that I live within a
form of Spirit that is so incredibly intelligent, that it knows how to
rebuild itself every day.

My body is inherently intelligent, and it knows what it needs. I learn how
to listen to my body, distilling its wisdom into actions that support its
health, its strength, and its beauty. The wisdom of Spirit informs all my
choices, so I naturally choose the activities and behaviors that support my
body's wholeness. I discover that this isn't deprivation or difficult. I
always hold the attitude that whatever brings more life, more vibrant
health, and more joy into expression in my body is good, and desirable! I
give thanks for this natural inner tendency towards supporting my natural
wholeness.

I also know that anything that is out of balance in my body is completely
temporary. My nature is balance, grace, health, and strength. I listen
intently to what my body is telling my about what I need in terms of food,
activity, and rest, and joyfully follow this inner wisdom. these kinds of
choices naturally reveal my whole and pure nature. For this I give thanks.
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[Jeannie Jones]

Well, sweet ones, I've kind of gone all goggle-eyed, with mush-for-brains. Thought I could address a few posts, but it doesn't seem like I'm capable at this point. (Yawn)

Soooooooooooooo glad you're back, Shimaka. And you weren't wrong--there've been several forest breakfasts & meetings. Perhaps you'll write one, or someone else will.

Say, it just occurred to me today that maybe I could set up an identity on the bbs for Nafalia. I would still post for her w/ the phone on my shoulder, but she could speak as her own identity w/o having to show Jeannie Jones on all her posts. Can we do that?

So glad to hear from Shimaka, Steve & Lany. Y'know, it really seems to take a full complement to feel the group as a whole. Y'all were sorely missed. Missy, if you're busy or not feelin' too hot, you too can just drop by & say "hi". Becky, we haven't heard from you for a while. I think you lead a very busy life. Are you doing okay with it all?

Nafalia's been troubled w/ sciatic nerve enflamed, w/no pain pills for the past few days, I think we all know what that feels like, and admire her for still being able to write, although she's had to do it from her bed, via phone. She's been quite down, but I know participating in this spirit circle is a good lift for her.

Hope maybe tomorrow I can feel more coherent, and get a post or 2 out. Deb, I'd like to dicuss kundalini fire w/you, and did you get the last part of the note I sent you via private E-mail. I thank you so much for the great honor you paid me, and hope I am worthy of it.

Stop by, visit, come, somehow though that pass by seems as if they just pass us just right by without looking in.

Really, really need to go now. Love y'all so very much. Great "Good Start", Steve.

Oh, BTW, I went through all the pages of our thread and copied all links to disk. It can feel bothersome to go back & try to find a link someone posted, to explore those links, but have to go back pages & pages to find it. So I put them all in one place.

Okay, sweethearts, hope I haven't left anyone out. My warmest hugs to all. My constant wish for cellular perfection for all of us is paramount in my being.

Love to all, including Dale & Roger, hope you pop in from time to time.

Yawning I AM.............

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

Thought this was http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Hope you like.
**Peace**LOVE**Twisted-Healing LIGHT**
sTeVe.



"Treat people as if they were what they ought to be and
you help them to become what they are capable of being."
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

"Each snowflake falling from the sky manifests its own fluffy radiance of cryptographic imprint, of geometric perfection, of unique hope, and of the grace of God's beauty. How much more, then, can the soul that is receptive to the Eternal Fount, to the pressure of the flow of Cosmic Identity, remit its darkness by transmutation into pure light?"

Vol. 11 No. 20 - Kuthumi - May 19, 1968



The seed of greatness is sown in an instant, but in this world of ours everything great takes time to grow. This means that patience, mingled with persistence, is the special nutriment that sustains all things great. Therefore, should we wish to win the Great Life, we need only add equal measures of quiet watchfulness to our spiritual willingness and a Great Goodness cannot help but flourish within us.
Guy Finley


Just for the fact that we all must go through changes in this life does
not mean that we necessarily grow spiritually because of them. If merely
going through changes caused inner growth, then a car rusting away in a
vacant lot would soon become a realized being.

In the same way as a plot of standing ground cannot be transformed into a
fertile, productive field without one's dedicated work in overturning its
compacted soils, neither can our own soul be expected to reveal the riches
of her native contents without first awakening ourselves to what lies
hidden within her darkened earth. "

Guy Finley


Holding you in your highest; honoring you where you are;
and inspiring you to go beyond!
In the Oneness of Awakening
Marcela

If you are not currently receiving my daily letters
"Spirit and Love",
and would like to, please request it at

marfil01@arnet.com.ar




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[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Shimaka:
My sweeties,

Would you believe I have now spent almost 24 hours on this thread, gone nowhere else online...

...Nafalia, my sister, I feel as if we've both come home to the family where we won't be disbelieved, where we will be loved and accepted, protected, and respected, and there will be no abuse from within this family, nor any disbelief...



As I was reading all the posts to Nafalia last night, at this point I lost it and just sort of blubbered through the rest of it, stopping after every sentence to regain some of my composure. Well, as I try to get started on a new sentence, it seems I'm just unable to go back in there, so I know you know that we love you, and I'll just have to back out of this one.

Well, when I come here I re-read quite a bit before the last post posted, so maybe will write some more later.

Within the Universal Heart,

Jeannie



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[Jeannie Jones]

Lany dearest--

Glad you still have your long golden locks. Your hair is so beautiful, though I know it takes time & care to maintain it. It just makes me happy to see it, or to visualize it.

How wonderful that you were able to spend time with your son! Oh, dear heart, that must have been such a lift! Didja take pictures? How grand.

Well, it seems I spoke to Shimaka about our parties in the forest, when it was YOU who said it. Scrambled-eggs-for-brains you say? Coooooould be!

Always lovin' ya,

JJ

[Jeannie Jones]

Steve--

Thanks for the beautiful start. We'll have it to look at every time we come to this page. Of the Ascended Masters, I feel most connected to St. Germain. I wonder why the link didn't light up? Could it have been the .ar after the .com?

So happy you're back, Steve. We sure have missed you, even though you were gone for such a short time.

Well, hope my sweet brothers & sisters have a lovely day. I'm going to the rotunda to refresh & renew.

Thanks for being here,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by DaBee:
.... the last thing Mom told him was that he was "awful". He was the baby brother that could do no wrong in my Mom's eyes, so her telling him that was quite a shocker. I was standing right there at her bedside and realized how right she was. Felt though, that she created this monster by doting on him so much it always made me gag as a kid...

That must have been quite a shock to him, Deb, no matter how "awful" his actions may have been. It was as if she were re-birthing him--he had choices there, after hearing that from her. He could choose redemption--I think that's what she offered him. (IMHO.)


...Tomorrow I take the increased dosage on Methotrexate and just pray that it doesn't send me over the chemo edge. Driving to LR tomorrow as I have a very early Monday appt for the pre-op. Will find a cheap motel tomorrow night. The other day when I did the 7 hours of driving along with the appt, it sure exhausted me. When I have the surgery on Thursday, my son will do the driving!...

Hoping you endured the increased Methotrexate, dear heart, and also praying that your procedure went well. Surrounding you in golden light.

Have a safe trip home, sweetie. Glad your son will be driving. Already miss your posts. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Love,

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

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06-28-04
As we gather in the crystal garden of healing and LIGHT, the scenery is breath taking as flowers and plants of every species abound. The seats of comfort for us are the spongy but firm giant mushroom caps the fairies placed, arranged in a "sacred" quarter moon like circle with golden moss as the ground cover blanket. The sweet smell of flowers and something wonderful cooking blends with the fresh clean air and the crisp but subtle breeze.
Fresh fruit from every continent and the most exotic, plump juicy vegetables overflow the center table of carved quartz crystal. The garden path is lit with the giant crystals, each emitting a different color auraistic
glow as we pass to our seats. The ice cold juice and the warm fragrance of mint tea causes my stomach to growl as we smile and hold hands to give thanks for what promises to be the most beautiful meal and communion of Spirits ever. Join me as we give thanks and receive the "golden light."
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-Golden LIGHT**
sTeVe.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif DaBee, Shimaka, Missy, Nafalia, Jeannie, Lany,those we're not aware of,
Please feel the "Love Energy" and the Healing prayers we are sending out to you as you face these trials. You are ALL "WINNERS".



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[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Been posting to myself, it seems today, but I've had a ball, and my back pain is reduced with LIGHT Focus. You can tell I've had alot to do. The road grader discovered our water line this am, and the repair man w/backhoe found the phone cable, ALL fixed now, still a gro-o-o-vy day!

**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing_LIGHT**
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif sTeVe http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif

Found this no author, seemed fitting.

I am a messenger of Light. I am a pilgrim on the way of love.
I do not walk alone, but know myself as one with all great souls,
& one with them in service.
Their strength is mine. This strength I claim.
My strength is theirs and this I freely give.
A soul, I walk on earth. I represent the one.
http://www.lightinfo.org/maitreya/mantras.htm

and this:
Revised prayer of St Francis

Lord, I AM an instrument of thy peace.

Where there is Hatred, I AM Love.

Where there is injury, I AM Healing.

Where there is Doubt, I AM Faithful, and

Where there is Darkness, I AM Light.


Creator, through Unconditional Love,

I choose to be Compassionate,

I choose to be Understanding,

I choose Love,

I choose to See You in All Others and Myself,

I choose to Give, Trusting in my replenishment.

I choose to Allow, Knowing that all is in Divine Order, and

I choose to Surrender, Knowing that this truly is the path of freedom.

Daniel Whittles




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[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
[B] http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Been posting to myself, it seems today, but I've had a ball, and my back pain is reduced with LIGHT Focus.


Hi mTnViEwStEvE, deb here. Be naught fraught, therist be me S E E you and perusen to the hearten contenten verrrry muchacha.
Ahhhh, road rash of the brain as a higher form of unwiiiiinging after muchabuncha turns of the rodeo wheels.
It's like coming off of a roller coaster when I get back from a long drive in the country. Lotsa country to see too. There is no stopping the tangerineorangeclockwork, so must stop 'afore I begin tumbling head over heels, landing in a pot of gold dust, scattering it to all winds, coating the vanilla path of least resistance to the point of no return. Though, fear not, I shallllll return on my beautiful balloon; if I do say so myself. And I do. Woops, must quit with the I do's. Do not you think? Of course you do. I do too.
We'll be landing shortly. Thanks for flying.
............... http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/eek.gif ....................

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Alas, fair maiden, "Ye mustoff gone duck huntin' with a rake, careful , don't bump yo head. Remember when ya fly, everything is flameable. Throw out a few mo ballast we're just barely, clearin' the trees. One mo word: "Don't forget the boogiewink http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gifHope ALL is well with you, been sendin' LIGHT yer way!!! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Peace*Love* Double-Bubble LIGHT**
sTeVe,

[Shimaka]

Ah, my dear friends, Shimaka is very tired, and it seems I've done nothing but sleep, sleep, sleep, eat, bathe, sleep, sleep, you know how it goes. Believe it or not, I have yet to look at my mail since I said I was going to do that last night. I'm almost afraid to look at how many unanswered mails there are in my in box by now as my computer has been faithfully checking the mail on all my accounts every 10 minutes all along. As a matter of fact, I have not even rebooted, much less turned off, my computer since my last post or even since my first post yesterday. Methinks I've lost a few of the marbles I had left.

sTeVe, my dear sweet one, you are never just posting to yourself. I am so sorry if you feel that way because I know I am with you even if I appear not to be. What can I do to support you more so you do not feel alone?

Nafalia, my lovely, sweet sister, I knew that you would instantly understand what I was writing when I wrote it last evening. I do apologize for not responding to you earlier for I must have missed your post in between my own. We were most likely posting at the same time as I see your in between two of mine. Thank you for your perspective. It is most enlightening as well as loving and caring, nurturing, compassionate. I knew, as a child, that, one day, I would meet up with my spirit family where I would not longer be the black sheep or the bad seed, or perhaps, I would find that my spirit family was ALL black sheep and bad seeds, meaning none of us were. You put it into such a sensible perspective, and logical as well. Of course, it all makes perfect sense. Thank you so much for being there, for being you, for being available, and my goodness, thank you for the extra spoons! Please, my dear sweet sister, be sure to maintain enough for yourself. I will admit that I haven't had quite enough to run on of late. I feel a bit like my Subaru Justy used to act when it got to reserve on the gas meter. It kind of went along find until I had to climb the slightest bit of a hill, and then, chug-a-lug, chug-a-lug --- that's been me of late. I keep telling myself it's healing sleep that I'm doing, and it will be so! Bless you, sweet one.

Jeannie, my dear, how nice to see you on Bridging the Gap these last few days. Thank you for joining and jumping right in with both feet. Dreamer is a kindred spirit, and I've mentioned to her privately about our little group here so she knows we are here, and I do not know if she will join in or not, but she may. She is a sweet and loving spirit who has helped me out more times than I can tell you. More often than I can say, when I've needed something, it has just shown up, courtesy of Dreamer. She is quite a gift. And you, Jeannie, are such a wondrous gift yourself. Thank you so very much for transcribing Nafalia's posts, and using so many of your spoons in that way, my dear. Please, reserve some for yourself so that you can tell us what your needs are as well, and can tell us your stories too. Yes, of course, you can create a persona on the board for Nafalia. Just go in and register as if you weren't registered at all, and register the new name and password, and then, when you post for you, you can use your persona, and when you post for Nafalia, you can use hers. I don't have any trouble telling who is who, to be honest with you, but it might be easier if you were to create separate personas - I think it might be easier for YOU, my dear. And, since you've become somewhat familiar with BTG, now you know where I would suggest we might put the forum if we make one just for us. We could maybe keep things more in line with knowing who is responding to what, if we want to do that. I do think that we might have problems as we go along keeping things straight, hehehe, if we want to do that anyway. LOL Anyway, the offer still stands.

Deb, oh sweet DaBee, how is your spoon count today? I feel perhaps we could meet in B-ville sometime when I go over to see my doctor. I go next Monday afternoon, a week from now, or rather six days now, I guess, at 3:30 in the afternoon. Maybe we could meet somewhere for coffee or a soda or whatever. Or if you'd want to meet at the Dr,'s office, we could do that, then go wherever. I just think we could both use a good, long hug. What do you think? http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Missy, dear Missy, how are you doing? I still have that helmet in my van if you want to use it. I cringe at the thought of you falling and cracking that sweet noggin of yours. Having done it myself a few times, I know it is not the world's most pleasant experience, and if there is a way to prevent hurting yourself, why not take advantage of it? Have you had any word from the SS folks as of yet? I am so glad that you have your family close at hand and that they are supportive of you. Sending big hugs your way, m'dear. I hope to see you soon so I can deliver those in person. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Lany, dearie, it sounds like you are maybe feeling a bit better, or am I reading the tone of your posts incorrectly? The offer of the electronic synthesizer stands anytime you may need it, hon. As I said, it has the touch of about like an electric organ and 100 voices, including 7 different pianos. I especially like how light it is to carry which is why I was thinking of you, but as long as you have those young, strong arms to bring to the stage what you need, that's great! Are you still doing double duty with your work and your mom's as well? Please, keep some of your spoons in reserve for yourself, m'dear as we all need to be able to do some things that take spoons, and we forget about them in spending them on others. Take good care of you, K? Much love. XOXOXOX

Becky, oh Becky, are you ever coming home to Eureka again? We miss you!I'm so glad that you've stayed in touch via the bbs, but I'll admit, it would be nice to have your presence in town again. I don't think I'm alone in feeling that way either. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif Come visit sometime soon, k? Or, maybe we could plan an excursion to Hot Springs. Hey, now that would be a wonderful, healing thing for all of us, wouldn't it?

Patt, oh, Patt. Calling Patt! Are you around? How are you feeling? Think about it, woman, you actually started this with a little offshoot on the side in the OF. Where are you? Not that you have to be here or say anything, hon, just missing your input is all.

Have I missed anyone? Please, if I did, don't take it personally. I've not quite hitting on all thrusters, if you know what I mean. I think I ran out of spoons quite some time ago, which is probably why I fall asleep at the drop of just about anything. Doesn't even take a hat anymore. (G) Thinking of all of you with love, feeling you all surrounding me when I'm feeling lonely, and that is such a grand treasure. Thanks to you all for that.

Sending white light and rainbow sprinkles to everyone, and lots of love with Shimaka hugz too.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

Steve, sTeVe, StEvE,

Oh, what a wonderful night! I read your post from Maitreya, and thought--aha--Steve's exploring the Ascended Masters. So I go to the site, look around, then I see the lovely Sathya Sai Baba with a link to the Gayatri Mantra in his own voice.

I had participated in a wonderful Sai Baba discussion group for a few years, which folded late last year. The Gayatri Mantra in Sai Baba's actual voice was spoken of there, I asked someone to please post the link, folks said they would, and somehow they couldn't find it.

The link to the page that you posted, Steve, had a link to the Mantra, but I couldn't get it to work for me. After a little exploration, I got it--here it is--I share it w/ so much joy! I don't know if I can figure out how to make it loop, but I'm sure going to try.

So just scroll down the linked page below, look for the guy w/ the humongous afro, & you'll get there. I suggest that one might use it in the morning, when one states his/her intentions & alignments, or before or during meditations, whatever.

Oh, I just can't tell you how excited I am about this!

http://lightinfo.org/dir-esoteric.htm

Steve, also thanks for the fabulous repast! It was truly a beautiful piece of work. Thank you, thank you, thank you! And it will continue to be there, though we may partake and partake and partake, it will still be there! How wonderful!

Loving all,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

Deb--

Hapala returningchen to youn! So gladinga you backola!

Hope everything went just fine for you this AM, and you know our assembled energies will be with you Thursday for your surgery.

Love ya so much--a hug & a squeeze & a hug--

JJ

[Jeannie Jones]

Shimaka--

Fadin' fast here, but want to say that my needs are met, dear one, (other than getting together physically w/ our little group, & w/ any who don't post regularly--but, okay, that's not a need, but a want), and more of my story will unfold however & whenever it does. This I know.

I'm so very happy to bring Nafalia into the GJ here at any time and in anyway I can. BTW, she said to tell you that you should be able to go through Arkansas Assistance for the Aging (I hope I got that right), who, because of your physical challenges, will provide some in-home assistance for you.

There was something else (probably lots of something elses)--oh, oh, I've got it--Steve, thanks also for the altered St. Francis prayer. So very beautiful.

Sai Ram,

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Namaskar,
Happy Tuesday "Spirit Friends", hope WE are as well as Spirit allows. Really did enjoy hearing from everyone yesterday.
Was up and down a lot last night, so slept in a little this a.m.
Getting a later than usual start but feeling good to have another day of "living & learning."
***Jeannie, glad you found the "Sai Baba" link you were seeking, another example of "synchronicity" at It's finest. Last time we were in Eureka I got "A Compendium Of The Teachings Of Sathya Sai Baba" (739 pg.) at the Doggie Thrift Store, brand new, and "autographed" saying "With Blessings and Love" for $0.25. Only just beginning to browse through it. Would you offer some tips or selected readings for "Ascension" or what ever I need to begin my journey? I am still a "babe" in the woods of life and have lot's to learn about everything. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-Light**
sTeVe.
"TODAY'S POSITIVE VISUALIZATION:"

In my mind's eye I imagine myself filled with beauty,
light and love. I imagine myself going through my day
radiating love, light, and beauty with every thought,
word, and deed. I imagine others telling me they can
see and feel my inner beauty. I combine these images
with joy and let them go, knowing that they will create
the good things I am visualizing and thinking.

"Good Starts"

The source of Life is a perfect, pure, unlimited source of Good, from which
all things arise. Just as a wave on the ocean is made from the sea, I am
formed of pure spirit. I draw from Spirit all that I need to live...not to
merely exist, but to live and live well. I do this by means of natural
spiritual laws that create my experience based on what I believe.

Today, I believe at depth that anything is possible. I return to a state of
knowing that all things can be accomplished with the power of Spirit.
Whatever is needed in my life today, be it something tangible, emotional or
physical healing, or a new outlook on life, I believe that the power of
Spirit can provide it in perfection and balance today. Not only do I believe
it, I know that it is happening now. I don't have to know how this happens.
Not at all. I simply must believe...and must know...that it is happening in
me and in my life now. This kind of knowing causes changes that are amazing!
Spirit goes to work immediately, by means of natural laws, to create
perfection, balance, and all that I need.

I know that this is simply the way things work. Knowing this, I use these
wonderful laws by moving my belief more and more to the side of wholeness. I
give thanks to the beloved Spirit for its infinite care and precise action
in my life today. And so it is.




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[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Shimaka:
...Nafalia...I knew that you would instantly understand what I was writing when I wrote it last evening...


Of course I understood, for I have lived the experience, and through the experience comes the understanding.

In one of my essays called "Understanding", it basically states that--seldom does the understanding come at the same time that the experience does. It says--as we travel our paths of Wisdom, the experience is only a catalyst for an understanding at a later point of life. When the revelation of what the experience truly was about, the UNDERSTANDING becomes clear, I call those "Aha's".

The "Aha's" are like a bolt of lightening hitting us as to what really transpired at the time it took place.

Whatever the experience may have been, to make the understanding clear, was what was needed on our paths to make our spiritual growth occur, and, more often than not, accelerate, with the coming of the "Aha".

So when hit with an "Aha", the experience is no longer important; it is the understanding which becomes the focal point of the situation. The experience seems to fade away with the recognition of what it was REALLY all about.

Remember, "a road with no obstacles leads nowhere", so it's obvious to me that each of us must be going SOMEWHERE, for all the obstacles we're incurring! LOL!

I always hold 1 spoon in reserve as necessary, so all the spoons I send, I can afford to send. You're more than welcome to any input I give, which lends a helping hand to one and all.

To my beloved sister Shimaka, from your loving sister Nafalia,

As above, so below

Nafalia

P.S. Watch out for unicorns and rainbows--they're everywhere this time of year.

[Flaherty]

Phyl, It's me, your friend and neighbor! I have been reading this thread till my eyes are crossed. I had NO IDEA that you were having such a horrible time. Why didn't you call me? like on the phone.?? I could be of some help maybe? Did you know that you went to sleep in your car,not long ago? you made it home fine, the husband got you inside, but you scare me. So please let me help you for crying out loud!
That's my lecture for now.I will check back here later. Gosh girlfriend you can share your troubles you know! Did you think I wouldn't get it? I admit some things are over my head but I mean well. Love you my friend. bye bye for now!

[DaBee]

Originally posted by Flaherty:
Phyl, It's me, your friend and neighbor! I have been reading this thread till my eyes are crossed. I had NO IDEA that you were having such a horrible time. Why didn't you call me? like on the phone.?? I could be of some help maybe? ... So please let me help you for crying out loud!
... Love you my friend. bye bye for now!

Flaherty - what a wonderful, caring step that you have taken. I am so happy to know that you are Shimaka's neighbor. I've thought so many times that if I was closer, I'd pop in to check on her. 30 miles or so makes it very difficult, but knowing that you are close helps me make a big sigh of relief. Hopefully, when I get over to y'alls neck of the woods, will be able to meet you both. Oh, nice meeting you cyberly (is that a possible word?) http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif
lt&lv/deb

[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Shimaka:
Deb, oh sweet DaBee, how is your spoon count today? I feel perhaps we could meet in B-ville sometime when I go over to see my doctor. I go next Monday afternoon, a week from now, or rather six days now, I guess, at 3:30 in the afternoon. Maybe we could meet somewhere for coffee or a soda or whatever. Or if you'd want to meet at the Dr,'s office, we could do that, then go wherever. I just think we could both use a good, long hug. What do you think? http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Think it's a great idea. The doc, though, told me that I can't drive for 2 weeks after my surgery (thur.), but after that I'll be free wheeling, I'm sure. Looking so forward to meeting you. Hope you're getting rested today. Will try to get back here later this evening. C is having the lymph node removed tomorrow and I'll have the Grandbabes tonight. Then tomorrow afternoon will be traveling to LR again.

Real quick, a rainbow messenger told me, maybe a year ago, that everything that will be happening in my life has very good purpose. She said to not forget that every little thing is suppose to be. She singled me out of a room full of people to get the message to me. I am dealing with some of the most negative forces that I have ever encountered and I'm seeing myself as maybe not the most well intentioned individual that I always thought of myself as being. Think it's starting to well, kinda get to me. Actually feels like I'm beating up on myself. Kinda punch drunk. Know that I've been stuttering as far as what's going on is concerned. Am not trying to be secretive or gamey, just don't know how to put it into words. Guess it doesn't really even matter. My intention is to hold my hand out and let y'all take it and guide me, along with my Higher Power. Thank you, my spirit family, for the love and support.
light~love~deb

[mtnviewsteve]

Originally posted by DaBee:
I am dealing with some of the most negative forces that I have ever encountered and I'm seeing myself as maybe not the most well intentioned individual that I always thought of myself as being. Think it's starting to well, kinda get to me. Actually feels like I'm beating up on myself. Kinda punch drunk. Know that I've been stuttering as far as what's going on is concerned. Am not trying to be secretive or gamey, just don't know how to put it into words. Guess it doesn't really even matter. My intention is to hold my hand out and let y'all take it and guide me, along with my Higher Power. Thank you, my spirit family, for the love and support.
light~love~deb[/B]
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DaBee,
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Spirit Sister, I dare say there is not too much that I and most of the others have not already gone through, or are going through as we speak. I have been through abuse as a child, my mother committed suicide, I've been through two divorces, I have "suffered" alcohol and drug dependency,I have had numerous jobs that have failed, not my fault, BUT everything has served a purpose to make me a messenger of "Twisted-Healing-LIGHT! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Your "Spirit Family" here, and your "Soul Group" will always love you and be here for you. We don't judge or condemn, we just want to help you heal with the rest of us.
Feel Free, Spirit Sister to call on any/or ALL of us if there's the slightest doubt we may be able to help.
So grab hold of a mushroom stool, feel the glow from your favorite Giant Crystal, sip some juice or tea with us, and enjoy our "Happy Meal" upon the golden moss.
Blessings. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe
`Who are YOU?' said the Caterpillar.
This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. Alice replied, rather shyly, `I--I hardly know, sir, just at present-- at least I know who I WAS when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.'
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"For some minutes [the Caterpillar] puffed away without speaking, but at last it unfolded its arms, took the hookah out of its mouth again and said, 'So you think you're changed, do you?' 'I'm afraid I am, sir,' said Alice: 'I can't remember things as I used - and I don't keep the same size for ten minutes together!' 'Can't remember what things?' said the Caterpillar."

Lewis Carrol Alices Adventures in Wonderland



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[DaBee]

Good evening everyone. So strange; have my fingers on the keyboard posed and waiting on the brain to kick in. Guess I'm stuck in neutral. Fingers are working, but the brain isn't. I'm sure that at any moment now I'll tell me what to write. So while I'm waiting on me, let me tell you, StEvE, that I enjoyed tea today. Sipping the delicate brew flavored with honey from the bees at the clover field was delightful. It is always so relaxing to enter through the cave entrance and float down to the inner chamber and then follow the light to the rotunda. It has never failed to offer sweet relief from barometic pressures and gravity. And to now just float in the pure essence of healing light, I carry no more of what was. Now, I just Am. Thank you for reminding me that as long as I live in the moment, there are no expectations.

[mtnviewsteve]

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So glad to hear from you Spirit Friend
"DaBee", glad to glide you glimmering into gratitude so graciously, ain't that what friends are for? Let's party as soon as the rest of the Spirit Group shows up, I need a "boost" tonight myself.
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**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
"Cheshire-Puss," she began, rather timidly, as she did not at all know whether it would like the name: however, it only grinned a little wider. "Come, it's pleased so far," thought Alice, and she went on. "Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?"
"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the Cat.
"I don't much care where-" said Alice.
"Then it doesn't matter which way you go," said the Cat.
"-so long as I get somewhere," Alice added as an explanation.
"Oh, you're sure to do that," said the Cat, "if you only walk long enough."

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, y'know, I'd have joined the party sooner if I hadn't lost the post I worked on for about an hour, then looked through "History" and it wasn't anywhere in there, couldn't find it w/ my back browser, so here I am again.

My gosh, Steve, what an incredible book you got for a quarter! Synchronicity, indeed!

Well, my dearies, I'm posting 2 or 3 links which you might find interesting. Connie Shaw is solid, no crackpot. She has been a Sai Baba devotee for many years. I feel that this page has something there for you, sweet Deb, and the site also has info. on Sai Baba.

http://www.connieshaw.com/cbsnondualism.htm

Isaac Tigrett, who conceived and owned the Hard Rock Cafe, and then the House of Blues, (also married Ringo Starr's first wife, whom he adored until her dying day) is also a Sai Baba devotee. Here's a piece about him that's a compilation of various articles in print about him:

http://www.geocities.com/sentstarr/isaacbio.html

It's kind of long, but quite interesting (IMHO)

Here's another site for Isaac, which has photos of his lavish train car he traveled in for 5 years:

http://www.tigrett.info/

Well, that's all for now, dearies. My eyes are burning.

Love to all who enter here--

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

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Namasthe, we'll visit later.
***P**L**T-H-L***
Thanks for the links.
sTeVe0
TODAY'S POSITIVE VISUALIZATION:

I take an even breath and imagine myself surrounded by the
goodness of God. In my mind's eye I see the goodness
of God shining back at me as I move throughout my day.
The butterfly, the rainbow, the smile of a friend, and
the sounds of laughter all reflect God's goodness. For a
moment I imagine good things happening to me today. I
feel the joy and celebration these wonderful events create
in me. On the screen of my mind I see myself sharing
goodness with others and together we celebrate the goodness
of God. I combine these images with joy and let them go,
knowing that they will create the good things I am visualizing
and thinking.



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[mtnviewsteve]

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Namaskar "Spirit Friends",
Hope everyone awakes well, inspired and happy. Blessings.
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.

Good Starts

Life is always expanding, evolving, and unfolding in greater and greater
understanding and beauty. I am one with life, so this is also true of me.
Being one with the source of all wisdom, all intelligence, and all
knowledge, I continually am unfolding in my own inner understanding, both of
how the world works, and of how Life truly is.

I know that education doesn't start or stop with an educational system. It
begins in the heart. I open my heart to be educated today...not in the sense
of someone on the outside pouring something into me, but from the
understanding that education means 'to draw out'. I let that innate wisdom
be drawn from me in surprising and wonderful ways. I discover a wealth of
understanding within, and as every new realization dawns within, I give
thanks for my eternal and immutable connection with this One Source.

I am a life-long learner, always uncovering something new, always following
the thread of my curiosity. In truth, I am an adventurer of Mind! I give
thanks for the journey, and so it is.
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"Balancing Yourself With Touch"
"Self Tuina For The Head"
More than 4,000 years ago, Chinese healers mapped the meridians through which the body's life energy flows. As it became apparent that obstructions in the flow caused imbalances that led toward pain and illness, the practice of tuina, a combination of acupressure and massage, was developed. Tuina, through individual of combinations of movements, gradually helps the body cure itself, particularly of ailments such as tension headaches, migraines and soreness as well as sadness, anxiety and mood swings. When your chi becomes balanced, you are free to experience a confidence and energy like no other.

Tuina can be received as a treatment by a practitioner, our you can perform it on yourself. To perform tuina on yourself, begin by spreading your fingertips at the hairline and combing through the hair while applying a pleasurable amount of pressure, stopping at the neck.

After thirty repetitions, push and drag the middle and index fingers toward the hairline and through the hair over the center of the head, ten to fifteen times.

Next, place the center of your open palm on the temple region and press strenuously for one to two minutes to relieve tension. Circular kneading can then be used to relieve any discomfort. The thumb and index finger of each hand should move in a circular pattern over the face, never relinquishing contact with the skin.

To finish, place both thumbs on the hairline near the temple and rub forcefully backwards until all soreness and tension has disappeared.

Though the treatment is specific, the result is often holistic because when the chi of your body begin to flow unencumbered - pain, toxins and sickness are naturally purged. Self tuina, particularly when used on the face and head, creates a sense of awareness through touch that treats both mind and body, to leave you healthy, relaxed and peaceful.
For more information visit dailyom.com



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[Shimaka]

Good morning spirit family!

DaBee, my had is out and waiting for you to take it any time you like, or are led to do so. I will second what sTeVe said, all of it, about you being able to say whatever you need to say, and to add to that, there is no push here. Take your time. Perhaps, you don't know how to put it because the words aren't there yet. On the other hand, I know that there are many times that I can't quite find the words because I don't really want to find the words. You can get a no-frills guarantee on that one from my therapist, no doubt. LOL Of course, as has been said before, I'm only a phone call away as well so, if you'd rather talk than write, well, dial that phone, grrrlie. I know it's hard to get through on my regular phone because I'm always online, but the really nice thing about it is that I can always call right back on my regular phone so call if you like. It will always be good to hear your voice. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

You do have someone going with you for the surgery, do you not, Deb? I always check on things like this because I know how difficult it can be emotionally to face anything medical alone. Being single, I do it more than enough myself that I'm very sensitive to it when others have to face it so please, if you need someone to go with, let me know, okay? I am always game for IRL or spirit hand holding. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

sTeVe, I wish your back felt better. I know that sounds so small, but it really is bigger than the words. I hope you know what I mean. (((((*sTeVe*))))) I think you're wonderful, ya know. SMOOCHES! Those are sisterly smooches so . . I don't wanna get in trouble with anyone, k? http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Jeannie, I am so sorry you lost your post. Darn! I wonder what keeps happening to you that you spend all this time putting together a post, and then it disappears. I wish I could give you a geekly answer, but the only one I have that I absolutely know works is to write in a word processor where you can save every few minutes. Heck, I even save in the post window here, but I save to the clipboard instead of saving to a file. You just hit Alt-E-A which highlights everything in the window, then Alt-E-C which copies everything to the clipboard. Then, be sure to hit like the right arrow because the text will still be highlighted so, if you start to type, you'll erase everything. Of course, if you do, you can fix that right away by doing what I say below this. I do that about every ten minute or sooner when I'm working on a long post. That way, if I lose what I'm writing, all I have to do is hit Alt-E-P, and it pastes right back into the window everything up to the last point I saved. It's better than nothin' anyway. Hope that helps.

Well, I got very little sleep last night, maybe an hour or so, bur I slept most of yesterday too. Duh! Been doing all day sleeps almost all week long so I've just come to the conclusion that I must be healing and needing the sleep, but I wish I would sleep at night as well. Right now, I'm feeling like I had no sleep at all, which I know isn't true, given the rest of the week. I've also been trying to get off caffeine altogether, which I'm sure is adding to the morning lag so this morning I decided to give THAT up and am having a cup of coffee. I was only drinking one cup of coffee a day anyway so it's not like I had this huge problem or anything. I'm not even sure why I was trying to quit.

I'm happy to report, my dear friends, that I do believe the magic cream is working. I can't say for sure what all it is doing, but one tell tale sign is that the healed over sores that are just scar tissue had been abscessing after a couple of days so they were hard and raised, but now, whenever I take a bandage off one of THOSE to clean and redress is, they are getting flatter and less red all the time. Yeehaa! That must mean the trans dermal nature of the cream is getting through to the little nasties inside and saying "go away!!!" It's working faster on some than others, especially faster on those that still have a little opening that hasn't healed yet, but in any case, progress is being made, and I'm a happy camper. Yeehaa! I've also gone through about half of the prescription that the doctor gave me so I feel pretty certain he'll do that again on Monday when I see him. Medicaid doesn't pay for these compounded scripts, but I feel confident that, if I'm supposed to renew it, there will be a way to take care of it. I had a wonderful friend who helped me out this last time. Spirit, does indeed, work in marvelous ways.

I'm also finding out all kinds of new alternative type therapies that are available for things of the sort that I'm going through though none have been specifically tried on a MRSA infection. If need be after we're done with what we're doing, then I figure someone has gotta be first, right? http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Also, a good friend who is on an email list with me is an angel healer in Australia, and she is just completing her study in DNA healing techniques. Last night, she wrote me a post and asked me for permission to do a distance healing on me and also, for her group, that gets together once/week, and are all DNA and angel healers, to do a group healing on me this weekend. Nope, I'd never EVER pass up something offered like that. Ohmy, no. So, I sent her all the information she needed, and am just waiting to hear back from her as to what she needs from me, if anything. I'm really excited about this. It all sounds so fascinating. She is such a sweet and loving spirit, and our whole list has gone through the "education" with her as she's told us as she's gone through the various levels of the angel healing techniques, and I was going to ask her for an angel reading, figure out how to convert US to Aussie bucks, and pay whatever the going rate is. She offered what she did to me free of charge. I'm in awe. I will definitely let you know as we go along what is happening, etc. How exciting!

And, my good friend Dreamer sent me a really excellent article about some supplements I really should be taking to assist my body with what is going on and really that I should be taking anyway so it appears that the universe is acting on my behalf and just asking the people in the know to do something here and there. It's exciting to be a part of it!

My friend, I bid you adieu for this morning. I have a few things to do here then need to go renew my driver's license. I hadn't realized that they closed the Eureka Springs office so I need to go over to Berryville in order to do that and will be happy to have it done for another few years.

My love to you all!

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Flaherty]

Phyl, Good morning! If you have to renew your drivers license, that means you had or will be having a birthday soon! I forgot we are both cancers! Happy birthday my friend.I guess you didn't read my post because you do not know my new "handle". My Irish is showing. hehehehe! so I will say to you again neighbor, if you need me for anything, just call, or beep your car horn 7 times. I'll hear that. Feel well my friend. OTW Dr Bell finally changed my meds. but this is not about me. I have some Irish holy Water, I brought it back years ago . It's from Knock Shrine. A famous healing place like Lourdes in France. It only take a drop and belief. Let me know, I will share with you. Love friend!

[mtnviewsteve]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Shimaka:
[B]Good morning spirit family!

sTeVe, I wish your back felt better. I'm happy to report, my dear friends, that I do believe the magic cream is working. Yeehaa! Spirit, does indeed, work in marvelous ways.
I will definitely let you know as we go along what is happening, etc. How exciting!
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Shimaka, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Hugs right back to ya', so glad that yoy're getting some positive results. Keep the faith, as we are ALL "sending positive energy" your way, daily.
I go to orthopedic specialist in LR tomorrow. Appoint is at 8:30am so I'll be leaving 'bout 1/4 to 6ix with safety guy. Hope they can at least diagnose what the problem is and "find a cure", this old hippie is not used to being "restrained."
Everbody must be busy, kinda' quiet here on "GJ", glad to hear from you and hope everyone is WELL & WIGGLING.
P**L**T-H-L**
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[Jeannie Jones]

Yes, yes, Shimaka, good that the cream is working! Maybe you & doc have invented something that will be widely used. That would be so http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif !

Steve, you sure are doing a lot of traveling these days, w/ that healing back. Hope the trip is not too painful and serves you well.

I have my biopsy on that spot on my cheek today at 4:00 in Fay'ville. Could use some prayers and energy infusion, if anyone stops by the board between now & then.

Well, Flaherty, so glad you stopped by here, found out about Shimaka's conditions, and have generously volunteered your help. Methinks she may have a wee bit of difficulty in asking for it.

Love to all souls who float through here,

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
[B] http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif !
Hope the trip is not too painful and serves you well.
I have my biopsy on that spot on my cheek today at 4:00 in Fay'ville. Could use some prayers and energy infusion, if anyone stops by the board between now & then.

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Jeannie,
With loving prayers of Healing and LIGHT I send you the very best blessings with faith the biopsy will be benign. Infused ENERGY will fill you with the POWER of your "Spirit Friends" as we think of you always. Bless you and please may we hear from you when you return?
**Peace**Love**Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVeO.


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[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
[B][QUOTE] I go to orthopedic specialist in LR tomorrow.

You wouldn't happen to be going to the Med School Clinic for the specialist, would you, sTeVe? That's where I'll be 1st thing in the a.m. for the hand surgery. Wouldn't it be just fab if we ran into each other? Then again, we could run smack dab splat and I wouldn't have a clue it was you.....or would I? Is Maletha going to be able to go along? (((((((Healing vibrations)))))))sent to you for your back. Seems we've all pretty much have the back involvement in common. Like JJ said, it's about new energies and the chakra flow. I've had clearings before (anyone know Kit?), but get lazy and the entities creep back in. Creepy, huh? Find that sweat lodges really cleanse and clear alot, but haven't done that in quite awhile. The last couple of times they were just way too hot and I had to crawl out. Maybe next time the fire spirits will be gentler with me.
Ahhh, see that you just posted Jeannie, so will send this on and check with y'all tomorrow.
C had a bit of a rough time with the lymph node removal this morning, so the whole family will be traveling to Little Rock this evening. It would be too much for her to handle the 2 little ones alone and I won't be able to make the trip alone this time.
Thanks for offering to help me with the travel, Shimaka. Am sure that I'll take you up on it later when things are a bit more routine. Surgery is no fun to wait on. Took in the Riverfront Market a week or so ago and that was enjoyable. Can tell you that our produce at the B'ville and Eureka farmer's markets are priced much more reasonable than there. Had a nice lunch though. Wouldn't that be fun to do or even take in some art museums, Shimaka. Noticed that everything is very wheelchair accessable.
L8ter y'all/love and light and high vibrations/deb(orah)

[mtnviewsteve]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by DaBee:
You wouldn't happen to be going to the Med School Clinic for the specialist, would you, sTeVe? Is Maletha going to be able to go along? (((((((Healing vibrations)))))))sent to you for your back.
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Sweet Spirit, DaBee,
Thanks for the HV, need'um too! My appointment is at "Arkansas Spine Center"
500 South University. Maletha won't be gonig as "they" try to make this a "company function", kinda' all business, not much compassion. I've been more trouble in my short time working for them, than they feel I'm worth, I'd just bet! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Healing Prayers of Love & LIGHT to you tomorrow, along with safe travel energy. Will keep you close, and please reach out when you get back, Or Before!
Blessings Spirit Sister,
P**L**T-H-L**
sTeVeO

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by DaBee:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
[B][QUOTE] That's where I'll be 1st thing in the a.m. for the hand surgery. Wouldn't it be just fab if we ran into each other?


Oh, I hope y'all can arrange it. That would be just too http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif !

Thanks for the good vibes, y'all. I think everything will be okay, but we'll see.

Love,

JJ

[DaBee]

(((((((healing vibrations))))))) to you Jeannie. May the removal be swift and painless and the results of the biopsy be A-OKedoke.
love and light from your spiritsister
deb-o-ramadamadingdong

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, I see that our posts "crossed in the mail", Steve.

Steve, Deb, you know that you are wrapped in golden white healing light. Travel safely, my friends.

Sorry to hear that C had such a difficult time w/ her lymph node removal. Glad the family will all be together.

Love to all,

JJ

[Jeannie Jones]

Wow, Deb, I guess this would be a good situation to have a "chat" feature along w/ the board. I've never been to a chat room, but when 2 or more are on at the same time, it would really be great to be able to, well, I don't even know how that works, so I can't really complete my sentence.

Anywho--Not removal today, just biopsy. Maybe that determines the approach to the removal. I dunno.

Loves ya,

J

[DaBee]

Jeannie, I've been on one chat room and it seems real crowded to me, also it moves so quickly that I lose track of who, what and where is going on. It was a Kryon chatroom, but 3/4 of the people weren't even aware of what Kryon was. What works well for me is Yahoo Messenger. It's like having a conversation and you can also do like a conference call with several people involved. My sis in Oregon and I talk everyday on YM and it saves lots of nickels.
My family and I are saying that this is "Medically Involved Week". Guess that goes for all of my families! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif
byeeeee/lv/deb

[PMilam]

Whoaaa Nelle!
My plate has been full for the past few weeks, and it has been since page 7 that I last read a post! Sooo.. I can't catch up with all that is going on, but, blessed be!
Any of you have storm front syndrome.. or what ever it's called? I used to give my SIL a hard time, because she had what she called "storm front illness". It seems that lately, when a big storm comes in, I wind up with a puking migraine. We really needed the rain, but I didn't need this. Oh, well.. what's new.

I just had that fabulous pleasure of Women's Weekend. Some of you have read my story(still unfinished), about the Rites of Spring, that is a tradition.. of 30 some odd years.. well, WW was started by some of the women that also attend that celebration. We had all lived in adjoining counties, and many have moved away. It began as a way to get old friends together, and as we each brought new women friends, and as our girls reached menses, they joined, and brought their friends, and nursing babies. We used to meet at the Riverview Hotel in Calico Rock, but as we grew in numbers, we moved to Wit's End, across from Courseys, near the Buffalo River. It's a grand place for a gathering, and besides sleeping 15 in the main house, there is a bunk house, that provides room for about that many more.. when the numbers swell, there are 5 couches between both places.. if you are looking for a family reunion spot.. it's great.
Anyway.. I always come back from there, refreshed, loved on, and usually with some goodies. We bring our cast away clothes and have a festive time trying on clothes, finding something perfect for another... and this year Mary Gillihan... used to be the Folk Center's school marm, now, does their hospice program.... anyway.. she brought her hankie drawer! hundreds of hankies.. we all were to take at least one.. and the memories that some of them evoked.. I had forgotten that I used to take my milk money, pennies, tied in a hankie.. and another woman brought a huge box of lavender, which was transformed into wands, little baskets.. and the whole place smelled wonderful all weekend long... now, I have my wand to sniff, when I want to bring that energy back to the forefront.

Somewhere in several posts, there was conversation about relationships with siblings. It never ceases to amaze me how my siblings and I remember different incidents, ways of being, etc. My take on a lot of it, is simply that we were different ages, and saw things from a different perspective. (I believe it is in Seven Arrows, the preface, that the story is told of being in a circle with a single feather in the center, Everyone is asked to describe what they see. Of course everyone sees it.. from their perspective. There is very little that we all saw in the same way.

I, too have a brother that... hmmm... I don't like. Becky has met him. Becky saw him the day he broke a window, downtown, took some jewelery, and walked home, leaving a trail of blood, from cutting himself on the glass. He pops in and out of our lives, and our mother has finally, the last time, said that she didn't want to have to do what she knows she has to.. not open the door to him. Call the police on him. She just doesn't want to see him.

I held a hard grudge against my other sister.. not Jude. I was the oldest, she was born when I was 4. She took my place. She was daddy's favorite. (she says, now, how do you think that made me feel?!) She had darker skin, no freckles, dark hair, she was beautiful. It was not until I was closing in on 40 when I finally saw that I had added to her pain by always seeing... and pointing out her shorcomings, addictions, lifestyle.
It took a year or so, for her to understand that I really was trying to love her, help her, elevate her, in any way that I could. And it was not the kind of help that I might have given in the past... from a place of superiority.
We love each other dearly now. And love to see each other suceed, flourish, and be blessed.

My younger brother is coming this week, and I can't wait!!! My mother was pregnant when I first married.
He is only 11 months older than my first born, Loretta. For most of our lives, he stayed away from all of us. Craig and I took a vacation some years back, and wound up staying part of the time with him, and got to know him a bit.. then, about 5 years ago, we all were together in Austin, for my neices wedding. We talked about some of the 'issues' that we all dealt with in our family, with our parents, with Catholicism, and it's horrors.. we found that we not only loved each other, but we all liked each other.
['bad brother' was not there]

So, this is the 4-5th visit he has made here, since then. He has a daughter, his first, that is just 2 weeks older than my grandson, Kole. His SigOther has a daughter that is 11-12. He has amazed us all at his taking on fatherhood, first with his step daughter.. and now with Eden Love.

Boy, I don't know if any of this has anything to do with anything.. but, as Jude and I have said for years.. Everything Is Everything.

So, you will probably have another 3-4 pages by the time I get back.
Blessed Be.

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I'll be looking at the moon, but I'll be seeing you.

[mtnviewsteve]

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JJ,
We are hoping you have made it home safely and that you will get a "good report" real soon. Lots of Healing Light shining on you. Please let us hear from you when ya' can.
Sister Shimaka is still on our hearts and in our prayers as is Spirit Sister DaBee. Sending prayers and Healing to you both. DaBee have Safe Travel both ways. Let us hear from you both. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**Love**Twisted-healing-Light**
sTeVe

[Jeannie Jones]

Hello, sweet spirits, from both Jeannie & Nafalia***

I can't use my glasses right now, so there may be some strange words in this post. Will tell yu my little story later, but right now I have Nafalia on the phone, so we might as well hear from her while she's here. O-K ?

Nafalia says--

Just one more week and I will see my neurologist for the results of the MRI, and then I will know what he's going to do. Got a little antsy and called the internal diagnostician to see if the results of any of the bloodwork had come back yet. Spoke with her nurse and Dr. Yerra sent word to me that, no, none of the results had come back, but as soon as the results are in, I would be the first to know.

Dr. Yerra is waiting on the results of the bloodwork to decide if she will put me on serotonin, and if there's any hidden virus or anything that keeps me running this low-grade fever. Just hoping that the doctors can put these pieces of the puzzle together, because after 7 years of the vertigo that's there 24/7, I have to admit I am growing very weary. Not one of my better days, not one of my worst. Goint to close early tonight.

P Milan, or whoever it was who posted about the "storm front symdrome", I understand it thoroughly, because of the migraine-vertigo. I experience it most of the time starting the day before the storm gets in the area.

I also experience it on a daily basis, whether there's a storm or not, simply because of the barometric change and the vertigo. So when I went down in March and unable to get back up as of yet, it happened at 2 AM, during a very bad storm. So, you're not crazy--it really is true. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Have all of you in my thoughts and my prayers, holding you tight, for it seems like all of us are going through so much in this time.

From your loving Spirit Sister, (who is very tired of being horizontal) I will grab the golden thread and meet you in the rotunda.

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, my dear friends, I had a lovely experience today. My plastic surgeon (geez, I never thought THOSE words would ever pass through my lips [or through my finger tips]) anyway, when I saw him those few months ago, referred by the laser guy who was going to take off my face seb. ker., (boy, thos LONG sentence is quite convoluted, but please bear with me. No glasses. Anyway, the laser guy took several photos of it from several different angles, and I guess anything odd he comes across, he has to pass to Dr. Atwood for his approval. Well, cute-plastic-surgeon-kinda-longish-haired-guy wouldn't authorize the work--wanted to see me. (I'm recapping here.)

So the first time I saw Dr. Atwood, he said that he wanted to take a biopsy, just going into the center, taking a wee bit, and closing with 1 stitch. (Dr. Ginger, dermadoc, had frozen it off 3 times before, but the last time I saw him, he wanted me to have it lasered off--recapping again.)

So today I got there at 3:45 and didn'5 get called in 'til 5:45. It was quite a pleasant wait, though, I just kinda prayed a lot for our friends going to L.R. tomorrow, for Nafalia in her blind isolation, unable to enjoy her wonderful courtyard due to lack of someone to take her out there, lest she fall or go flat from the "spinning", and I just consciously had y'all there with me. Sometimes I just looked around and just smiled and smiled, just pumped full of joy & love that I felt "high".

Anyway, I asked if Mom could come in with me again, that it helps to remember if we both go, nurse said "sure", but then when we were in the room, nurse said--well, are you sure your mom will want to see this? I said "see what?". She said "well, we're going to remove a lesion from your chest". I said, "oh, no, no, no, we're going to BIOPSY my CHEEK!" She went back to the office and got it right, and from then on everything was absolutely great.

I lay on the table/bed/whatever, comfortably, but since they had no cervical pillow (neck roll) I asked the nurse to kind of roll the bottom of the thin pillow so that my neck would be supported, to minimize the tremors. So we waited for a while (it was quite cold). Nancy explained tonight that they keep it cool to dis-encourage staph or other bacteria to find a home. Nurse brought me a blanket and tucked it all around me. I felt cocooned & comfy, but Mom was cold.

When Doc came in & was ready to look at it with the jazzy lamp--wow, it was so beautiful! It was like a half ball--hollow, and the inside was like a disco ball--all mirrored squares. When it was turned on, there were several color bulbs in it--an aqua, a rose, and a gold, I think. So pretty! But I digress.

(Oh--I love it. I just now looked up & there was a disco ball on TV--X-Files--the one about the Great Mutato--kind of Frankenstein story, which ended so beautifully--where the whole town took him to see Cher, his idol, since watching her in "The Mask", and how she had loved that misshapen boy. Okay, I digress again.)

So Doc looked at my cheek w/ the pretty lamp, turned WAY bright, JJ eyes closed. Then he turned it down again and told me I had 2 options. He could take 1 bit, there would be 1 stitch, or he could do what he would like to do, and take from 3 places in it, which would require an incision, w/ maybe 10 stitches. I asked if that were a tissue biopsy as opposed to a needle biopspy, and he said yes. He also said there'd be no extra charge for doing the incision, if I chose that, which REALLY was startling, because of all the extra work it would entail--oops, I think it's leaking. Okay, back now.

So in order to decide, I asked--so if you make the incision & take from 3 places, then you'll get a true read on it, where if only 1 is taken, it might be a false read--he saidyes, so I said--make the incision, but numb me good, doc. He said that the only pain I'd feel would be from the numbing shot.

Yes, the shot stung, and he left it in there a long time. I said that it felt like he was kind of sweeping the needle around and around under the skin. He said that was what he was doing. A short time later, he showed me tweezers, and said that he was going to touch me all over the area w/ the tweezers. I felt it not.

During the procedure, every step they took, they told me in advance. He was so very calm and centered, and I absolutely trusted him/them. The nurse shielded Mom's view, sometimes w/ her hand, sometimes w/ her body, so she wouldn't see ...well, Im sure this is more info. than you'd like to know, but I just feel like talking about it. Hope you don't mind.

W/my eyes closed, I saw the most wonderful color play. I got blue from him, and purple from her. There were other colors in there too, though, and sometimes patterns.Didn't take long--he worked swiftly & deftly, and it was done. She cleaned me all up--(she had painted that half of my face w/ Betadine before the procedure).

So he told me how to take care of it, wants me back in a week to take out the stitches, gave me instructions on paper (thank God), and that was that. Won't swell so much if I sleep kind of sitting up as much as possible.

Mom & I were both really hungry, & stopped at Long John Silver's in Rogers on the way home. I had no pain, but at 8:10, in the middle of our meal, I took a Vicodin to prevent pain. Just now took another one, w/ a snack.

Mom said the stitches are nice and small and even. Oh--of course, we (Doc & I) talked about options if the biopsied material turned out to be benign or not.

ANYWAY, I have a slightly crescent-shaped ummm I don't know---group of stitches on my cheek, horns up, (but at a slight angle), kind of an Isis moon.

Thanks so very much, you dear ones for sending prayers and/or energy my way. I love you so much.

How very nice for Lany to post today, thanks, sweetie, and what a rare treat for Ms. Milam to stop by and give us a bit of her story, too. Doesn't the WW sound grand?

Oh, I just feel so full of love that I might pop!

Well, hope you have good experiences tomorrow morning, Steve=o & Deb-o-pollywollydoodle.

Jeannie-full-o-love

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[mtnviewsteve]

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Namaskar-Spirit Friends,
Just a quick thank you JJ, for the "well wishes", and so enjoyed reading about your procedure, loved the LIGHTS and your bravery and imagination, almost "trippy". Hope you feel as wonderful today as you sound. Well Energy of Love & Comfort to DaBee today also. Hope our paths will cross. Will talk later, on my return. Blessings.
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
TODAY'S POSITIVE VISUALIZATION:

In my mind's eye I imagine myself filled with
great joy and happiness. I feel the warmth of joy
and happiness in my whole body. I imagine myself
going through my day with a light heart, smiling,
and enjoying being present with happiness. I give
thanks for the joy and happiness in life and trust
that God does indeed want me to be happy. I combine
these images with joy and let them go, knowing that
they will create the good things I am visualizing
and thinking.

[Becky Davis]

Deb, is this outpatient surgery? If you are going to be in a few days, I will come see you.

[Jeannie Jones]

Thanks, Steve, I went to bed at 5:30 this AM & awoke at 11:00 w/ no circulation in my L. arm because of my position. Also, because of my position, I see VERY little additional swelling at the site of the stitches. Lookin' good. Hardly hurting at all there, today, so no more Vicodin for me. (BTW, the tissue biopsy on the cheek is NOT as big a deal as a t.b. of the breast.) Feelin' fine today.

N. is way down today, with another flattening attack of the vertigo. Her appt. w/ neurodoc was set for next Thursday, but she called him today & asked if he could squeeze her in earlier. She's set for Tuesday w/ him. Hope the bloodwork results are in by then. He thinks the only other thing he can do is MRI her head, that same day. Let me emphasize here, that she is way, WAY down. She needs every bit of support & Light that you can spare.

Today is the birthday of her dear, dear Bruce, who was with her for 1 glorious year until his passing. She was going to tell you the story of Bruce today, in honor of his B-day, but don't know if she'll be up to it or not. We'll see.

Becky, that would be so cool--if you could see Deb today, but I don't know her plans for the day, only that her surgery was scheduled for first thing in the morning, so I expect she left before your post. Her daughter-in-law's name is Chrystal Thompson, I think, so if you check hospitals, maybe you could trace her if C. is still there. Her own name is Deborah K. Thompson.

Steve, BTW, thanks for the interesting Tuina info. Ive never heard of that before. (and for the website, which I haven't gone to yet, but sounds interesting.)

Let's see--was it Deb--yes it was--who spoke of Kit. Yeah! I ran into her in Ryan's one day, maybe last year. She told me what town she had moved to & how to find her house, but I FORGOT EVERYTHING!--the swiss cheese mind thing. If anyone knows what town she's in, please let me know.

And JG--what a gift she is. Glad she's back in E.S.

Well, I need to go print out those documents for N. and send them off.

Love to all, my spirit brothers & sisters,

Jeannie http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

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[Jeannie Jones]

Of course, once again, best of love and healing vibrations to dear Steve and dear Deb. You are always in my heart, which is filled with so much joy for all.

Love,

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

Spirit Friends, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Thanks for ALL the prayers and positive energy directed my way.
Just got back from LR w/new diagnosis (Piriformis Syndrome) kinda' like spinal sciatic, stenosis. Prescribed 15 sessions of physical therapy, also Bextra, for pain & inflammation, and will do an EMG test Wed. July 7, of course back to LR. Dr. was very knowledgeable and tried to make sure I understood we were still grasping right now. Poked & prodded me pretty good, found spot on right hip that when pressed made my right leg so numb, suspect nerve blockage. Still pretty sore, but OK.
Hope DaBee has successful surgery and feels our prayers as I did.
Thanks again "Spirit Sister" Jeannie. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe
***Nafalia,
Please feel the love, comfort, and Blessings of Healing as I concentrate on directing the LIGHT to you, to lift your Spirits and Give YOU Peace.
God Bless, Sweet Spirit Sister Nafalia.

What is Piriformis Syndrome?
Piriformis syndrome is a rare neuromuscular disorder that occurs when the piriformis muscle compresses or irritates the sciatic nerve-the largest nerve in the body. The piriformis muscle is a narrow muscle located in the buttocks. Compression of the sciatic nerve causes pain-frequently described as tingling or numbness-in the buttocks and along the nerve, often down to the leg. The pain may worsen as a result of sitting for a long period of time, climbing stairs, walking, or running.
Bextra® (valdecoxib tablets)
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Common uses
This medicine is a nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drug (NSAID) known as a COX-2 inhibitor used to relieve the symptoms of arthritis (osteoarthritis, rheumatoid), and menstrual discomfort. This drug works by blocking the enzyme in your body that makes prostaglandins. Decreasing prostaglandins helps to reduce pain and swelling.



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[Shimaka]

Well! It is surely rare to find me speechless; however, I haven't a clue where to start. It's only been a day, and I feel like I've missed a week's worth of going's on.

Flaherty, now, woman, I don't know where I've seen you post with this name before, but you said I didn't respond to you so I must have missed something. I be sorry, m'friend. This IS Sammie, right, as in Deni, or the gal across the big lawn with the guy who likes to ride the lawn mower? LOL The gal with the great Charlie dog who Medi talks to every day whether I want him to or not. So nice for you to have found your way here! I've always known I could call on you, sweetie. Thanks so much for the reminder. And yes, it IS creeping up on my birthday. Tis the 7th, next Wednesday, or rather, this coming Wednesday. I just found out they are having a party for me at Myrtie Mae's at 5 PM on Wednesday, and I'd be thrilled if any of you would like to come. Only thing we have to do is make sure they know how many places to make at the table so if any of you can make it, please call the Inn of the Ozarks and ask to talk to Dave Heilemann. Just tell him you want to come to my birthday bash, and he'll put another place at the table. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif How cool!

Laney, thanks for dropping by even though your time was short. You said a whole lot in a small space, doll. Thanks for offering your energy and thoughts for our spirit family members who are undergoing procedures of one kind of another today.

And Patt, t'was wonderful to see you stop by and chat a bit, tell a few stories, etc. You have the best stories! I'm just so sorry about your one brother. Wow! WW sounds perfectly, well, perfect. You are a part of so many terrific groups of people. I'm just in awe. How gifted you are to draw to yourself such people!

Nafalia, m'dear, sweet one, please don't let the depression get you. I know how hard it is to battle as I do it every day myself. Please, reach out and touch someone, and let them and their energy give you a boost. Let the colors and visions inside your mind give you healing and allow yourself to soak up all that good stuff being sent your way from this group of souls too.

Steve, I am so glad they are digging to get to the bottom of the problem, but I'm sorry it causes you pain for them to do so. Hopefully, the answer will be swift in coming and the cure as swift in working its magic for you.

Jeannie, thank you for sharing the whole of your experience this afternoon. I felt like I was right there with you. And, I was certainly trying to be so I hope you felt me there. Your doctor sounds like a wonderful human being. What a gift he is! If what has been biopsied must be removed, will he be the one doing the surgery? He just "feels" good.

Deb, m'dear, I wish we knew if you were having an outpatient procedure or if you are in the hospital. I guess none of us thought of asking about that. I know that, when I had my hand surgery a few years ago, and it was pretty complicated, I was at the surgery center at 6 AM, they started surgery at 7:30 and finished a little after 10, and I was rolled outa there and into the front seat of a friend's van (literally rolled 'cause I was still way out of it) by 11 AM, back in Eureka before Noon. I'm not necessarily advocating this as a good way to do surgery; however, if mine is any indication, it's possible that Deb is home and just trying to find her wits at this time and we might not hear from her until tomorrow. Remember, too, that she will be a one-handed typist so that will slow her down considerably. I was lucky with mine and had my computer all set up with word recognition software before I ever went to have the surgery so I could still "write" by talking when I got back. I've wondered about something like this for our Nafalia. The word recognition software is inexpensive these days, and very easy to use. You can use it in any application from email to these little windows for the bbs to word processors, etc. Tis a thought anyway. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Becky, how nice of you to offer to go be with Deb if she's in the hospital! I know she told us somewhere along the line which hospital because I asked her so if we don't hear something by tomorrow relatively early, we can go back through the postings and find that one where she said where she would be having the surgery performed. Becky, you are such a sweet spirit. And thank you, btw, for your one comment in the OF, supporting me in my trying to get the discussion back on the issue and off the person. You stepped in at precisely the right time, my friend, and people look up to you. I am in your debt. Muchas gracias.

My friends, I thank you for your continuing support, and the love and energy you've sent my way and continue to send. Remember that the offer still stands to create a bbs form of email list just for this purpose. If we're not ready yet, that's fine. Just a reminder that the offer stands open. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Much love to all of you.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Shimaka:
we can go back through the postings and find that one where she said where she would be having the surgery performed.

(all of my medical stuff is being taken care of at the U of A Med School Outpatient Clinic in L.R. on Markham)

Love being able to read so much from everyone, and for that I am eXtrmely grateful. Guess everything went ok, they gave me some twilight med stuff (the anesthesiologist called it "happy juice"...said that we were gonna have a party in the OR suite but that I would be the only one on drugs http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif Think that the steroid injection into the thumb joint is hurting the most right now. It was basically a carpal tunnel surgery that would relieve some of the nerve pinching and help reduce pain from the RA - they hope. Will know for sure in 2 weeks. Very common type of surgery, especially for women my (our) age. All bandaged up so can't do dishes or really anything for the 2 wks.....awwww, isn't that too bad http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/rolleyes.gif ? Gosh Becky, now I wish I could have stayed in for a few days so that you could come see me. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/tongue.gif: Maybe the next time I go to LR we can meet for lunch. Invitation is still open for you to stay with me when you visit Eureka.
Missie - hope you're reading this and all is ok with you. Sure have been thinking of you a lot.
Gosh PMilam (may I call you Patt?), sure was happy to see that you posted. Our sibling experiences are so very similar. Thanks for sharing and caring.
Lany, as always, love to see when you drop in. Have you been feeling well? oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyy
I was given some Percocet for the pain and it suddenly feels like I just fell down a well. I have much to say to everyone, but don't think I'm gonna be thinking too clearly. So Shimaka (so glad to see your connection with your neighbor), sTeVe (so glad to see you made it to and from LR and with a dx in hand, to boot, ok today) and sweet Jeannie (was glad to see that you had the thorough biopsies today) and Nafalia (oh sweetie, I'm feeling your off tilt and am sending balanced vibrations [the best I can]), and probably others that my mind is not recollecting....we'll talk later, ok? The stuff they gave me pre surgery is, I guess, still in my system and I am one real wacko space cadet right now. Tomorrow we find out about C and the lymph node. They couldn't get it all out and said it was wrapped around her femoral artery. Also that it was "mushy" though it could be scar tissue from being a runner. Positive light please for this one sweet little momma of my grandbabies and love of my son's life and best friend I've every had. I call her my daughter, which really confuses people.
C and I talk about all of this sudden medical problem with her a lot and know that we'll all face whatever this is with positive light and one moment at a time. We've been doing this for each other for different things the past several years. She is my spiritual siser as well. She's determined to run the Olathe marathon again next year, so she's one spunky little lass, also.
graditudinally loving all you peoples and fairys and angels and guides and singers and tap dancers and musicians and artists and old hippies like me and mentors and crones and shy ones and cooks and bottle washers and twisted brothers and sisters//
deb-o-youlightupmylifer

[Jeannie Jones]

News from the front line from Nafalia:

As y'all know, the last couple of months have been rather difficult and no relief in sight. I called my neurologist and spoke with him tonight, around 7:00, and told him that the attacks were getting more & more, heavier & heavier, and I was losing ground and getting weaker.

We talked for a few moments and he told me to come to his ofice in the morning (he's not usually there on Fridays, but he will be there tomorrow morning to see a few patients) and I should be there by 9:00AM. I told him in tears that I could not take many more of these attacks, that I'd been in bed all week long, and I was getting weaker and weaker and could he please, if I come down, just put me in the hospital and find out what's wrong and what to do.

He said that we would have to try steroids, and I reminded him that on steroids I have grand mal seizures. He was very kind, and he said, "Nancy, I can't wave a magic wand and make you well. I wish I could, but I can't. We've done everything we can, and we're going to have to call in another specialist, and we'll probably have to do steroid therapy." He said to bring the things I would need to be admitted to the hospital.

This is not Meniere's Disease, but we're going to treat it like Meniere's Disease, because it's been going on way too long, and not responding to treatment. So it looks like I will be at Skaggs Memorial Hospital for a while, at this point, unless something changes. I just know that I am tired, and weary, and that whatever they're going to do, I'm just going to agree to it, because as I told Dr. Sharlin, "I trust you, and I still trust you, and feel that I am in the best of hands".

So at this point, my bags are packed for the hospital, all my legal documents are in order, and I guess I will know more when I see him tomorrow.

Thank you all for your love and your prayers and your support, and I know you are always with me.

I don't feel like I'm depressed, I just feel very frustrated, because it's been going on so long and it's so hard, and the sciatica is just one more aggravation that will have to be dealt with while I'm there.

I told Dr. Sharlin that I have trouble with food, because I just don't have any interest in eating. I eat only the foods which I'm allowed to eat, which aren't very many. I told him that my head feels "full" and sometimes like it's going to burst open. He said that that's part of this disorder. I can get up for a few minutes, then sometimes I'll have a light spin, and then sometimes it's a "heavier" sensation, so I just go back to bed, curl up in a ball, and go to sleep. Between the back, the sciatic nerve thing, and the head thing, I don't know if I'm coming or going.

Hope everyone is faring well with all they've been through. Seems like everyine's been cut, whacked or smacked. I myself sometimes feel as if I've been flung against the wall, and then just melted down the wall when I have an attack, and all I'm really doing is sitting down in a chair for a few minutes. Can't sit but for a few minutes, can't walk around but for a few minutes, and then when I lie down, the damn back and nerve get worse, because the pressure's taken off, and the pain flairs up. Steve can probably relate to all of thatback and leg pain.

When I get up, the head flares up, when I lay down, the back flares up. Sometimes when I'm up, they both flare up. My world is getting smaller and smaller and smaller. (Go ask Alice!) Now my world is boxed inside my body.

I've come to the conclusion that if somebody could just move that wall that I keep being slammed into, a couple of feet farther away, my landing might be softer.

Well, enough of my waaa, waaa, waaa tonight. I'll go to Branson tomorrow.

So now I'll take a Valium, go to that wonderful place east of the sun and west of the moon, the Land of Nod, wake up tomorrow full of love with all of my spirit brothers' & sisters' love and presence with me.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

***Sweet Spirit friend, Nafalia,
My heart goes out to you for the pain and suffering you are having to endure. You will be in my "positive thoughts and my energy prayers". Even though we've never met, I love you and your beautiful "spirit".
Please do not give up as we pray for MIRACLES for you. Found this and IT made me think of you and our "GG":

Native American Prayer: Hold On

Hold on to what is good,
Even if it's a handful of earth.
Hold on to what you believe,
Even if it's a tree that stands by itself.
Hold on to what you must do,
Even if it's a long way from here.
Hold on to your life,
Even if it's easier to let go.
Hold on to my hand,
Even if someday I'll be gone away from you

**Peace**LOVE-TWISTED-LIGHT**
sTeVe.

Oneness within

...It's strange how many people only picture God as transcendent, making himself known by shooting off thunderbolts. God is transcendent, above the world and beyond it, outside time and space in a mode of being which is beyond the scope of our imaginations to conceive, but the God who makes Himself known to us is the immanent God, the God who's so close that He's at the very center of our existence. It's strange too how much time people spend traveling round and round the circle of existence and getting nowhere. The real journey - the journey all people are required to take to achieve integration, self-realization, and fulfillment - "the eternal life" of religious language - is the journey inwards, the journey to the centre of the soul.


Susan Howatch


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[Shimaka]

Nafalia, my dear, dear, sweet one,

I am here as living testament that you can get through Meniere's Disease. I know from whence you come, my friend, and every word you speak when you talk about the feelings associated with it ring so true that it's pitiful. BUT, take heart. It can be remedied, and if you have confidence in your doctor, which it sounds like you do, then I have no doubt that with the combination of your spirit family and your medical team, this, too, shall pass, and you will be amazed at how wonderful you feel when that extra fluid that is pressuring your inner ear is no longer doing so. I know that I felt like someone had lifted a jackhammer off of my skull. I had an endolymphatic shunt put in in 1980, and it was put there to drain off the excess fluid from the inner ear - for those of you not familiar with Meniere's, this is nothing at all like the shunts they use for middle ear fluid or the ones that a lot of kids end up having into a cavity they created behind my ear. I woke up from the surgery, and aside from the usual confusion of waking up from anesthesia, and wondering what all this white stuff was all over my head (the bandage - LOL), I remember the first thing I felt was relief because I no longer was stuck with anything loud enough for me to hear was too loud and painful. It wasn't until I was allowed out of bed to go to the restroom a few hours later that I KNEW how grateful grateful can be because I didn't hit both side of the doorway going into the restroom, and the world was no longer spinning.

Darlin', it's worth whatever therapy they suggest, and they may have come up with all kinds of really good stuff between then and now.

I will stay in touch with Jeannie and see where the hospital is, and if you are going to be in there for any length of time, I will find a way to get there and sit with you, hold your hand, and tell you all kinds of wonderful stories if you like. Just remember that we are all here for you, that we're still meeting in the rotunda with you no matter where your physical body happens to be resting. I will light some Nag Champa for you, and a candle for your healing, and I'll send out rainbow light for you, my sister.

Remember how loved you are!

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Ohmy, I keep starting new pages. LOL

I just wanted to take another minute here before trying to find the sandman to tell you, Deb, how wonderful it was to see a post from you, and to hear that the surgery went off pretty well according to what you said. I can empathize with the pain from the cortisone shot in the thumb, and I'd bet that's the one thing that hurts the most. When I first had treatment for my "trigger thumb" combined with bilateral carpal tunnel and extensor tendinitis, the first thing we did was the cortisone shot in the tendon sheath of my thumb, and of course, in order to know he had the needle in the right place, he had me try to bend my thumb while it was pinned with a needle. Yikes! I wanted to deck him, and he was such a nice guy!

Here's a lesson for everyone that I learned from that orthopod. It may not be the same exact reasoning for every doctor who does trigger point injections, but I think it's close. He told me that he was giving me the steroid (which wasn't cortisone, but I can't remember the name now) as well as a healthy dose of lidocaine, and that in a minute, I'd be feeling no pain at all.

Then, he told me the reason they do that is so that, by the time the lidocaine wears off, you're too far away to punch their lights out. LOL No joke! I've told a number of doctors since that I know their tricks, and I know why they are being so nice and giving a local along with the steroid. They always look at me so dumbfounded. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif When I tell them the story, they always laugh like they'd never thought of that before. Yeah, right! LOL

Anyway, enough with the stories already. Deb, I'm glad you're back home safe and sound, and I'll be thinking of you and sending good healing energy your way, and I'm sure with our combined energy and the skill of your surgeon, we'll have you up and duking it out with whomever you like in no time. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif Of course, if you want to milk that not able to do the dishes or anything for as long as you want, who'd blame you? Give it AT LEAST as long as the doctor said, and then consider how much longer you'd like a rest. (G)

Thinking of you, sweetie, and thinking of all of my spirit family as I try to find the sandman and go nite nite so I can get up at a reasonable hour and actually GET my driver's license renewed. If I don't do this, I'm gonna be in trouble. So, I'm off to the rotunda to laze by the water and drink in the energy. Anyone care to join me?

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, sweeties, how wonderful to have our weary travelers back, and with good news.

This is so amazing--I know everyone keeps saying this, but it's just so true--I just can't believe what y'all hav come to mean to me!

Thanks so much for the love offered up to Nafalia. I will read her your wonderful posts tomorrow, and I know they'll touch her heart.. I'll be happy to relay info. back & forth.

Short post, I know, but w/o my glasses it's better for me to keep it short.

Love y'all, will contact as soon as I know anything.

Oh, Shimaka, yes, Dr. Atwood would do the surgery on my cheek if necesssary. Thanks for asking.

Have a sweet morning,

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Namaskar, Spirit Family Friends,
We have several of our flock, to offer up "special prayers" for this morning. Let's remember Shimaka as She continues her battle and "conquer" for her infections.(***By the way Shimaka is seeking a soft chair w/ottoman or a recliner, someone would donate to her "cause"), mentally picturing HER all soft & comfy in a "gift" maybe someone has to offer! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
DaBee, we hope the healing in your hand progresses rapidly and you feel the Healing powers. Nafalia, sweet Spirit Friend, we are ALL supplying you with "Pure White Light" to heal, mend, and give you a wonderful new outlook, as we summons the MIRACLES to abound for you TODAY! Jeannie, we know our "heart love" protects and heals you, as we continue our focus and prayers for you. Bless you ALL.
**Peace**Love**Pure-White-Light**
sTeVe
"Good Starts"

I awaken this day to a deep and profound understanding that I am free to
create whatever I can envision, embody, and accept. This is because of the
way this universe works: lawfully, lovingly, and perfectly. The One Life of
this universe is the Life of God, and it's my life now. It expresses through
me in joy, in clarity, and with absolute precision.

I know that the way my life is created is by means of what I believe. So I
choose today to believe in the best of the best. I choose to believe that
god is a loving presence which always supports me in all things. I choose to
believe that I have within me the power to accept and embrace every good
thing, and accept it with humility and gratitude. I also know that I can do
more than just accept the qualities of living I desire...I can become them.

Rather than thinking of getting more freedom, I become more identified with
freedom in my own mind. Rather than looking for love, in any place, I become
Love. If my life is ripe for an influx of creativity, I see myself, my
thinking processes, and all that I do as Creativity.

This is in no way a grandiose way of looking at life; it is simply using the
spiritual laws of life intelligently. I give thanks for my ability to do
this and do it well. I give thanks for the perfect and precise nature of
Spirit that fills my experience with what I believe. And I give thanks for
my willingness to believe in the substance of things not yet seen, giving
them room to take form. And so it is.



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[Jeannie Jones]

Hello, dear ones--

Nancy is settled into the hospital, and thanks you for your kind words. Thanks to Steve, for all his support, and she said to tell you that she is "holding on" to a little piece of ground. She loved that Native American piece, very inspiring (I loved it too--copy & pasted it in Wordpad, saved it, printed it 3-up on a page, gave one to mom, kept one, will send another to a friend.

Shimaka, she SO needed to hear your success story. It was very heartening to her, to know that you went down, then walked out the other side in wholeness.

She's on a steroid drip which will take about an hour. It's not Prednisone, which in the past had caused her grand mal seizures, and they're giving it to her very slowly, to be cautious. A drug was ordered which they didn't have, so they will locate it in Springfield and it'll be "hot-shotted" to her hospital.

The specialist was unavailable today, but they'll pull him in there as soon as they can.

She would welcome phone calls from our Gratitude Group (do y'all do 10-10-811?--it's really inexpensive). The direct line into her room is 417-335-7516. I know it would make her day to hear from y'all, even if it's just a quickie call.

She wants you to know she's hanging in there, and that your kindness, Light, energy, and positive input are really helping her to hang on.

Buckets of love,

Jeannie

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[mtnviewsteve]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
[The direct line into her room is 417-335-7516. I know it would make her day to hear from y'all, even if it's just a quickie call.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Thanks, JJ.
Spoke briefly to Spirit Sister Nafalia(Nancy), and it was a "quickie", as she had company. I will call again later. Wished HER well and blew a mouthful of LIGHT to her. Everyone else take just a second to call her and allow her to feel our "LOVE & PROTECTION". http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**P**L**T-H-L**
sTeVe

[Jeannie Jones]

From Nafalia , from inside this room:

To my dear brother Steve,

Thank you for the call--it was so welcome! It just so happened that a friend had called on myu cell phone, just prior to your calling, and I was wanting to speak w/ you longer, but I had a phone in each hand. Thank you for the breath of life and Light you sent my way. Would love to have finished our conversation, but I was in the middle of the other one. Hope you will call again

Good news--I only have to have the one bag of IV steroids a day, and they just brought me in my Valium and a diuretic, so obviously we're going to be, I guess, drying up a lot of excess liquid I had in the body. I didn't even know I had excess, because of being deydrated so much of the time. I'm also not allowed to have any sodium. Now all I can have to drink is water. Seem to have a slight headache after the steroi thing, but I think that may just be the steroid rushing into the body.

Steroids are an anti-inflammatory, and tdo many other things. I'm not allowed out of bed without help, unless there's someone with me, even to go to the bathroom, which is probably going to keep them busy, since they gave me the diuretic, and I drink a lot of water, 'cause that's what they want me to drink.

So that's where we're at so far, I feel you all wrapping me in loving light and prayers, and I know and I believe and I feel and understand that this is a "key" that has been handed to me to end this nightmare of 7 years of vertigo.

Your loving sister,

Nafalia

As above, so below

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Nafalia,
So glad we did get to talk again, and I promise to support you and to continue to ASK for Healing and Comfort for you. You sounded just as "gro-o-vy and elegant" as I expected. ALL of our "spirits" must have crossed earlier as YOU, Jeannie, Shimaka, DaBee, Lany, Missy, Pat, and so many others have constanly BLESSED me in so-o many ways.
Please continue to "Feel the LIGHT" we send to YOU, and know the Group needs YOU as much as YOU need us. May the water you drink, be as sweet and wholesome as the feelings we have. "WE ARE FAM-I-LY"
Blessings, Sisters, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.



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[Jeannie Jones]

Hip hip hooray from Nafalia!

We must have met in the magic circle for dinner tonight. For the first time in years, I had food that I have not tasted in years, because of restrictions. Apparently the only restriction I have now is "no sodium". (That's a piece of cake after the other restrictions http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif !)

In the circle for dinner tonight we had the most fabulous treats! Let me tell you about them. We had seasoned asparagus, just the perfect color of asparagus green, baked potato w/ butter on it (no salt), and even the skin was perfect, and sliced turkey w/ a little bit of brown gravy on it, and the most wonderful slice of wheat bread with butter that tasted like a piece of cake to me. And the most beautiful RED applesauce that tasted so yummy, and a glass of iced tea w/ SUGAR in it. I've been restricted from sugar for a long time. Last but not least, the kitchen angels sent us the Rice Krispie treats made w/ marshmallow cream--a big piece, so I've just been savoring it, bite by bite, making it last as long as possible. It was an absolutely wonderful dinner with you all.. Probably tasted pretty bland to you all, but tasted like a Chez Charles 7-course meal, to me! Hope you enjoyed having dinner w/ me, because I certainly enjoyed having dinner w/ you.

I have gotten up and walked the hallways twice, still very weak, and still very much vertigo, but feel like if I can walk a little bit, it will help with the bck and the sciatica and keep from getting weaker, and help with the balance thing. So, after all this, I've just been here a half a day. Still a long way to go, but still, I feel like I've come a long way already.

My bed is by a large picture window, and I'm on the 5th floor, so I can see the sky w/ no obstructions, and you are all very visible to me, out there in the spirit world, feel your loving arms and energy around me.

Thank you, and I love you,

From your sister,

Nafalia

I shall continue to grow in spirit and in good health.

The weather says we're expecting rain, but I betcha there's a rainbow behind the rain. And I have the perfect view to see it.

As above, so below

[Jeannie Jones]

P.S. from Nafalia:

By the way, the medication that was missing is now here, and I think it's Rolodax or something like that. I asked the nurse, and she printed out the information, and it's for peptic ulcers, but I don't have any ulcers, so it must be one of those medications developed for one thing and found to have other uses.

But then it just crossed my mind that he might be giving it to me for preventive purposes, because steroids are an anti-inflammatory, and that's very hard on the digestive system, especially I.V. That may be why.

If you feel you would want to call, I would be glad to hear from you. Phone number:

417-335-7516

Love,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
WOW!! And Hallelujah!! What a joyous meal. I had visions of rainbows as I read you gourmet meal details.
Nafalia, you already sound so much better and confident. May I walk with you next trip and hold the hand of the bravest lady I know? Who knows, we may skip right on out the door and stand in the rain, barefooted, as the cool, fresh rain washes away the pain and fatigue you've felt for too long! Beautiful birds of song,fairies,butterflies and lightening bugs applaud as you Dance Your Dance In The Rain.
So glad to hear from you again and the HEALING has ONLY just BEGUN. Blessings are for "special people", just like YOU.
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe

[DaBee]

Thank you so much for sharing your oh so positive experiences, NancyNafalia. Your light seems so much brighter as the healing is progressing. I tasted your wonderful meal, also. Even the Rice Krispie Treats have healing marshmallows in them.
Shimaka, if you plan on visiting Nafalia, please let me know as maybe I can arrange to go with you if that would be OK with you.
Kaye Miller, if you are reading this, why don't you let Shimaka have the recliner that you were saving for me. I can't drive for quite a while and you and Shimaka live so close to each other. I'm doing fine right now and me thinks that Phyl could really use it well. OK?
Jeannie, you can't wear your glasses because of bandages on your cheek? How is it doing...paining you any? How are you feeling? Sounding a bit tired from what I gather. A spoonful of high vibes sent your way.
I am still so out of it, but think the sedatives from yesterday are wearing off some. The lupus is starting to exascerbate. Probably the system stresses from the other auto-immune diseases is pushing it. Feeling weary with it all and like I need a kick in the pants to get outta the funk.
Was fun to read what you wrote about separation of church and state, StEvE. And they probably were curious about what's going on over here with those of us who are in an ongoing state of gratitude. So.....
hi y'all, welcome to our sweet little world of kindness and friendship. Stay as long as you'd like and even join us for supper if you feel so inclined. Dessert is especially wonderful this evening......and as always, quite a surprise.
Lany, hope you're having a great weekend. Are you musicing? Jeannie, are you tapdancing tonight? I'll be playing my didgeridoo as usual. How about you?...and you?
lv&lt/deb-o-didgeridoowackadowackadowackadoooooooo

[mtnviewsteve]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by DaBee:
I'll be playing my didgeridoo as usual. How about you?...and you?
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Spirit Sister DaBee,
Missed you today,
But sent blessings your way
Hope, if you don't mind too much,
to teach me to play,
My didgeridoo,I got at "Romancing The
Stone"
I hum and I blow, I grunt,
Don't you know, but my sound
Doesn't please me, any way you
Could show, or tell me the way
I should be learning to play.

Hope you are feeling better, glad to hear from ya'. Blessings.
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.



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[Jeannie Jones]

From Nafalia:

Didgeridoo, ya say? Didgeridoo, ya say! Jeannie just read me Stee's post to Deb about the didgeridoo. Then Lany pops in with news of HER didgeridoo.

Yesterday morning, (Thurs.), upon my awakening, as usual, I have to sit on the side of the bed for a while, and all I could think of was "Didgeridoo, didgeridoo, didgeridoo". After sitting there for a few minutes, got up to get dressed in my cleanest nightshirt, and had the thought that this whole health issue that I'm dealing with is "nothing more than a didgeridoo"!

I know what a didgeridoo is, and I know what its purpose is, but I never gave any thought as to why I woke up thinking "didgeridoo, didgeridoo, or why the thought passed through my head while I was getting dressed "this whole health issue is nothing more than a didgeridoo."

Tonight, being Friday night and I'm in the hospital, and everyone's talking about didgeridoos! Mayhaps it's a message and an affirmation for me that my illnesses and health issues are a toning issue from the didgeridoo, and speaking to the gods and goddesses. Mayhaps when you're playing your didgeridoo you might direct the vibes to me and I will absorb them and communicate with the higher self through your didgeridoo!

Must be something going on for me to wake up thinking about didgeridoos!

My, what a wonderful way the Universe has of communicating with us, from spirit into matter, and perhaps the didgeridoo is to take matter into spirit. What do you all think? Mind playing a little didgeridoo for me?

From your beloved sister, Nafalia, to my beloved brothers and sisters, AND your didgeridoos LOL !

So mote it be,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
...Who knows, we may skip right on out the door and stand in the rain, barefooted, as the cool, fresh rain washes away the pain and fatigue you've felt for too long! Beautiful birds of song,fairies,butterflies and lightening bugs applaud as you Dance Your Dance In The Rain...

I see this happening in my mind's eye already, because my spiritual brothers and sisters are working with me to create and co-create this event. How blessed I am that you are all there, and I thought I had been waiting for you, but you've been there all along.

I have complete and total confidence that a "KEY" has just been handed to me, and that it's just a matter of time now. The key is in the keyhole, and all I have to do is turn it and walk through. I am in the hospital so that I might have the necessary care to give me the strength to turn the key and walk through the door.

So keep those cards and letters coming, brothers and sisters, because they are the inner strength I need, and so I wait daily, moment to moment, to hear what's been posted, because the positive love energy is SOOOO powerful and I feel it so strongly. How could I do anything but win?! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif This wink is for you, my brothers and sisters, because we know what's really going on.

So mote it be,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
When I go "outside" to toot on my didgeridoo, my dogs move away from the porch and the pyramid, as my sounds, by no means are considered "melodious" to them and I think actually freaks them out. The wolves way up the road seem to appreciate it, as they "howl" back at me, either to play louder or not at ALL, never sure.
Well, per your request Nafalia, I dedicate this next series of "freaK-lodious"
primitive sounds, as an offering to conjure up the "mostfantasticblessingsofLIGHT" to Heal YOU and make you smile. I really can "feel" your mending IN MOTION!!!
Blessings, Spirit Friends, and Namasthe(Good Night) http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
*Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-Didgeridoo-
LIGHT***
sTeVe http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif

[Jeannie Jones]

To Shimaka from Nafalia:

Magic Carpet

Shimaka, just grab that magic carpet and take a ride, and pick up everybody on your way, and I'll see you in the nighttime sky.

So mote it be,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, y'know, it is a full moon. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif In case you're interested, a dear friend passed this one to me:

http://www.lunarplanner.com/

And what a lovely dinner we had tonight! Lip-smackin' good (but I must confess that I did add a little salt to mine).

No, Deb, no tap dancing tonight, but I did have a slice of a vision of myself dancing , wearing a red taffeta "full" skirt, a couple of inches below the knee in length, that swirled so beautiully as I twirled in my red toe shoes, a white "peasant" blouse, short-sleeved, a belt woven of red, yellow & green ribbons, with loose ribbon ends dangling about 1 1/2'. I had a flower garland in my blonde hair (although my actual hair isn't blond), and was playing a tambourine with ribbons flying in the same colors as my belt.

Steve, loved your walking Nafalia out of the hospital to dance in the rain.

We had quite a light show in the sky tonight--it seems to be winding down now, but the entire sky would flicker to daylight, then dark, daylight, then dark, with hardly ever a line of lightening. It was peculiar. I think that during the time I watched I saw 3 lines of horizontal lightening, and 1 line of vertical lightening, but mostly no "lines" of lightening, just the whole sky lighting up in a kind of blinking manner. On all sides of the house at once!

Well, cable's out. No TV.

Deb, the stitched incision is somewhat swollen, and the bottom of my glasses, right side, would touch my cheek. I am to dab hydrogen peroxide on it w/ a Q-tip, then put an antibiotic ointment on it, thinly. No bandage. About 3-4 times a day. Lots of eye-strain, so it's not so easy doing reading things, like editing, fixing mistakes, etc.

Well, eerie things are happening w/ the electrical things here right now, so I think I have to cut this short.

Oh, BTW, a day or two ago, I saw a guy play a didgeridoo on TV. He was pretty new at it, but did get it to working some. I guess that brings me in on that one, too!

Ms. Lany, always love reading your wonderful posts, as I love reading all y'all's posts--they're all so different and wonderful.

Deb, I will look into setting up Yahoo Messenger, but I'll wait on that 'til I can use my glasses, of course. It feels funny to walk around all exposed (w/o the glasses).

Perhaps Shimaka will check in in a bit. I keep checking every so often, in between playing my game that I like (it's not so hard to do w/o glasses, as it is to deal w/ words).

Love, Peace, Joy, to all who stop by here. To any newcomers, please feel welcome to post, if love is in your heart.

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

Spirt Friends, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
What a day we had yesterday, exciting light show, wonderful meal, a delightful rain, a little dance, and of course the didgeridoo. Just made my day to feel Nafalia's Spirit soar a little. Hope ALL our friends are on the way to recovery and enjoy a peaceful day. Have a "Good Start" to get me and the rest of us up and going, a little.
Thanks for ALL the inspiration and Healing that is happening , hopefully with us ALL. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe
There is but One Source of life, and that Source is God. It is my source; I
am one with it. In Spirit, there is no separation, only an endless and
perfect union of all that is. Today I open my mind and heart to experience
that union as never before.

There is nothing in this world that can impede or obstruct this oneness but
my belief. Wherever I am believing in separation...from god, from my good,
from love, from creativity...whatever it is that feels distant, I let the
light of absolute truth shine in that place and reveal the abundant
wellsprings of whatever it is that I need. I let that sense of separation be
healed totally and completely with the love and unity of Spirit. Just as the
darkness disappears when light is introduced, these old ideas of separation
are now filled with an understanding - a gut level knowing - of unity.

This is what I celebrate today. I am one with good. I am one with god. I am
one with all Life. And so it is.

Native American Wisdom living fully

May the stars carry your sadness away,
May the flowers fill your heart with beauty,
May hope forever wipe away your tears,
And, above all, may silence make you strong.

[Becky Davis]

Nafalgia, so sorry you are in the hospital. Maybe it will be a visit of good cheer. Hopefully you can get some relief and find some answers. Fell Better.

[Becky Davis]

Deb, Guess you had your surgery and all is well. You were in and out in no time huh?

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.charly-didgeridoo.com/mp3_fr.php3


*Together In Unity*
I offer you peace. I offer you love. I offer you friendship. I see your beauty. I hear your need. I feel your feelings. My wisdom flows from the Highest Source. I salute that Source in you. Let us work together for unity and love.

Mahatma Gandhi


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[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
[B]From Nafalia:
everyone's talking about didgeridoos! Mayhaps it's a message and an affirmation for me that my illnesses and health issues are a toning issue from the didgeridoo, and speaking to the gods and goddesses. Mayhaps when you're playing your didgeridoo you might direct the vibes to me and I will absorb them and communicate with the higher self through your didgeridoo!

Must be something going on for me to wake up thinking about didgeridoos!

My, what a wonderful way the Universe has of communicating with us, from spirit into matter, and perhaps the didgeridoo is to take matter into spirit. What do you all think? Mind playing a little didgeridoo for me?

Primordial sounds are our link. I put them to good use at all times and at all times they put me to good use. It is as it should be for our vibrational connection. I personally use the tones for clearing, both in my home and my mind. A combination of white sage burning and didgeridoo humming has an effect on me as if coming together to find my balance. I have serenaded the ocean and spoken to the heavens with my didgeridoo. It came to me from the desert and the connection will always be. It talks for me in a language that comes from me, yet I do not know to interpret. I send healing tones to you, Nafalia. I harmonize with you, StEvE, and send to Jeannie and Shimaka and Missie and Becky and so many others that know of whom I speak, a melodious primordial golden stream of sound. The stream carries us over and into the cave of duality and through the tunnel into the rotunda just as herbal tea and meringue crumpets are being served. The original didgeridoo that has ever sounded is joining us now. We will always be in tune with All That Is.

[mtnviewsteve]

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"The Lightbearers have a more than ordinary initiation on the Path, hence
they are called sons and daughters of God. The term "son of God" or "daughter of
God" is a title, and it is an indication of a certain inner attainment, an initiation of the Christ that may have occurred even on other systems of worlds, long before the soul's descent to earth."

[Jeannie Jones]

Lany, my sweet, such a one you are to worry about who does the dishes after our feast last night! Have yu forgotten that the elves come in the night to clean up? And how wonderful your 4th of July celebration sounds like great fun!

How nice to hear from Becky today. Perhaps the didgeridoos drew her.

Steve, loved the Native American quote of the day.

Steve, I've also been exploring some of the didgeridoo site you gave us, & a link on it. Interesting to me how the first 2 or 3 songs used the didg. as a single repetitive bass note, underlying everything.

My favorite didg. piece was the one I'm linking below. I'm hearing the droning voice as the bass, the barking one as the middle, and the single toot voice as the top note--a trio, or "chord" of didgeridoos. The drum adds the outer element that brings it all together for me.

http://www.charly-didgeridoo.com/mp3_fr.php3#
Captain Didje MP3

Okay, please scroll down the page and, on the right side, check out "Captain Didge". That's the piece I'm talking about.

I liked the following for its explanation:

http://www.fish.com/%7Etanais/didjeridu/didjeridu.html

Deb, what wonderful experience you've had w/ your didgeridoo! Thanks for telling us about the place it has in your life, and maybe I'll find one in Rogers somewhere.

Is "Romancing the Stone" in Eureka? All that I read and see about it , I'd really like to have one. There. I've spoken it out to the Universe.

Being a singer, in the shower (what better resonance chamber is there?) I sometimes find myself with an actual song coming out, sometimes vocal exercises, sometimes a tune that I make up as I go along, and sometimes I "om" in ways that please me. Usually it's ah-oh-oo-mmm, w/ the voice placed in the nasal cavities. It does a real vibratory trip on your head. Wel, time before last, I accidentally discovered that doing the "nasal om" right into a back corner of the shower stall, REALLY amped up the nasal vibratory thing.

I have a tuning fork tuned to the interval of the "perfect fifth", which Pythagoras (I think it was he) had said was the perfect healing interval. I also have a video about using the tuning fork. The guy (can't remember his name), said that if you remove all the bones of the head, what you're left with, in the center, is a little bone that looks like a butterfly.

Tuning fork guy said that very close to the "butterfly" bone, is the amygdala, which is where we store negative memories. Also, very close to it, is the pineal gland, and I think the pituitary. His premise was that vibrating this "butterfly bone" has a powerful affect on those glands above-mentioned, in freeing us from our baggage, and stimulating 2 of the glands that assist us in our transformation. Just looked for my anatomy book, and couldn't find it, but I believe I've remembered this accurately.

It would seem that "didgeridooing" and "om-ing" would also serve in the above way.

Deb, loved your piece on primordial sounds, and what you brought to the food table.

Steve, may we have the source of the "Lightbearers" piece?

Feeling really great since the biopsy procedure. I'm thinking that I got some healing out of it.

Was speaking to Nafalia and put the phone up to the speakers so she could hear my fave didgeridoo piece, and when I got back to her, she was gone. I tried to call her back a few times, so I'm assuming that she got a call on her other line.

Well, wanted to speak to Nafalia before posting, but I'm really hungry now, it's quarter to 3, and I'm gonna go for the food first.

Love to all,

JJ


[This message has been edited by Jeannie Jones (edited 07-03-2004).]

[Shimaka]

Well, good afternoon, my fine spirit family! It feels so wonderful in here! Enough high spirit, white light, good energy, and beautiful color to go around and make everyone happy and satisfied and fulfilled. What a beautiful place to be.

Nafalia, it was so wonderful to enjoy dinner with you and all the rest of the clan last evening. And, what a delicious meal! I am so glad that the news of my history with Meniere's was helpful to you. At least you know without a doubt that it CAN be beaten. I know that, when you are in the middle of it, it's really difficult to "see" that because the effects are so distracting to everything else in life. I have no doubt, though, that with your attitude and high spirit, your healing circle of friends here and out there in the ethers, and all those that are coming along with us but have yet to speak up, that you will breeze through and come out on the other side feeling oh so much better.

My apologies for being later than usual this fine Saturday. I had a very full day yesterday and used a few spoons I had kept in reserve as well as my full complement for the day, then went overboard and used up some I didn't have yet. When I got home last evening, I was so exhausted that I didn't even bring the bags from Wal Mart into the house except for one bag with perishables. I just now went out and got the rest, and I'm already feeling like I'm low on spoons today so it may be a short day today. I'm happy to report that I do have my new driver's license - Yay - four more years without having to worry about that anymore. The Berryville revenue office isn't exactly accessibility-friendly though the gals who were working were very helpful. They had to almost put the vision thing in my lap because it's set up way too high for a person in a wheelchair to reach so they slid it down today me until it was where I could use it. Wasn't real comfortable that way, but it did take my mind off the fact that I was worried I wouldn't pass the eye test. Hehehe, it's funny, in a way, that I have ALWAYS worried about whether or not I would pass the eye test. I'm just weird that way. But, I'm glad to have it over with and be done with it.

I'm really just waking up today so I hope that my rambling makes some sense. I got a kind of slap on the wrist post from sTeVe that I needed to post more often, that there was too much time between posts, and he was worried. I probably would have waited until I came back this evening had I not gotten that little kick in the butt. (G) I woke up at a reasonable hour this morning, and was up and moving around, fed my boy and let him out his several times this morning - LOL - and sat down to go through over 500 emails, some of which I had to get a response back to, and the next thing I knew, it almost 3 PM! I think I was making up for a few of those extra spoons I spent, and now I'm still tired. I have a regular Saturday night date at Myrtie Mae's this evening and need to be there early so won't doddle around too much.

Mizz Deb, your music for us is so entertaining, and how great to have it at the banquet as well as you, Lany. I bet your keyboards are so much lighter when you have them out in the clearing than when you have to lug them up on stage. Between the two of you, and all of our combined voices and the voices of nature, it was a feast for the ears as well as a feast for the tummy and eyes.

Deb, thank you so much for telling Kaye to give me the rocker she had been setting aside for you! Are you sure this is the right timing for you? I mean, it's perfect for me, but I also want to make sure you are taken care of. Steve, thank you for saying something here about my post over on Bridging the Gap because I probably would not have. How wonderful that all worked out. Thankyouthankyouthankyou!!

Jeannie, my dear, how is your spoon supply holding up? I know that you are doing a lot more than usual with Nafalia in the hospital, and you're also typing a whole lot without your glasses so you must be tired. I'm so glad that you feel good about the doctor who did the biopsy, and that he would be the one to do any surgery if it is needed. He sounds like one of spirit's workers too. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif Once the swelling goes down, will you be able to wear your glasses even though you're still putting ointment on the incision site?

And Deb, how is your wrist feeling today? I know you said you were feeling a little "woozy" and thought it might be from the medication. Just remember that it takes awhile for the effects to wear off so please, take care of yourself and take it easy. Let yourself go slowly as that's how you heal, m'dear. A number of years ago, when I did a half gainer down a flight of stairs coming out of a client's office, though I hurt darn near everything, the most intense damage was done to my right wrist and hand (Okay, well, it's a toss up between that and three cervical vertebrae (G)), and I was in and out of casts and braces and you name it for over a year, and didn't have surgery until nine months after I hurt myself because we were trying to exhaust all other options first. It seemed like I was always tired because your hands are such an integral part of everything you do. I'm sure you must be feeling that too. Please, give yourself a chance to relax and heal, and just soak in all the great healing energy the whole group is putting out, okay? Such a sweet thang!

And for sure, if I'm able to pull myself together enough to go over and sit with Nafalia for a bit, we'll work out you going with me. I have an appt. with the doctor on Tuesday afternoon, and I'm going to ask if he'll run another blood count as I'm thinking much of my weariness is coming from the anemia. I may stop and pick up some sub-lingual B-12 to see if that doesn't help some. First, it ALWAYS helps with energy . . . FAST, and it is also one of the building blocks for iron, and we all know how important that is. Hehehe, gee, when those Geritol commercials first came out, I remember how we used to laugh at them. Paybacks are coming around to get me because I am DEFINITELY a part of the Geritol generation now. LOL

Becky, how nice of you to stop in and say hi. It's always so nice to hear from you! And, I wanted to thank you for your post to soulself the other day, telling him/her about this group and suggesting s/he might come here. Considering everything s/he seemed to be going through at the time, I thought your suggestion, and the way it was made, was perfect! Thanks so much.

Have we heard from Missie lately? Has anyone heard from Missie? I so hope she is doing okay. She feels so vulnerable what with having seizures at the drop of a hat - and her body too - and I'm concerned about her hitting her head. I'm still running around (when I'm running around) with the helmet in my van to give to her to use.

sTeViE thank you for the lovely words for today and for the mp3 file. How wonderful! How is your back feeling? Seems we are all battling some sort of physical demon right now. And, it also seems to be making our spirits stronger. Blessings to you, brother, and to all of us, as we drink in that sweet spirit and the fresh light in the clearing and all the wonders of the cave and rotunda. We have our very own spirit retreat!

I'm so sorry to cut this short, my dear ones, as I'm falling asleep again, and nature calls at the same time (and Medi is parked in front of the toilet with his little belly wrapped around the bottom - hehehehe, he's a bear to move when he does that), and I must, of needs, put some clothes on and wake myself up enough that I can drive to town for my Saturday evening ritual.

Lots and loads of love to all of you, and I hope I haven't missed anyone. If so, please forgive me. I'm having to fix a lot of typos along the way so please excuse if I've not corrected any. I hope I've caught them all as they've come off the keyboard, but sometimes, I'm not so quick. (G)

I can't remember if I told you all or not that my friends at Myrtie Mae's are giving me a birthday party at 5 PM on Wednesday so if any of you would like to come, and I'd love to have any and all of you there, please do! We'll be eating dinner, dutch of course, and I'm sure there will be cake. If you'd like to come, please just call the restaurant and tell them to add another person to the reservation. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif I know I thought about telling y'all that, and I may have already so if so, please just chalk it up to my very tired brain at the moment.

I love you all, and I will TRY to get back tonight to write some more. It all depends on whether or not getting a meal in me wake up my body and brain any more.

Oh, and sTeVe, I liked your suggestion on Bridging the Gap, and that is what I had in mind in making a forum for us to play in. I just don't want to have two places going at once as I think that would be too confusing, and everyone would feel like they have to go and post both places so it could get hard to juggle. I'd like to do that so we can each started a new topic when we want rather than keep going on one long topic, and if someone only wants to reply to one, that's just fine. I think we will eventually do that, but last time I mentioned it, Deb mentioned that she felt we had someone else who had to find us first so mine is not to question when, but just to do when it IS time. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Much love to all of you. I take you with me as I get ready and go into town for a couple of hours to, hopefully, stay awake and have a good dinner with friends. We shall enjoy the feast together again, I hope, with Nafalia in the clearing, with some wonderful music and dancing and lifted voices.

Til later . . . much love . . .

Namaste!
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

New phone # for NAFALIA

They moved her into a different room today, so just wanted to let y'all know that her phone number at the hospital has chaned:

417-335-7507

Okay--I'll be back later. Just wanted to get the update in. She's sounding better today--yay http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Love to all,

Jeannie

[DaBee]

Jeannie, did I understand you correctly in that you are saving all of these Graditudinally Speaking pages? I was going to ask Shimaka about that, but looks like you've got it covered. Was thinking that maybe I'm the only one that could wipe it all out and that just makes me so nervous. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif It's like, maybe if the red phone with the lit up button in the middle of the round dial part, were in my house, I would be having a dream that the only way to save the world would be to push this very hard to get to button, while all the while, the button really will blow up the world if pushed. Or maybe Yin would want to push it and Yang would be fighting me back. Or maybe there is a big rock at the back of my yard and it covers an opening to a sink hole that Ponce de Leon hid his map to the most powerful vortex on the planet. In fact, to enter this hole and then be led to the vortex, would catapult you through the time warp that is hiding behind the Milky Way. Only I know that, when the rock is moved, there is only a 5 minute span of time to locate the map and find the vortex. If this is not done, time will bend inside out and backwards. There is a time limit to reaching the warp, but the only way to find out what the time limit is is to be told of it in a dream. I keep dreaming that I have passed the deadline, but now I know what the deadline is. Point is, is don't allow me to control the button. Save the thread from me, please. Oh my, oh my, what have I started here? The weight of the world is on my shoulders and I grow weary of the weariness of myself. Ahhhh, but me thinks me sees a golden thread waaaaay off in the distance. All I have to do is hold my hand out and the golden thread is there within my reach. Thank you dear dears, you have saved me from myself and I am now floating through the portal and into the rotunda. Not dis-Ease, but Ease is here and I am blessed.

[mtnviewsteve]

Jeannie, here's the site you requested, it was in todays newsletter, I will copy you later. E-mail me at home if this does not help & I'll send the link. Will get back later, having computer problems.
sTevE http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif

Spirit & Love (Marcela)
E-mail Address(es):
marfil01@arnet.com.ar

[Jeannie Jones]

Okay--let's see if I can remember these point for point:

Shimaka, once the swelling from my stitches goes down, I'll be able to use my glasses again w/o problems. The bottom of the frame does not touch my cheek, so it shouldn't disturb the ointment & scar.

I go to Fayetteville Wednesday to get my stitches out, so I doubt that I would be able to make it to your b-day party. Please save me a piece of cake and send it by e-mail. TIA. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif I know you'll have a wonderfully happy party, and you will feel very much loved.

Yeah, I don't know what happened to me in the cute-guy-plastic-surgeon's place, but I feel like I got an energy "bump" that has lasted. I seem to have greater range of motion, all of a sudden, in my arms. Yay!

When I got my glasses, the gal who fitted me told me about these "PC Peekers", and tried a pair on me, so I could see how they work. They're little magnifying glasses which drop just behind your lenses, and a kind of tear-shaped tab on each end which rests on top of the frames. Well, I didn't buy them that day, but later went back and got them.

Happily, I can hold my little PC Peekers up by the end tab-thingy and read the posts just fine, sort of, without disturbing my ointment, but when I post, I'm just kind of letting it go the way it comes out.

Mom said that I'm being successful in sleeping w/ my head propped up (so the "site" doesn't swell any more), because she looked in on me last night. I've never been one to toss & turn much in sleep. I'm kind of a neat sleeper, and that makes it so easy to make the bed. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

I will try to drag myself over to BTG to see what y'all have been talking about, as soon as I've finished my posts here.

Holding good thoughts & sending healing vibes for your appt. Tuesday. What a treasure you are.

You are so loved,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

DaBee, I only saved the links that have been published here, so they'd be in one handy place, instead of having to go back through pages & pages to find again. Thanks for reminding me that I need to update them. It hadn't occurred to me to save the whole 16 pps., probably because I had no idea you had such an itchy trigger finger! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

You are so much fun! I'm so glad you take us along on your phabulous phlights of phancy (speaking Lany-ese here). What a wonderful imagination you have!

Love ya so much,

JJ

[mtnviewsteve]

Shimaka said
"I got a kind of slap on the wrist post from sTeVe that I needed to post more often, that there was too much time between posts, and he was worried."
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Spirit Sister Shimaka,
Guess I've been a little paranoid about your condition and letting "my distance anxiety" show, since I can't run next door and make sure you're OK. Didn't mean to be critical or demanding, not my "true" nature.
I'm so far from everybody, physically, will have to start back with my astral projection exercises, have only so far gone "trippy" places, need to better define my destinations, prior to departing, from now on!
Been having "Freeze-up" problems with my computer and been having to restart, and start completely over, and "Oh, How That Sucks!" Know tomorrow will be brighter and hopefully my back will feel better, been kind' rough today, can't get comfortable anyway. "Poor Me!" http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Blessings to ALL.
later, gator.
P**L**T-H-L**
steVE
****Jeannie,
What a cool "Didge" site, totally missed on my search. "Om & Didge' are quite alike as they both make my butter-fly! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Been doing "scan-disc" for last 4 hrs. some program kept interrupting "C-drive" and it restarted about 20 times. Hope I have fixed problem as I'm the only fixer I've got. Can't ya'll "distance heal" computers?
***Send my love,prayers,energy, & LIGHT to Nafalia. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
P**L**T-H-L**
sTeVe


[This message has been edited by mtnviewsteve (edited 07-04-2004).]

[Jeannie Jones]

I'm transcribing notes from Nafalia here, which is a lot different than having her here right now. My apologies to y'all & Naphalia for getting this out to you so late, but here goes.

Saturday Night With Nafalia:

Good news first--well, actually, it's all good news, but let's start with this evening's oh, so enjoyable repast.

Our friend had chopped beets, a generous portion of hash browns,, nice, thin slices of very tender, tasty, sirloin w/ just a smidge of gravy, wheat bread w/ butter, a snall slice of mmmmmmmmmmmmm angel food cake, de-caf iced tea, & juice of the lovely apple. And she didn't get nauseated at all!

When she was a child, our friend couldn't understand how people could become overweight. She asked her mother, "well, why don't they just quit eating when they get sick to their stomach?" Every time she ate, she felt sick to her stomach, and thought that everyone did. She's had this feeling all her life, until now; consequently, they're going to put her through the full allergy pin-test. It may be certain foods, or it may also be combinations of foods that trouble her digestion.

Today the ENT guy saw her, the Meniere's specialist, Dr. Bays--Bayes. He said, "Have I met you before?" She said "No, not that I know of". He asked, "Did you have a shop in Eureka?" She said, "Yes, Nancy's Closet." Also today, she went through the same thing w/ a female hospital employee! She said that Nancy's Closet had been her favorite shop in Eureka--it was so different.

Dr. Bayes is sending her to a shunt specialist, who does nothing but put in shunts in the ear. Dr. Bayes & Dr. Sharlin agree that she has inner ear & occular migraines that deal with the vestibular system--that it is not Meniere's,, but they're treating it aggressively as Meniere's, They're gonna hit it real hard w/ meds, diuretics, low sodium, and the shunt. They feel that there are a lot of things at play here. Bayes said that Dr. Sharlin was right on the money all along, but they need to take more steps.

This morning, N. took 2 little walks in the hall. It went quite well.

Later in the evening, she had a flare'up, and it's good that it happened there, so that they could see just what was happening. Now she's not allowed to walk unassisted.

N. said that at long last, she has the right people to take care of it.

She sends her love to all, and says to "keep those cards & letters comin'" http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Well, again, my apologies to you & Nafalia for getting this to you so late. If I've missed anything, se'll get it to you tomorrow.

So much love to everyone,

JJ for Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
..."Om & Didge' are quite alike as they both make my butter-fly! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif...
Yes, I agree, Steve, that they both would seem to operate on the same principle. (BTW, you're so funny! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif )

...some program kept interrupting "C-drive" and it restarted about 20 times...
Seems like I read about a virus that acts that way. What kind of anti-virus program are you running? I would run a complete scan for viruses, or go to Norton or whoever your anti-virus is through, if your problem continues. Hopefully, what you did today fixed it, but if not, that's the direction I'd go.

I've private e-d you about the other thing.

Steve, StEvE, he's our man--

Love ya, guy

JJ

(Sigh) I don't think I'll get to BTG today, but I promise I'll go back tomorrow.

[Shimaka]

Good early morning, my friends,

Deb, I just wanted to put your mind at ease. Just so you can be doubly relaxed about your possibly blowing up the world instead of saving it, I have also saved every last word posted in the Gratitude Journal for our little spirit group so, between Jeannie and me, I think we have it covered for you. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif Rest easy, my friend, and for goddess' sake, don't sleep with a gun under your pillow! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

I guess that was only half a smile now that I think of it. A couple of weeks ago, my jewel of a friend Thomas (Carriage Guy - the one whose name is never spoken ever again on geekfest lest one be verbally castrated) stayed at my house at night for a little over a week to kind of keep an eye on me while I was going through some of the worst of the effects from the last antibiotic. He woke up late one morning, having slept in, and he had heard me typing intermittently so figured I was out here pecking away at the computer. Of course, he was hearing most of this in his sleep. Just as he was getting ready to get up, he heard this really loud crash! I can about imagine the visuals of him coming out of the bedroom, jumping a baby gate that keeps Medi from going in there, to see what was going on. Well, I hadn't REALLY been pecking away at the computer. I had fallen asleep in the middle of writing a letter to my sister, and my hands were on the keyboard so, what he was hearing was, every once in awhile, my hands would just do something on the keyboard.

What he found when he got to me was that I had been having a nightmare, and I was using the keyboard to beat the crap out of everything anywhere near me. In my dream, I was defending myself from attackers. He reached down and grabbed the keyboard, wrestled it away from me and set it on the other side of the room.

A few minutes later, after thinking of it, he decided he'd better wake me up to make sure I was okay. I wasn't. I was about half conscious and half not, couldn't speak to save my soul (which is what used to happen when I would have a seizure), and when I finally came up close enough to the surface for air, he asked me if I had been having a nightmare or what. The really eerie thing was that, in my nightmare, as I said, I had been fending off attackers, and of course, in reality, I was beating up anything in sight with my keyboard. (BTW, I laughed so hard about this after it happened, that my stomach hurt for two days - LOL) When he took the keyboard away from me, in my dream, I was playing basketball and going in for a layup so the brat was blocking me from making a shot because the keyboard had become the basketball. So, of course, I wrestled him for the keyboard because, in my dream, we had a tie ball. LOL How in the H*LL I got from being attacked and defending myself to playing basketball in that brief millisecond, I have no idea. All I know is that the first thing I did was take my .22 Beretta and put it across the room so it was no longer in immediate reach. That's why I made the comment to you, Deb, about not having a gun under your pillow. Dreams are weird things, and if a keyboard can be a basketball AND a labrys within a millisecond, goddess only knows what a gun could be!

sTeVe, dear one, please allow me to apologize for over-reacting earlier to your post to me. Yes, I know it came from concern and that you feel kind of helpless and powerless sometimes being far enough away that you can't really do anything to check up on anybody. I understand this, and though there is no excuse for my over-reacting, I'd like to tell you a little about what's been going through my head lately in regards to what you were feeling and what I was just talking about.

See, it's true that the infection and treatments that I've been going through have, at times, been life threatening, and the MRSA infection itself has a 70% mortality rate, according to the books anyway. So, of course, anyone who loves me and cares about me is going to want to check up on me and make sure I'm okay, and if they don't hear from me every so often (and only they - each person individually - knows how often that "so often" is), they get worried, and they start making phone calls if they don't get immediate answers to emails, etc., etc., etc.

While the MRSA is relatively new to my knowingness (about 3 months), it's been going on for over 3-1/2 years, and for about the same period of time, I've been on constant watch by darn near anyone who knows me because of my discovered genetic clotting conditions. I guess what I'm saying is that, even before that, there were other things that would make one who would care about me want to check up on me and make sure I'm okay, and all of that. I've been on the other side of that all too often so please don't think I don't understand. Oh, I do, far better than you might realize. So, I don't fault anyone who is feeling a bit edgy because they aren't sure I'm okay. In fact, I know I'm loved because of it.

What happens as a result is that I get inwardly resentful, not of the people who love me, but of myself, and my physical condition, and it ends up coming out like I'm mad at the people who care for me, which is so far from the truth that I can't even put it into words. The frustration is that there may be sometimes that I just don't feel like answering the phone. We all go through that. But, for someone in my position, especially someone living alone, you don't get that luxury. You had BEST answer the phone, and if you can't for some reason, like being in the bathtub or in the restroom or outside for a minute or whatever, you'd best return that call within 10 minutes or so because, if you don't, you know you're going to worry someone who cares about you. It sometimes feels like a very big burden to carry though I'm sure it's not nearly as heavy as it feels sometimes.

Most people can get away with taking an evening to themselves and saying no to the telephone, or to emails, but I can't. And then, sometimes, it's not someone checking up on you, but the same someone who just wants you to do something for them right then, and they KNOW you feel an obligation to answer the phone or call them back immediately. If I was the normal Jill on the street, and I could take an evening off from answering anything, then I would get those calls or emails that want a favor and need it yesterday . . . until tomorrow, when I'm ready to handle them. See what I mean?

So, as ungrateful as it probably makes me sound, sometimes it feels like a really big burden to carry, knowing that you have to jump when anyone says anything at all. I know that's not what's meant, but at times, that's how it feels, and most certainly, I know that's not what you meant. You just happened to be the poor human who wrote at the wrong time, after I'd had days in and days out of calls and emails demanding immediate attention, some of which were nothing more than someone wanting a geek question answered. There must be a way to tell your friends, those that are very close to you, that, if they want you to always be available so they can check on you, then it would be helpful if they didn't take advantage of that trust that's there in making yourself always available. But, it feels to me like I would be being incredibly rude to say that to someone who is caring enough about me to check up on me. Am I making any sense here?

When my consulting company was going full force, my clients knew that, after 9 PM, I would not answer the phone. I had a second, private line, that only my closest friends knew the number to, and even if one of them called on my main line "after hours", they knew I would pick it up if I was there. At least once/week, one of my closest friends would call on that second, private line while I was off duty and call for no other reason than to ask me a geek question. Somehow, I always felt betrayed when that happened, and I tried to explain that to them, but no one got it. This feels very similar to that, if you know what I mean.

Obviously, this is a lesson I need to work on learning. My therapist keeps telling me I need to learn to say "No!" to people, no matter who they are. I know she's right, but at the same time, there is this guilt factor that plays in. It played in when a friend called on my off duty time on my private line or stopped by my table and interrupted my dinner if I was out to eat with someone, just to pick my brain about a computer problem. And, it plays in now when I hear the phone ring, and look at the caller ID and say to myself, "I don't want to talk to you right now because I know all you want is blah blah blah, but I know if I don't answer the phone, you'll just keep calling back every five minutes until I do, and if I don't, then you'll get concerned because I'm not answering the phone." So, I just give in and answer the damn phone.

I apologize to you, dear sTeVe, that you got caught in the crossfire and really at the end of a long battle with myself over this issue that I've yet to come up with a way to solve for myself. Please forgive me - spirit isn't finished with me yet. I'm still a work in progress. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

BTW, if any of you have the answer to this dilemma come to you, please feel free to offer it to me. I know there's an answer out there somewhere. I know there has to be a way to not have to live with constant guilt if I want some time to myself because I don't want to worry anyone. And, to be perfectly honest, I do need to have people check up on me given my health status and that I'm currently single and also living alone. How to make the two come together and mesh is still a mystery to me.

sTeVe, sweet spirit brother, I hope that you'll understand and forgive me. If you need something from me in order to do that, please let me know what it is so that I can make sure to be right with you, okay?

Thank you, dear, sweet family for being such a wonderful and important part of my life. I love all of you, and you have grown to mean so much to me in such a short period of time. It's really amazing.

Well, I'm nodding off in between sentences so I'd best sign off and get ready to greet the sandman. I need the zzzzzzs. Much love and light and healing energy for all of us, and there's plenty to go around so feel free to soak up as much as you need. There is no lack here. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Love,
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

sTeVe, sweetness, I have a couple of solutions for you on the scandisk problem if you'd like to hear them. These also hold true for anything you do in defrag.

First, make sure to turn off any screensaver that you might have turned on. You can right click on the desktop anywhere there isn't an icon, then go to properties. Click on the screen saver tab. Once there, you'll see in the window in the lower left which screensaver is on, if one is. If one is on, simply click the drop-down menu, and change the screensaver from whichever one is running to "None" then click on Apply then OK.

Then, you need to turn off every program and process that is running in the background. You would be surprised at how many programs are running all the time on your computer that you're not even aware of.

Hold down the CTRL and ALT buttons, then hit delete once. It will bring up the task manager. In all versions of Windows except XP, all of the programs and processes will show up in one window. In XP, they are in two different windows on different tabs and you need to do one, then the other.

What you do is turn off each one one at a time until the only thing left in the task manager is explorer. If you have any task bars on your desktop, explorer will be replaced in the task manager by the name of the highlighted task bar so, if that's the case, then treat that task bar name as if it is explorer. Okay, I'm not talking about Windows Explorer or Internet Explorer, just Explorer. Explorer IS Windows. If you close it, you shut down Windows, okay?

So, you to the CTRL-ALT-DEL thing once, highlight something in the task manager, then click on end task. Some programs are stubborn and will not close on the first attempt and may take two or three tries. Some, like Systray, for example (which is the system tray that a whole bunch of little programs loads into), will take two or three tries, and then come up with a window that says it's not responding, do you want to close it anyway, and just click yes, or hit enter.

So, close down the programs and processes one by one, until the only thing left in the task manager is Explorer.

NOW, run Scandisk. Trust me, if Explorer is all that is running, there is absolutely nothing that can be accessing the hard drive to make it keep starting over again and again. And yes, in the process of turning off all of your programs, you will also turn off your anti-virus program, which is actually one of the most important to turn off because it tries to access the hard drive continuously. Since you aren't online, and aren't going to be installing anything while running Scandisk (right?), then you don't have to worry about being without your virus scanner for a little while.

If you are going to run defrag, which I suggest doing once/month at the least If you run defrag, remember that the longer you wait in between times of running it, the more time it will take for the program to complete. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Hope this helps.

XOXOXOXOOX
Shimaka

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[Jeannie Jones]

Shimaka, honey, sweetie, boobala, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

(It's probably me stating the obvious, but...) I think you've just gotta find a way to lay down that burden of guilt. That may lessen your "under attack" nightmares.

I know how it is to want to have your "time off" respected. Can you think of a way that we can be sure you're okay if we don't hear from you for a while without invading your private time? I kinda feel like Thomas is able somehow to keep an eye on you, and also know that you do those marathon sleeps, but how about one of those "help--I've fallen and I can't get up" bracelets? http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Do you have nightmares often? (Not my business, just thought I'd ask.)

You know we love you, gal,

Jeannie

PS Thanks for the computer lesson!

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[mtnviewsteve]

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Alas, Spirit Friends,
I am again able to hear you messages.
Spirit intended for today to be a contemplative, low caffine day as we awoke to darkness and NO POWER, after a little storm this a.m.. Power just came back on at 2:20 p.m. Now I have a pot of "fresh, strong, Columbian brewing and ALLS right with the world. Doesn't take much to please this old hippie.
Shimaka, no apologies necessary, everything is http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Thanks for the tips on scan disc and defrag, I will follow your instructions to the "T" next time, seems to have straightened out after my "long ride" last night.
JJ, did you receive the "stuff" I sent?
How is Nafalia today? Sending Blessings to You, Nafalia, Shimaka, DaBee, Missy (wherever you are),Lany, Becky and the "whole fam damily".
Here is todays LATE "Good Starts" as it never hurts to begin again!!
**Peace**Love**Twisted=Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVeO http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
There is one Life, that Life is God. That life is my life now. All that I am comes from Spirit, and because Spirit is completely free from all discord,
from all disharmony, and from all disease, I am too. I know that I can claim
these qualities of Spirit because I am one with it.

Today I claim my freedom from all limitation of any kind. There is nothing
in the world of form and effect that can limit the joy in my life. I declare
it to be so, and so it is. I claim my freedom to create a life that is rich,
filled with meaning, and overflowing with love. I claim a life that has work
that is fascinating and healthily challenging. This is work that expands my
heart and my mind, that is a joy to engage in. I claim love that is tender,
passionate, unconditional, and freeing. I claim a body that is strong,
flexible, fluid, and a joy to live in. I claim wealth that supports my life
in every good way, wealth that is reliable and abundant, to use, to save,
and to share. I claim creativity that flows without end, that fills my every
day with learning and inspiration.

Most of all, I claim my freedom from the belief that god is somewhere else.
I know that the kingdom of heaven is indeed at hand, and I revel in living
there everyday. I give thanks for my own innate, inherent, and inalienable
freedom, and I exercise it daily with clear, definite, and life-affirming
choices. I give thanks for my freedom, and I let it be the law of my life.
And so it is.




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[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
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Alas, Spirit Friends,
I am again able to hear you messages.


StEvEarINo:

Just had to chuckle, guy, don't really think you meant to say it quite that way.

Glad you're "sparkin'" again, and glad the computer's doin' okay.

Yes, Steve, I did receive what you sent. Thank you. It's written so tiny, though. I'll have to use those PC Peekers just real close to the screen, but I DO appreciate it.

Just grabbing a quick moment here. Our neighbor, Ave (pronounced as the "a" in "have"), with whom we usually do Sunday lunch, has company. Her son, DIL, and grandson are here from Chicago--we ate with them, and in 'alf a mo' we'll do the visiting thang, but I couldn't help but check in first.

Can't call Nafalia 'til after we return, so that'll be in a couple hours, if we're lucky.

Thanks for the Good Start, Steve, and sorry you got your personal cup of "good start" so late. But, ahhhhhhhh, all's right w/ the world now, eh?

Hokay, love to all honeybunnies peekin' in or posting--

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Last day, when it was more comfortable to "stand & type" rather that "sit & squall,"
I adjusted my "view" to "Larger" type and decided today to leave it that way. Would that help you w/links I sent you?
"am again able to hear you messages"
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif When I read the posted messages, rather than read out loud and risk freakin' Maletha out in the middle of the night, I hear your messages in my head, and try to visualize how you look, and how you "would look", saying what I'm reading. A technique
taught to me by ancient mentor "Tongue Fu", noted linguist of "Whole Earth Catalogs."
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Woke this morning and walked into the snow, feeling the icy crystals squish through my toes on the path to the copper pyramid. Surrounded by crystal clusters, the energy became obvious before I even sat down to meditate. A dog barked and I looked up to see ALL my Spirit Friends shuffling down the drive to join me.
Entering the pyramid, we sat and touched hands to get the energy flow directed around
the circle. As we spoke the mantra "MARANATHA", the ground made a low rumbling sound and the Spirit Group, still inside the pyramid rose into the air, like a helium balloon, and floated to the rotunda, just outside the opening to DaBee's Cave.....
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
StEvEoRaMa




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[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Shimaka:
...I need to learn to say "No!" to people...there is this guilt factor that plays in...

To Shimaka from Nafalia--

About this thing called "guilt"!

Psych. 101 - Guilt is nothing more than programming. We are programmed from our first day of conception to feel guity about everything, so that we are easier to control, by individuals or by the masses. After all, everyone knows it--NICE little girls don't act that way. NICE little girls don't say those things. Nor do GOOD little boys do or say those things. Since everything in the Universe is based on "intent", to respond out of guilt is misplaced intent. (programming)

It is really a simple solution if you just cut to the chase. Why not just make a post for the day that you are taking a retreat from the phone and computer to go inward and meditate, or rest, or do whatever you want to do. To all of those who truly know and love you, no one would be offended. Those who don't know and love you, you would have to question what THEIR intent is.

I had to go through this a couple of years ago myself, so went inward and this was the answer I found. So, I typed up a very nice note to put on my front door, and that note said:

"I am in retreat. Even if my door is open and you see me inside and you knock, I will not come to the door."

Unless it was someone I specifically wanted to talk to, I just didn't answer the phone, and let the answering machine take the message. During those times, the message on the answering machine would be:

"I am not avoiding anyone, I'm only in a very needed retreat. It is not personal, it's just necessary."

That's pretty much how I handled it, and you will find those who truly love and understand you will never be offended. When you are ready to come out of retreat, you change the message on the answering machine, take the note off the door, then turn on the computer, otherwise, you're just in retreat.

Just remember, to reprogram the "guilt", you must hit "delete" every time you feel guilty.

In order to learn to say "no", all you have to do is look in the mirror and see how many different ways you can say "no, no, no, no, no, no, no." And remember, it's never "no, but...", it's just "no". Practice, practice, practice.

You can probably share this with your therapist. It's good advice.

And so it is.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

From Nafalia to all my loved ones,

This will be rather short, have had a VERY rough day today. Doc changed some meds. One of the meds changed, because my blood pressure's been so low (73 over 50). He thinks the blood pressure's low because of the diuretic he has to give me. But I have to take it until the shunt is put in place. Just trying to get the blood pressure up and stabilized. That med. is working well, so far.

Also put me on a narcotic durogesic pain patch that stays on for 3 days at a time, but the real butt-kicker was the shot he gave me to help break the migraine cycle. First, you have 2 injections that they put into the I.V. to keep you from getting nauseated from the shot that they're GOING to give you. The "real" shot, is called an NSR. I have no idea what that means. Doc's hope was that it would break the headache cycle. The NSR shot did not work, it just worsened the migraines--took me down to the ground. So the nurse waited for an hour, called the doc, and he said, "no more of those". These NSR shots are used in patients that have this kind of headache, and normally work, but didn't work on me. I was to have them every 8 hours, but no more, thank God.

So that's where I'm at. I've been feelin' kinda "punky", finally got the pain eased down some and drifted off to sleep. When I woke, I felt somewhat better, just weak and tired from the NSR shot. But at least we know that it doesn't work for me.

For dinner, I had wonderful boiled potatoes, boiled carrots, and a beautiful hamburger. I ate the potatoes, carrots, and about 1/2 of the hamburger. Had a cup of fresh broccoli, cauliflour, and carrots, but wasn't able to eat any of those, but saved the savory cup of strawberries for later.

Tomorrow will be my 4th day here, and as soon as he's able to get me stabilized, I'll be able to go home, and prepare for the next step along this healing path I'm now walking. Today was just one of those minor little setbacks of trial & error (you don't know, til you try).

I was talking to one of the nurses today, around 4:00, or 5:00, and said this is the time of day when I get a real "slump", and she said--do you have that "sundown syndrome"?--I never mentioned this to the doctor, but I think I'll tell him tomorrow, because I've never heard the term before, but I have it eveery day. It's usually when I start having the low-grade fever, get really, really tired and in a real slump until after the sun goes down. Then I feel a little better. So perhaps through a course of conversation I was handed another key to this condition. It obviously wasn't some comment from nowhere, of no use to me.

So, I just wanted to bring all my beloved brothers & sisters up-to-date, so I will close for this day. I know that you are all around me all the time. I feel you.

So mote it be,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

Offering Prayer
**I dedicate to "Nafalia" and "Shimaka," Spirit Sisters with special needs that deserve "Special Prayers", "Energy" and "LIGHT"

Dear One, Let our gratitude be like a seed that flowers into joy. Let us set aside our waiting and our anticipation, our regrets and our yearning. Replace these with the graces of thanksgiving, celebration and abundant laughter.

So mote it be.

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[Becky Davis]

So glad you felt like eating tonight Nafalgia. Sleep well. You and everybody.

[DaBee]

Nafalia, my friend, shall we all take to the slopes and dive headfirst into the 1st pool of fluffy white clouds that we see? As we enter at the gates of ease and repair, our pain and confusion and angst melts down and then drips off of our toes. The drips vaporize into puffs of nothing that finds its way to the highest level of what it is. Having cleansed all of the earthly mustness from our being, we are free to soar to whatever level that we are comfortable. Ahh, it is a freedom to be where Jonathan soared and swooped. We shall all mingle and be joined while in flight to surround each other with light and a refreshing tune. What shall we sing? I feel the brushes of a flower's essence, letting me know that I will be fed. What shall we eat? As we gather in to place and hold hands, we are balanced by the energy from all directions. You may have my balance as I gather balance easily and produce bouquets for you and the next friend. You, in return hand me twice as much as I gave you. And so it goes with sharing amongst friends.
Thank you, all of my friends. I am blessed.

[Shimaka]

It's 11:11, my dear friends. I love it when something happens at 11:11. It always portends something very special.

Happy 4th of July! Even though it is now almost the 5th, happy 4th anyway. I had a marathon sleep day today though one would not know it if they saw my email because I woke up several times for half an hour or so, would answer something, then fall right back to sleep. I hope I can stay up longer than THAT now though not all night. Given that I don't feel like I'm waking up all that quickly or brightly, I'll most likely be fast asleep in an hour or two at the most. Damn! These kinds of days are the reason it's a good idea for people to check on me. Another reason for me to just learn to deal with the other stuff, which really is just stuff. Thank you all for your understanding. I was hoping I wouldn't find myself being seen as ungrateful, and thankfully, you didn't, and you understood. Thanks so much!

I took a quick check over on Bridging the Gap and saw that Dreamer had made contact with you two, Jeannie and Steve, about our little group. I wondered why she kept saying she couldn't post on this board, and now I understand. Hmmmm. So, as you said, Jeannie, timing is everything, and whenever there is consensus to move operations, I will set up a forum just for us, and we can decide how we want it to run. Will it be a private forum, or a public one that anyone can get into? I have feelings both ways on that. I do have my qualms about the entirety of Eureka Springs and the world reading a lot of what I have to say in such a personal group setting, and yet I know Deb has said she wants everyone to be able to have access, and part of me agrees. Ohmy, it seems I'm conflicted in lots of things. I do know that, given a public forum, we are likely from time to time to get the jokers. I can guarantee it. Or the gossips. And email list would eliminate the problem because it is personal by nature, and the email comes directly to your in box. But, I also know we're all used to posting on the BBS now, and we like it so . . . questions, questions, questions. Anyone have any answers? Suggestions?

Jeannie, thanks so much for your kind words or wisdom. You are so loving and such a doll. I hadn't given any thought to the attackers in my sleep in relationship to what I confessed to y'all last night. To be honest, I don't know if I often have those kinds of dreams. I don't remember a lot of them. Many of my dreams of late have been ones that had family members long since gone on to the great beyond - they, of course, were much younger, and I "feel" to be me now except I don't ever remember having a dream when I'm in the wheelchair, or even on any kind of assistance device. Heck, I was playing basketball in the one when Thomas took the keyboard from me. So, I guess most of my dreams I appear to be of sound body anyway, and many of them have to do with travel or some kind - busses, trains, cars, you name it. When you put all of your family, then there's my former wife and her whole family, any kind of transportation, just about any sport, and just that much together, you can get a lot of combinations of dreams. It appears I don't remember the nightmarish ones much unless I'm awakened in the middle of one, like that day with Thomas. So, I don't know how to answer your question. I wish I did. I'd like to remember more of my dreams, but have not been able to much in recent years. I used to keep a detailed dream journal, and I remembered almost all my dreams, or at least I think I did. LOL How does one know?

Nafalia, my dear, thank you for your words of wisdom. Of course, you are absolutely correct. I will have to put the pieces of a plan together for this so that I can do it right and without upsetting anyone. Good thinking, hon, and thank you. Now, if I could just remember how to change the message on both my cell phone and my call notes! LOL I'll get it figured out. I also need to make sure I don't do that at a time when I really need to be checked up on. There was a period of time about a year ago when my therapist asked me to make a deal with someone that I would check in with them either two or three times a day - can't remember which - and that, if they didn't hear from me by such and such a time, then they would know something was awry. I succeeded in making a deal with two people - one for the morning, and one for the evening, and I would call every day. It worked like magic for awhile, but that's also a lot to ask of someone, and both kind of fell by the wayside after a couple of months. I think her point in doing that at the time was that, if I had a specific time when I was supposed to check in, then once I did, my time was my own, and I didn't have to worry about folks being worried about me. Only problem with the plan is that then everyone who knows and loves you has to know who you're checking in with when so that, if THEY can't reach you, they know who to call and ask if I've checked in. It all seems to darn complicated, this not being well thing. Arrggghhhh!

Jeannie, were you able to pass on the info on migraines from Dreamer to Nafalia? And I am sooo sorry, Nafalia, dear, that the migraine solution the doctors tried did not work. I had migraines and cluster migraines for many years, and fortunately, they only rarely happen now, and I'm not on any medication for them. But, I understand the pain AND the frustration that goes along with them. I would imagine that the doctor will have an entirely new plan of attack when you next see him because migraines are nasty beasties, and though they may seem the same, there are two different kinds and they are exactly opposite from each other. In one kind, the blood vessels are constricted, and in the other, they are too wide open so if you take a supposed remedy for migraines, and you have the "opposite" kind than the one the remedy is for, it's for sure going to make it worse. And, it's an almost impossible call as to which one it is. Now that you've responded the way you have to the treatment he had in mind, I'm sure he has it narrowed down, and hopefully, he will now have a remedy that will work since he now knows what doesn't.

Ohmy, well, I fell back to sleep again. Hopefully, I'll get this done before it happens again. At least, this time, I feel like I actually woke up! I woke up once in between and tried writing more of this post, and, well, hehehehe, you don't want to know what it looked like. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Deb, my dear, how are you feeling tonight? I'm quite sure that post-op cast thing they put you in has probably become a real nuisance by now. Poor baby. I wish there was something I could do for you. Right about now, you probably WISH you could do the dishes. I thought of you quite often today in my waking moments, wondering what you were up to, what you've been doing to occupy yourself. I feel like I should make a drive out your way and see you, and I'm not sure why I feel that call to me so strongly, but sometimes, spirit just says those things, and you never know until you do what you're "sensing". Maybe I will try to give you a call tomorrow and see how you are doing. If we're both feeling well enough, we could plan a trip to go see our sister, Nafalia. Perhaps we could actually eat that wonderful dinner we've been having with her each night in person with her. Oh, I'm just so excited to see Nafalia saying she can eat now. Deb, dear, I'm thinking of you and sending you lots of love via the cyber airwaves as well as from and through spirit.

sTeVe, you sweet thang, I am so sorry that you're having so much pain. When do you make your next trip to Little Rock? What are you doing for pain? I was also sorry to hear about the power problem today though it does sound like you made good use of the time. I thought we might have the same problem earlier in the day. Medi had just gone outside, and it was overcast but nothing all that threatening, and he was only out maybe two minutes when I heard him bark like he wanted in, but it was a lot more urgent than it usually sounds. I went to the door, and when I opened it, the wind almost took it off at the hinges. My little old man was straining against the wind trying to get to the house so I picked him up and brought him in and gave him some lovin', and I had barely gotten him inside when a torrential downpour came down. It was so severe that I thought we might be about to be picked up and taken to Kansas. Went out front and looked across the way to see branches blowing all over, and the water wasn't coming down so much as it was coming in every direction like the wind was blowing in an erratic, sometimes circular way. Given how twitchy the power is in my area, I thought for sure we'd have at least a few minutes of power outage if not more, but no, this time we were spared. Did you have real severe weather with your outage, sTeVe? Is the weather affecting the amount of pain you have? Just wondering if any of it is arthritis or not. I be thinking of you, spirit brother, twisted or not. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif Sending you love and lots of healing light too.

Sweeties, I think I'll get up and move around a little bit, stretch out these tired and cramped up muscles, maybe go outside for a minute and breathe in some real, live fresh air which should be wonderful after all that rain. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif Love you all, and I'll be thinking of you, hoping to meet up with you in the cave or rotunda or the pyramid, anywhere we like in our dreams.

Love,
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Shimaka:
It's 11:11, my dear friends. I love it when something happens at 11:11. It always portends something very special...

Shimaka, I've got the site for you. I read your post at 2:22, and my faves are the sequential numbers...12:34 always puts a smile on my face if there isn't one already. So here y'go:

http://www.crystalinks.com/11.11.html

I'm at the mush-for-brains point again, so I'll be quick & brief.

Since Steve had talked about visualizing our speaking in our posts, I sent him a pic. Anybody else want one?

Deb, thanks so much for the trip. You have such a fab imagination!

Steve, you're our rock, and always come up w/ interesting sites & insights. Also, you started our little trip today, stepping on the snow. Thanks for that.

Shimaka, what can I say? Yo' da bomb, girl! And an early Happy Birthday to you, Ms. Cancer. I believe in wringing every ounce of birthday blessings one can get, so I'll start early for ya.

Becky, thanks so much to take time out of your busy life and your cares to stop by w/ a kind word for Nafalia. So glad you came by.

I think these are all who've posted today, but if I missed anybody, boy, am I sorry! Tomorrow I'll go back & see what I've left unanswered.

Love to all who post or don't post--

JJ

[mtnviewsteve]

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Spirit Friends, Namaskar,
**Jeannie, thanks for allowing me to put a beautiful face with a beautiful voice; really just added to my "illusion", and what a sharp dresser! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Shimaka, can't tell the weather has any effect on my back, Start my 1st physical therapy session @9:00a.m.Tuesday, figure they'll either help me of make me more sore. Go back to LR for EMG, Wed @ 11:30a.m., so "Early Happy Birthday", of course we will celebrate in Spirit with you. Gotta have faith. Glad you are getting to rest, good to hear from you.
**Nafalia, even being sick, you have an "angelic effect" on me when reading your words of wisdom. Feel sure your BP will regulate soon, and so enjoy being able to partake the evening meal with you. Planning a
fun Quest for us very soon, you may need to slip into your "Play Clothes."
**DaBee, thanks for the "trip", kinda' knew you'd take the reigns on the pyramid and lead us on another adventure. Hope your hand is better and healing quickly.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Hope to hear from each of you today. God Bless.
**Peace**Love*Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.
TODAY'S POSITIVE VISUALIZATION:

In my mind's eye I see myself surrounded by
the blessings of God. I feel and sense these
blessings even though I may not recognize them
overtly. I imagine myself opening my heart to
receive all of the blessings sent to me. As I
take a deep breath, I imagine myself allowing my
blessings to fill my whole body, giving me strength,
courage, and understanding. As I let these images go,
I say a prayer of gratitude for all the blessings
and the special gifts given to me.

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Happy July 5th!! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
"Let the "Spirit Friends" Ring!!!
"GO-o-o-D StArTs"
I know that the answer to whatever it is that I seek is always within me.
There is an infinite intelligence that knows what to do and how to do it in
me, and all I need do is open up to this intelligence to be free from
limitations of any kind.

I choose today to live my life in such a way that I am freed from
restriction, from suffering, and from disappointment; I see the world as it
truly is and revel in its beauty, grace and power. I look for these things
in the world, and in so doing, I generate them within my own self, for
whatever I contemplate, I become.

I am always guided by this infinite divine intelligence, and I let it work
through me and as me every step of the way. Whatever's bound me in the past
is no longer; it's just a memory. The truth is, the absolute, eternal,
spiritual truth about me is that I am free, I have always been free, and
always will be free. I give thanks for the infinite freedom that Spirit has
blessed me with, and I use it for good in every corner of my life and every
part of this joyous and wonderful world. And so it is.




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[DaBee]

Kaye Miller
Somehow in changing my email to Copper.net I've lost your address. Hope you see this. Just wanted to thank you so much for letting Shimaka have the chair. You are such a kind person for offering it and so glad that Shimaka can put it to good use.

Electricity out all a.m. and now I have to leave to go to town. Just as I started to write, spilled a big bag of granola all over the floor. My cat doesn't like granola, so I have to do some vacuuming. Vacuuming only takes one hand, so I'm in business. Lots of things only take one hand I'm finding out. Don't quite understand why I'm not suppose to drive. Feel like it must have something to do with liability on the doc's part. Oh well, d-i-l is driving today anyway.
Love reading all of the posts. Will be glad to hear how everyone is doing. I'm feeling pretty good. Excited about putting the erocktica in place. Beautiful day to take a drive to Eureka. Yes Jeannie, send me your pic. I know what you look like, but you've certainly taken on a glowing essence even more so since we remet on the Gratitude Network http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif
Have some thoughts on us moving. Will mull them over some more and share when I get back. Great day to you all.
light and love and comforting vibrations/
deb-o-zippitydoodah

[Jeannie Jones]

Just heard from Nafalia--she's being released today, so hope you gals don't go up there to see her! Back later.

JJ

[mtnviewsteve]

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Nafalia,
So glad you're getting released from hosp. today. Have they determined a plan to help keep you better/get well? Prayers of "LIGHT" and "Energy Healing" should be flooding your "Spirt" as you receive this message.**Remember that "cloud dissappearing"
visualization deal, I posted "way back?" Well on the way home from visiting "Baby Emma" I tried to make a cloud go away, with it's permission of course, and it actually did!! Maletha was asleep and when i told her about, she replied "Yeah, right."
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Talk later, when you're settled.
P**L**T-H-L**
sTeVe.
p.s. Kept having problems with Microsoft, so downloaded "Mozilla Firefox," so far no problem. Tired of starting/stopping/starting, and losing posts. Began to do as Shimaka advised earlier, just to be safe.



[This message has been edited by mtnviewsteve (edited 07-05-2004).]

[Jeannie Jones]

First, SHIMAKA, PLEASE DISREGARD PRIVATE E.

Wow, Steve, thanks for the family pic! I think I was seeing your "perfected" self, around 33, but you and Maletha look so great right now. And Emma! How tiny, with those long fingers. Do all babes come out like that or is she gonna be a piano player? Wonder if she's coming in "fully realized, with all veils lifted".

I have 3 current pics of myself e-mailable, but really don't know which is best. I have one from a dozen yrs. ago which I LOVE. Susan Storch took it, and that's the way I look to myself inside me, but not in the mirror.

Deb, have sent my 59th b-day photo to you, from May 2 this year. Do you have one you can send? Of course, I know you, but pics are so great! We know what Shimaka looks like from her website, accessible from her profile, or over at BTG, so that's another one out there in cyberspace, BUT, Shimaka, is it a recent photo? Wish I had one e-mailable from Nafalia, but maybe later she'll talk us through a description. It's hers to tell, not mine. Would love to have a pic of anyone who stops by here, poster or non-poster. It's easier to focus on a person with a pic, (no pun intended).

Shimaka, everyone, I've given a lot of thought to the new group idea, too, and am also conflicted. Maybe an announcement could be posted here, without posting new group address. I wouldn't mind at all having my private e address shown there, and some of the others as well who post our e's in profile and above our posts. Don't mind negativity coming into my own mailbox, but wouldn't want to see "waves" made in our own forum. Anyone interested in coming along, might then contact any of us in private-E, so as not to be exposed on this board, if that's a problem for them. If the person doesn't know any of us, maybe they could provide a "reference", from someone who might be known to any one of us. (Boy, that really sounds strange--but just tryin' to cover all bases.)

I hate to sound like an "exclusive, private club", that sounds so goofy, and my other feeling is that Spirit will help us w/this anyway, but even in THIS forum, there are things I'd like to discuss, but haven't, due to the public nature of the BBS.

Quoting Shimaka, "...I do have my qualms about the entirety of Eureka Springs and the world reading a lot of what I have to say in such a personal group setting...I do know that, given a public forum, we are likely from time to time to get the jokers. I can guarantee it. Or the gossips..."

All I know for sure, within me, about the new group set-up, is that I REALLY prefer the bb set-up, rather than an e-mail list. There's my vote on that issue.

Deb, are you using a voice recognition program? You don't seem at all slowed down in posting after the hand surgery, so that made me think--AHA--she wears splints anyway, so I'll just bet she's set up for V.R.

Well, I've kept this post open for about 5 hours now, as ideas would float to the surface from time to time about the new forum format, but it's time to put it out there.

Love to everyone, seen or unseen,

Jeannie

[DaBee]

Hi Y'all, how's everyone doing? Hey, I want a picture of sTeVe and everybody too. Yours was great, Jeannie. Yep, you're you! Haven't changed a bit in 10 years! I've got a few of myself with the grandsweeties that C took. Think I'm still me, too!
Ok, here's my opinion about us. Always subject to change and upgrading, of course. Anyway, basically, if it ain't broke don't fix it. In these 402 posts, there has not been one inappropriate posting. As far as gossip, aww, come on now, gossip, what's that and how would we know and honestly, who here thinks that they are that important to anyone else that they would spend their time dedicating an opinion of us, except for maybe a wow, what cool people they are. (Was that a question? http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif Maybe that wasn't fair to say, so I'll just speak for myself. I sure don't think that I merit anyones time to be talked about in a derogitory way, maybe in glowing terms for about 1/2 a second. Yep, I have to maintain a high opinion of me, because, well, because that's just being honest. One of the truths that I am learning with some of the hard to deal with life experiences of late that I've only alluded to, is that you can please some of the people some of the time....etc. My spoons seem to vanish twice as fast if I spend them on worrying about others. Just the actual act of worrying is quite an energy sucker.
Seems like I'm just way ok with the way things are going now and still feel like maybe we're setting a fine, comfortable place for someone to come and relax with. We are ones of truth and light and ease along with great senses of humor. Who couldn't like us http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/rolleyes.gif ? Also, how would the other work that would be any different than us just emailing each other independently? I think our theme song could be:
We
belong
to
a
mu tu aaal
admiration
society,
my baby
and me http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

OK, all together now, 1 2 3...............

Yes, Jeannie, I do wear splints, but if I rest my wrist just right, the fingers just start flying. I'm actually not in a splint on the left side right now because of the bandages. My hand is healing great and I'm getting some feeling back which is so joyful. Maybe I'll be able to do wireart again - it's been a couple years.
Actually, the hand is starting to hurt kinda bad now, but I've been overdoing and should stop and give it a rest.
It's beautiful outside, but so humid that it reminds me of Pensacola. Lotsa mosquitos out too. I'm stayin' in and chillin' under the a/c. I'm spoiling myself so bad. I love it! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif
Yea Nafalia!!!! Outta the hospital...yeayeayea!!! Is there anyone at home with you? Sounds like you have lots of friends up there in Springfield. Someone going to stay with you for a while? Or maybe check in on you often?
Are you sleeping, are you sleeping, sister Shimaka, sister Shimaka? Evening bells are ringing, evening bells are ringing....ding ding dong....ding ding dong.
love and light and all that jazz http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif
deb-o-ringydingding

[mtnviewsteve]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by DaBee:
[B]Hi Y'all, how's everyone doing? Hey, I want a picture of sTeVe and everybody too.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif DaBee,
Hey, I'll show you mine if you'll show me yours( e-mail picture I mean )or Jeannie could maybe be go between if that would be better. Up to you. Jeannie looks "too cool" in Elmer's sports car, WOW! Glad to hear you're doing well. Still, you need to take it easy. I still look like Emma's grandpa!
P**L**T-H-L**
sTeVeO

[Jeannie Jones]

Words of peace & rest from NAFALIA:

First of all, yes, we do have a game plan now from the doctors. From this point on, most of my drs. will be in Springfield, just my normal 3-month check-up w/ Dr. Sharlin, after seeing him one more time in 3-4 weeks, as a short follow-up.

Yes, it's wonderful to be home in my wonderful bed, and no, there's no one staying with me, or going to be checking on me in Springfield. Don't really have that kind of connection w/ my family, or have any friends in Springfield. I have one blind friend, Dan, who checks on me daily. I've known Dan for about 12 years, but he rarely leaves his apartment. I will be alone. I will have an attendant that cleans and takes care of daily chores, and prepares my meals. I really am only connected to my younger sister, here in Spfld., who works a lot, but, hey, I have you all, so I'm okay.

Pretty tired from the trip home, but just wanted to send you all love, light, and thanks for being w/ me. I will have to make a few phone calls tomorrow to get things all set up again with the agency that sends out the attendant, because now I need one more often, until the healing is complete.

The medical problem is, I have inner ear migraines & occular migraines from the occular lobe of the brain. Not Meniere's, but treated as Meniere's. Plan of attack for the drs. is I have a very strict low-sodium diet, a pill to buffer my blood pressure to get it up & keep it up, a diuretic to dry up the excess fluid in the brain. The doc also gave me a narcotic once a day to keep the pain down, plus the 15 mg. of Valium a day.

Will see a dr. in Spfld. as soon as arrangements can be made, to put the shunt in the ear, then at some time there'll be a breast reduction, to take some pressure off my neck. At some point will see Dr. Sharlin, so he can do the nerve block on my back for the back pain. I'll also see my retina specialist for an eye exam on the 27th. I see my internal diagnostician on the 30th, she's the one that is looking for hidden viruses, and checking my serotonin level.

Now, I'm just hanging on in a holding pattern, w/ my drugs to keep me company. You are my support group, my family and my friends, outside of my younger sister, Sue.

I don't have a pic I can send at the moment, but I can give you a brief description: I'm 5'2", 120-125 lbs, longer than shoulder-length dark auburn brown hair, dark skin, and when I'm feeling well, not too bad looking. Everybody in the hospital couldn't believe I was 61, and I told them--you oughta see me when I'm feeling good. (After all, I've been down for 7 yrs. now.) As we all know, that's only the outward manifestation of what lives inside.

Just wanted to wish y'all a wonderful, magical night, have a lot of drugs in me from the hospital, and plan on meeting you east of the sun and west of the moon in the rotunda tonight.

Postcards From the Edge--

Love,

Nafalia

And so it is.

[Shimaka]

Ah, and a good evening to you, my spirit family!

This will be shorter than usual. I spent too many spoons trying to help someone in the OF both late last night and again just now, and I'm exhausted, even though I've slept most of the day.

Yes, I want to thank Kaye, and you too, Deb, for the chair, which I will have tomorrow morning. Thomas is going to pick it up for me in the morning at Kaye's home. She has family in this week, then is leaving until next week so it was tomorrow or next week so I am thrilled that Thomas was willing to go and do the deed. I am so looking forward to being more comfortable in my place of most time spent. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

As I said, I slept most of the day today, and yesterday, and the day before. I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow afternoon at 1:30, and can you believe I'm actually concerned I won't be able to wake up to get there? I will set the alarms, etc. so I know I'll be awakened. It's a matter of staying that way long enough to get there and get through the appointment.

After we go over the stuff about the infection and the cream and how all that is working, I'm going to ask him again if he will run a cbc and an inr for me. The inr tests how "thin" or "thick" my blood is and shows what my anticoagulant is doing. If that's off, it could definitely make me more tired. And, last cbc I had showed me to be slightly anemic, but I've done the Zyvox thing twice since then with less than admirable results so it's possible that the continual exhaustion is anemia. I may ask for a B-12 shot to see if that makes a difference. Sometimes, my tank runs kinda low on all the Bs, but especially 12. A cbc and sgot would show if the Zyvox really touched off the bone marrow suppression again, and if so, then that would explain absolutely everything. So, I think I'll just ask if he wouldn't mind running a few blood tests to see what might be causing this sleep problem.

To be honest, I have a sleep problem most of the time, but NOT like this. My sleep problem usually consists of my not being able to GET to sleep, not sleeping 20 out of 24 hours, then trying to cram in 16 hours worth of stuff into those 4 hours. Whew!

So, that's my story today, my friends. I am so glad to hear good news from so many fronts. Jeannie, I'm not sure what you meant about ignoring your private email. I answered you, I think, didn't I?

You asked if the pix you've seen are recent, and though they are fairly recent, I looked to see the most recent one I had so here it is. Much as I love the color of that shirt, I don't think I could get the color balance right to save my soul, but I did try. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

http://www.shimaka.com/justme/Phyl-MM.jpg

About our new home, if we're going to have one, I think I'll just let y'all decide what you want to do because we do have some disagreement about what to do, where to go, if we should have privacy, or not, so . . . I think I shall just let y'all decide, and if you want a forum on BTG, then just let me know, and I'll put it up ASAP with either public or private features on it, whatever is decided. I, personally, don't think that staying in one long thread in the GJ on geekfest is going to last long for many of us, but then, I'm just one person among several. I really have no secrets, but I do know I would feel much freer in an atmosphere where I knew certain people would not have access to everything said. But, I can play at this level too. I'm easy. Just let me know if y'all want to take me up on the offer of a permanent home that no one can make disappear with the click of a mouse, except me, of course, and I'd have no reason to do it. Other "features" about moving to a forum just for us is that we can have multiple threads going at once, and there is the private message feature in the newer software that isn't in this version. May not make a difference at all to anyone else, and I'm not pushing, just putting it out there for consideration.

Well, my dears, Shimaka is absolutely soaked from head to toe, and even though I shouldn't need it, I'm going to close the front door, and turn on the A/C to cool off the house while I take a bath and not only get clean, but maybe even cool off. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif Perhaps the heat is also adding to the sleep factor. Hehehe, I really don't know anything other than I am sleeping far too much, and it is not a drugged sleep. I'm actually on less medication that I was before! And, I pretty much know what that drugged sleep feels like. Been there, done that . . . waayyy too many times.

I apologize, my sweets, if all I'm doing is whining. I'm trying not to and just trying to "report in with the facts" more or less, but I just realized it could just as easily be seen as whining so, if so, I am sorry. My love, and all kinds of cyber and spirit hugs for each and every one of you. I hope you can feel that wrapped up around all of you kind of hug 'cause that's what I'm sending out. Peace, love, joy, and a restful night to all of us.

My love,
Shimaka

[DaBee]

Good to hear from you, Shimaka. You know, maybe I'm not understanding what it would be like to move from this bbs. If you could just explain it the way it would look and be to me...kinda like what would it look like on my screen and how do we communicate with each other. I'm really pretty easy about stuff, but think it's just not computing (pun intended) http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif
Yo, Shimaka, thought it was ok to whine. That's what you told me when all of this 1st started. It ain't no big deal. I want you to be able to whine so that all of us, including me, can do so when it's time to. Anyway, what is whining? The only time I hear that is when I tune to KTHS and they're playing country western tunes. You'd think that a sweet thing like me from Texas would just be boot scootin' and 2 steppin' along to it, but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO way. That whining I can't take.
You really know your med stuff, gal. Hope they can get it down to brass tacks with why you're so tired. That's a lotta sleep. And that's a lotta healing. I've asked several docs to please give me B-12 shots and they won't. It's what my Mom had many years ago that turned her arthritis around and she swore by it (and she was a nurse, too). They tell me it was just a fluke, but I don't think they know what they're talking about.
Hey sTeVeO ol' buddy, I sent Jeannie a pic of myself. It's my earth momma old hippie grandma bee curly headed gal picture.
Well, that about sums it up for the night.
Wish you were just down the street, Nafalia, I'd pop in and fix you some breakfast. Maybe we can meet in the rotunda instead. See you there...everyone.
love and light and kitty purrs/
deb-o-meow

[Jeannie Jones]

No, Shimaka, you don't sound like you're whining to me--just stating what you're going through. Isn't that what we're here for and how this all began? To support you in the times that feel difficult and amuse and entertain, apparently, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif and to share our views about our spiritual sides if we so choose?

Thanks for the pic--you look so young! But then you are, aren't you? LOVE the electric color of the shirt. It's soooooooo pleasing to the eye. I see why you wanted to get the color right. You don't seem to have aged since the photos on your site--bright smile, clear eyes, lookin' good, girl.

Big day tomorrow! AC, new chair, dr. appt, so many things in one day. Hopefully your doc will help you stay awake a little more, either by B's or some other approach. As you said, the AC will probably help, too.

I didn't check my e-mail much today, but when I finally did, yu had already answered my question about Dreamer's difficulty in registering for this bbs. You explained it very clearly. Thanks, dear heart.

Have a good night and a happy tomorrow.

Love you,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

"Twilight Time" playing on X-Files just now. Love it.

So, Deb, I would suggest that you go to the following link, register, and see how it feels. Post here & there if you want, or just see what options are offered there. Kind of try it on, like a shoe. It's quite user-friendly, and it has become more secure. First try to access it w/o registering, then register if you will, and "try it on".

www.bridgingthegapbbs.com (http://www.bridgingthegapbbs.com)

Love the curly-headed "do" wackadoowackadoo. You look just the same, kiddo. And Kaela--what a doll!

My eyes are little slits. Gotta go.

Heaps o' love,

JJ

[mtnviewsteve]

Happy Tuesday, Spirit Friends, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Thanks for All, the great pictures. DaBee, you look beautifully like the "free-spirit I'd imagined. Shimaka. We share the same love for vivid colors, and I must say, "You look wonderful, Darling." Nice to "place a face with the space."
Well, got PT this a.m. at 9:00 a.m., so wish me strength and endurance. Hope I can still move after this session, it doesn't take much to really flare my back up as I've found out the hard way. "Whine-Whine." http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Hope everyone is well, and **Nafalia** keep up the courage and mega-strength, we are so proud and "thankful" you are making some progress.
5Ft-2, eyes of blue? I do my best to picture you.
Blessings to All. Back soon…. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe

"Good Starts"

There is only one Spirit, and it has all the answers. It is the infinite
source of all intelligence, the unending ocean of profound love that infuses
all form with its own nature. And my own being is Spirit, taken form...taken
birth as me. I am infused with the power, the love, the creativity, and the
opulence of Spirit. All that I am partakes of this greater nature that is
always within me, no matter what I may experience in the world.

I know that while I experience limits from time to time, they're just clouds
passing before the sun; the truth is that my nature is and always will be
absolutely unlimited. I awaken to this level of my being today, bringing
that unlimited thinking and unlimited loving into all that I do. And I
flourish! And so it is.

TODAY'S POSITIVE VISUALIZATION:

In my mind's eye I imagine that the life I have
experienced so far is stretched out behind me. As I
look at this line of people, events, and feelings I
give thanks for all of them and all they have brought
to my life. I now turn my attention to the space before me and imagine I see my future as a long line stretching
into eternity. I see only positive images of people, events,
and feelings in my future. I notice my future is limitless
in richness and happiness. I affirm that I am worthy
of a great and wonderful future and I accept it now.
I combine these images with joy and let them go, knowing
that they will create the good things I am visualizing
and thinking.



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[Shimaka]

Good morning, sweets!

Steve, go get 'em at PT! I hope it makes you feel wonderful! Having been fortunate to have had PT and OT a couple of times in my life, I can say with confidence that, unless you have Attila the Hun as a therapist, it's always been a positive experience. LOL And, there's only one Attila the Hun, and he isn't where you are so . . . there you go! It shall be terrific, splendid, healing, relaxing, and you'll look forward to it every time you go. And, so may it be. From my keyboard to Spirit's ears. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Deb, m'dear, I think that Jeannie has the right idea. Go check out BTG, join, make a few posts, get to know the board, etc. The software is the same used for geekfest so you have AT LEAST what you have here in the way of features, posting is exactly the same. The only things that are different are enhancements because it's a newer version of the software that powers the board.

Oh, and the graphics are different, of course. Most of the posting icons are different, you can choose an "avatar" to represent yourself (from a group of over 150, or make your own), and there are instant graemlins that are little buddies like the icons only you just have to click on them to put them in your posts. When you look at a person's post, you can see a lot more information about them, like how many posts they've made, what their "rating" is by other members (if anyone has rated them), their location, avatar, etc. You can send them a private message if you like (unless they have decided they don't want to receive private messages), and most of these features can be turned off by you if you don't want them, like the private message option (though I can't think why someone would).

I guess, it's just one of those things you need to check out for yourself to get the feel of it rather than having someone explain it to you.

And really, the only reason for going to BTG, aside from staying posting where we are, is that we have more control over how we want to set up the forum, and the forum will be all ours, not an already-existing public forum that we just kind of adopted like we done went somewhere and homesteaded. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif Lastly, I already own it so we don't have to go buy a domain and the software and pay monthly fees to keep it up and running. I already do that. Oh, and another BIG feature is that Dreamer can join us rather than passing messages back and forth. I think that might be the biggest feature of all. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Jeannie and Steve, I think I will have to kiss you both for those comments, re: my picture. I didn't even want to put that one up because it's such a horrible pic, but you asked if the one on BTG or my site is recent, and that's the most recent one I could find - it was taken at Myrtie Mae's one Saturday evening not too long ago. Young? Ohmy, now I know I have to kiss you, Jeannie. I'm turning 51 tomorrow. I feel like I'm 91 most days. Or rather, my body does. My spirit, and the way I see myself inwardly, is that of a mid-20's year old though I'm definitely an "old soul." "Bright smile, clear eyes," ohmy, Jeannie, you're just racking up points like crazy here. LOL Considering what my body has been through in the last, oh, six years or thereabouts, that's the biggest compliment you could give me. Thank you. The picture on the site is two birthdays ago and was actually taken ON my birthday so it's not that much older, but it is awhile ago in terms of how much wear and tear there has been on the ole bod. Sometimes, in the last few years, I feel like I've aged three years for every one so your comments have definitely made my day, thanks so much. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Nafalia, m'dear, I am so very happy that you are home safe and sound, that you have a plan, and a doctor to stick by you in order to implement it. How wonderful! You sound like your spirit is soaring with the eagles! From the sounds of the plan, they've got the bases covered in spades, and you should be good as new when they get it all done. You'll be trippin' the light fantastic! I am soooo happy for you, and extra happy that the hospital stay did not have to last very long. We did enjoy some splendid meals while you were there, did we not? Ohmy, I've eaten so well of late in the rotunda that I just don't know what to say. That's some chef you've had! And, how kind to have made enough for all of us too. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Becky, t'was nice to have you stop by and wish Nafalia and all of us a good night's sleep. That's especially meaningful to me. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Has anyone heard from Missie at all? Deb, was it you who said you had seen her and her family? Or, was it you, Jeannie? I think it was a garage or yard sale or something similar. I don't even know her last name so can't look her up, and she's no longer working at Dr. Bell's office, which is where I met her. I'm just a bit concerned that we haven't heard from her in quite awhile. I hope she's had a miraculous healing and is just spryly running all over the place feeling wonderful! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Well, dears, I should be hearing from Thomas any minute now so I should get off this thing and see what's going on, maybe do something strange like move the chair I'm in to make way for the one that's about to arrive. Could even do something stranger like sweep under it. LOL

Love you all! Have a great day. Peace, joy, light, and love to all of us! A happy Tuesday!

Love,
Shimaka

[mtnviewsteve]

Spirit Friends, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Got back from PT no worse for wear, still sore, but PT therapist felt up and down my back and actually had me do more stretches and resistance exercises than anyone else. Would have given me cortisone shot today but delayed until Thursday, since I have EMG tomorrow and she didn't want o do anything that would block impulses. Gonna' be a "full week" of health visits, something I'm not used to, but figure I'll get used to.
**Spirit Sister Shimaka thanks for the "high five" for therapy, as Martha Stewart says, "This will be a good thing." "Happy, Happy Birthday, Shimaka!" July 7th. Best Wishes, Blessings, and Pure White "LIGHT" Energy for YOU in every conceivable WAY. WE will ALL attend you party in "Spirit" and partake of the festivities. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
** Spirit Sister Nafalia, hope today blesses you and the "journey" to recovery is pleasant and healing in EVERY WAY. So glad to have you back home and with us,the ONES than care the MOST. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Sister DaBee & Jeannie hope the healing and Energy of the Universe Bless you both, and "Everyone else, today and ALWAYS.
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing LIGHT**
sTeVe.

[DaBee]

Twice now this thing has erased everything I've written and guess when I can get on Bridging the Gap (trying to register, but it's spitting me out) I'll finish or actually start all over. Been a very strange day with all kinds of close signs and synchronicities that I want to share, but the 'puter fairies are sprinkling dusty stuff all over and I'm having to vacuum every 5 minutes. Next thing you know, I'll have fairy fingerprints all over my mirrors and windows. Doesn't matter cause I don't do windows.
later you lovely lepracauns
deb-o-blarneystone

[mtnviewsteve]

Not http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
DaBee, i have been having "xtreme" trouble on both boards. I tried on BTG to wish Shimaka "Happy Birthday" at least 5 times, everything froze up just I was fixing to "add post". The planets must be "outta kilter". Mind you, think it's my computer, not Geekfest of BTG. Just sat large phantom crystal cluster next to monitor & modem. Will be performing cyber-exorcism on both, as soon as I hang up, or get hung up! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Peace*
sTeVe.



[This message has been edited by mtnviewsteve (edited 07-06-2004).]

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, Deb & Steve, sorry you're having computer glitches today. Maybe it will heal itself. Do you need to reboot maybe? Could y'all have picked up a bug? I haven't had a bit of trouble today w/ here or there (and a big "thank you" to the computer gods http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif )

Steve, your "Happy Birthday" post is there just fine on BTG. Did you happen to "uncheck" the box under where you log in? It seems like I had a little trouble when I did that once. Do you realize that after you submit your post, if you wait just a moment your post will appear on the board at the end of the thread right there before you? Before I realized this, I tried to just quickly go back to "Soapbridge Central", and maybe that can get things to go wonky. Don't remember.

Anyway, I would suggest trying it again, because, as I said, it worked great for me now.

There's also a "private message" option, where you can send someone just that, and no one else may see it. Very cool.

Steve, so glad your pt went well today. What a blessing. Hope you have your pain lifted more and more.

Y'all (all y'all) are in my prayers,

Jeannie



[This message has been edited by Jeannie Jones (edited 07-06-2004).]

[DaBee]

oh no, it ate my post again

All I was wanting to say was that I was assuming that it was you, Nafalia, that redecorated the cave. It could have been someone else, but whoever it was, you did a wonderful thing.
Also, noticed some people in the pic and thought that maybe it was the ones that come for respite and nary say a word. You are welcome, always, weary travelers.
Scooting outta here quick before it zaps me again......light/love/lollipops/deb-o-poptart

[Jeannie Jones]

A big thanks to Kaye Miller for donating the chair, and to Deb for relinquishing it.

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Jeannie,
Before I forget, Good Luck with your surgery tomorrow, and the biopsy will be "just fine" no problem, benign!
Cave pic's are cool, exactly where is that? Been there before, but just can't place!!! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
P**L**T-H-L**
sTeVe

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Well, Spirit Friends, after much thought and consideration I am ready to "vote" in favor of beginning a "new forum" at BTG. Believe it or not I'm not very intimidated by much, but I would hate for any part of our tribe to come under attack because of our beliefs or somebody's lack of them.
Feelings, when we are struggling, somtimes are very "fragile" and this is a public forum so we are wide-open for any jealous soul that decides to "poke-fun" or be hurtful. I am not timid when under attack, and believe me I've done very well keeping my "horns' hidden, even the several times I went looking for it in some of the GF forums.
My desire is to become "more-like" Spirit, and it's only smart to eliminate any temptations. Just like real-therapy groups, observers are included by invitation only, or as need arises to gain a new, fresh perspective. Again this is just my vote, and I will do as the "Spirit Group Of Light" decides. I would hate to miss a chance to help or witness to someone, because they were afraid someone might criticize them. Our purpose is to SERVE. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
I love the open forum in Geekfest, for it serves the intended purpose, to let 'em vent, and I will continue to participate in that if I choose. Guess I just want to give our group a little security, and any new ones that may choose to join a little protection. Everyone's not as bold and sassy as WE. What ya' think??
Blessing to ALL, near and far.
sTeVe.

[This message has been edited by mtnviewsteve (edited 07-06-2004).]

[Jeannie Jones]

For real, though, Deb, where is this fab place? Is it--like--across the country, or somewhere where we could actually go and feel the space with our hands? If we could actually go there, it would be so WONDERFUL if that could be the site of our first actual meeting in the flesh, so to speak.

By the way, hey, YAY--I've got my glasses back on! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! I hadn't worn them since last Wednesday, and I may have been able to wear them earlier than this, but it just occurred to me today that I should try them on to see if the swelling had gone down enough, and..........YIPPEE!

So tomorrow I go to get the stitches out, and the biopsy results. I feel it will all be well.

I was on the computer for hours and hours, and then at 5:00 or so I realized I hadn't eaten anything yet, and that I'd best do that before calling Nafalia. Hadn't talked to her yet today. So I fixed my sandwich,

(Earth Grains Honey Wheatberry bread--love to crunch them wheatberries--thinly covered w/ Land-o-Lakes "spreadable butter", sliced tomato, juicy & sloppy, but tasty, 2 leaves of fresh, green Romaine lettuce, and 2 patties of Morningstar Farms "fake" sausage patties, microzapped--mmmmmmm mmmmmmm lip-smackin' good!)

ate it, and called N. It took a few rings for her to answer, and she sounded kind of faint. I asked if I had awakened her, and she said no, but she was waiting for a doctor to call her. Said she'd call me back after she got her call. I'm hoping that she's just sleeping, but if she hasn't called by 10:00, I'll sure give her a call back. Let's picture her in "wholeness".

Deb, I hope you've been able to wiggle your way in to BTG, because it's got some great features, and I can see the benefits of being able to post different topics, and go back & forth w/ that. At the end of a thread there's a "quick reply" blank, where you can work on your reply AND scroll back up to see the whole thread if you forget something. I like that a lot, because when I face the "reply" blank here sometimes, I forget what it was I wanted to reply to, or parts of it, since we're trying to reply sometimes to all previous posters in one post. There's also a "print preview" that allows you to see just what your post will look like on the board, so you get a chance to edit without having to go back in & edit, if ya catch my drift.

Well, Shimaka had one pretty exciting day, if all went as planned, and I'm betting that she's sleeping now, and hoping we hear from her soon.

I hope I haven't forgotten anything I wanted to respond to, but that's all I can do for now.

Love to all, seen or unseen,

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

ASD, Automatic Skip Driver:
All devices or operations that have failed to start are listed by ASD. You can use ASD to enable any device previously disabled by ASD, and Windows 98 will attempt to use the device on the next startup attempt. If it fails, your computer will stop responding. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Finally found my problem, and eliminated it( I mean w/computer, smarty)
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Found neat site titled:
"Introduction to Energies", pretty cool.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
http://www.celestialechos.gedart.com/intro_to_energies.htm
**Will check in in a little.
Blessings to ALL.
sTeVe.

Spirit Friends, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Today my PT was able to accomplish, subliminally, what I had hoped for. Doing the reflex and resistance diagnosis, she was able to aggravate the sciatic nerve in my lower back, hip, and right leg. This will enable the EMG, hopefully to detect where and to what my pain may be originating from. I'm as sore now as I have been working all night, after just a few little flexes. So I am grateful to her unknowingly resurrecting the pain, if for nothing but to help Drs. Tomorrow. Glad I talked her out of the cortisone shot for today, it could have blocked the signal. Thanks you "Great Spirit." http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
** Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.


[This message has been edited by mtnviewsteve (edited 07-06-2004).]

[Kaye Miller]

Shimaka-
Sorry we did not connect today. I have been with family all day and have more coming in tomorrow.

I waited an extra hour and then had to take the grandaughter to the dr. at 10:45. Tried to call you but got no answer.

Do you want to try for 9:00 a.m. tomorrow?

[DaBee]

The cave is where it has always been - in the canyon of sage leaves on the dragonfly pacifico coast, but it matters not as there is no time or distance involved when we go to that place.
sTeVeOkEdOkE, since you put it that way, I understand. Sorry if I haven't been sensitive about this issue. Seems like because of my gypsy spirit that is on hiatus now, it's been hard to budge me. I've been in this house longer than I have been anywhere for 15 years. I have been here for a year and a half years. It's the 1st garden out of maybe 8 that I've toiled over and nurtured to the point of even picking my 1st cucumber. I haven't been able to stay still until now. Think that last I counted, have moved 27 times and probably more than that. Think the deal is that everywhere I went I couldn't find me anywhere. The old geographical cure is what it's about, if you know what I mean. So I'm being very careful about making changes and not getting in a hurry. I guess my stubbornness has been selfish, but the good news is that I see that now. Like you, I also want to follow spirit and put myself in a place of serenity. Am learning that it is necessary to not go to the place or be with those that do not honor this light also. So thank you for reminding me of this, friend.
Have tried several times to get the BTG to kick in, but it keeps giving me all kinds of excuses. Sounds like it would work real well for us, well, if I can get it to work.
Really tired tonight. Had a bout of gallbladder pain and it kept me down for several hours this morning and didn't make it to the clinic. Haven't had it in 2 years, but think it's time to do a liver/gallbladder flush again. It's an incredibly awful pain and amazing how well this flush works.
Have the oh so special granddaughter here with me tonight. We're watching "Heidi". Remember seeing it when I was a little girl and this is Kaela's 1st time. She thinks it is a great movie and so cool that I saw it when I was her age (6).
So, watch out popcorn, here we come.
Hope you've had a great day and are resting comfortably in your new chair, Shimaka.
Dear Jeannie and Nafalia, I am so glad that the 2 of you have such a great friendship and share with us. All will be just fine with your biopsies, Jeannie. Hope you have a pleasant day out, also. And Nafalia, I so want you to feel better and be able to do the things that you enjoy. Do you have much mobility and are you able to go places? I am trying to remember your place in town, but it may have been there on one of my trips away for awhile. Was it next to the old Lamplighter on Main Street?
love and light and salt and butter/
deb-o-yodelaheehoo

[mtnviewsteve]

Originally posted by Kaye Miller:
Shimaka-
Sorry we did not connect today. I have been with family all day and have more coming in tomorrow.

I waited an extra hour and then had to take the grandaughter to the dr. at 10:45. Tried to call you but got no answer.

Kaye,
If you could 9 AM tomorrow is just dandy, and thank you VERY much! When I called Thomas on his cell phone at 10, wondering where he was because he was a little late, I found out that he had slept in because he had to Sudafed himself to sleep last night, but he is going to have someone to wake him up in the morning so that would work out great, thanks sooooo much! My sincerest apologies that you waited so long. Had I known I needed to make a call to get him up, I would have. It was just a miscommunication, and I am truly sorry.

Thanks much!

XOXOXOX
Shimaka

Do you want to try for 9:00 a.m. tomorrow?

[DaBee]

Now I'm really confused. How did you do that, sTeVe? I don't see Shimaka's response anywhere.

Lany, I am so very sorry for whatever happened. I can't imagine you not being a part of this. It's so sad to think about. I need to be still for awhile, get out of the way and let Spirit take its rightful place.

[mtnviewsteve]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by DaBee:
[ Had a bout of gallbladder pain and it kept me down for several hours this morning and didn't make it to the clinic. Haven't had it in 2 years, but think it's time to do a liver/gallbladder flush again. It's an incredibly awful pain and amazing how well this flush works.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif "PURE WHITE LIGHT ASCENDING" out of the mouth of the cave to wrap you and give you comfort and healing. Hope tommorow you feel 100% and give us a tour.
**LANY** http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Want to always share the "LIGHT" with you wherever, as you have always brought bright, melodious GIFTS to each and everyone of US.
Thank you for your honesty and I respect that. Blessings ALWAYS.
Spirit Friend,
sTeVe,

[Shimaka]

Steve, thank you for taking care of that. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Is anyone here dazed or luvineureka, trying to register on BTG?

Please, let me know, thanks.

Love,
Shimaka

[mtnviewsteve]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by DaBee:
[B]Now I'm really confused. How did you do that, sTeVe? I don't see Shimaka's response anywhere.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
"MAGIC", my Dear DaBee, "MAGIC".
*P*L*T-H-L**
StEvE.

[Shimaka]

I think I must be missing something. Duh!

XOXOXOX
Shimaka

[Shimaka]

Deb, since you seem to be having so much trouble getting registered, would you like me to do it for you? Just tell me the username you want, which would be your log in name, and if you want a different "public name", and I'll get you registered, then approve it, and the system will spit out your temporary password and mail it to the address used, which I would imagine you would want to be your new one, right?

Just let me know.

Hugz,
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

Notes from Nafalia--

I talked to my dr. in Spfld, and she told me to go to the emergency room for a pre-evaluation for admittance to the hospital again, 'cause things are not going well. The emergency room was so busy & I couldn't sit there for 4 or 5 hours, so I returned home. Dr. Yerra called me and wanted to know why I left, and I told her because I couldn't sit in the e.r. for hours on end--I was too weak. She said, "It's obvious from the sound of your voice that you need to be hospitalized, but we have to follow Medicare/Medicaid rules, which means 'pre-evaluation by an emergency room doctor'. Wait 'til later and go by ambulance."

The diuretic is making it hard for me to swallow, am becoming dehydrated, even though I'm drinking water like crazy, the colon's bothering me, can't take the drugs the dr. sent home with me. I'm afraid to continue on with these powerful drugs, and afraid to discontinue them on my own, so my internal diagnostician has suggested I go back to the hospital tonight by ambulance for pre-evaluation for admittance to St. John's in Springfield. I'm just kind of dawdling around trying to keep myself & my balance together.

My neurologist at Skaggs left it up to me as to whether or not I came home yesterday, and since I have one sister who helps me, I was trying to make it easier on her and do it before she had to return to work today, because her plate's so overrun already, and she couldn't afford to miss work, so I made a wrong decision, and left the hospital too soon. Am home alone and feeling very weak and feel like I don't need to be alone w/ all these drugs in me. So I guess here in a short while I'll call the ambulance and go back to the hospital.

Not much left to say, except--hold a good thought--cause I'm gettin' ready to call the e.r. & see if it's calmed down by now so that I can return to the e.r.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Shimaka:
I think I must be missing something. Duh!

You and me both, sweetie. I'm bewildered--who's bewitched and who's bothered? Who's on first? I think we must've missed a lot. Sounds like sweet Lany has taken her leave. Well, I'm sorry for that and wish you well, Lany spirit-girl. I love you, my friend.

Boy, I'll tell you what, that Ms. Nafalia sounds like she's just barely hangin' on. She said to give her 10 minutes, then call her back to see if the e.r.'s calmed down enough for her to go. She really needs to be back in the hospital ASAP. I'll let you know in a little bit what's what. But just what is "what". I don't know who's on 3rd.

Okay, she's just called back and said that she's going to call 911 right now, and when she gets to the e.r. she won't have to sit in the waiting room and wait. They'll lay her down. SO--she'll be in St. John's Hospital in Springfield. I'm sure she'd say to "keep those cards & letters comin'". I know your prayers are with her.

In Universal Love,

Jeannie

[mtnviewsteve]

Nafalia,
So sorry things have taken a wrong turn, but sounds like the Dr's know what's best. We're quite sorry but glad you will soon be getting some professional care.
We ALL send Blessings of Healing and Protection for YOU. Please keep us advised as Prayers Of Light are always directed to you and your caregivers. God Bless.
Spirit Brother,
sTeVe

[Shimaka]

Oh, sweet Nafalia,

I so wish I lived closer to you. It sounds like you and I would make good neighbors or housemates or side-by-side sharing a duplex or something like that. I know how frightening it must be right now, and I wish I could be there in person to hold you hand and just let you know everything will be okay. I'm with you in spirit, dear, and I'll be holding that hand just not in the physical. Do you know what medications they have you on that you weren't taking before? Obviously, these are some pretty strong drugs, and I know that can be very frightening, especially when you are at home and alone and not knowing if what you're feeling is what you're supposed to be feeling or not. I'm with you, hon. I'll be sitting right beside you, and I want you to know you aren't alone. You are surrounded by love and peace and the relaxing energy of spirit.

In love,
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

We won't have news of Nafalia 'til tomorrow, so I'll read your posts to her and sing her your songs. We'll wrap her in healing love and do the best we can to lift her.

And speaking of songs, how about this one:

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday, Shimaka,
Happy birthday to you

Hope your day is happy and blessed.

And then how 'bout this one for everyone:

Twilight descends, everything ends
'Til tomorrow, tomorrow.
Since we must part, here is my heart
'Til tomorrow, tomorrow.
Clouds drifting by echo a sigh,
Parting is such sweet sorrow
I'm drifting too, dreaming of you
'Til tomorrow comes.

from the musical, Fiorello, 1959

[Kaye Miller]

Nine a.m. is fine.

[mtnviewsteve]

Wow, Spirit Friends,
Good Morning. Yesterday sure had some twists and turns,for sure. Feel today may level out a little and good things ahead for ALL.
Blessings of healing, comfort, and protection prayers abound for Nafalia. Hope to get good report later.
Happy, Happy, Birthday to Shimaka. Best wishes to a beautiful spirit sister.
Healing to DaBee and Jeannie as they wage their daily battles.
Lany, we thank you for the Prayers of Light for Nafalia and the rest of the group. Hope WE can empower each other and reach a solution that will work for us ALL.
Leave you, as I return to LR for EMG test, back later. Blessings of LIGHT.
steVe. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
_____________________________________________
"Good Starts"
All there is, is God. It is the one presence, the one source, out of which
everything arises. It is all form, and all formlessness - there is nothing
created or uncreated that is not God. And I know that this One Source is
perfect harmony. It is unlimited vitality and strength. Its very essence is
love, and wherever it is, abundance flourishes. the ever-creative source of
Life is whatever I need for it to be, for all of it is always where I am.

Today, I draw upon this One Source for all that I need. The inspiration,
persistence, and understanding I need unfold right here and now. With
unwavering faith, I let this Source provide for me and through me the
clarity of thought I need to do the work before me. Its wisdom fills my mind
as I make good solid decisions. I let Life inspire me in every way as I go
about my business this day.

There's nothing that can get in the way of this process, no matter what I've
believed in the past. I am completely open to the action of Spirit in me.
Old habits or decisions or ideas fall away, and what is left is the perfect,
undiminished expression of Spirit in the form of me and my life, and all
life.

I am in absolute awe at the elegant simplicity of the spiritual laws that
make this so! I am grateful for their perfect operation in my life today,
and I give thanks for all the blessings I receive every moment. And so it
is.

[Flaherty]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHYL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
These years simply go by way to fast. I can't believe we are both a year older.Thanks for the invite to your love in birthday meal. I am boarding a jet plane early tomorrow am, headed to Florida for my birthday. My special friend sent me a ticket and some travel dollars as well as lined up some friends to spend time with me. I am so lucky. Excited itn't the word. I left home seven years ago and it's been that long since I have eaten "Blue crabs". oh boy,can't wait. You have a wonderful happy day today and I will call you when I get back.I want you to know that I will be at the restaurant in spirit, helping you enjoy your party.Love you my friend.

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, dear ones, after waiting so long to go to the emergency room at St. John's, they sent Nafalia back home and told her to drink more water.

She was sitting in her internal diagnostician's office when I spoke to her just after 9:00, waiting to see her, feeling really rocky. She can't sit for long, so don't know how that will go. I'll pass on more info. as soon as I have it.

Loving prayers & a warm blanket of Love for Nafalia,

Jeannie

[DaBee]

Happy Birthday to you, Shimaka. Sure hope you got the chair at 9 a.m. That's like a birthday present too, huh?
I sent you the BTG form that I've tried 17 dozen different user names on and it just keeps saying that it's already been used. Hard to believe with some of the names I've come up with. I've never had trouble ever getting hooked up with anything so don't know what the prob is.
Oh Lany, wanted to tell you that on the 4th, the kids and I went driving around Pension Mtn. looking for fireworks. Found a good display that the people probably paid a good penny or 2 for. We just sat in the back of the truck and watched the sky. Don't know if that was where you spent your evening or not, but I was thinking of you. We live on the other side of the mountain, where it and Crystal Mountain meet.
Happy Wednesday to all and to all a good day.
I'm there with you, Nafalia, with my right hand on your right shoulder, ever so lightly.
Be well.

[Shimaka]

Good morning, my dear friends . . .

Thanks so much for the wonderful birthday greetings. My birthday started off with a bang this morning as Thomas showed up at about 9:05 with my wonderful new chair compliments of Kaye. Thank you soooo much, Kaye. It is positively wonderful, perfect for my needs, and I am both honored and blessed to have it. Deb, again, thank you so very much for relinquishing it so that I can enjoy it. Kaye's graciousness and yours has made this a wonderful morning, and I'm sure will make many wonderful moments and days to come. Muchas gracias, amigas!

I attempted to stay up late last night to wait on word on our dear Nafalia and found that I had fallen dead asleep without even taking my bedtime meds. Didn't find that out until Thomas woke me up this morning with the chair. Oh, how glorious. And, do we know how our dear Nafalia is doing yet? I feel so much better knowing that she is safely in the hands of the doctors who know the medicine she is taking best. Blessings, sweet Nafalia. I remain vigilant at your side in spirit, my friend. Namaste!

I think I shall attampt to wake up now. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif I've noticed that my eyes are slits which doesn't work well for seeing the little type on the computer. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Steve, blessings on your Little Rock run. I will be thinking of you, my sweets.

Bless you all, dear ones.

Well, sweets, I was just ready to click on send when I noticed a message had been left on my cell phone so I picked it up and it was my doctor's office, asking me to call in. I logged off and called, and when his nurse came to the phone and said hello, the first thing I said was, "You're not gonna ruin my birthday, are you?" http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Evidently, my blod work didn't come back too promising, and we have to switch a whole bunch of things around. I'm more anemic than before which explains the tired and sleepy stuff, and my Potassium level is waayyy too low, which he's concerned for my heart over so I have to switch a bunch of stuff around dosage-wise and go back over to his office this afternoon to get my potassium redrawn to make sure it was right . . . so it must be REAL low. So, there we have some explanations for fall asleep and stay asleep all day. Just the latest report in. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Thinking of you Deb, and Jeannie, and Steve, all of you in your procedural modes today, and dear Nafalia, I'm still with you, grrrl. Hang in there.

Love,
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

Deb, so sorry you've been having the intense gall bladder pain. Hope you're able to get in to the clinic today to have it taken care of.

I've wrapped you all in my prayers this morning, and when I close my eyes in prayer I get this most beautiful purple sweeping all of my field of inner vision, so I am truly blessed. (Actually, I get the purple any time my eyes are closed for any length of time in wakefulness--it's so beautiful.)

Steve, I hope you get more and more relief from your back & sciatic pain this day and every day.

Love all, serve all,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, Shimaka, it seems like our posts crossed in the mail. I had hoped you'd gotten favorable results at your doc's appt. yesterday. Sorry to hear that was not the case, but at least there are avenues for you to pursue to your feeling better for more waking hours of the day.

And so happy you got your "birthday chair"!

Steve, forgot today was a L.R. run. I had it in my mind that it was another pt session.

Deb, why don't you just click on the postcard on Shimaka's name line, tell her the name you'd like her to use, and she'll register you herself. Save yourself the frustration.

Ms. Lany girl, if you're out there, hope you also have a day with less pain and more happiness.

Love to all, seen & unseen,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

How wonderful for Flaherty to have this lovely trip drop into her lap! Hope you have a great time and eat your fill of "blue crabs"! It's so good to get away for a while, no matter how wonderful your home place is.

"Flight" blessings,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

Just spoke w/ Nafalia. Dr. Yerra says that N. has a terrible sinus infection (which is also causing the sore throat). She's boosting the Serotonin level, and taking her off all other meds. She's set her up w/ in-home physical therapy and in-home health care. She said that her body's suffering from too many years of trying to do too much herself.

She sounded MUCH better than last night, and attributed that to the Allegra. The nurse was knocking at her door as we spoke, so it sounds like she's in good hands.

Love to all,

JJ

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[mtnviewsteve]

Spirit Friends, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Been a frustrating day, sorry to be complaining, had hoped to have good news or at least something "positive." Dr. in LR did a plenty painful EMG and determined nerve damage/blockage in my right leg. (Didn't we already know that, or do they think I "dig" walking w/cane!!) Asked me if I was a diabetic or alcoholic, I nearly freaked. Told them "NO, neither, WHY?" Dr. said, that could be cause of nerve damage. I arose and not too politely said, "my back injury and leg numbness was a result of an injury at work that I reported, and that's why you're treating me." DUH. Dr. said I should continue PT and try to go back to work, 8 hrs. day. My next question was what if work aggravated my condition even worse, what then? I have yet to receive any $$ compensation from WC for the time I've been off!!! What the fu*k am I supposed to do? If I go back to work and can't do the job, again, I'll have to start WC claim all over again after 7 days. 'nough about me, all this really s-u-c-k-s!!! un- http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif

Jeannie, how did your surgery and biopsy go, been sending prayers and White Light Energy to you ALL day?

Hope Nafalia is responding to the treatments better, sure sorry she has been through so much, just imagine how helpless she feels!! Many Prayers of Healing & Light going out to you "sweet spirit sister."

DaBee, saw yer' post on BTG, good work, and thanks to the 'birthday girl." Anybody spoken to Lany, don't want to lose her closeness and wisdom at any cost, she's another that has surely "paid" her dues!!!

Well, let me hear your "words of wisdom' about my "plight" need good "SPIRIT" advice !!!!
***Peace**Love**Frustrated/Healing-Twisted LIGHT***
back faking sTeVe. (Bull-sh*t)


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[Jeannie Jones]

Nafalia in Recovery--Eating & Sleeping--

Good evening, my beloved brothers & sisters. Thank you so much for all your white light and your loving spirits. Today saw Dr. Yerra in Springfield. Such a loving, compassionate woman this doctor is. I feel as though someone's finally hearing my cry for help and is answering my plea to do something.

Dr. Yerra is from India, late 50-ish, very beautiful, very shining energy. She told me today that too much had occurred in my life and I've been dealing w/ everything myself for so long and my body, mind, and soul were "not all in one place at the same time". She said that we must let the spirit heal so that the body could follow. (In other words, you can't cut the head off and heal the body.) She's so full of compassion and love, and takes all the time you need with her. She asked me if I'd been alone in dealing with these things most of my life, and I said "yes". And she replied that that's just too much for one person to do. Over the years, it just finally caught up with me.

I was just crying like a baby, I was just so full of tiredness and weariness, and felt like I had no family support of any kind, which I don't, except for sister Sue, who told me last night that if something doesn't change, she's going to put me in a rest home. I reminded her that she or no one else had the power to do that because I'm competent and capable of taking care of my own business. Dr. Yerra was shocked that someone would tell me that they were going to do that to me, when I was so tired (it was just my sister Sue's own frustration at having to deal with everything).

But by the time I left Dr. Yerra's office, I felt as though the Universe had reached down and was picking me back up in the universal arms of love.

My new attendant, Rosemary, is wonderful. She went & bought groceries, the kind I need, put everything away, and gave me a big bowl of applesauce, which just tasted wonderful!

The nurse who came from the agency to do the assessment told me I was a brave person for what I had been through, and I guess I never see it as "bravery", I just see it as "getting through the day".

My in-home health care nurse will begin tomorrow (Oxford Agency), and my in-home physical therapy will begin in a day or so, (also Oxford Agency).

I had a nice, wonderful hot bubble bath while Rosemary was here, put my healing oils on my body, clean hair and a nice fresh, fluffy bed, sprayed w/ lavendar. So this evening I have spent eating and sleeping. Restful, healing sleep.

All the "nasty Meds" are gone, they've already been thrown in the wastecan. Some of these drugs these drs. have ought to be illegal. They're nothing more than "killers in a bottle".

The new meds have already begun to do their healing job, my throat is less sore, and I should begin the serotonin in the morning, which will lift my energy and help me strengthen my muscles, along with the physical therapy.

Don't know what lies on this new health road, but I KNOW this: it will be a far better one than the one I just left. The road I just left had to be the nasty road to get to the "good red road". So this is where I recline today, my loved ones. I've only had to take 7 1/2 mg of Valium today, instead of 15, my p.t. will help me re-balance, and re-establish my gait for walking, plus much, much more.

I just want to know one thing. Does anybody know who fired that last shot?

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Nafalia calling--

Tonight I want to start by saying "thank you" to all my light brothers & sisters out there, for holding me through the dark, cold nights that I've just come through. Otherwise, I don't think I would have made it.

You have been by my side each and every moment as I walked this road I've walked. As I reached out to hands of family members to help me for a few days, just until I got things lined up, I found from that point of view, the only little hand I had was my darling, sweet, loving little sister. And the Universe knows how much I love her for being there. (Sue has been the "wind beneath my wings" for many years now.)

But on the other hand, what I also found was all of you. And there were moments that I did not think I could hang on, but because of all of you, I'm still here. So that's why I wanted to start out with a personal thank you to you tonight.

Now I can tell you what transpired today. Slept and ate most of the day, lots of applesauce, sherbet, jello, and fixed a scrambled egg, which I felt like was a 7-course meal, and a cup of chicken noodle soup. Just tasted like heaven!

About 3 this afternoon, the in-home health care nurse came, set up all my monitoring equipment that is connected to one main computer, which is monitored 24/7. The in-home monitor takes my vital signs (including oxygen) and reports back to the main computer. If anything is not aligned to my normal reading, they will call me and ask me if I'm okay, and if I need assistance.

If at any time I feel weak or anything, I can go in & take my vital signs at any time and it's sent to the main computer, and if something's wrong, they will have my doctor call me. The in-home health care nurse will come once a week to check me out in the "physical". My in-home physical therapy will probably start next week.

So at long last, I am being watched carefully at home.

The in-home health care nurse said the doctor wanted to set up scales, so that they could watch my weight on a daily basis, because I am at risk of losing weight, and the doctor doesn't want me to lose any more. I'm not sure why I'm "at risk", but Dr. Yerra said I was. We did not set up the scale today, because it's so large that the nurse was afraid I'd trip over it, and she wanted to check with the dr. about that. It also is monitored by the same modem that monitors all the vital signs. I owe nothing for this. Medicare will pay for it all.

Dr. Yerra fought hard to make sure that I had these things available to me. She said she would fight and she would win this battle. I know that she is relieved to know that I'm getting the help, because she was extremely concerned.

My next doctor's appt. is July 12 with a plastic surgeon to see about my breast reduction to take the pressure off my neck. Lot of drs. appts. in July--will keep you posted.

I've not verbalized this in any other post, but I feel that I can verbalize it now and not create any negative energy. I've had this underlying feeling, that they're looking for something that they have not mentioned yet, but I feel that it's safe to verbalize it now, because I have all the light, love, and caring of my spiritual brothers and sisters. (And Shimaka, I feel you've been sensing the same thing.)

I understand that in-home health care and in-home therapy means that I'm too weak to go to the dr. as often as they would like. I also realize that I am too weak to go out of the house for physical therapy, and that's why it's being sent in. I believe that today was a revelation of these things for me.

My throat is still sore, but not as bad. Mentioned it to the nurse that came in, and she said that sometimes after steroid therapy you can get a staph infection in your throat, so now I understand why Dr. Yerra did not give me antibiotics for it, because they can also cause a staph infection in the throat.

So it's been another day of eating wonderfully cold food--that's all I want, gargling w/ salt water, and sleep, sleep, sleep. And taking my new meds.

It could just be that I've been so sick that I feel this underlying current that they're looking for something they haven't spoken of. It matters not, because I know that they will not find anything. Much, much too much prayer and light have been sent my way for that to ever be a Truth.

So let me end as I began, with a very special "thank you", from the bottom of my heart, and with all my love and light,

Nafalia

(Keep those cards & letters coming in, folks, and I'll do the same for you http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif )

[Shimaka]

((((((((((*Nafalia*))))))))))

So glad that you are home and in the best of hands, dear Nafalia. Just keep eating that wonderful nourishment, and enjoying every mouthful. Gain strength from that fuel that comes from the Earth and has been given to us for sustenance, and gain spiritual strength from those who hold you in spirit and light, daily, hourly, minute-by-precious-minute, as we walk this walk together.

And yes, you were absolutely right. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Peace and light, joy, love, healing, relaxed energy, white light and crystal energy to you, dear one.

Namaste!
Shimaka

[DaBee]

Thank you, Nafalia, for letting us know how everything is going for you, including your fears and realizations of no fears. You are beginning to come in clearer and clearer all the time. I am so relieved to know that you are able to eat, even if ever so lightly. Are you now on the low sodium diet? And what was the reason for that? Many blessings to you and wonderful, restful, healing sleep tonight.
Jeannie, this is such good news about the results of the biopsy that I have tears in my eyes-happy tears. What a wonderful affirmation. Are you going to be able to visit Nafalia any time soon? Do y'all get together much, besides phone calls?
Wishing upon a star with love and light/
deborah

[DaBee]

sTeVeOkedoke, sent you off to work with mucho hugs and starlight and peppermint. I envisioned you making a U turn with the gentlest of urging from your work place. Hope all is going well and will be looking for a morning report http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

light and love and sorbet popsicles/deb

[Jeannie Jones]

So, Shimaka, did you get your potassium redrawn, and how is it going w/ adjusting your meds? Are you having more waking time yet? Such a beautiful post that was of yours at 10:17 last night.

Oh, Steve, I'm so sorry the doctor treated you the way he did, then sent you back to work! Unbelievable. Do you get the same doc every time or is it a clinic that rotates docs? It will be interesting to see how it goes at work and after. Hope you're not suffering terribly, dear heart.

Thank God Nafalia is finally getting the kind of care she needs. What a relief! I love the whole monitoring set-up. Again, what a relief!

Well, Deb, in the past 5 1/2 years, N. & I have seen each other once, a couple of months ago at Dr. Sharlin's office in Branson. Then we went out for pizza afterward. Mom finally got a chance to meet her and found her to be "charming".
I don't have to go to Dr. S. often, thank God, because it's a tough drive for Mom. Her hands cramp up. It's one thing asking her to drive far for a medical trip, but to go visit a friend at the expense of Mom's hands being in pain is too much to ask.

Also, Deb, thanks for the tears upon hearing of my experience. Tears are so precious. And how are your son & dil doing with their conditions? And how are you doing w/ your gall bladder, Deb? And PLEASE don't overdo it w/ your hand! Will you please put that cast back on?!

Gosh, we sound like the walking (at least, most of us http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif ) wounded, don't we--but we are SURVIVORS, and we're trying to be the best people that we can be, so I think we're doing all right.

Lany, sweetie-pie, so glad you posted. Very happy that your mom's doing well enough to go back to work. Oh, maaaaaaan, Julie's transcription machine got fried? What a blow! And again, you're left with extra work. Hopefully, soon you'll be left w/ only your own load, and you'll have more free time. Glad you had a happy 4th.

Hope you all have sweet dreams and wake up feeling refreshed.

In Universal Love,

Jeannie

[Shimaka]

Jeannie, I am so thrilled that things went so WELL yesterday. Miracle of miracles - they DO happen, each and every day around us all the time. Yes! I'm so happy for you. SMOOCHES all over that gorgeous face of yours, and a few to that good looking doctor while we're at it.

Deb, so nice to hear from you again. I thought that, perhaps, you had gone into retreat for any one of a number of reasons, and I'm glad to see you back and posting. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif Love you, girl!

Lany, how nice to hear from you! It has been a few days. Sounds like you're moving right along, and I'm glad to hear your mom is doing better and being able to do more. I hope you're feeling good and better able to do more. May you have more spoons each and every day.

Steve, bro, keep up the good work and your attitude is so very positive and wonderful just to be around. XOXXOXOXOX

I must run for now, friends. I am trying very hard to get the word out to as many as possible to please contact their representatives in Congress and ask, no TELL, them to NOT vote for the discriminatory Federal Marriage Amendment. It's been a lot of work just to gather an email list of fair-minded Americans that I know because, well, I know a lot of them. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif Please, wish me luck and send good energy for this task. It is SO important to me. I love you all so much.

Nafalia, m'dear, I woke up thinking of you this morning, wondering what a wonderful breakfast you would have today, sending you white light and healing energy, and I reached out to hold your hand once more. I hope you don't mind that I do that every time I think of you because I want you to feel me near. I want to remind you that we're family and that we always will be, and that you're safe in our circle of love. XOXOXOXOX

Namaste!
Shimaka

[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Lany Ballance:

Deb, I'd just about bet we were in the same neighborhood 07/04 -- I thought I saw your light glowing just over the rise. BTW, were you the leader of the firefly brigade that brought that extra added attraction to my immense enjoyment of the last big storm we had a few nights ago?

And I enjoy hearing from you too, Lany. I see your smiling face in my mind's eye and it makes me happy; and, yes, your hair is long http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif
I can almost, but not quite tell what kind of businesses you are involved with. Sounds like your whole family is very busy. Is Charlie still carpentrying (is that a word?)?
So, good morning to all. Looks like another damp day in the Ozarks. My garden is loving it. My sunflowers are way over my head now and they seem to be late bloomers compared to others that I see. Everything has been slow till now, but actually seems to be following the weather with it's development. Seems like being organic allows all of the green things to develop naturally. That's ok with me.
Yep, Jeannie, I've put my splint back on. I'm paying for my cockiness. The arthritis sure didn't go away by having the surgery. Sometimes my hyper spirit just gets carried away and I think I'm 30 again. The increase in the chemo drug is really helping though. The swelling in my joints has diminished quite a bit. It hasn't helped my back or hips and have a feeling that that'll be the next body area targeted. I'm getting plumper and plumper by not being able to walk my 2 miles every morning. Feel like a sack of potatoes. They've wanted me to have physical therapy, but I live too far away from LR. I'll find out more about all this later in the month.
Home yet, StEvEiE (you probably left that name behind a long time ago, huh? - kinda like me and Debbie...my family still calls me that, but it just sounds so childish to me)? Anyway, how'd it go, ol' grandpa hippie buddy? Sure hope you're not hurt any more than you already were. Stay away from what ever hurts you. This back pain is a literal pain in the butt.
I'll pick this up later. Need to go do "stuff".
Did y'all read about Lita having a party on the 17th? It's a Cajun Festival and she's urging all of the Geeksters to get together then. I'll be getting my stitches out the day before, so can drive again. Anybody considering going?
Ok, that's it, I'm really going now. I keep you all in my heart no matter where I am and send golden threads of light to you as I walk my road of happy destiny.
love and light and happy destinies
deb-o-astitchintimesavesnine
p.s. yes, Lany, that was me and the 2 great minibabes; that why the light was so bright http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

[DaBee]

Originally posted by Lany Ballance:
G'Day, Survivors! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Deb, how's it going with your DIL and her gramma? ~~~xx~~~

Lany, thank you for the song - it is so sweet. I don't remember anyone named Velvalee, but maybe she left "before my time".
DIL is hanging in there and not running any races lately. Still is having problems and they're still running tests. She's changed docs and this new guy seems to be running on all cylinders. The other ones missed quite a few diagnostic follow-ups. DIL's grandmother is in remission now and holding her own.
Looks like Brushy Creek is getting kicked with floods again. Several families have had to leave their homes because of damage the other day. Some are camping out while they clean up. Rocks and gravel bars where lawns and houses used to be. And trash in the tops of trees still. We've been wondering still if someone is responsible for cleanup. What a mess.
So I'm staying in today and finding new places that the roof on my screened in porch is leaking. Lots of buckets catching drips.
Hope everyone is staying dry. I like the way the Australian's say goodday.
light and love and tie me kangaroo down sport
deb-o-wallawallabingbang

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Good evening, Spirit Friends, One & ALL;
Well thanks to everyone's prayers & LIGHT , I survived my first night back at work. I had a meeting w/plant manager and my supervisor and went over my work restrictions (what I can/can't do) and worked out a mild (Ha!) work plan as I attempt to recover. I was really sore after work, but eating a bite when I got home and sleeping 5 hrs. has revived me somewhat.
Noticed several seem to be posting on "Geekfest" and little activity on BTG. Have I missed a message or are we still posting on both boards. (I will place this post in both, just to be sure). I don't mind doing both if that's the "supreme plan." http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif I feel a little out of touch after only working one night, so please bring me up on what going on. Y'all can private
e-mail me if it's anything "too weird."
So glad "Our Spirit Group" seems to be "on the mends" for a change, WE ALL DESERVE EVERY BLESSING, EVERY DAY. Please keep me updated on EACH & EVERY need, wish, or prayer for LIGHT. I really think of ALL as my Family, and I want to help in EVERY way.
This positive visualization pretty much sum it up for me:

TODAY'S POSITIVE VISUALIZATION:

In my mind's eye I imagine myself surrounded
by friends. I feel the love and care my friends
have for me and I allow my whole being to accept
these gifts. As I absorb the caring love from my
friends into my heart, I imagine myself being filled
with love and light. In my mind's eye, I then offer
this love and light to others and myself in friendship.
I combine these images with joy and let them go,
knowing that they will create the good things I am
visualizing and thinking.
Love EACH & EVERY one of our "Spirit Group" and appreciate everyone's help and concern for EACH OTHER. Blessings.
**PEACE**LOVE**TWISTED-HEALING-LIGHT**
StEvE http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
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"The struggle to know who I am, in truth and in spirit, is the spiritual quest. The movement in myself from the mask to the face, from the personality to the person, from the performing actor to the ruler of the inner chamber is the spiritual journey. To live, work, and suffer on this shore in faithfulness to the whispers form the other shore is spiritual life. To keep the flame of spiritual yearning alive is to be radically open to the present and to refuse to settle for comforting religious dogma, philosophic certainties, and social sanctions."

-- Ravi Ravindra, "First Question," from PILGRIM WITHOUT BOUNDARIES (Morning Light Press; 2003) reprinted in PARABOLA's Fall 2004 issue on "The Seeker"



[This message has been edited by mtnviewsteve (edited 07-09-2004).]

[Jeannie Jones]

Nafalia's Busy Day

Thanks everyone, you must've sent a ton of light & love to me today. Arose this morning and wrote out the checks for my bills, sitting down at my visual equipment. Balanced the checkbook, took my wonderful medication that Dr. Yerra gave me (the serotonin). Felt a little nauseated after I'd taken it, but said, "we'll have none of that!". And thought to myself "well, dummy, go eat a bite". So that worked out real well. Never take medication on an empty stomach. That was "Phase 1" of the morning.

Looked at the stack of envelopes lying on the coffee table, needing to be mailed, and thought "well, I'll wait for the attendant to do that, because I have to climb a flight of 7 stairs to get to the mailbox".

Had a nice bottle of water and a cigarette, and looked at the stack of envelopes again, and said "NO. I'M going to take them to the mailbox." So I made my maiden voyage out of the apt. for the first time since coming home from the hospital. I used my cane, but no neck brace. As a matter of fact, I've hardly used my neck brace for 2 days.

Came back from the mailbox, and decided there were some phone calls I needed to make (but decided it was time for a short break). About 15 or 20 minutes later, I got on the phone and confirmed all the doctors' appts. made for July, and confirmed the rides I had arranged for the doctors' appts. Took care of all of that, and then decided I should rest a little while longer.

Knew that the attendant would be here today, and so I had decided, well, that I would make a list of what I had wanted her to do, and a grocery list for the shopping. Completed that, and then decided that I would get some of the things prepared, like things up out of the way because I wanted the floors swept, things like the trash cans, just light stuff, to make sure they got behind it. Then decided that I'd better stop and not overdo.

Last week before I went into the hospital I had made some phone calls to Jeff. City Dept. of Social Services, Quality Control, as to why I was having to fight so hard to get the help that I needed here done (this is the second time I went over the local office's head).

Then the phone rang, and it was this very nice young girl, and I'm pretty sure she was from Jeff. City, 'cause I've spoken to her before. She asked me "Nancy, are you needing more services than what you're getting?" I replied, "yes, I do". Ran down the whole story to her about the stay in the hospital, the IV steroids, the in-home health care and the in-home physical therapy, and all that Dr. Yerra had said to me. She asked me "what do you need from this dept.?", and I told her I needed an attendant one more day of the week, and I needed that day to be on the weekend. I had an attendant 3 times a week, Mon., Wed., and Fri., which left me from Friday to Monday w/ no help in the home so I told her I needed help on the weekend. (Remember, we are dealing w/ the red-tape bureaucrats.) This wonderful young girl, I have no idea who she is, told me "I don't know if I can get anything done, but I believe I can, and you will be hearing from someone today". (I'm sure this girl is out of Jeff. City, because of her position of authority, she is a mover & shaker--she gets things done in just a couple of hours.) That's when you get to the politicians, is when you get to the capitol. The rest of the time it's just "red tape".

Since I started this battle over a month and a half ago, I know that the local office in Spgfld, the Dept. of Senior Services hates to hear my name, but not half as bad as the fact that I've called Jeff. City again.

It wasn't but about 2 hrs. and I got a call from a Mr. Hildabrand, supervisor in local Spgld. office. He did an instant evaluation over the phone, gave me an attendant on Sundays for 2 hrs., and asked me a few questions, and I ran the story down to him about the hospital stay and all that had gone on.

I have a friend that works down at the D.F.S. I called him & told him what had happened. He goes "hee hee, you've got the ball moving, and the movers and shakers are moving it (cause this is coming out of Jeff. City), so you just lay back and let them take care of you, and get well, and let them take care of the rest of the situation concerning the local office, 'cause they're on their a**. They're shakin' those people up." He's known me a long time, and knows that just because someone in some local office tells me "no", doesn't mean that I accept that for an answer. The lady who has been handling my case from the beginning, was derelict in her duty, or any call that I made to Jeff. City would never have been necessary. (She's been on a 5-day vacation since I was in the hospital.) She makes big bucks and is close to retirement, but she doesn't own the system. We, the people, own the system. If you can't win through one channel, then you go through another channel. Eventually you're gonna find the right button.

Let's all please send lots of love and light and energy to the wonderful Dr. Yerra. This is one lady they will not take down. She will practice medicine, not politics. (As my friend put it, "FINALLY" a doctor who knows how to make the system work.) And she's from India. This lady is an angel dropped from the sky for sick people.

Then the physical therapist came for the evaluation. Her name was Susan. She did a very good evaluation, said my muscles were still good and strong, my endurance is very weak, and assigned me in-home P.T. 3 times a week. His name is Robert, and Susan said he is very good.

Then my attendant came, and did a wonderful job. I had a wonderful bubble bath, washed my hair, and then put on my special blend of oils that I've put together for my skin. (If you want the recipe for the oils, I'll be glad to share. They're wonderful for your skin, and all natural.)

I've been eating well today, too well, I think, and I'm talking to Jeannie on the phone to share with you this affirmation of all that the love and the light and the healing that you've sent me.

This part I've saved for last, 'cause Jeannie's gonna say "oh, my God, you didn't!" but no one can strip my bed and make my bed the way I want it, so I did it myself. (I'm very picky about my bed.) It's not something I could do every day, but I was able to do it today. It took me about an hour-and-a-half, with frequent breaks. After I finished it, I was exhausted. So now I lie in my bed and enjoy the fact that I've accomplished all of this today, because you, Jeannie, Shimaka, Steve, Deb, Lany, Becky, and everyone else, have shared so many of your spoons w/ me, that I am on the road to recovery, and I love you for it.

So mote it be.

Nafalia

P.S. Remember, as I said, "We the people own the system", and just because some person sitting in a little cubicle tells you "no", does not mean the fight is over. Do not accept "no" for an answer, if you're sick and need help. The system will work, but you may have to call your state capitol. Don't ever take "no" for an answer, when you need help. Believe me, this is true, because I've been dealing w/ the system for 30 years. This is not my first barbecue. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif I've helped a lot of people deal w/ the system in the last 30 years. You just have to be willing to fight...even when you're so sick you can't fight, you still have to fight.

[DaBee]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
[B]Nafalia's Busy Day

Thanks everyone, you must've sent a ton of light & love to me today. Let's all please send lots of love and light and energy to the wonderful Dr. Yerra. And she's from India. This lady is an angel dropped from the sky for sick people.

I've accomplished all of this today, because you, Jeannie, Shimaka, Steve, Deb, Lany, Becky, and everyone else, have shared so many of your spoons w/ me, that I am on the road to recovery, and I love you for it.

So mote it be.

Nafalia

P.S. Remember, as I said, "We the people own the system", and just because some person sitting in a little cubicle tells you "no", does not mean the fight is over. Do not accept "no" for an answer I've helped a lot of people deal w/ the system in the last 30 years. You just have to be willing to fight...even when you're so sick you can't fight, you still have to fight.

Hello Nafalia. I'm just so excited about your post that I want to go get on the kids trampoline so I can jump for joy. I know that you probably have plum tuckered yourself out, but it's a good kinda tuckered and you've accomplished soo much in 1 day. Maybe you can alternate days on the trampoline and days being tuckered and then every 3 days do a tucker, then....well, you get my drift. I sure know about the bed making thing. When Mr Husband moved out he took the king size bed with him and I was then so happy to get a twin. Found out that it was just as hard to make as the big one though. It's something about the stooping, like when sweeping or raking. Oh, and doing dishes. Someday (soon I hope) I'll be able to pay someone to do this stuff for me. I never liked it anyway and now I can barely do it at all. I do love to mow, though. One of the things I had to leave behind in Texas was my Kubota riding mower. What a honey it was. I miss it like missing a friend.
So how was the coming down the stairs from the mailbox? It always seems like I'm gonna fall, but usually the fall is when I'm going up. Think I've said it before, but believe I've fallen up or down just about every set of stairs in Eureka. The ones that are right across the street from the Basin Park Hotel that go down to a landing, then on down to Main St., well, the 1st year that I was in Eureka and there was an ice storm, I fell all the way down from the landing. My hands were sliced up from the ice and I had bumps and bruises all over. Even in the middle of summer I always grab that railing tight whilst descending.
My doc at the Med Ctr is from India also. She was quite impersonal at first, but have noticed a softening as she's gotten to know me better. I think that she actually is shy. She's helping more now, it seems, since I filed for disability and she expressed how it seems like the people needing help really have to fight for everything. She's doing more referrals and actually seems concerned in a more general way that just the hands that she focused on at first. The Lupus manifests in a lot of different ways besides the rheumatoid arthritis. I'm having a lot of the discoid problems returning, so she's referred me on to the Dermatology Dept. Problem is is that the earliest appt. is in October. It always is so great to hear that someone really likes their doc, not because of the old thinking every doc is a god bit, but because they're real and have become a doctor because they truely want to help others.
I've been thinking about you on and off all day, NancyNafalia, and was more than happy to share spoons with you. Guess what I found out?!? Found out that when you share spoons with others, you get them back double. It's amazing.
Oh, just one last question.....
What is mote?

I've been coming to you from east of the Kings River, just over the troll bridge

I bet you make perfect hospital corners.

That's it for now....love and light and everything tight and tucked and fluffed and cozy/
deb-o-EgyptianCottonCoveredDownComforter (oh, baby, you KNOW what I like http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif (did that sound risque? woops)

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by DaBee:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by Jeannie Jones:
[B]Nafalia's Busy Day

Oh, just one last question.....
What is mote?


Deb, my dictionary defines "mote" as an archaic word meaning "may, must, might".

From sources I've read, "so mote it be" is mostly used in Freemasonry and Wicca. Here's something I found from one source.

"So Mote It Be:

Definition: It translates to "Let it be so" or "So shall it be", and is often used as part of the dialog during rituals, typically in closing. The actual origins of the phrasing is a little obscure and based in old Anglo-Saxon."

I'm taking a break for a while, but I'll be back later to give opinions, questions, answers, pats on the back, hugs, speak about my dear friend, Velvalee, and what not.

In the mean time, more and more love,

JJ

[PMilam]

It's been many days since I've been at home, at my computer, except for a couple of brief moments...so, there is a lot to catch up on.. I'm starting this post in an email, so I can respond to the different subjects as I read.
Diggeridoo.... I have a friend that has been making them for years.. I've tried it a few times, to no avail.. this is inspiring me to try again.. we have an excellent player here in Eureka.. Ricky Waggnor.. he won one of the costume prizes in this years May parade.. his costume was awesome. I wish I had gotten a good photo.. the back was a naturally shaped fur, with the under side of turtle shells, in decending sizes, sewn on in a line down his back.. so that it made a beautiful sound as he danced. He has performed a number of times, at Lane House productions. He is a very interesting young man. He is going to build an island for my kitchen. I just recently found out that is what he used to do before he moved to Eureka. Now, he is like many, will do most anything to feed his family. He recently helped with 2 of our 5 family moves.Being a Scorpio, like myself, he is a packing wizard after my own heart...

ok... back to read more...

.. I knew there was something else on that page.. tuning forks.. I had a friend send me a web site.. I'll try to locate it later, about using them for healing.. I ordered one, and used it on my swollen areas for a couple of months after surgery.. not sure if it helped.. but it didn't hurt!

Not sure if this will already be addressed by the time I get to the end, but, Jeannie, you can change the size of your font... to read it better.. usually, at the top of the page on your toolbar, there will be a place to enlarge or make the font smaller.. if not there, go into your preferences, and change the size of the font.

Now, it's been another day... I could not read it all last night.

I don't think I know Velvalee, but did Sir Chas write that? What a shocking loss it was when he moved on.
It's a beautiful song.. and I still look back at the lullaby that you wrote, Lany.

It's been a rough row for many of you.. us, this past year. I feel so fortunate to have turned the corner. I feel like I am back in the world again... so much so, that it makes me wish that I would have taken more of my down time to heart... soul.. actually given thanks for the rest that I was getting. These days, it seems I'm not getting much rest. I had a board meeting today (wwww.esartschool.com) then checking on the painting and clean up on our house in town, that we have put on the market... then, to see a couple of grandkids.. to the grocery store, and home. Craig had just gotten home (today is his '1/2'day) was ready to go down for a nap.. so, I did, too.. that was around 5... I woke at 9:30, very hungry.. he got up for a minute, then went back bed.
You talk about doctors... some of you know that my husband is a doctor.. seems the older he gets, the harder he works... and he has always worked harder than any other 2 people together, that I know.
This past week, he left the house around 5:30am, as usual, and was not home til 10, 3 of 4 nights.. the other night he was home at 7.
In his youth.. and mine, he delivered babies, a lot at home... I worked at the clinic, too, with my sister, Jude, and Mary Bland.. who some of you might know from home health... we traded for carpentry work, food, fence building, pottery, anything.
We lived in Izard Co.. just down the road from Mtn. View.
He is one of those.. he knew when he was 12 that he wanted to relieve pain. He had bad ear infections all his childhood (resulting in hearing loss) and at 12, he saw a doc that put those drains in, and for the first time in his life, he was out of pain.

So, if your doc seems distant.. he may be short on spoons, too.

Oh, yah... from way back there... I worked at the Crescent, with Crescent, in the kitchen, in '75, when Steve Gassaway managed, then Mike Danderan (sp?) took over, Vernon was the barender, and a guy from OK had the Top 'O. I used to go up there most nights after work to bitch about management.

Ok, my nap has worn off, I'm headed for my Egyptian sheets!
Sweet dreams to all, and to all a good night.
love, peace and miracles..
Patt

yes,please call me Patt.

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[PMilam]

www.toolsforwellness.com/tuning-forks.html (http://www.toolsforwellness.com/tuning-forks.html)

[DaBee]

So good to hear from you, Patt. Glad that you're able to be back in the mainstream again. Tiring though, huh? I kinda go in and out of it. The in part all depends on my energy level and it seems to be that way for most of us here. I actually am enjoying my less complicated life and try to stay in the now. My art is coming back to me and that is a blessing. Sounds like you're very involved in the art world, also. I saw all that the art school was involved with and thought it was wonderful. Would love to have been in some of the pottery classes. There is a fellow in Osage that on occasion teaches classes and I've put my name on his list, but never have heard from him. Need to go back by there. Told him that I felt that working with the clay would be healing for my hands (rheum arth). I just never know when I'm gonna poop out and not even be able to drive to commit to a class situation. I keep my commitments very limited.
People have told me about Ricky with the didj. One day several years ago I was in the Bazaar on Center St. and they had a crude didj....I picked it up and started playing it (not well because I don't have the round breathing down) but my embouchure was ok enough to emit the wonderful primordial sound. I was then told about the guy that plays the didgeridoo - a young, friendly chap, but I never met him. Saw pics of him in the paper from parades. Maybe we'll cross paths some day. I'd really like to get the round breathing down. They say it's a natural kind of breathing that we have as infants and are nursing/bottle fed. It's the ability to swallow and breathe simutaniously. Anyway, sounds like you've got a really cool guy to help you out. Ask him if he gives didj lessons.
I love the link on tuning forks, thanks. Will delve into it when it's not so late.
I imagine that my doc is pretty well stretched to the limit - this is at U of A med school and she does the teaching and patient care. Must have a full slate plus has a family to boot. I commented about this because it is kinda neat to see her warming up and showing more concern; like coming out of her shell. She is quite a bit younger than I am and is now smiling when she sees me. It just makes me feel more confident, because it seems she like me. There's another doc I go to there specifically for my hands. One of his students came in the first time I went to him and said that I needed physical therapy. When the nurse said that I lived quite a few hours away, she said "that's not my problem". Now, that gal and I might have easily tangled, but I kept my cool and it ended up that she's the doc that did my hand surgery and we're a-ok now. Think that 1st meeting might have been a day when we were both short on spoons.
I have much respect for all docs. My 1st husband (21 yrs) started out as a pre-med student, but on up into grad school he couldn't take the pressure. Dropped out. Brilliant dude, but there was just the grit missing that is necessary, I guess. I've heard wonderful things about Dr. Milam and it is nice to get the real guy perspective from this other side. It's also nice to hear a partner talk so lovingly about the other person.
Would love to address other issues, but it's mighty late and I've got a garage sale to get to in the morning.
Sweet dreams all you babes in toyland.
love and light and sugarplum fairies
deb-o-tripthelightfantastic

[Jeannie Jones]

Okay, let's see now--moving backward through the messages,

Hi, Patt--

I have the "body tuners", C and G tuning forks, and I bought them from the outfit you linked in your post. At that time, they were called "Tools for Exploration"--the catalog, I mean. I also bought John Beaulieu's videotape, where he demonstrated techniques for using the forks.

As it's the interval (from C to G is a "perfect fifth", which Pythagoras called the "healing interval") that is thought to be "healing", I don't see how "a" tuning fork could do much good. Now, they do sell a "crystal resonator" which is quite tiny and high-pitched, to be used w/ a crystal. I had one of those, but gave it to Karla Van Ornam, in Eureka.

One way to use the C & G forks is to tap them on your knees (other surfaces may "ding" them up), then hold one near each ear, resonating through the head. Another way to use them is to tap them on knees, then sort of sweep a lying down person's body w/ them, w/ arms making alternating circular movements just above the skin. You could use them over the whole body, or selective parts. I looked for them tonight, having forgotten about them for a time (the old out-of-sight, out-of-mind thing, y'know), but couldn't find them. Maybe tomorrow I'll find them.

Another blast from the past--my first job in Eureka was in the gift shop at the Crescent. Donna & Carol were tending bar at the "Top". Donna was married to a guy named Rick and had children, but can't think of the last name. Carol was going w/ Max Elbo.

One day back then, I was at the "Top" after work, and a gal walked through to the patio area. I thought "WOW", because she looked so much like a gal I knew in college. Virginia Lindblad, whom I didn't know yet, was sitting next to me, and I asked "is that woman's name Kelly?", because they had said "hi" to each other. She said, "Yeah, Kelly Buck".

I walked out to the deck and renewed our old acquaintance--she hadn't seen me when she came in. What a surprise! She was seated w/ Joe Feraldi, whom I got to know later.

Thinking that the bellman's name was Bill--dark-haired older guy. Dolly was waiting tables in the rest., Randy Wolfenbarger managed the hotel for Bob...mmm...?...great shock of silver hair...originated the Women's Party, liked to play tennis at the Crescent tennis court, had a son named Jimmy...2 of the front desk guys were brothers...cute as could be...Fowler I think the name was, Brad and the younger bro...their father, named maybe Gerald, was in real estate, (the wife and I were in the Vocalese, ladies singing group led by Gloria Follett) and the family home was, I think, in Elk Ranch.

Thanks, Patt, for the flip-side of the coin, the doctor's story. When I entered the hospital there w/ "killer-pneumonia", Dr. Jess Green spent the whole night w/ me in intensive care. I guess being married to a doctor sometimes doesn't feel like it's all that it's cracked up to be.

So glad you're feeling better, Patt. Yes, it's been an interesting year medically for a lot of us.

We surely have trod in each other's footsteps here and there...Scorpio/Taurus.

Know you're busy, glad you came by.

Love,

Jeannie



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[Jeannie Jones]

Well, Deb, you slipped in there while I was writing to Patt, and you posted at my favorite time--12:34. Well, I was going to pop in here and say that I'm gonna take a break, but I did find this site for you:

http://www.woodwind.org/clarinet/Study/CircularBreathing.html

Well, I had the best of intentions, but Shimaka, Deb, Steve, Lany, my eyes are watering and I think I'm outa here 'til tomorrow.

Love to all,

Jeannie O'Ark.

[mtnviewsteve]

Happy Saturday, Spirit Friends, http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Slept more yesterday after working Thursday night, but thanks to ALL the prayers of LIGHT from my "friends" I made it. Got out of bed a little sore but nothing traumatic, feel like the healing prayers you've sent may be starting to work. THANKS. MY "Spirit World" is so much nicer with y'all in IT. Hope everyone has a wonderful day and look forward to hearing from each of you throughout the day. May the "Healing" that's begun in our Spirit Group continue to bless each and every ONE, enabling us to GROW in new and positive WAYS. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing LIGHT**
sTeVe.
p.s. going to Heber Springs for a "day trip"
Will check in later.

"Good Starts"
The intelligence of this universe is present everywhere, all the time. And it's present in me now. It's present in those I believe are living without a clue; it's present in those whose opinions I admire. My task is to realize that this intelligence flows within me in just the right way for me to hear what I need to hear, understand what I need to understand, and know what I need to know.

There's no class to take or special powers to attain; my intuitive nature is as near as the next breath. I open to this infinite, eternal intelligence that is unlimited by the boundaries of time and space. I develop a profound trust in my gut intuition, for it is the voice of Spirit at work in me.

I give thanks for my willingness to trust the creative power and presence of life in all that I do, to let it serve me as guide and companion, and I let this be so. And so it is.

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, kiddos, I read all the recent posts to Nafalia, then we registered her as an entity on BTG and GKFest, got the first reply from each, waiting for the administrators' okay, came back here and we're not remembering the posts that we just read all that clearly. Oh well...guess we might have to do a quick review.

[PMilam]

Donna Sightsinger.. don't think that's how it's spelled, but, oh, yeah, she and I were fast friends.
I lived in a tent, with Ann Armstrong, who had a teepee, east of Grandview. Donna and Rick let me use their basement room to cut hair, and take showers. I saw Donna not long ago.. maybe a year...she was in town for a wedding. She's remarried, and lives in Tulsa, I'm thinking. I knew Carol, too, but can't remember her last name.

Yeah, Kelly... mmmm.. days gone by. Still see "Mr. Baby", Dakota every now and then. Not sure where he lives. Richie still lives in the woods around here. Kelly's sister, Donna, had a girl, one of my daughters age. They were very close friends in high school. We still see her from time to time.
They all live in Fville now.

Deb, do you live near Berryville? "east of the King's river troll bridge". I live north of Grandview, on the Kings.

I've been using the tuning forks and Kerry's Skin Rescue Salve on my chest. I'm swollen for the first time in a couple of months. I spent most of last week at my daughter, Robin's house, since she now has the biggest house. My brother and his family were visiting. They have 2 girls, Eden Love, just 2 weeks older than my grandson, Kole (forgive me if I'm repeating myself) and Abigail, 12. And Robin has a 6 month old.. and a 4 yr old. So, I held the babies a lot, we went swimming a couple of times.. I just used my arms more than usual. Can't complain tho, I would not change what I've been doing.
Trigger Gap was fabulous, chilly, but fab. The water was going around in a circle, so, all you had to do was keep your face out of the water.. which means a lot of arm power... and you shoot out from the bridge, and around back to the bridge.. sooo much fun. I went around 4-5 times.. then, the babies got there, and I stayed with them in the shallow, and let the moms and dads play.

The art school school stuff is so exciting. I took a painting class, and blew my own mind.. I knew I could draw, a little, charcoal and pencil, but I was terrified to try paint.. go figure...
Lots of exciting stuff in the offing.. I'll share the latest, when it becomes final.
There are scholarships available for both adult and children/youth classes.. email Jackie, and she will give you details.

Must eat.. I'm about over my limit on the cherries!
Blessed be.

Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid to a broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming..
WOW What a Ride!!

[Jeannie Jones]

From Nafalia to Deb-o-didgeridoo--

Deb, you sure are right about the "tuckered" thing! But, like you said, it's a good kind of tuckered. I did accomplish a lot of things yesterday, but I'm not jumping on the trampoline today.

It's interesting that you said to do that 3-day tuckered thing, because the in-home nurse told me that for every day you're down, they say it takes 3 days for you to get up. So I guess it's a 3-to-1 kind of thing.

Sorry to hear you had to leave your honey of a mower in Texas, but, believe me, I know all about "crossing that Red River". I've lived in Texas off and on for the past 30 yrs., and I've crossed that river many times. They're not kidding when they say "you've gotta be tough to live in Texas"! The last time I was there I was there for 15 years, and I'm a TLC (tough little cookie).

You mentioned about the stairs, here's my experience. For me, going up the stairs is exhausting, coming down the stairs is not as exhausting, but I can't look down, so I have to be extremely balanced to come down the stairs. In reality, it truly is "one small step at a time". I understand the stairs and the ice in Eureka very well, and my daughter once mentioned to me, after I became ill, what happened to the lady that could walk downhill on ice in Eureka? My reply was "I don't know, I must have lost her".

I certainly do understand "hospital corners", because that's what I have to have on my bed, and that's where the problem comes in. Not too many people know how to make a "hospital corner". Doesn't matter what size bed that it is, it's still a back-bender to make it. (Fortunately, my bed sits very high, so it's easier.)

My sister tells me that I must have been the princess who had the pea under the mattress. Growing up, we shared a bed together, and in the middle of the night, when the sheets would get wrinkled, it would wake me up. I would make my poor little sister get out of the bed, 2:00 AM, whatever, and stand up (crying in the midle of the room--I wanna go to bed) while I re-made the bed. Every night my mother would come and say "Nancy, go to bed and let your little sister go to sleep". This was such a ritual that my poor little sister became a sleep-walker, to the point where Mother had to fix the doors so she couldn't get out.

I don't believe anyone in my home ever had a full night's sleep until I left home. (That's probably why they don't like me now!) [Excuse us, but Nafalia and JJ are just laughing and laughing.]

When I got married, and there was a man in my bed, I would get up and straighten the bed around him and he'd never know it. They won't cooperate and get up out of the bed in the middle of the night to let me straighten the bedding.

Even to this day, it doesn't matter if the bottom sheet gets wrinkled, or the top bedding gets crosswise, it wakes me up. Perhaps that's why I live alone. Nothing is more frustrating to me than to have a man in my bed who messes up my covers (don't you need to go home now?).

I'm sure this must be something I dragged over from a past life, because it's been with me all my life. Or perhaps it's just another one of my neuroses. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Glad to hear your doctor's warming up and helping you more. And she's right--the people that need help the most, have to fight the hardest. It's always wonderful when you find a doctor that knows how to make the system work as it SHOULD work, but they are few & far between.

Would like to acknowledge the fact that Patt's husband, Dr. Milam, must be a wonderful man, and dedicated to healing the sick. Otherwise, he would be on the golf course, or in the country club instead of helping people by putting in such long hours. Just hope he remembers that he is human too, and not to use up all of his spoons, because we need doctors like him. So let's everyone send him extra light, love, and energy.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by PMilam:

Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid to a broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming..
WOW What a Ride!!

Nafalia's reaction--

Thanks for the wonderful laugh of the day. I had never heard that, but I can definitely say I can relate to it.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[PMilam]

Thanks for the energy to Craig.
It is always a big boost for him, when he gets a card, email, or gift from a patient, that expresses their thanks. Some of them have come many years after the fact. I can't wait to see how he returns from the hospital today. He has 12 patients. And yes, sometimes being married to a doctor is like living alone... cept for those kids!! It's a good thing I like my own company!

He and I slept til 9, after going to sleep at 5pm.. I was up for a while, he was not.. in fact, he slept a lot of the day with the kitten.. who spent his first all night outside.
While he was 1/2 asleep, I talked him into going to AZ, to visit his best friend (besides me), to float the San Juan, see the Grand Canyon, and spend a day or two in Sedona!!! Not that I had to twist his arm. I'm in a daydreamy plane now.

Nafalia, I am so happy to hear that you have the home care. It is a fight.. every time, for everyone that needs help. I'm told that EVERY first application for disability is denied... EVERY one!

Ok.. gotta go outside. Craig got the mower ready for me.. he is usually mow-man, but has not had the time or energy for it.. and the rain keeps coming, followed by the sun, which makes the little flowers grow... and the grass and weeds, and mold..

I see skys of blue, red roses too, put there just for me and you...

What a wonderful life!

[mtnviewsteve]

Spirit Friends,
Just arrived home from Heber Springs, spent several spoons at thrift stores checking stuff out; found a shirt for $1, Maletha ("Lethal"), my nickname for her, found several tops, and some pretty baby clothes for Emma. She washes, and washes and air dries and they're just like new, no harsh chemicals, etc. We stopped at a couple roadside veggie' stands, got some fresh spinach, bunch of parsley, some tomatoes, and several bulbs of garlic for me to make "pesto" with for salad dressing. Got coffee, dog food and water at WallyWorld,' more spoons. I was startin' to get tired so we ate at the "Colonels" and finally came home. Whew!
Nafalia, so glad you are doing better and are getting some help with things around the rotunda. Pray this Healing will continue and who know we may be "skippin' around in the rain, yet! You are fortunate to be and to have a friend like Jeannie. She always represents you in a healing, special way.
Peace & Love sisters of LIGHT.
Miss Deb, hope your healing continues and hope you also know how much I appreciate the kind words and prayers. Know I would not have made it Thursday night without the LIGHT and BLESSING gifts my Spirit Group offered. What a FAmily!!!
Smell "Colombian" in the air calling me for a cup, so I'll check back later.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif **Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.
p.s. P.Milam:
Bet we share several friends. Do you know Kate Fossler, used to Kate Mathison, her husband's name is Kyle, they are spirit friends of mine here, and attend the "Rites of Spring". Bunch of the Ozark Craft Guild folks I'll bet you know, and bunches of the local musicians. (small, gro-o-vy world) ain't it?

[This message has been edited by mtnviewsteve (edited 07-10-2004).]

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Shimaka:
Nafalia, m'dear, I woke up thinking of you this morning, wondering what a wonderful breakfast you would have today, sending you white light and healing energy, and I reached out to hold your hand once more. I hope you don't mind that I do that every time I think of you because I want you to feel me near. I want to remind you that we're family and that we always will be, and that you're safe in our circle of love.

From Nafalia to Shimaka--

How or why should I mind that you reach out and touch me, and send me healing light and energy with your thoughts, and wrap me and nurture me with the Mother goddess' love, and share the energy of the healing light of the moon? I can only be grateful and humbled that you would do that for me. I hope you know that I feel the energy and that I return it three-fold.

I've spent 1/2 of my adult life alone, until I met a wonderful man named Bruce, when I was 52 years old, and he was 67. We had 18 months together before he died. (One day I will share our story, but it's hard to put into words a story when every moment was a complete lifetime.)

Bruce died in 1997. As I sat in the chapel room at the hospital, after they had told me he had died, my older sister sat across the room from me, and she looked at me and said "can I come sit with you? You look so alone", and I looked at her and said "I AM alone again".

Jeannie has been my closest and dearest friend for several years now, and the one person that I knew would always understand. Through Jeannie, I now have a new spiritual family. I no longer feel alone.

So now when I awaken in the middle of the night, I feel wrapped in love, safe and secure, because of all of you. So always know that I shall be eternally grateful for the gift I have been given, this spiritual family.

My hopes, my dreams, my prayers, my light, my energy, go out to all of you that we may never be pulled apart by anything.

I am only one of millions of people who know what it feels like to feel alone, and to once again be able to be rid of that feeling is the healing that's taking place within me. I'm sure these are thoughts that we can all share, because each of us, at one time or another, has felt totally alone.

This is going to be a semi-quote from the Bible:

So what Spirit has brought together,
Let no human pull asunder

Eternally humble, grateful, and full of love, and walking the healing path,

As above, so below,

Nafalia

P.S. Much time has come and gone for each of us since our paths last crossed. That is why this is such a joyful, beautiful reunion. Now as we walk this path together for whatever distance and time, we know we have just begun the trip to Infinity, so follow the star that rises east of the moon every night, and let the star beams take us all home to the oneness from which we came.

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[Jeannie Jones]

Well, m'dears, the above post to Shimaka was to be the first one to go in Nafalia's own identity. I got Nafalia set up in Geekfest with her password and all, they I closed my connections out on GF, logged in as Nafalia, but it showed up as under my name.

Realized then that I'd have to establish an identity in that name through Outlook Express. I need to call provider to create that account, stepping me through it, and I don't feel fresh enough to do that now. Tomorrow...is only a day away.

Now I'm having trouble getting MY identity back. Maybe I need to reboot. I think that's it, 'cause it's set up to show me as the main identity on start-up. Okay.

Love ya all,

JJ

[DaBee]

Originally posted by PMilam:
[I see skys of blue, red roses too, put there just for me and you...

What a wonderful life![/B]

Thank you so much Patt, I just love that song. Remember the 1st time I heard Louie Armstrong sing it, I couldn't stop crying happy tears. I looked it up and found the whole song and if you don't mind, I'm going to plant it right here:

artist album song
'What A Wonderful World' by 'Louis Armstrong'
from the album 'The Very Best Of Louis Armstrong'



I See Trees Of Green........ Red Roses Too
I See 'em Bloom..... For Me And For You
And I Think To Myself.... What A Wonderful World.

I See Skies Of Blue..... Clouds Of White
Bright Blessed Days....dark Sacred Nights
And I Think To Myself .....what A Wonderful World.

The Colors Of A Rainbow.....so Pretty ..in The Sky
Are Also On The Faces.....of People ..going By
I See Friends Shaking Hands.....sayin'.. How Do You Do
They're Really Sayin'......i Love You.

I Hear Babies Cry...... I Watch Them Grow
They'll Learn Much More.....than I'll Never Know
And I Think To Myself .....what A Wonderful World

(instrumental Break)

The Colors Of A Rainbow.....so Pretty ..in The Sky
Are There On The Faces.....of People ..going By
I See Friends Shaking Hands.....sayin'.. How Do You Do
They're Really Sayin'...*spoken*(i ....love....you).

I Hear Babies Cry...... I Watch Them Grow
*spoken*(you Know Their Gonna Learn
A Whole Lot More Than I'll Never Know)
And I Think To Myself .....what A Wonderful World
Yes I Think To Myself .......what A Wonderful World.


It has been a wild and crazy and fun day of garage saleing both in Eureka and Berryville. I've felt good and am using my hand well and been hangin' with the babes and eatin' Mexican food. Ole'!
Gosh it was so good to read all of the posts today. For me, personally, it is truely a God send to have our assemblage of spirit friends able to meet in the safety of the rotunda, or, well, the cave for now until Nafalia is ready for the redecorating unveiling in the rotunda. I'm wanting to be a bit careful of what I say about some personal matters pertaining to Mr. Husband, but lets just say that even though he has moved away from my holler, he has tainted all of the neighbors minds and I even saw him "visiting" them today down the road. Feel that I need to let y'all know what it is that has been bothering me that I have alluded to several times lately. I have never in my life been treated so badly by others. I have been so bewildered at their behavior and can't imagine why they would side with someone they barely know. I don't even want there to be such a thing as "sides" - all of this is personal and I never wanted them to know the problems going on between he and I. I have always been friendly to them and gone out of my way to do neighborly things. I was here long before he moved in to my house. They will not talk to me and it leaves me to think that they must be hearing tales of untruth. Even so, I can't imagine why Mr. Husband would do such a thing or why they would even be concerned about any of our private affairs except that Mr. Husband has made a point to make them concerned for some reason. Ok, enough. Think I'm just needing feedback as I'm sure y'all have some wise words for me to help me get centered. I am feeling very victimized and bewildered. Thank God for my 4 babes close by. The neighbors are being very strange to them too...one even made a face as my DIL drove by a few days ago. How wierd, huh?
OK, let me get back on track. Oh, also wanted to ask if maybe what I just talked about was ok to talk about (IYHO). I'm just kinda jumpy about stuff right now.
Anyway, Patt....yep, grew up in Irving, Texas myself and raised my son in Canton. So we're sorta the East Texas kind. Ever heard of Canton's First Monday? Largest flea market in the world!! What a pain to go grocery shopping on that weekend in town. Usually just stayed home. I worked at MHMR as director of ICFMR1 group homes in Tyler. Also was Asst Director in Canton and Athens for a while. All of the lingo is changed with social services now and MHMR in Tyler is now Andrews Center. I loved the job and was there for 10 years. Then went on to be the QA at Cozby Germany Hospital in Grand Saline. Then came to Arkansas....yeah!

Patt, does the tissue on your chest swell or is it lymph nodes? Will this eventually not be so sensitive? Do you do yoga? Don't know why I thought about that, but the image of Laura teaching Yoga in the basement of the church next to the Lane House just ran through my head. Thanks for the site about the tuning forks and other cool stuff.
Oh, yes, the trip to the SW sounds great. I've never made it to Sedona, but will someday. In 2000 I went to the desert in Arizona and did an intensive with Lench. My life shifted when I buried my death arrow, then climbed the mountain to place my life arrow. I left it there and will someday return to it. Lench was another blessing in my life.
You and your beautiful bride have a great time this weekend, sTeVeO. Glad the couple of workdays went smooth. Here's sending you a spoon each that I had left over today...wondered why I was saving them, now I know http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif
Jeannie and Nafalia, gosh, it was so good to hear from you both and loved it when y'all had a girlfriends laugh session together. So fun!
Golly, really tired and I haven't even finished.
I really am feeling so blessed right now as I just felt hugs all around. Mmmmmm, good stuff.
So love and light and chimichangas
deb-o-colorsofarainbow
p.s. Lany, have a great melodic weekend. I'm gonna have to make it to town some evening and hear you play....it's been too long.

[mtnviewsteve]

Deb,
Ran across this article and used it myself, and probable need to use it somemore. Maybe can help you with dealing w / Mr. Husband and neighbors. Will keep healing prayers of LIGHT for you. Spirit Sister hope you know your FAMILY wants only the BEST FOR YOU.
**PEACE**Love**Twisted-Healing-Light**
sTeVe


Strategies for Dealing with Energy Vampires

1.Take an inventory of people in your life who give energy, and people who drain. Specifically identify the energy vampires, and begin to evaluate ones you'd like to limit contact with or eliminate. Plan at least one complete afternoon with people who give off positive energy and avoid drainers. Notice how this beneficially affects your physical and emotional well being.
2. Set Clear Boundaries. It’s crucial to limit the time you spend discussing a vampire’s gripes. When approaching her, remember: the difference between being a bitch and setting boundaries is attitude. Instead of saying, “You’re selfish and self-obsessed, I can’t take you anymore,” which a part of you likely feels takes a breath and shift to your heart.
3. Meditate. Sitting in meditation is a lifeline to your center, to the earth, it will ground you when you’ve been struck by a vampire. By calming the mind, you can re-align with your essence. Close your eyes. Focus on your breath. Then gently extend your awareness downward to strata, bedrock, minerals, and soil. From the base of your spine begin to feel continuity with the earth's core. Picture having a long tail that roots in that center. Allow the earth's energy to infuse your body and stabilize you. If you meditate for five minutes or an hour this is sacred time.
4. Walk away. If you feel your energy being zapped don't hesitate to politely excuse yourself from a killing conversation. Move at least twenty feet from the person, outside the range of his or her energy field. “I have to go to the bathroom” is a foolproof line. Most people are oblivious to how their energy impacts others. For years, reluctant to hurt anyone's feelings, I needlessly endured these types of situations and suffered. How many of us are so loath to appear rude that a raving maniac can be right in our face, and still we don't budge for fear of offending? In a spot, physically removing yourself is a sure quick solution.

5. Build an energy shield around you. When you’re with vampires you can’t get away from visualize a protective shield of while light surrounding every inch of you. This lets positive energy in, but keeps negative energy out—particularly efficient for vampires at family dinners or social events where you’re trapped.
I hope I’ve inspired you to be fiercer about asserting your energy needs. Never put yourself down as being “overly sensitive.” Sensitivity is an asset as long as you learn how to protect yourself from negative vibes. Understanding how you react energetically in the world is particularly important if you’re chronically tired and want to build vitality. Knowledge is power. Meeting your energy needs can balance mind, body, and spirit to create a vibrant life.
http://www.ofspirit.com/judithorloff2.htm

[PMilam]

Just a few minutes.. yes, Steve, Kayt and Kyle are part of my tribe, my heart family, my soul.
I look to her, and know that the human soul can survive most anything. Not just survive, but flourish in the most horrible of times, can reach out to others, and give light and love. Brings tears to my whole being when I think of their loss.

Braxton and my granddaughter, Jade, had the absolute best time at the Rites this year.. some may have read the beginning of the story of the "Ruts of Spring, 2004"... I have photos of them, covered in mud, having the time of their lives.
Robert and Mary, Billy and Tony, Marian, Maureen & Rick, Gene and Bev... and Linda Broder, from Calico.. these are some of my best friends in the world. I know I'm leaving out some.

There is an abundant supply of people of love and light in the Ozarks, and surrounding area.

Sweet dreams, dearhearts.

I may be blessed with grandbabies tomorrow, so, I may not be back for a little while.

[Shimaka]

Greetings my friends. It's early morning/late evening, and I wanted to make sure to post in case no one has been over to BTG to see that I posted several times there. I want to keep my promise to you not to disappear if I'm not feeling quite up to snuff, and I'd hate to see brother sTeVe get concerned again. I don't think I've felt that guilty in a long time. (Catholic mother - what can I say? http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif)

I wanted to let all of you know that our own little corner of Heaven on BTG has been created, put together, all the pieces in place, including everyone who is registered and a regular here has been authorized to have access to "The Rotunda" which is located under the category "Private Forums" which shows up at the bottom of the page under the "General Discussion - Open Forums" category. I hope you like our little piece of Heaven over on BTG as it's pretty comfy too, and it's private so those who have expressed concern, including myself a couple of times, about feeling a little naked with posting a lot of private and personal stuff out where the world can access it, can post whatever you wish and know that the only people who have access to that forum are those of us who have already been here and participating on a regular basis, and who are already registered on BTG.

Of course, those of you who aren't registered can do so pretty easily, and as long as I happen to be home and in front of the computer (which is 95% of my life - LOL), your membership application will get approved right away. PLEASE, if you are going to register with a name I won't recognize as you, and you have an address that is a yahoo or hotmail or msn or one of the others that is mostly free accounts, please drop me a private note to let me know it's you. Otherwise, I won't approve your application right away, and I'll be writing you a private note telling you I need more in the way of identification. If it's obvious that it's you, and your email address is one of the above, no big deal 'cause I know how to find you. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

I wish I had the spoons left to respond to the wonderful posts from today, but I'm just plain pooped. I have an overdid it day yesterday, and today, well, I forgot how many spoons it takes to set up a new forum and everything that goes along with it, plus I REALLY forgot the extra stuff that goes into a private forum, and making a new category because we didn't have one for that. So, I think I will have to pass for now on answering anything, and I hope y'all will forgive me. PLEASE, do not take the above as a complaint. It's been a long time since I had that much fun spending spoons so know that I enjoyed every last minute of it. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

My love and warm engaging hugz for all of you if you want them, and white light and healing energy for those of you (and me) who are dealing with physical, emotional, mental or spiritual travails right now. Love is such a healing thing, and you just can't get too much of it so soak it all up, and know that so much comes from this group that there is plenty to go around. No lack in that department.

Namaste, dear ones . . .
Shimaka

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[Jeannie Jones]

Omigosh, I have so much to catch up on that I don't know if I'll be able to do it--the writing part. I've kept up w/ all the reading, and do so enjoy the posts of each & every one of you, our little chosen family.

Shimaka, you go, girl, on your quest. "Protecting" the American hetero family structure? From WHAT? I've not been able to get that. If anything, it's the other way 'round, as I see it.

Deb, after the tales of your falls, I do believe I understand something you said a while back about having difficulty to resist gravity. I didn't really get it back then, but your recent post turned on the lightbulb for me at last.

Deb, also, can you face your fears in the neighbor situation? Is there one you spent more time with or felt more comfortable with than the others? Can you go to that neighbor, not in fear, but w/ centered confidence, and ask him/her whattup?

Steve--oh, man, sure have been with ya at your work and your sweet outing. Hope you can endure your pain and that it lifts from you, but if the work exascerbates your sciatica, you've GOT to tell the doc that, or get a different doc of your own, perhaps demanding a second opinion. I should think that would be your right.

Lany, you are probably unaware of my connection to Velvalee. Apparently Spirit thought it was time to open the topic. I thank you for giving us the beautiful song about her. Hope your pain decreases daily.

Patt, if you do swing back by here before you're all busy w/ grandbabes tomorrow, we MAY have met--did you have a child in any of the Eureka Springs Players productions? I was extremely active there. We had a huge number of winged monkeys in the Wizard of Oz, kids in Cavern of the Jewels, and other plays. I'm sorry I'm so forgetful of names these days.

In the "Wizard of Oz", my idea of child control backstage, was to fit each one with a strip of Velcro up the back, line a dressing room wall with Velcro, stick them all up there, and take them down as needed. Whoever corraled them downstairs in what used to be the skating rink in the Auditorium, did a great job.

In the "Wiz..." I limited myself only to be musical director. Too often I'd take on multiple jobs in mounting the productions, and rather over-extend myself, so I was limiting my involvement in that one. Well, a week before opening, our "Scarecrow" couldn't guarantee that his job would allow him to be there--ouch--so then I had to step into the role and cram, learning dialog, songs, dance routines, w/ not much time.

One day I was on the stage doing something, and a woman approached the edge of the "apron". She seemed quite centered and had a good vibe. She told me her name was Velvalee, and offered to help us w/ make-up. She was direct, didn't waste precious time, told me of her make-up experience, and became a very dear, lifelong friend from that moment on. Not only would she do make-up on the person before her, she'd also kind of settle them down, kind of help them become more centered. It was magic.

On Main St. some years back, at the bottom of Mountain St., Vel had half of the property next to the frame shop, and her sign read "Velvalee, barber/artist". Someday I'll tell you about some of our experiences in Russia.

Well, dear hearts, that's all I can do tonight. Becky, I know you're out there, girl, love you too.

Tonight perhaps we'll meet somewhere over the rainbow. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Love,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

Wow, Shimaka, our posts crossed in the mail--how exciting! Thanks so much for doing all the work that must have gone into creating our private forum. I've just gotta go over there and check it out.

Love ya so much,

JJ

[MotherMoon12]

Deb, small world. We grew up in Fort Worth. We lived 7 miles from Grand Saline from 1982 until we moved here in 1994. Chris taught in Mineola for 10 years. I bet we know some of the same people. Do you ever miss it? I am afraid to even drive through Texas. Afraid of being trapped again.

[mtnviewsteve]

http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Happy Sunday,
Spirit Friends as we start a "new" week, I would like to give thanks to "Spirit" for ALL the blessings we've received in the past week. We have actually all survived and most of us have thrived (a little), which is a lot compared to some weeks and days.
Nafalia, Jeannie, Shimaka, Debbie, Becky, P. Milam, Lany, Missy (wherever you are), and those I've overlooked or missed somehow, thanks for ALL the prayers of support for everyone in our group. May WE continue to grow in LIGHT and prosper together, making the world and each other better as WE go.
May we enjoy today's "GOOD START."
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif P**L**T-H-L**
sTeVe

Today I open my heart to the power of love. Love is the only power, the only presence. It goes by many names, this One Presence, but its core essence is Love.
I look at the places where I've held love out or at arm's reach. I let the light of love move through me, softening the hard places and clearing out what's stale, old, and no longer needed. I let this power, which knows how to do this (without my interference!), do its work in me, that I may become a loving presence in the world wherever I go.
I refuse to think in ways that are less than loving. My actions reflect this clearly established intention. My words echo with the power of love, for I let it lead my every step of the way. If ever I forget my own true loving nature, I remind myself gently and compassionately of it, and return to love in a heartbeat. Nothing can keep me away from this love, for this love is what I truly am. And for this I give thanks. And so it is.

[Jeannie Jones]

Steve, what a beautiful start for the day. Thanks, my friend, and, as always, I hope your pain decreases more and more each day.

[Jeannie Jones]

Mother Moon, how nice to hear from you. I hope that you will register at BTG to use the forum that's all our own, the Rotunda, free from lurkers.

Each day is a brand new day, another chance to create the reality of our choice.

Blessings,

Jeannie

[MotherMoon12]

I am not allowed. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

[PMilam]

I'm never sure where to start here.. so much info flyin, sometimes I forget who said what..
My son, Ben, was active with Lane House and ETC productions, starting oh... in the mid 90's I guess.. He was not in Oz.. but Primordial Soup, Love and Rage, Our Town, 12th Night, most recently, he was in one of the one act plays, by local playwrights. My daughter Robin, was in several of those, too. Starting, I think, with Nine Girls.. she is dancer.. daughter, Loretta played the female role in Gifts of the Magi, last Christmas.. she's a singer. One more.. my daughter Julia, was a player on the boards.. basketball. They kept us quite busy!!

Haven't heard from any of them, yet.. probably taking it easy on the only day off... Julia is playing softball today, so, we're getting Ko-Kole.. Jade wants to come, and "spend 3 nights, cause I've never done that before". Happy to accommodate.. as spoons allow.

Oh, the swelling is tissue, not lymph... thank all that is good and right in the world. I did not have cancer in any of my lymph glands!!! The swelling was so bad, in the early days, that I could not drive. Surgeon said I could drive after 2 weeks... ha ha ha ha... I don't live a block from the store... it's a 30 minute drive to either ES or Bville. It was months before I could drive any time I wanted.. it would take 3-5 days to recover from a drive to Bville or ES.. this is the first swelling I've had in about 6 weeks.. just a lot of driving.. the suburban, instead of the little honda.. and lifting and carrying the babes... swimming... I would not trade the time spent for no swelling.. it was.. what was that term someone used... a grateful tiredness.. that's not it, but...

I grew up in TX, was born in LR AR, cause my dad was stationed there.. 1945... war.. all that.. but, I lived in Austin, mostly, 8 yrs. in San An-tone, a little time in Odessa, Taylor, Elgin. I came here from Austin. Had the 1st unisex salon in Austin, opened in 1970... had a blast in the 60's & 70's. I lived with Gary P Nunn.. all you Texans know him!! "Home with the Armadillo". Funny, that was the last song that I heard first.. and his most famous. We lived with Michael Martin Murphey, and then he played with JJ Walker... it was a fun time, but, also a time when I realized that I would always be a distant 2nd to "the carreer". I came here about a year after we split.

Steve, do you know those other folks I mentioned?
We lived on Hwy. 9, 1/2 way between Allison and Melbourne. In the first years we were there, we had to take the ferry across at Allison, to get to MV.
Quite a time!

Gotta go... Craig is in a tree!! He's working on all those branches that got twisted and broken on the 4th... it scares me when he does that..
later

The joy of a spirit is the measure of its power. ~ Ninon de Lenclos

[Jeannie Jones]

Patt, did you see ANY of the plays the Eureka Springs Players produced back in the day?

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by MotherMoon12:
I am not allowed. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

How come, MotherMoon?

Shimaka

[PMilam]

I know I did see some, but can't remember the names.. what time span are you talking about?

[mtnviewsteve]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by PMilam:
[B]Steve, do you know those other folks I mentioned?
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
PMilam,
Yes and thanks, I'm the world's worst w/names. Worked w/Maureen at Stone County Ironworks for a while, still see everyone out and about. We live outside of Mtn. View, about 6 miles towards Batesville, across Rocky Bayou Creek. I know Robert and Mary when I see them, quite accomplished musicians, they had a coffee house here for a short while. That's my dream to have a LIGHT CAFE, to welcome and learn and give the few of old hippies left, a place to "hang". We would have blues, folk format, with open mike. Also want the younger generation too, we have so much to learn from each other. Money is always the problem for us, and never the solution. Blessings.
P**L**T-H-L**
sTeVe.

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[MotherMoon12]

I don't know. That is just what it said.

[Jeannie Jones]

Oh, gosh, Patt, as to time period? Mmmmmmmm, let's see, the first one we did was in '79, "The Man Who Came to Dinner", (coincidentally the new Eureka theater group, can't think of its name, chose the same play as their maiden voyage--in that one I had a cameo as the drunken woman), I can't remember how many years it lasted.

I was proud of my work in "The Fantasticks", let's see, I was 40 playing 16, so that would have been 19 yrs. ago. Unfortunately, we were picketed by the new Rape Crisis Group, so you may not have seen it, and may even have been a picketer. The other one I felt I did pretty well in was "The Actor's Nightmare", which we took to state competition and garnered me a "best actress" award. I think that was in '82, '83...I dunno.

Anyway, sorry if I seem to be tooting my own horn here, but I surely was a high-profile person for a time, and it's just so funny that we didn't connect before this.

Gotta dash--

JJ

[DaBee]

It is just oh so way cool to see everyone coming together here. So good to hear from you, MotherMoon12. Yep, bet we do know some of the same people. Especially from Cozby Germany. And yep, I might be a yankee now (by going north of the Red River), but I left a lot of stuff behind that I don't care to visit any more. One thing for sure is fire ants.
Gosh, Jeannie, didn't realize how far back your stage presence goes or how involved you were for so long. That is so neat to know. Of course, I'm more familiar with you in Raz-A-Ma-Tazz (spelling?) with Lou and Shane.
Got a lot to respond to, but lots more to get in today. Just finished hanging up my clothes on my clothes line (my best friend next to the old Kubota). I'm wearing a special splint that gives me more mobility and also protects the suture line. It's great. While I was out there my boy kitty, Pizza, came up to me after being missing for about 4 days. It was a grand homecoming. My big bad 1/2 siamese Kayte was pretty pissy though, she wants ALL of the attention.
Pizza was a guy that just kinda showed up a few months ago after some over the mountain neighbors moved. Now, since he came back (not his fault that he was gone, I had taken him over to my son's house while I was down with the surgery) and has proven that he's gonna come home. I hope he didn't make many babies in his travels, but will now get him altered so that can't ever happen.
So today is the day that we have our 1st home grown free range organic fried chicken. Hope the kids can pull it off. They're trying so hard to do the homestead thing and have done a great job, but have to get past what is necessary to eat your own food. I've got the beans and sugar peas and cucumbers out of my garden right now for side dishes. Also making a pasta crab salad and banana pudding with vanilla wafers to go with it, so we'll be eating real fine tonight!
Still wondering if the Cajun Festival at Lita's will be attended by any of y'all reading this. I sure am wanting to meet some of you fine folks - in the flesh. Our spirits have touched, but I could use some good heartbeat to heartbeat hugs. How about you?
As someone earlier has said...L8R G8R
Love and light and a caramel delight
Deb-o-notatysonchickeneater

[DaBee]

My oh my, can you believe almost 500 posts on here? Amazing too that most are novelette length. This is just so cool. Thank you to all of my spirited light friends. You all mean so much to me and I so enjoy the respite when I come here. It's like I gather up a new spoon or 2 every time I visit. May we trip the light fantastic as we dance with the leprecauns and fairies in our beautiful cave and rotunda. Hmmm, sounds like there might just be an unveiling soon!
love and light and mossy covered rocks
deb-o-twinkletoes http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

[PMilam]

Well, Jeannie, that was my Izard Co. lifetime.
I came the end of '74, left the end of '75, and returned to the area in '86, went to LR... don't ask... for two &1/2 yrs.. then back to ES in '91.. moved out of town, to Riverdream, in April of 2001.

I guess I missed it all. I'm sure Forrest Jacobi was involved back then, was he not? He's a friend from waaay back, was engaged to a friend over in the old country...

Tell me again where you are Jeannie.. Rogers?
Debee??

Got to baby proof the place, KoKole is on his way out.
love, peace and miracles abound.. keep your eyes open! Stay awake!
love,
Patt

[Shimaka]

Originally posted by MotherMoon12:
I don't know. That is just what it said.

Do you mean you tried to log into the private forum, and it said you didn't have access? Since you are already registered on BTG, that must be the only way it would have said you couldn't get in that I can think of. That would be because the only people who I authorized to get into the forum were the people who have been a part of this ongoing group here so I didn't authorize you because you hadn't been here before. Make sense?

The whole point was to protect the group from curiosity seekers who just wanted to "watch" and to give everyone a bit of privacy.

Let me ask my fellow list-mates here what they'd like me to do because we haven't yet talked about what procedure we want to use for new folks, even if we know them. But, I'll let ya know pretty quick like, okay?

Thanks for letting me know.

Hugz, MM.
XOXOXOX
Shimaka

[Jeannie Jones]

Okay, Patt, now I get it. For some reason, a long time ago I had the impression that you arrived in Eureka in the early 70's and STAYED. Couldn't figure out how we could possibly not have bumped into each other.

Yes, F. Lee & I go way back, too. Lots of theater together, including the contest play. We traveled to Jonesboro for that one. Quite a fun time.

When I attended Cajun cat's memorial service at the New Orleans, (I think it was the first time I'd spent any time in downtown Eureka since I left, 5 1/2 yrs. ago) I got to see and talk with Forrest briefly. He looked so great--it was as if he'd kind of "grown into himself" somehow. I said that to Roger, Mr. Music, and he said it was because he was in love. That's probably spot on.

Anyway, that day F. & I exchanged e-addresses, he used mine, but I didn't answer (at that time couldn't sit comfortably at the only computer we had--lame excuse, I know). When I tried to use it, it was no longer valid. Mine has changed, also, so if you could give him a nudge to e-me at

jeannie.j@sbcglobal.net

I sure would appreciate it.

Let's see--the last question you asked is addressed in my profile, Patt, I live in Rogers--or more precisely, just outside of Prairie Creek, off 23.

I know you're enjoying your Ko-Kole, and any new grandbabes today?

JJ

Oh, almost forgot--Ann Armstrong paid me a supreme complement one night--she told me that I was one of the "quality women" of Eureka! Don't know if she'd remember me, though. Been a long time.



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[Shimaka]

Ann Armstrong has to be one of the most quality women of Eureka herself! I can't think of a soul whose been more gentle, kind, compassionate, genuinely giving and loving, and any other positive attribute I could come up with would fit too. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif She's a one in a million. Jeannie, if she knew you, I'm sure she'd remember you. It's too bad you couldn't make the party the other night because she was there. We had a wonderful time! I remember so very well the day I first met her here in Eureka. It was as if we had known each other a hundred times before, and who knows, we probably have. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif

Just thought I'd throw in my two cents on one of Eureka's finest.

Hugz y'all. I'm just coming to the surface. Another all nighter last night. I'll be conscious enough to make sense in awhile. LOL

Patt, it is so wonderful to have you with us and posting, and sharing such wonderful stories and memories, and reminding us all how small our world really is. And, MotherMoon, 'tis great to see you here too. Is everyone from Texas except me? On my first trip through Texas (the Panhandle), Kate and I got stuck in Dalhard because a part of the distributor went out on the van. And now I can't remember which part it was, but we had replaced almost the entire ignition and electrical system before we left Colorado . . . except that one part. Of course. Let me tell you, the people weren't too friendly, not hostile, just not exactly "welcoming" so we were glad to find a NAPA that was open late on a Saturday (odd, I thought, but was I ever glad), bought the part, tore the distributor apart (in a driving rain - thankfully, the distributor was in the doghouse so we could just sit in the front seats and work on it), put everything back together, and then found we were supposed to have a non-magnetic gapper which we did not have. Had about five different gappers, but not one that was non-magnetic. So, we just decided to sleep over aNOTHER night but weren't too happy about it. About halfway through the night, neither of us could sleep, and Kate said, "Do you supposed that might have been gapped right to start with since most plugs are?" We decided to see if the engine would turn over, and it did! So, half asleep, van still mostly set up for camping instead of driving, we pulled down the curtains, pulled the plug on the air bed, left the dogs just looking at us like "it's not even light yet", yawning and finally just going back to sleep, and we put Dalhard, TX in our rear view mirror! LOL If I remember correctly, we pulled over into the first rest area in OK and took a nap before driving on to Eureka. Just somehow couldn't wait to get TX behind us for some reason, and with everything I've read here, I think I know why. LOL

Hugz y'all!
Shimaka

[PMilam]

Ann.. still an incredible woman. She is involved now, with Kings River Watershed Partnership.
She knows water, water quailty, water purification... have to bow to her on that.. plus, she has reared a fabulous couple of kids. I don't see much of Rose anymore, but her Seth is one of my loves.

Ok, he didn't sleep but a few minutes.. bye...

[DaBee]

Looks like 500 is history now. Oh so cool http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Maybe we'll get to 11:11 and on and on and on.
Patt, I moved to Eureka in 1989 and could hardly stand to cross that bridge and head east. That was then, this is now, and being that I attempt to live in the now, "here" is south about 10 miles down 21 and just before you get to Crystal Mountain, I live about 3.5 miles down a dirt road to the west. I live in the holler and my kids live up on top of the mountain. We can't see each other because of the trees, but there's a little light glow up there at night and they can "see" me the same way. We can send smoke signals with no problem and they can hear me whistle (I'm a two-finger whistler from way back). So you are up around Grandview off of 143? Close to Golden, Mo?
Why, we're practically neighbors!
Gotta get back to the cookin', but just wanted to check in and see how everyone was doing and just say hi.
HI!
love and light and 500 blessings
deb-o-excusemewhileicountthestars

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by DaBee:
...grew up in Irving, Texas myself and raised my son in Canton. So we're sorta the East Texas kind...

Nafalia---East Texas

Deb, know all about East Texas. My daughter lives in Jasper, I lived w/ a man in Houston for 6 1/2 yrs. who was born & raised in Lindel, and I have friends in Woodville.

I'm sure you are bewildered by the behavior of your neighbors, being from East Texas, you never found this sort of behavior, because everyone knows that in E. Texas, you just say what's on your mind.

As far as ex-hubby & neighbors go, you just would have to consider the source, as small people, with small minds, who have nothing better to do with their time, than try to create a situation where they decide to take sides. No matter what is making them act this way, remember your roots, and rise above them. Do not allow them to drag you down to their level. Make them come up to your level.

I know that a situation like this is very uncomfortable, but tend your garden, say nothing, and the truth shall come out. For when you say nothing, you give no negative energy for it to continue to grow. Remember, it's just a matter of time before something else comes along to take their attention. I guess it's just your day "in the barrel".

So, look up, look to the sky, hold your head high, be wrapped in the love and the energy of your spiritual family, and you will not even notice those people around you.

You spoke of your sunflowers--as you well know, the sunflower turns to follow the sun, all day long, so take a lesson from your sunflowers, and do the same. And watch the night time sky swallow the daytime sun. Count the stars at night, fall asleep knowing that tomorrow begins a new day, and so do you.

Love you,

As above, so below,

Nafalia

P.S. It took me 15 yrs. to get back across that Red River, out of Texas. Love the song "Texas in My Rear View Mirror".

[MotherMoon12]

Sorry, I was just answering Jeannie. No big deal. I totally respect your privacy. I won't post here again. I just didn't realize it was private.

[Jeannie Jones]

Mother Moon, I spoke out of turn. Bridging the Gap, The Rotunda, is a private forum, and I acted hastily when I extended the invitation, w/o running it by the others.

The Gratitude Journal is absolutely not private, and there's nothing to keep you from posting here. Sorry if my error has caused you embarassment, for it is only I who should be embarassed in this situation.

There've been a great many engaging posts in GJ of late, by folks who don't ordinarily post, and some that do, so please don't stop coming by here from time to time, if you so choose.

Lovingly,

Jeannie

[DaBee]

Yep, Lany, very humid, especially after that last rain on Saturday. All of the Brushy Creek flood waters were up again and running. Think that anyone that had any garden left, now has a garden no more. Except me...believe I'm the only one in the holler that the waters parted for. I didn't do it though, devine intervention from what I can tell. Really amazing. Thank you God/Goddess - and my house was left in the same place, also. Wow - guess some good Karma came flowing by! http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Lany, are you playing in one place regularly? Man, I haven't been in Chelsea's in a very long time. Do you still go there? Haven't heard music there since the guys built up around the patio. That's been a while back, huh?
So will you be going to the Cajun Festival at Lita's? Think it's this coming Saturday. I was thinking about it cause guess a lotta Geeksters will be there. I just don't get out and about much anymore and think it's about thyme. Reminds me - have you seen Marsha's new shop called Eureka Thyme? It's cool.
Gotta go go go.....erocktica awaits.
love and light and parsley and sage and rosemary
deb-o-chamomiletea

[DaBee]

Woops, forgot about the dial-up problem. Yes, I have been having lots of problems until I changed to Copper.net. Less than 1/2 of my usual Centurytel rate, local dial-up number and some specials to boot. Much faster, too.
that's all/byebye

[PMilam]

I started a new thread on the OF.. coulda, shoulda, woulda... put it here..
what the hay, I'll put it here, too...

"Constant craving has always been" K.D. Lang..

I won't pollute Sleepy's chain saw thread.. but, that's what got me to thinking.. and writing this post.. then, I thought.. not too good for the new festival.... see, like Kaye sez, you gotta read all the threads..

Last night, coming home from town, I was looking for good music, and tuned in to "Delilah"..
ever listen to her.. like Fraiser sez.. "I'm listening". People call in tell her their tale of woe, or love, and Delilah plays a song.

Well, last night was the funniest one yet. This guy called in to say that his wife had left him, and he took full blame, cause he "did things he shouldn't", and looked at stuff on the internet that he shouldn't have, and he embarrassed her, but his pastor was helping him with his problem.. Delilah proceeded to go on and on about temptation, the look of someone, the way they move their hair, the glow in their eyes, the way they move their bodies.. and how the temptation was there, in front of you all the time, how hard it is to concentrate on your work or family, when you know that the stimulation and gratification was available, any time of day or night.....you know the poor guy was panting, by the time she got through, and either went out and "did something" again, or had to spend the rest of the evening with his pastor... She then played "Forgiveness".
I don't know.. the whole thing was so smarmy... is that a word.. heard it on 6 Feet Under.

Also, on 6FU, Keith and David have been going through a thing about coming out to new employees..
Keith's co-body guard, who thinks Keith is straight, asked how many times he got wanked per week... he said 5-6.. the other guy, once, twice, more if I buy her something.. I don't know, just seems this message/idea of constant craving keeps coming up.

Goes along with this fortune cookie...

You follow desire, and you are not satisfied. Again you follow desire, and again you are not satisfied. Again you try, and again you are not satisfied.
-Lama Zopa Rinpoche
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I thought you'd never ask, Lany!

I had Kole the other day. He is such a sweet spirit. He is very deliberate, he doesn't move real fast, but he loves to climb... very carefully.. way cool.
I carry him in a big scarf.. a paero.. slung across my shoulder, and tuck his hind end in it.. and all I have to do is keep him from tipping, or slipping out of it. It really helps to save the pec muscles.. he was just about to fall asleep, and I picked up the water hose, and watered.. he was drifty, then suddenly he leaned forward and put his hand in the water... so sleepy time then! I took off his clothes, and put a little water in the wash tub, turned the water way down, and let him have it.. so sweet, so cute.. so dear.

p.s I'm staying here, too.. hope some of you will venture back, I miss our chats.

[DaBee]

Hi Patt - your word must have rung familiar and true because I had already responded to your Open Forum thread. Is that a synchronicity? Tell ya, I look for them everywhere and they usually fall in front of me like huge puzzle pieces falling from the sky all haphazard but as they land, they fit together perfectly. Is there a word for when that happens, like, hmmmm let's see, zzland. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/biggrin.gif I'm so goofy sometimes, I just have to break down and laugh at me.
Oh, Patt, my DIL, Chrystal, wanted me to tell you that she had met your husband and thought he was a really cool guy. She and a friend here in Berryville run and train for marathons and I guess your husband did some running with them. Wanted me to tell you hi, even though you don't know her. She's way cool, a young woman that is such a joy in my life. I don't see how anyone can do the marathon stuff, so hats off to those who persevere. When I'm feeling ok, I'll walk the 2 miles, 3 at the most if it's offered at events. The last one I did was the Victorian in Eureka. It was fun.
Hey Lany, great to hear from you. I need to write down all the stuff my 3 year old grandson comes up with. He is showing great signs of a stand-up comedian. Now he's on this kick of having to give a kiss and a hug to everyone he meets, including dogs, and humans and snakes and grasshoppers. This happened all over town this past weekend when we went to garage sales. You sure can tell a lot about people by the way they respond to him....it's amazing. He also comes to me for big GrandmaBee hugs and lap sitting whenever he's sad about something or just needs to aaaahhhhh. Sure pulls at this ol' grandma's heartstrings.
OK, y'all stay cool....kinda feels like Texas out there right now, and that is NOT a good thing http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/wink.gif
love and light and everything outta sight!
deb-o-hippiedippie

[DaBee]

woops, forgot...
Lany, you were talking to KerriAnn about the goats and flooding down here in the holler. She's my next neighbor down and around the road. What a character, I love 'er and we're good friends. There for each other in the middle of the night kinda friends - especially with both of us being tough ol' independent broads http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif
Wanted to get that in about you meeting her cause I'm gonna get busy being my old neurotoic, erocktic self http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif
p.s....look in the front window and in the back left corner at Marsha's

[mtnviewsteve]

Namaskar, Spirit Friends, Old & New to the "GJ", special "Hello" to P. Milam,DaBee, JJ, Mother Moon, Becky's and the Lady "Lany". http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Awoke this morning with a little less back pain and some "good" feeling in my right leg. While sitting in my "spirit room" I became aware of the room and the outside giving off a soft, but medium green aura. I really didn't realize the aura for what it was until later when "Spirit" softly spoke wondering why I had not reacted. Not knowing what "green" aura really represented, I looked it up on this cool http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif link : http://www.thiaoouba.com/see_aura_color.htm. Suddenly I realized my "Spirit Family" was paying me a visit of healing. I know this sounds "pretty trippy" and those that know me know this is typical, but not always frequent. Anyway, I feel you here and I'm very thankful, for I need and cherish your healing and LIGHT presence. Blessing to ALL. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
**Peace**Love**Twisted-Healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.

Green: restful, modifying energy, natural healing ability. All natural healers should have it. People with a green strong point in their Auras are natural healers. The stronger the green Aura, the better the healer. They also love gardening and usually have a "green hand" - anything grows for them. Being in a presence of a person with a strong and green Aura is a very peaceful and restful experience. Green thought indicates a restful state and healing.




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[MotherMoon12]

Steve, my beautiful son, Eric, has been going through a similar experience to yours. Today he was released by his doctor to go back to work with some limitations. When he called his boss to tell him, he said sorry, we can't use you. I've been burning candles and sending him love and light today but he is pretty upset. I don't know why I am telling you this. I just felt like it is the thing to do. Thanks for listening.

[mtnviewsteve]

[QUOTE]Originally posted by MotherMoon12:
. I don't know why I am telling you this. I just felt like it is the thing to do.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
MotherMoon12,
Because you know I care about you and Eric. As I "know you know" there is little left in this world that is FAIR. Eric, I send you "Strength and LIGHT" to get you past this "poor situation" beyond your control. I do PROMISE that this journey, that now seems so dark, will open up for you an opportunity that you will welcome with open arms. May the warm LIGHT of Spirit shine on you and BLESS you. Thank you MM for sharing with us.
**Peace**Love**Twisted-healing-LIGHT**
sTeVe.

[MotherMoon12]

Thanks, I emailed your words to Eric.

[Jeannie Jones]

Greetings, sweet spirits--

So wonderful to hear about the grandbabes! As I've not had that experience in this lifetime, I sort of live it vicariously where I can find it. http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/smile.gif

Profoundly tired today, having given Mom a haircut and set, and it really did a number on my left shoulder (and other muscles). Had short sleep for a couple of nights, then a full night last night, thank God.

Had no idea y'all were dealing with such flooding! The goat story was so exciting, and had a fine and happy end--no goat left behind.

Well, the bed beckons. Now if I can just get up out of this chair..........

Thanks for letting me soak up your sweetness. Promise I'll return it when I'm back up and able.

Much love to all,

Jeannie

[DaBee]

Sweet dreams, sweet Jeannie

[PMilam]

Sure wish we had a slap on the head icon! I'm with you Lany, one of the flatheads!
i just realized that I had posted 500!! I hope I didn't bump someone that was wanting to jump on it!

Kole is here, sleeping now.
later, lovies

Steve, do you know the Lovies... the Lovensteins? Broommakers? They are lovies, too.

[mtnviewsteve]

Originally posted by PMilam:
Steve, do you know the Lovies... the Lovensteins? Broommakers? They are lovies, too.[/B]
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif
Sure do, been buying brooms from Jerry/Judy for years. Hope to re-kindle the flame at "METAL CREATIONS" on Monday.
http://www.geekfest.com/ubb/cool.gif Blessings, there's no END !
sTeVe.

[PMilam]

It is a small world.

Hope that the changes will bring you back in day to day touch with more of your spirit friends, your tribe. I'm begnning to believe that we belong to the same tribe!
I believe that healing increases when we are in close contact with those that love us, and have a shared experience.

Sweet dreams, dear souls.