Gratitudinally Speaking

[PMilam]

Blessings abound!

So happy to hear that you are out and about.. it makes so much difference in the way you feel.. when you are out in the rest of humanity.

Blessed Be.

[DaBee]

I've known that my baby sister has been sick for a long time. She has MS & Crones Disease. This has been with her for probably 20+ years.
She called me last night and I realized that something is very wrong. She said that the doctors have diagnosed her with Binswanger's Disease. In our conversation, she would stop mid sentence and forget what she was talking about or would suddenly think that I was someone else. Earlier this month my other sister, who lives in Oregon, and I went to see Claudia (little sister). She's always been the leaner one in the family, but this time she was even thinner than 3 months earlier when I visited with her. She is emaciated, using a walker, flat affect and totally not her usually bubbly, funny self. I am so sad about this and just don't know what to do. I focus healing light & that's all I know to do.
I googled this disease and it is horrible. Has anyone ever heard of it or dealt with it personally?
Please, send prayers and healing thoughts to Claudia. She lives in Canton, Tx. and this is a good 8 hour drive, so don't know what I can do hands on.....guess nothing, but maybe it's meant to be that way. I'm also the oldest and have always been there as "little momma" from when we were kids as my Mom was sick a lot then and relied on me pretty heavily. I'm acutally feeling a little guilt and I don't even believe in guilt! Or at least thought I didn't. Claudia is 51 and a lot younger than most people in whom this disease happens. At first I thought it must be an error, but all of the symptoms fit.
love and light
deb

[mtnviewsteve]

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DeboMamaLighTsIsTeR,
PURE WHITE HEALING LIGHT ENERGY sent to Claudia in Canton, Texas, to warm and comfort her in these weakened times, May SPIRIT's LIGHT wrap her as HER own.
Debo, you can't LET yourself feel guilty about anything. You are not the "cause" of her illness. You must LIGHTEN UP on yourself and turn it ALL over to SPIRIT, we are not in control, we'd just like to be. Be at PEACE knowing the HIGHER POWER has the wheel.
PeAce*LoVe*TwIsTeD-hEaLiNgLiGhTsTeVeOmAnIaC
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Put your awareness to work, not your mind

Put your awareness to work, not your mind. The mind is not the right instrument for this task. The timeless can be reached only by the timeless. Your body and your mind are born subject to time; only awareness is timeless, even in the now.

[Jeannie Jones]

TO PMILAM, from Nafalia:

Patt, you are so right about rejoining humanity, and it does renew our own inner strength for life. I find myself reaching to thrive, not just survive.

Thanks for the good wishes,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

"SISTERS", from Nafalia:

Deb,

I must admit that my 5-hr. outing was sort of a surprise to me too. I'm walking about 3/4 of a mile a day now, and when I was out with my sister, we had a wonderful time.

Which brings me to the post about your sister. I could search my mind for words, but they could never convey the feelings that you must be experiencing at this moment in time, for I know how I would feel were it my sister.

So I will not use words, but I will reach out and wrap your sister in all the love I can find, and that love will rebound to you, for that's how sisterly love works.

Blessed be,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

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DeBo,
Hope the stars have shown on you today and you feel some "inner support", as that how "SPIRIT" works from the inside out. We as your LIGHT GROUP support you and LIFT you up to receive the Blessings of LIGHT. The warmth you now feel is just the beginning of many good things to come,
We WILL It So Shall It BE.
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[DaBee]

I feel the warmth and I see the light!
Thank you, light group .
love and light right back to ya'!
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[Jeannie Jones]

Oh, Deb, I've been researching Binswanger's, probably following in your footsteps, er, fingerprints, whatever. Ooh! Seems just so very devastating. Amazing that it can reverse itself occasionally, and restore the personality. Kind of like a "back browser". So there's no way to surgically remove the lesions? I guess considering that they reside in the white matter, that would be extremely tricky surgery. White man's medicine seems to be making strides in leaps and bounds today, though, with healing with light, and other new methods, so we'll see what happens.

Wrapping your family in Love and Light,

Jeannie

PS Toss the guilt smile.gif but then, you know that.

[DaBee]

Even if they could surgically remove the lesions, I don't think that Claudia would be a surgical candidate. She has had many, many TIAs and seizures throughout the years, plus she is highly medicated now. She was diagnosed with MS about 20 years ago and all this time we thought that this was what was going on. I really wonder about the docs on this (the VA) because there is nothing that I have read that would indicate a 30 year old displaying this disease.
I really feel that it is something else happening and have always thought that she was being over-medicated. In the process of "helping", I think they've put her into a state of irreversible central nervous system involvement.
Then again....what do I know?
Thanks, Jeannie and Steve and Nafalia and all others for your kind words, thoughts and healing light focus. I truly am bathed in the warmth. I feel that my sister is also. I'll call her tomorrow and see how she is doing. Will let you know what's going on.
love and light
deb

[DaBee]

Thought I'd share 'cause I enjoyed reading it/deb

The Rules for Being Human

When you were born, you didn't come with an owner's manual; these guidelines make life work better.

1. You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's the only thing you are sure to keep for the rest of your life.

2. You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called "Life on Planet Earth". Every person or incident is the Universal Teacher.

3. There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of experimentation. "Failures" are as much a part of the process as "success."

4. A lesson is repeated until learned. It is presented to you in various forms until you learn it: then you can go on to the next lesson.

5. If you don't learn easy lessons, they get harder. External problems are a precise reflection of your internal state. When you clear inner obstructions, your outside world changes. Pain is how the universe gets your attention.

6. You will know you've learned a lesson when your actions change. Wisdom is practice. A little of something is better than a lot of nothing.

7. "There" is no better than "here". When your "there" becomes a "here" you will simply obtain another "there" that again looks better than "here."

8. Others are only mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another unless it reflects something you love or hate in yourself.

9. Your life is up to you. Life provides the canvas; you do the painting. Take charge of your life, or someone else will.

10. You always get what you want. Your subconscious rightfully determines what energies, experiences, and people you attract; therefore, the only foolproof way to know what you want is to see what you have. There are no victims, only students.

11. There is no right or wrong, but there are consequences. Moralizing doesn't help. Judgments only hold the patterns in place. Just do your best.

12. Your answers lie inside you. Children need guidance from others; as we mature, we trust our hearts, where the Laws of Spirit are written. You know more than you have heard or read or been told. All you need to do is to look, listen, and trust.

13. You will forget all this.

14. You can remember any time you wish.

[DaBee]

Hi Y'all....woops, talking Texanise again. That's probably cause I talked to my sis this evening. Claudia seems to be doing somewhat better. She talked with better connections (before, her sentences and thoughts were very disconnected). We even had a few laughs. Her and I could always get each other going....especially in public places. We would laugh so hard we'd about wet our pants. When I asked her about the disease and what the docs had told her she said that it was cause Momma dropped her on her head so many times when we were kids. I told her that that was just a family tradition....no big deal. Yes, kind of sick sense of humors, I agree, but that's what happens when your Momma butters you up after giving you a bath ;) .
Anyway, just wanted to give you a little update on Claudia.
love and light
deb
p.s....how is everyone else doing?

[Jeannie Jones]

Glad Claudia sounded better today, Deb, and that you were able to share some laughs. As we all know (so why do I say it? I dunno smile.gif ) laughter is so very healing, the best natural medicine.

Also loved the piece above.

Well, today Mom got another cat bite that just bled like crazy! We rushed to the ER ... she drove! ... they gave her a shot of Rocephin, and a script for Augmentin (generic). That's 3 major cat bites in about a month. :eek:

Can't remember if I posted it, but I had my first MRI the day that your other sis left from visiting you, Deb. The lab report said:

MRI Impression

No complete rotator cuff tear is identified. There is tendinopathy, especially along the bursal surface of the cuff, with an adjacent subacromial bone spur. These findings are compatible with impingement. There is also biceps tendinopathy.

MRI Read

The supraspinatus and infraspinatus are attaching the humerus but there is edema, especially along the bursal surface of the cuff. There is a small amount of fluid in the subacromial-subdeltoid bursa. There is a subacromial bone spur. Age-appropriate hypertrophy of the acromioclavicular joint is identified. There is no muscle atrophy. The long head biceps tendon is identified within the bicipital groove of the humerus. There is biceps tendinopathy superiorly as the tendon exits the bicipital groove and approaches the glenolabral complex, etc.

This is my shoulder on the same side as my cervical dystonia. At least it's rotator cuff impingement, rather than a tear. Well, I knew it couldn't be a tear because the pain wasn't as excruciating as that would have been.

So we're doin' okay. I mean, other people are experiencing way more major stuff than we are, and we can still laugh, so hey, we're okay. :D

Love to all,

Jeannie

[Becky Davis]

Glad to hear that you ladies are on the road to recovery...especially you Nafalia. It has been a long tough road, but now you are walking it in the sunshine.
Jeannie, is there anything that can be done about your shoulder?
Dabee, so sorry that your sister has this terrible illness. It is closely related to altzheimers isn't it? It sounds so. I assume that she has plenty of care. I know it sometimes feels awful that there is little you can do. Take care of you. Lawd, aging is rough on us older gals...but when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Love to all...Steve keep sending that wonderful healing light.

[mtnviewsteve]

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Light-winged Smoke, Icarian bird,

Melting thy pinions in thy upward flight,

Lark without song, and messenger of dawn,

Circling above the hamlets as thy nest;

Or else, departing dream, and shadowy form

Of midnight vision, gathering up thy skirts;

By night star-veiling, and by day

Darkening the light and blotting out the sun;

Go thou my incense upward from this hearth,

And ask the gods to pardon this clear flame.


HENRY DAVID THOREAU

Walden (1854)

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[DaBee]

Jeannie - about this time last year my sis, Donna in Oregon, had the rotator cuff tear and had surgery done. She's doing well now, but it sure took a long time to heal. I went to be there during her surgery and a couple weeks after. There was a lot of specific aftercare and it was quite painful long after I left. So, glad you're not having to have the surgery, but even if you did, at least you wouldn't have to put up with the aggravation any more.....after it healed.
A couple months ago I was house sitting for my son and d-i-l and watching the g'kids. I slept up at their house. In the middle of the night I got up to go potty and in returning to bed, fell right over their dog on the floor. Caught my full weight on my right arm. It didn't get any better after a week, so went to the clinic. Doc said to take it easy, but don't totally baby it. She said that it takes about a year to heal on its own. I'm able to extend my arm almost fully now. God Speed on your healing.
I don't understand about the cat bites that your Mom is getting. Is this from the same cat? Cat bites can really become infected quickly and badly. Did they have to stitch the wound up? Tell you Mom to get some kitty treats and bribe them to quit biting her.

Becky, from what I've read it is considered a type of alzheimers. To me she doesn't have near enough care....a nurse every other day, someone to clean her place once a week. She is living with her partner, but he has had heart trouble lately with a pacemaker, stints put in, etc. She said that he has been losing his temper lately. I don't like hearing that. I know though that she has made her choices and it's her life. She does know that she can call me if there's ever anything that I can do to help.
Thanks for inquiring and the thoughtful words.
Got my G'daughter here tonight. She's reading Harry Potter books and is on her 4th one right now. Says that she will be sad when she finishes the 6th one. I told her that there are many other books to read, to not worry that there will be nothing else to interest her. The world is hers!
Wooo....way past our bedtimes. Niteynite, y'all.
love and light
grandmabee and kaela

[Becky Davis]

I love Harry Potter...I've read them all and I am sorry the next book will be the last, but I'll bet she will come up with some other good ones.

[DaBee]

Jeannie...just a thought, but does your shoulder hurt from the time you fell in the dumpster? Hmmmm....maybe it wasn't a dumpster, maybe it was into some kind of papers to be recycled. What was that incident? I'm obviously fuzzy. Does your shouder hurt all of the time or just when using your arm or laying on that side?
Whatever it's all about, my hope is that you have sweet relief at just the right time.
love and light
deb

[mtnviewsteve]

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A very "Welcome LiGhT" to "HappyGoLucky"
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[Jeannie Jones]

Fell in the dumpster?!!! No, not quite, dear Deb. :D

So did I ever give you the story on that? Maybe not. I was about to bag my plastic bottles, had a pretty good-sized collection going. It was quite a mess with some bagged and some loose, when I bent down to pick something up. On my way up, my sense of balance disappeared, and I fell kind of on my head. My head was tucked tightly into my chest. (Then I guess I actually fell on my neck and shoulders.) I tested my legs and arms, and couldn't find a way to push myself back up from the position I was in. I was yelling for Mom to come and help me get up somehow, but all the sound was going into my chest!!! :rolleyes: So there I was upside down in a pile of plastic bottles, and the best thing I could think of doing was to sort of roll forward, kind of like a somersault. Well, it worked, and my neck seemed to get through it okay. Then I laughed. A lot.

Tripped over the dog, did you? Y'know, Deb, we're gonna have to quit this falling down stuff, y'know? ;)

Well, as to the rotator cuff business, I think I said that where the biceps hook up at the top, if it were a rope, it'd be as if it were frayed. The body created a spur to protect it. Doc said to go with NSAIDs, I told him I have Mobic, and he said to go with that for about 2 weeks, to kind of program the body to realize it doesn't have to manufacture any more spurs. Neurodoc prescribed that, 2 in the AM and 2 in PM. Not very effectual, though. I guess y'all in the Mobic thread were taking higher dosages than that.

I told him about the Mobic thread in Geekfest, and he had never heard of Movic having those affects on people. He said that you shouldn't see symptoms like you've had until taking it for about 6 months, but I don't think I remembered to tell him you were to take high dosages.

He never heard of its creating colon tumors like that, and I Googled it, and one site I went to said ... at the top of the list ... to watch out for tarry stools, etc., which were all symptoms of colon problems which our friend contracted.

So I'm continuing on for a while, but I'm really not getting much relief from the Mobic at that dosage. I suppose T-3 or hydrocodone for a couple of weeks would create an addiction, so I need to call them back and see what I should do, I guess.

Well, enough of that. Becky, I'm glad you had such a lovely trip to Memphis. Sounds like something refreshing that you needed. I was only there one evening, and just for a few hours, but I do remember Beale St., popping in at a few different clubs. One club had a little boy drummer in the band. That was interesting, but we hit a few more places too. I didn't realize it til you said it was kind of like the Quarter, in NO, but without the sleaze factor. That rings true in my memory.

I remember Chip Chipouras and I, and a gal named Vivian, all walking Beale St. together. Chip may have had his arms around us, and got lots of talk on the street about his being there with 2 gals. One guy came up and said, "You got 2 womens there. Why don't you give me one!" He was joking, but Chip just pushed out his cnest to where the buttons nearly popped, a la Gordo from the funny papers. He was really playing it up, squiring us around as if we were his girlfriends. It was fun to watch him havin' so much fun. We were there for theater competition.

Steve, keep on keepin' on, bud. You're coming up with some great stuff.

Nafalia's doing quite well. Getting out and about and walking the courtyard, shopping with Sister Sue, and doing all right. She's got a couple of wigs she's havin' fun with, and springing back into life.

Well, I go.

Love to all, posters and non-posters,

Jeannie

PS if I've missed someone who directly talked to me, sorry, my memory is not all that sharp these days. :rolleyes:

[DaBee]

JJ...don't know where I got the dumpster idea. Maybe when you first said something about falling into plastic bottles, that's what my goofy mind pictured :eek: . Glad you filled us in on the real story. Do you think that's where the shoulder tear came from? A pretty awkward position. Glad you remembered how to somersault!
About the Mobic....when I first mentioned it and Jeter told about his horrible experience, I quit taking the Mobic. Since then, I was approved for the Boehringer Ingelheim program for them and have been sent 100 tabs and there's more on the way. I was told to take 1 a day. That's just a 7.5 mg. tab, which the doc told me is the lowest daily dose. I don't remember what the sites say, but I just now read the informational packet that is written for docs, it seems. Looks like 7.5 is the lowest. It also says that 1 in 5 develop the GI problems, so it's important to be very aware of possible developing symptoms. That's a pretty high %.
I haven't taken any of the Mobic since Jeter started the thread. Thing is, the RA is creeping back up on me again and I've been doing the Turmeric therapy, but don't think it is making a difference. It is quite agonizing to get up out of bed in the mornings as my hips and low back seem to be becoming more and more involved. Really think that I'm gonna start the Mobic again. It's specifically for Rheumatoid and Osteoarthritis; it's a nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory. Maybe it'll just get me over this painful period.
Glad you brought this up, Jeannie. It's been on my mind for a couple of days now. Hope it brings you some relief, also.
So glad that NN is up and about. It just does my heart soooo much good. Hers too, I'm sure. Please tell her that when she has some time, to let us know what her days are like now. I love it when she writes.
Yes, StEvE, you twistedmaniaclight bro. You da' man! Keep those cards and letters coming to all of us.
And BB (BeckyBecky)..so glad when you jump over here. I've been wondering how you are feeling and if you're still going to UAMS. I'm not going there any more. Though I was on the discount program, the travel, motel, expenses were eating me up. I have a big credit card bill that I'll be paying on for awhile because of it. I was grateful for the expert medical care, but have gotten to the point that I just can't make the trips anymore. Hope you're doing well and hope you son (Jeremy, right?) is also. How is the Lupus with him?
OK, I've talked enough medical to last me for awhile. Sometimes I wonder if all of the people from Geekfest that never post here, are afraid to approach the subjects of physical conditions and spirituality. We certainly seem to entertwine the 2. That's pretty much my life in a nutshell, with the exception of family and home.
I read the following (I'll put it in a post all by itsself) from the Oneness Journal. It's about staying in the now and goes right along with the physical and spiritual experience. Thought y'all might enjoy it too.
love and light
deb
JJ...how's your Mom doing?

[DaBee]

Fresh And Unfixed
There Is Only Now

It can be easy for us to walk through the world and our lives without really being present. While dwelling on the past and living for the future are common pastimes, it is physically impossible to live anywhere but the present moment. We cannot step out our front door and take a left turn to May of last year any more than we can take a right turn to December 2010. Nevertheless, we can easily miss the future we are waiting for as it becomes the now we are too busy to pay attention to. We then spend the rest of our time playing "catch up" to the moment that we just let pass by. During moments like these, it is important to remember that there is only Now.

In order to feel more at home in the present moment, it is important to try to stay aware, open, and receptive. Being in the present moment requires our full attention so that we are fully awake to experience it. When we are fully present, our minds do not wander. We are focused on what is going on right now, rather than thinking about what just happened or worrying about what is going to happen next. Being present lets us experience each moment in our lives in a way that cannot be fully lived through memory or fantasy.

When we begin to corral our attention into the present moment, it can be almost overwhelming to be here. There is a state of stillness that has to happen that can take some getting used to, and the mind chatter that so often gets us into our heads and out of the present moment doesn't have as much to do. We may feel a lack of control because we aren't busy planning our next move, assessing our current situation, or anticipating the future. Instead, being present requires that we be flexible, creative, attentive, and spontaneous. Each present moment is completely new, and nothing like it has happened or will ever happen again. As you move through your day, remember to stay present in each moment. In doing so, you will live your life without having to wait for the future or yearn for the past. Life happens to us when we happen to life in the Now.

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by DaBee:
...the RA is creeping back up on me again and I've been doing the Turmeric therapy, but don't think it is making a difference. It is quite agonizing to get up out of bed in the mornings as my hips and low back seem to be becoming more and more involved...

...Really think that I'm gonna start the Mobic again...

...Sometimes I wonder if all of the people from Geekfest that never post here, are afraid to approach the subjects of physical conditions and spirituality. We certainly seem to intertwine the 2. That's pretty much my life in a nutshell, with the exception of family and home...

...how's your Mom doing? (I'm doing all this quoting to remind myself of what points I'd like to answer!)

Let's see ... from the bottom up ... Mom's doing better now. Last Wednesday Mom got a cat scratch that just laid her skin open. At 86 y/o, her skin is like parchment. ER, then twice daily agonizing cleansing, medicating and dressing, and last night was the first night she didn't cry out in pain during the ritual. Whew!

Okay, next point, a while back, someone who doesn't regularly post here mentioned that they talk about these things with close friends, and not on the bbs. So there are others out there who are probably going through what we're going through, just don't choose to do so publicly. I can't speak for you, but I feel sometimes rather isolated out here, so maybe that's why I'm here.

Oh, one friend of mine from high school who has only recently turned up on e-mail, thanks to Classmates.com, said, "Isn't it something that our social life consists of trips to the doctor?!"

Well, doc said to try the Mobic for a couple of weeks, and I've done that, 2 in the AM, 2 in the PM. Though I don't know if it did much good, I've completed my time, so I'm stopping. Don't think I've had TOO much in the way of side effects, but who can say? I'd prefer to think positive on that issue.

Point #1, OUCH, Deb. What can we do but surround you with Light and prayer and angels and whatever else positive we can think of. ;) My prayer is for total cellular perfection for you.

Love you so much, dear heart,

Jeannie

PS Love to all who are reading

[DaBee]

Curious, Jeannie....what was the mg. of each of the Mobic? If it's the same as mine....you would have taken 4 times as much as I'm told to. What are you gonna do since this didn't help any?
I still haven't taken any....still a little apprehensive because of what Jeter talked about.
Hey, JJ.....looks like you're an official Fool too! Congrats!
I agree about the isolation, Jeannie. Mine is due to being cheap about using gasoline (did get it for $1.99 gal. in Springfield today, though) and just not feeling the big need to be a social person much anymore. Don't know if this is a phase, but it doesn't matter as I live in the present (try to, anyway) and don't worry about it, actually. I do enjoy being in Eureka and participating in art/music events, but it takes a lot of umph anymore to get going. The Digital Film thing in Eureka this weeks looks neato, but probably won't do anything about it. Besides, I went all the way up to Springfield today and was reminded of big city stuff (comparative to Eureka/Berryville) enough to come back home and hide. Soooooo many cars...eee gads!
Hope you had a good day today, NN. You back home resting comfortably?
Gonna go veg out ... couple hundred miles does a number on my (whine, whine) rear end (low back/hips).
Happy shining brighter moon night to everyone.
love and light
deb

[Becky Davis]

I know Deb...it is prolly gonna take me a week to recoup from going to Memphis. Been a really painful week.

[DaBee]

Becky...was wondering how long that trip took. Sounds like you had a great time, though. Sometimes it's just worth the after effects to be able to have the splendor.
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[Becky Davis]

Dabee, it took around three hours from HS..maybe three and a half because of wind and trucks, stopping.
I have that bug, I am pretty sure to compound it...starts like a cold, but ends up intestinal, achy flulike..but am feeling better today.
I ordered some oil of oregano and also intend to get the capsules for an anti-inflammatory. Look up some of the sites. It may be something you are interested in. Be sure, it is the oil you can ingest...not topical/

[Grayfox]

Hey folks,
Do any of you use those heat wraps? I have some for my knee but haven't used them yet. I sure may tonight, though. I slept very little last night but was too lazy to get up and go wash the arthritic rub off so I could use a heat wrap.
The owner of our little neighborhood store gave me the phone number of some woman in our community who got some kind of juice to drink. He said that she was barely able to get out of bed and after three weeks of the remedy she is up going out again. I plan to call her. He did say that she's now selling the stuff and I'm fearful that she'll worry me to death to buy it. I'd like to know the price before I call her, but since I don't even know the name, that isn't likely. I'll let you all know what I find out.

[DaBee]

Grayfox...sound like Noni or another pyramid type thing that I've been told about. Everything was too expensive for me, but the stories of cures was miraculous. Maybe this is something different, though. I'm curious, so yah....let us know.
I haven't used the heat wraps, but would they be any different than a heating pad? How does it work? I wouldn't call it lazy...I'd call it hurting too much to get up. I'm like that, especially if I'm all snuggly and warm under the covers, but the house is cold. It was cold here last night, so I stayed tucked in.
Do you do tub soaks with epsom salt? That always helps me.
Hope you find some relief real quick like.
Sending you thoughts of warm light wrapped around your knees!
love and light
deb

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, Grayfox, that's really funny, because right around the time you posted the above, I was thinking of asking the same question about the heat wraps I've seen advertised on TV! Eager to see if it works for you, and what the "remedy juice" is.

Road trips sure do tucker me out, too. Neurodoc WAS in Branson, which is, to us, a long drive. Mom's the driver and I'm the navigator, but her hands cramp up sometimes, and that hurts her. Now, neurodoc moved to just outside of Springfield, which is even farther. I'm getting a Fay'ville neuro, a lot closer. Sure liked my first neuro, though, and there's history there, y'know? But then change is in the wind everywhere, isn't it?! ;)

Re: Mobic, yes, Deb, neuro had prescribed the 7.5 mg 2 in AM and 2 in PM. I did take it that way, after discussing w/ primary, for the rotator cuff situation, for about 2 wks., which is what he suggested, to discourage the body from creating another spur to protect the frayed bicep end. Of course, there was still tendinopathy and bursal stuff, and I figure I just have to handle it. No alternative was discussed.

The meds I'm on for the cervical dystonia do help with that pain a lot, but that's still all in the same area as rotator cuff, so sometimes it was hard to pick out one set of pains from the others. First line of defense for the c.d. is Botox shots, but I would have to be in unbearable pain to go for that.

sTeVe, how are you and M. doing with your conditions? Did you get some good results from the table deal overall? I remember your saying that you weren't able to see the accupuncturist very often, but that it was effective for you.

Well, m' dears, Ms. Nafalia just called and I told her I'd call back as soon as I finished this, so I'll wind it up here.

Please open your arms to receive the roses I'm sending your way,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

"I'M STILL HERE" from NAFALIA:

Well, loved ones, I'm still here, and doing well. At this very moment I'm lying in the bed at a 90 degree angle, with a neck brace on until 11:30 tomorrow morning. :rolleyes: If you get bored, you might try this one for a little versatility. ;)

Since last we spoke, I've had the Epley Maneuver twice, for the vertigo.

Things seem to be coming to the end of all of this, as, on Nov. 21 I see my low vision specialist, and he will check my eyes to make sure that the chemo did no harm (which I feel that they'll be just fine). On Nov. 22 I go into the hospital as an outpatient for the morning, to have a partial colonoscopy and a biopsy at the spot that was cancerous. I believe, as the doctors do, that it's gone, but we must do this final procedure, to have the pictures and the biopsy report.

My radiation oncologist, whom I saw a little over a week ago, did a rectal exam and said he could not feel any tumor, and discontinued the other 19 radiation treatments, and said he would see me in 3 months.

I had no intentions of continuing with the radiation anyway, as a week in the hospital with a very severe radiation burn in a very sensitive area, (need I say more?) was enough for this girl!!! :eek:

But my oncologist, Dr. Hoos, says "We do not say that you are cancer-free until we have the [above-mentioned] tests and results." As Dr. Hoos says, "Feeling is one thing, but pictures and biopsies tell the story."

Dr. Hoos, like me, believes the cancer is gone, but will not give me that word as of yet.

I will return to Dr. Hoos on Dec. 1, but I'm sure I will have the report of the biopsy before then. After my Dec. 1 visit, then I will see him every 3 mos. for 1 year.

As far as my daily activities, I'm up to walking a mile a day now, eating very well, am using "Silken Soy" for an excellent protein source. Dr. Hoos told me to get Citrical, put some in some juice, and drink it once a day, and I would have all the calcium my body needed. I am also using a small amount of aloe vera juice and 2 tsp of magnesium in a bottle of water, and drinking that once a day, and taking a tbsp. of flax seed oil at night. That pretty much covers my sources of necessary things for the body.

I know that I've been on the quiet side for a while, but this journey in and out of cancer has been quite an experience, and I've found myself being more and more introspective, as I remain in this center of peace that the cancer showed me the way to.

All in all, there were many changes which took place with this experience, within and without, and I cannot really tell you what they were, for they seem to manifest as they choose, when they choose. But I can tell you this, it's all good! :D

I spoke with the dr. who does the Epley Maneuvers, and she said it may take several treatments over a period of time, but eventually we will get the vertigo gone or almost gone.

I feel many changes beginning to take place in my life, spirit-led and spirit-based. Spirit takes us and puts us where we are to be.

So, loved ones, this is the news that is the news that has been taking place in the "now" of my life.

Jeannie just got through reading me all the posts for the last 10 days, and there were so many and so much I could not possibly remember and respond to it all, but please know in your hearts and your soul that I am with you, and I send you my Love, Light, and Energy, for what's taking place in the "now" of your life.

Of course, need I say it? But keep those cards and letters coming in, folks. :D

So mote it be,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
Welcome "GrayFox" to our "DEN of LIGHT" and may you feel "SPIRIT's" warmth and radiant LiGhT for all that ails 'ya.

DeBoRaMa and Becky D., travel make's us ALL weary, as we enter in and out of unknown dimensions. May the "HEALING' white LiGhT energy offer you comfort and be your "heatwraps".

Jeannie, glad your MRI went well and hopefully you feel some relief from your ailments.

Nafalia, you GODDESS of LiGhT, Warrior :cool: Priestess of LiGhT,so glad the "HEALING & Cleansing" you have endured will soon bring you the comfort and joy of once again being HEALTHY and CANCER-FREE. What "magik" this LiGhT group has conjured for you in your trying times. May you continue to be BLESSED as you have BLESSED US ALL.WE have WILLED you WELL. :cool:

Maletha is 100% improved from the "demon tick', and I continue to "keep on keeping on." Still doing my "MAGIK" acupuncture every other week, and inversion table 3-4 times a day. Being upside down agrees with me, brings out my "Bat totem" and allows me the "gift of flight" into other dimensions. "And never left the farm" i have been spiritually cautioned not to overdue as might flare my blood pressure. So far, so good, and far, so good!
:cool:
As ABOVE, So BELOW.

[Becky Davis]

Gray, are you talking about the knee, elbow things that look like big bandaids? I bought some back one and yes they do help. They are comforting. They produce heat for several hours. Somewhere between last night and this morning I began to feel better. Think I may have passed the turning point.
So much of it has been not eating right either. I am usually not a big meat eater, even though I am up there on the scales. For the past two or three weeks have eaten alot of bacon, ribs and meat. Also a lot of sweets. My biggest downfall. Over a period of a few days, sugar makes me feel terrible. Really upsets my system. I may be on the verge of diabetes or something.
Started drinking my green tea leaves and cinnamon yesterday. I think that is what made me feel better.

[Jeannie Jones]

Becky, I just Googled "hypoglycemia" to refresh my memory on the subject, and reading through several articles, I found this info. re: sugar, very pertinent to what you wrote just above:

"recommending next alternatives:

"dry fruit, fresh fruit, fresh fruit juice, resins, apple syrup, rice malt, barley malt.

"But, do not just replace sugar with malt, or apple syrup. It is also important to generally decrease consumption of concentrated sweeteners. Eat more fresh fruit and compote.

"The easiest way of decreasing consumption of sugar is by decreasing consumption of meat.

"How to stop eating sugar?

"There is a balance between meat consumption and sugar.

"If you eat meat, you need sugar, and visa versa. Serious trouble can happen if the balance is off which is easy since sugar is addictive, like a drug. If you are a vegetarian and eat mostly carbohydrates, the effect of extra sugar is heightened.

"One of the major drawbacks is that sugar raises the insulin level, which inhibits the release of growth hormones, which in turn depresses the immune system. Not something you want to happen if you want to avoid sickness..."

[Becky Davis]

Interesting Jeannie..what was the site? Do you remember? I never knew there was a connection between sugar and meat. I just know how I feel. I know I'm not the norm, because I have never liked fruit. All of my life, even as a child, it gave me a tummy ache. Not intestinal, my upper tummy right below the ribs.
I do know that one of my docs at the med center told me that too much sugar could cause pancreatitus.
Deb, I no longer go to Med Center on a regular basis. I would go there in case of an emergency though. I go up to see Dr. Bell every six months. He is familiar with me and I am doing fine, so far, even long distance. I pretty much avoid doctors as much as possible and try to endure. Of course, I have my good and bad weeks.

My experience with Hot Springs physicians has not been great..I have never been, but have taken others.
But, you are always welcome to stay with me on one of your trips for as long as you like, should you feel the need to return to the med center.

[MotherMoon12]

That is interesting about the sugar and pacreatitus, Becky. Dr. Bell thought mine was caused by one of my blood pressure medicines. That was what the doctor in Hot Springs thought, too. Dr. Bell changed it and thinks I will not have any more problems. I need to cut out sugar anyway so I can lose some weight. It is my hardest thing to not do. We eat very little meat (no red meat) and otherwise our diet is really good. But I LOVE my sweets. I'm gonna' try.

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, folks, several hours ago I had a long post nearly completed, and I was reading it to Nafalia, and all of a sudden my downward scroll just took control fast-forwarding all the way to the end of the piece, then I was knocked back into the "processing your edit" screen. From there, it took me to an edit of a different post. Went to "history", and there was a page of graemlins and nothing more, then 2 pages of Geekfest just simply blank, among all the other Geek pps from today and last night.

Does anyone out there who knows about computers, know if this kind of behavior would indicate the presence of a virus, or simply WAAAAAY too many photos in about 5 photo programs, or WAAAAAY too much e-mail in my Outlook Express? This is not the first time that the scroller has acted that way.

I will recreate that post, but please be patient.

Also, when I installed my Norton Internet Security, I merely disabled all the Windows WUI security stuff, and/or anything I had going with Yahoo, instead of uninstalling it. Of course, when it does the auto. updates, it's updating things that I've disabled, so I may have just created a humongous problem all on my own. :eek:

Can anyone out there help me?

[DaBee]

I am so glad to hear that you are doing much better, MM12. That must have really taken you by surprise getting so sick and having to be hospitalized in HS. Good to be home, huh?
JJ....I am totally in the dark about computer stuff. My computer does the scrolling out of control thing, but it does all sorts of crazy things too. My d-i-l keeps telling me I need a new computer, but my pocketbook speaks louder!
I know what you mean about losing long posts....sometimes I get so frustrated that I tell myself that it wasn't meant for me to say what I was saying anyway and just let it go.
Glad to hear that you're perking up too, Becky. I was diagnosed with hypoglycemia way back in my 20s. I was able to control it totally by diet. Now I have to watch my blood sugar levels because of possible diabetes. It's very prevalant in my family.
It's amazing all the good news, NN. Don't think I've ever hear you say that you've been able to do any of the things, like taking walks, that you're doing now. That is, in the last couple of years that we've been sharing here. I always love to read your reports and send those cards and letters your way!
sTeVe, good to hear that you've found what works so well for you. Glad, too, that Maletha has run the course on the bad bad tick disease. Does it cause an immunity for the future?
I'm just glad to hear from everyone and even those I don't "hear" from....just happy that you're here in the silent kind of way.
love and light and rain falling on my tin roof
deb-o-hollergirl

[Becky Davis]

Have any of yall tried taking cinnamon for your blood sugar? Half a teaspoon a day is supposed to help stabilize it. I started taking it last week with my green tea. It does seem to make me feel better, but I also have cut the sweets to a bare minimum.

[DaBee]

I'm not familiar witht the cinnamon "therapy". Tell me about it, Becky.

[Jeannie Jones]

The cinnamon thing sounds great, but I'm allergic to it. Waaaah. I'll have a sweet thing with a little cinnamon sugar on it rarely, but 1/2 tsp. sounds a lot to take every day for me. Hope it works for you, Becky, (and anyone else who tries it) but since you're also cutting down on sweets, it would be hard to know whether your feeling better would be caused by the former or the latter.

Okay, some time ago I read and read about hypoglycemia, as I said, and one thing that stuck firmly in my mind was that lots of sugar (in whatever form) makes your pancreas AND adrenal glands work overtime, which puts undue stress on them. There was a very good book out a while back, called "Sugar Blues", which explained it really well.

Some many years ago I had a wonderful therapist (of the psychiatric sort) who addressed diet right-off. I followed what she said, and it worked out well for me. She said to start the day with COMPLETE protein. That's similar to the "complete vitamin C" deal. It's like not just eating protein, but other things which help to process the protein. A really simple combination is peanut butter on whole wheat bread, or even peanut butter and Triscuits. That gives you a bit of the sweet taste, too.

Becky, I'm including the link about how sugar kills, but it's a really long article. It's just that when I read about that link between meat and sugar consumption, and the balance needed for that, made me think of you, of course, since you'd just posted about it.

Feeling very slow today, but wanted to get back to you with this link before too much more time passed:

http://curezone.com/foods/sugarpage.asp

Love to everyone,

Jeannie

PS: Great that you're doing better, MM12!

[Becky Davis]

Dabee, I saw a doctor on tv who talked about this and wanted people to try it and let him know. I just started it a week or so ago. Will know when I go to Drs. if it lowered mine. My sil has been here all week and hasn't left the kitchen. Going crazy cooking everything in sight:) She loves to cook and since Stazi her grandchild lives here with Leslie and I, she wants to do for her. So they have been cooking together. Point is, I have had plenty of sweets this week.
Below is an article:

Cinnamon Helps Blood Sugar
From Cathy Wong, N.D.,
Your Guide to Alternative Medicine.

One of the easiest things you can do to improve blood sugar and increase insulin is add up to a 1/2 teaspoon of cinnamon to your diet each day.

Some of the research highlights about the cinnamon-blood sugar connection are
A human study published in Diabetes Care looked at 60 people with type 2 diabetes, 30 men and 30 women with an average age of 52. They were divided into 6 groups: groups 1, 2, and 3 consumed 1, 3, or 6 g of cinnamon daily, respectively, and groups 4, 5, and 6 were given placebo capsules corresponding to the number of capsules consumed for the three levels of cinnamon.

After 40 days, all three levels of cinnamon intake reduced fasting blood glucose ranging from 18 to 29%, triglycerides 23 to 30%, LDL cholesterol 7 to 27%, and total cholesterol 12-26%. Sponsored Links
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The researchers concluded that "The results of this study… suggest that the inclusion of cinnamon in the diet of people with type 2 diabetes will reduce risk factors associated with diabetes and cardiovascular diseases."


The active insulin-enhancing compounds in cinnamon are found in the water soluble portion and not the oil. Not only have they been found to increase glucose metabolism by up to 20-fold, but they also have antioxidant activity.
How to Make Cinnamon Tea
1/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon

1 cup boiling water

black teabag (optional)

stevia


Place the cinnamon in a cup. Add the boiling water and steep for 10 minutes. Sweeten with stevia if desired.

My tips
The active compounds aren't lost with heating, so you can also try adding cinnamon to water before heating and boiling them together.

If you don't like the look or texture of tea made with ground cinnamon, try making a tea by bringing water to a boil with a piece of cinnamon bark added to it.

Try sprinkling cinnamon on salads, oatmeal, or adding a bit to chicken or meat before cooking.

Do not use more than 1/2 teaspoon a day, an amount that appears to be safe for most people.

More Health Benefits of Cinnamon
Cinnamon increases vitality and balances energy. It is particularly good for people who tend to have a hot upper body and colder lower body. I see this quite often, especially among women entering menopause. Symptoms are flushed face, sweating, insomnia with cold and dry legs and feet.

Cinnamon improves the digestion of fruits, milk, and other dairy products.

Cinnamon is also good for bloating, gas, poor digestion, arthritis, anemia, painful menstrual periods, and diarrhea.

Precautions
Cinnamon can add to the effect of insulin and other blood sugar medication. Consult a health care practitioner if you are currently taking medication to control your blood sugar.

If you're pregnant or breast feeding, don't take extra cinnamon greater then normally found in food unless recommended by your health care practitioner.

References
Verspohl EJ, Bauer K, Neddermann E. Antidiabetic effect of Cinnamomum cassia and Cinnamomum zeylanicum In vivo and In vitro. Phytotherapy Research. 2005 June 2;19(3):203-206.

Talpur N, Echard B, Ingram C, Bagchi D, Preuss H. Effects of a novel formulation of essential oils on glucose-insulin metabolism in diabetic and hypertensive rats: a pilot study.Diabetes Obes Metab. 2005 Mar;7(2):193-9.

Qin B, Nagasaki M, Ren M, Bajotto G, Oshida Y, Sato Y. Cinnamon extract prevents the insulin resistance induced by a high-fructose diet. Horm Metab Res. 2004 Feb;36(2):119-25.

Khan A, Safdar M, Ali Khan MM, Khattak KN, Anderson RA. Cinnamon improves glucose and lipids of people with type 2 diabetes. Diabetes Care. 2003 Dec;26(12):3215-8.

Qin B, Nagasaki M, Ren M, Bajotto G, Oshida Y, Sato Y. Cinnamon extract (traditional herb) potentiates in vivo insulin-regulated glucose utilization via enhancing insulin signaling in rats. Diabetes Res Clin Pract. 2003 Dec;62(3):139-48. Important disclaimer information about this About site.

[Becky Davis]

Also have heard that massaging the head with tea tree oil will promote hair growth for those with thinning hair. Anybody try this?
I have done this and it makes your head warm, but your scalp feels so good.

[PMilam]

Hi, ya'll.
I've been in another world for the past couple of weeks.
Preparing for my 60th bd .. lots of out of town folk.. camping, staying with my neighbor that has 2 houses.. our house FULL. It was great fun, and some of my oldest friends came. All my kids and grandkids here all weekend.

It was so much fun.. very relaxing.. once everything was prepared. Then.. it takes me a few days on couch time to recoup.. then 2 days with grandson Kole, and I need more couch time. It balances out!

Had that gawd-awful cold that was going around.. don't recall ever blowing my nose so much! Almost flu like, too.
Nasty stuff.. I finally gave in and took antibiotics.. and it was almost gone by the time the folks from the old country started showing up.

I'm concerned about lumps, tho. I've had them checked out, and they have said.. that they are scar tissue.. biopsied one of them, about a year ago. They are right under staple scars. I scar terribly. But, they are getting bigger.. and it worries me. I'm going to see Dr. Flake on Wens.. if I can get in. As I am wont to do, I've put it off, til after my bd. Didn't want to got into that with any bad news.. so I opted for no news!

I'm holding in my heart that it is scar tissue..

Cinnamon.. yum.. I can add that to most anything I eat.. on toast, even. I got some African coffee for my bd, and it came with a little packet of cinnamon, says add a pinch to the prepared coffee.

I've been slowly increasing my niacin, too, as per a conversation we had here.. some time back. I asked Doc Taylor about it, (right after we had talked about it, here, for headaches..) he told me that it helps with cholesterol!
He to gradually increase it, to allow the body to get used to it, and not to take the anti-flush kind, that it increases possible liver damage. But.. to take a 81mg aspirin with it to control the flushing. I'm up to 200 (because I can't remember to buy a larger dose, and don't want to take more pills!) and I have no flushing with that.


Well, it's good to catch up with all of you.

love, peace, miracles,
Patt

[DaBee]

Sounds like a really great time, Patt. Lot of work too, but worth it all, I'm sure. Happy 60th birthday!
Glad you're going to have the lumps checked....it will ease your mind, I'm sure. Are they under the skin or keloid formations? Earlier this year I had carpal tunnel surgery and at the base of the scar, right at my wrist, there is a knot forming and I'm wondering if it isn't scar tissue also. I'll go have mine checked, too, next time I visit a doc. Sending positive, healing thoughts your way.
I've started taking niacin also. I got the non-flushing kind, so when I'm out of these, I'll get the regular ones and take aspirin with it. Thanks for the info. on that.
I started taking Lipitor about 2 months ago for high cholesterol. When I had it checked at a community health clinic in Berryville last month, it had gone from 292 to 157. I was amazed!
So on the cinnamon thing....do you just take the regular cinnamon from the spice aisle or do you use a cinnamon tincture? Remember when I was a kid we'd get a bottle of liquid cinnamon and put a drop on our finger and lick it off. It was hot, but really tasted good. Wonder if I was doing a healthy thing back then without even realizing it.
Seems like I got it at our local drug store.
Glad to have you back, Patt. Keep us informed of the scar tissue issue.
What a beautiful day in the Ozarks today!
love and light
deb

[PMilam]

Oh, my.. a flash back! We used to get that cinnamon oil, and soak toothpicks in it.. then had something flavorful to suck on all day.. pre-smoking days. Still, to this day, toothpicks are the bane of Craigs life. I have one in my mouth all the time.. leave them laying around.. by my chair, at the computer, on the counter.. I'm bad!

I'm such a oral fixator!

I used to chew on straws, right after I quit smoking.. the first 20 times or so. Then on to chewing gum.. that worked.. but I really messed up my jaw. It pops and catches now, esp at the dentist. I can hardly bear having my mouth wide open for long. Starting in about 8th grade, I started chewing my cheeks. A girl that I thought was soo cool did it, and I started imitating her. Lordy that was a terrible habit to break.. I did it til about 6 years ago! One of my kids does it. It's amazing to me, now, to run my tongue over a smooth cheek.

So much for oral fixations..

The lumps are under the skin. I had Craig look at them last night.. he said, he thought it was still scar tissue, but to have Dr. Flake look at them, to ease my mind.

What is up with all this wind?? I got at least 6 new wind chimes for my bd.. they are driving me nuts! Usually I love the tinkle and clinking.. but, constantly!?!

Besides that.. it is a gorgeous day out here!

[Becky Davis]

Happy Birthday Patt! Glad you had so much fun.
Dabee, use the regular old cinnamon off the spice shelf. 1/2 teaspoon...more won't help. I mix it in my tea.
I really would like for someone with thin hair to tell me if tea tree oil works. My hair is thick, so I could never tell the diff.

[DaBee]

I'll try the tea tree oil, Becky. For about the last 3 or 4 months my hair has gotten noticably thinner. I wouldn't say it comes out by the handfull, but one of my habits is to run my fingers through the ends to get the knots out. My hair is curly and tangles on the ends. The other day my vacuum cleaner stopped working. I looked at the part with the brushes that go around and it looked like a wig got caught in it. I had to cut MY hair out of it....and it started working. This happened a couple of years ago when I was taking the Methotrexate (old chemo drug) for the RA. I had some of the chemo side effects, but in a milder form. I'm not on anything like that now, but guess it could be some residual. Anyway.....I have some tea tree oil and I'll start massaging it into my scalp. Guess you do that, then shampoo it.
Curious, Patt....what was it that made you finally quit smoking? Oh....right about the toothpicks; that's what we put the cinnamon oil on, too.
I'm wondering how you're doing, Nafalia. You too, Jeannie. Are the radiation burns gone now, NN? How's your energy level?
Had the G'babes with me most of the day and did the Christmas parage and concert afterwards, so I'm kinda pooped.
Niteynite, y'all
love and light
deb

[PMilam]

I totally spaced out the parade.. thinking it was later.. you know.. after Thanksgiving!

Anyway.. I took wellbutrin to help me quit. I did not want my grandkids to smell ole smokey clothes, and go.. oh.. that reminds me of Nana!
It really did the trick for me. They tell you to be on it for 2 weeks before you try to quit. I had already cut it in 1/2 by the time 2 wks was up. They just didn't taste good. I would light up.. and 1/3 of the way through, put it out.. and I would throw those away.. so I wouldn't be lighting up butts, later! I do know how I am!

Anyway.. I stayed on it for a month or two after I quit. It's the only time I have not had the cravings. I just didn't want to smoke any more. That was the biggie. Before, I had quit for long periods of time (20 yrs., a year, a year and a half, etc) but I never stopped craving. It just worked for me. Thank God! Makes me ill to see 1/2 my kids smoking.. I feel like that's what I taught them. No doubt, peer pressure is always there.. but, when mom smokes.. hey! Why not?

I've got to go look up an RA drug.. an ad came on for it.. Craig said.. that seems to be a good drug. Many, he poo-poos..

I'll check on it, and come back..

later..

[PMilam]

That wasn't so hard.. Embrel.

You might ask your doc what s/he thinks.

[Jeannie Jones]

Hi, folks,

Becky, that's really interesting info. on the cinnamon. As to tea tree oil, I bought some a while back, and a little book that told how to use it. Like for some things, it's supposed to be diluted by a percentage, and how often to use it, and like that. I tried it on a "funny" toenail, couldn't find the booklet, but just kept painting the undiluted oil on and all around the affected area with a Q-tip. I think I overused it, in my zealous pursuit of getting the job done, and after about 3 days, blisters came up everywhere I used it. :rolleyes:

So I'm wondering how often to do the scalp with the tea tree oil, and whether to do it full strength or what? I do have thinning hair, and would like to improve it. The gal who cuts my hair said to massage the scalp every time you wash your hair, but not by moving the fingers, but by using the fingers to actually move the scalp. The point is to prevent the scalp from becoming "leathery", due to not enough blood flow up there. I think she said that doing this will allow more new hair to break through the skin of the scalp.

Patt, so glad you had a wonderful birthday party! Doesn't it feel odd to think you're 60? It seems like some sort of joke or something, because inside you're much younger than that, at least that's how it struck me. But then I don't have any kids or grands. Maybe that would make a person feel like they'd have to act more like a grown-up, or actually BE a grown-up. :eek:

Oh, Becky, was it sil who's the cooker/baker person? Great that you'll have a really good way to find out how it works for you, since you won't be giving up sweets while she's there.

Yes, Wellbutrin. My doc wanted to boost my dopamine for general well-being. After I was on it for a while, I felt so placid that I chose to reduce the # of cigs. per day. Got it down to 5 or 6, and was happy with that. Didn't want to actually quit. But then it seemed to just dry me up, and I quit it. Also, though, Mom was using way more A/C at that time, and it might have been due to all of the blowing of the vents. I think I'd like to give it another try to make sure.

Deb, thanks for asking, but feeling in pain and sad, but getting better. And I didn't know they used chemo for RA. So get this ... yesterday Mom went to the Cat Clinic to get more cat food, and came back with a kitten! Sweet Pea is about 8 wks. old, and it's been high drama with the other 3 cats since she came in the door. I just had to come out and keep checking on them all day yesterday, and most of today. Last night I was up until about 8 AM to make sure they didn't hurt her, then Mom came out, and the morning shift took over. Things got a lot better this evening, though. They'll work it out. Sweet Pea and the male are already playing together.

Well, folks, gotta go. Best love to all, named or not, posters or not, ;)

JJ

PS: Nafalia will post tomorrow (Monday) eve.

[Becky Davis]

I used it full strength on my head, but on the same day I washed my hair.
I would think you could use it in your shampoo if you wanted to do it daily. I don't wash my hair daily but a lot of people do.

I also ordered full strength oregano oil. It is to be diluted to use. Supposed to be healing.
My word, I put one tiny drop on my tongue and went into spasms. It nearly killed me. It burns more than any type of pepper. More like acid. Never do that. It is supposed to be diluted fifty to one. Should have read that part first.

[Jeannie Jones]

"DUCKS IN A ROW", from NAFALIA:

Well, everyone, it seems like the last several months I've had all these ducks lined up in a row, that had to be seen to. Now I'm finally down to the last 2 ducks.

Saw my low-vision specialist today, and the last time I saw him was before chemo/radiation, and he told me as soon as it was over to come back so he could check my eyes.

When I saw him the last time, he said that just the beginnings of cataracts had begun to form, and it would be, probably, a few years before we'd have to worry about them. Well, chemo changed that. :rolleyes:

What we found today was this: the chemo had accelerated quite a lot, what is called "spokes" which comes from the cataracts, had grown a lot. To make a long story short, he said that probably within 6 months to a year, we would have to remove the cataracts.

I knew that something had changed with my vision, because I was having trouble bringing things into focus at times, and the best way I can explain how these spokes distort the vision is with this example: you have a window that is frosted over with ice, and the sun is hitting it, and the light beams that the sun has on the effect of that windowpane, is sort of how the spokes make my vision at times.

Besides being extremely light-sensitive, so much so that I have to wear dark glasses inside on a sunny day, so my doctor is going to put a new filtering tint on my glasses. It's a specialized amber tint, which will be rather dark, but there's some sort of a filtering device in the tint which will help relieve the light sensitivity. That was one of the last 2 ducks.

Tomorrow is the big duck. At 10:30 tomorrow, I will be checked into the hospital as an in-patient for the morning, and they're going to do the biopsy, to make sure all the cancer's gone.

This is a special type of colonoscopy, which is sorta like a baby one, as they don't have to go up into the colon, because my "once-was" cancer was not that high up. And they will do the endoscopic scope, and take a biopsy.

I will have some information as to what Dr. Weston sees tomorrow before I leave the hospital, and then, I guess, we have to wait a few days for the biopsy results to come back.

I do not know if I will be told by phone, the results, or if I'll have to wait til Dec. 2, when I go see my oncologist, Dr. Hoos.

So, like I said, I've had all these ducks in a row, and now I'm getting down to the very last one. And boy, have they been some tough ducks! :eek:

I was walking 2 miles 5 or 6 days a week, but last Saturday my body rebelled, and I heard it tell me, very loud and clear, "You're pushing too hard". So now I will be walking 2 miles 3 days a week.

You see, my mind misfires sometimes, because I was feeling better, I think I'm well. But my body told me different.

It just seems to me that when these doctors tell me that I have a long recovery period, that they can't be talking to me, they must be talking to someone else. But, lo and behold, I'll be damned if they're not talking to me.

So that is where it all stands. So tomorrow, send the Light, light the candles, and we'll all know that the biopsy will come back that I am free of cancer. But most important of all, keep those cards and letters comin' in, folks! ;)

Love you well,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

"SOMETHING OF INTEREST", from NAFALIA:

This all began on March 15, which is the Ides of March, the day that Julius Caesar was murdered on the steps of the Colisseum, in Rome.

On March 17, which was St. Patrick's Day, I was told I had cancer.

Tomorrow, when I have the biopsy, is 2 days before Thanksgiving.

Just thought you might find this interesting.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Becky Davis]

We'll be right there with you Sister.

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
Nafalia, Warrior of the Light,
Sending "MAJESTIC PURE WHITE LIGHT ENERGY to totally envelope you and give you the LOVE of your FRIENDLY LIGHTWORKERS as we journey with you as you "Walk the Talk" and "Talk the Walk".
Total, Complete HEALING is what we WILL.
So Mote IT Be.
Blessed Be, In the ABOVE & BELOW.
Peace*LOVE*Twisted-Healing LiGhT
sTeVe.

[PMilam]

http://www.biblenews1.com/salvation/angels/angelan3.gif http://www.higherpraise.com/clipart/miscellaneous/candle.gif http://home.freeuk.net/elloughton13/animations/candle.gif

Nafalia, Angels are called upon, candles lit. May you be cancer free.

Blessed be.
Patt

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
Pat,
The Above is very cool. We Will it, So Shall It BE.
:cool:

[DaBee]

Great light, Patt. We're all guided to be with Nafalia this morning; reaching around to comfort and ease the mind and body with the white light of healing in the now. Your soul knows that everything is just fine and mine joins with yours (as it always really has been) and your with hers and hers with his and we are all with you, NancyNafalia, always.
Jeannie, I send and as I send I am with you bringing comfort and joy as your true nature waits for you to let go of the pain and sadness when you need to. It always amazes me how thin the line is between joy and sadness as one can be replaced by the other in an instant. Remember, your true nature always pervails.
May we all continue as warriors of light to be the one little light in a dark place. To shine hope and a ray of sunshine where there seems to be none. Sometimes we question the reason we are in a place of seeming discomfort for ourselves. Know that you are there for a real purpose and as soon as the light is focused properly, it will be time for you to leave. You want to be this warrior and have asked to be, otherwise it would not happen. May this light show you how to be happy, joyous and free!
love and light
deb

[Jeannie Jones]

"8 MONTHS AND 1 WEEK", by NAFALIA:

For the past 8 months and 1 week to the day, so many of you have been talking the walk with me. Some heard, and some unheard, some posting, and some not, but still, you were always there.

As you know from last night's post, today was the day to "knock down the big duck". My sister arrived at 10:10, and we arrived at the hospital at 10:28, and I was due at 10:30. I was admitted as an inpatient, then I was taken to the endoscopic area.

They were ready for me, so I did not have to wait but just a few minutes, and since I'd been there so often, many of the nurses remembered me, and were there to say "hi", and wish me well.

It was very obvious to me that each and every one of your spirits was already there waiting for me, for the room was full. It even appeared that some would have to leave, to let others come in. I recognized the spirits of those who have walked with me all along, but there were some there that I did not know, and I believe they are the readers and non-posters. There was one spirit who seemed to be in the background, and I do not know who it was, but it was a very powerful spirit.

The first thing which occurred was that the nurse came in and set an IV needle in my arm. (I've had this so much that I didn't even feel the pain when she blew the vein). Second try, we hit home. After all of that was done, within 5 minutes I was in the endoscopic room waiting for the doctor to get there. There were 2 nurses who also remembered me from before.

Dr. Weston arrived within a few minutes (just love this man, he's such a gentle soul), he visited with me for a few minutes and wanted to know how I was feeling, and was I comfortable and is everything okay, and then the lights were turned off and all of the monitors were turned on and I was able to watch the whole thing. I was more heavily sedated today than I had been in the past, but still very much aware of what was happening.

Dr. Weston began the endoscopic scope, and it took about an hour and a half. As we went along, he was talking to the nurses and I was listening and watching.

Of course, since I was sedated I did not realize how much time had passed, and I kept waiting for the dreaded biopsy, because the biopsy hurts.

Then suddenly, he says, "Well, we're finished", and I thought "I must have fallen asleep, because I didn't feel the biopsy".

Then I was wheeled back to my space where my sister was, and in just a few minutes Dr. Weston arrived and gave me a run-down of the scope. And these are his words:

"You have a nice, pink, healthy colon, with just a tiny scar where there had once been a cancer, or it could just be a radiation burn, but I'm happy to tell you, Nancy, you are now CANCER FREE." !!! smile.gif

I asked him, "Did you do a biopsy?" And he replied, "There was no need for a biopsy, 'cause there was no cancer, and I will send this report to Dr. Hoos, and when you see Dr. Hoos, you and he can discuss when you will take out the port".

He said, "I want you to rest for a couple of days. You should have no problems, but if you have any vomiting, fever, cramping, or passing of blood, you are to call me immediately. But I doubt seriously that you'll have any of these problems."

Since I had not had anything to eat since about 5:00 yesterday afternoon, I was not real hungry, but a little bit. So I asked him what I could have to eat. And he said, "Anything you want that does not cause gas".

Was wheeled out of the hospital, and told my sister, "Let's go to Sonic". (This is not my normal food, but it was handy, and the least harmful that I could think of at the time.) So at Sonic, I ordered a hamburger with mustard only, my normal, and a large order of tater tots. (I love Sonic's tater tots!) Now remember, everyone, all of this time I'm drugged up pretty heavily. So I ate ALL the tater tots, and half of the burger.

Told my sister I wanted to go to Osco, and pick up some men's flannel-bottomed pajamas and some long-sleeved t-shirts to wear around the house. So we did.

Welllll, should have come home really, because while I was in Osco walking around, everything that had gone up into me (like 2 Fleet's enemas plus all the lubricant that Dr. Weston uses) suddenly decided to come out like an explosion!!! :eek: It went down my legs, and clear up to the waistband of my sweat pants. Of course, I was at the back of the store and the rest room was at the front of the store. Somebody up there likes me, though, because the solid food that I had eaten at Sonic, was gracious enough to wait 'til I got to the commode.

I got to the rest room, got myself cleaned up, checked out, and came home. God what a mess!!! :rolleyes:

But I didn't really care, because I was still drugged up, and just been told I was cancer free! Got home, took a shower, put on clean pajamas, and said, "OK, NOW go lay down".

So that was how the day went.

So as I said at the beginning, 8 months and 1 week to the day (almost enough time to have a baby!) we have all worked together to bring about, with the help of modern medicine, a new me. smile.gif

For me to say "thank you" to all of you, would be underestimating everything you have done, for you have talked the walk every step of the way, each and every one of you. So Love is all I have to send you.

As we willed it,
Spirit granted it,

Nafalia

PS I had been walking 2 miles a day, but that was a bit overdoing it, so now, under doctor's advice, I am backing off a little bit, because, as he said, "even though you feel better, you still have a long recovery road ahead, so you must allow your body to heal at its own pace". So I just have to keep on sayin' it, "Keep those cards and letters comin' in, folks". :D

[Jeannie Jones]

"DRUGS AND FUNNY THOUGHTS", from NAFALIA:

I just wanted to put this in here, because I forgot to tell you in the last post, and I have no idea where it came from.

When Dr. Weston told me that I was cancer-free, the thought that I had was, "Halleluiah and jump rope!" ?!? Go figure! :rolleyes:

Smile and giggle and laugh out loud,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
BLESSED BE.
:cool:

[MotherMoon12]

Happy day, Nafalia.

[Becky Davis]

Praise be...the best news. Just the best news.

[DaBee]

Jump rope and hang upside down on the monkey bars, NN!
This is a time of joyful celebration!
"Cancer free".....what words of ahhhhhhhhh with a long breath of ease.
I'm hanging around to watch you being on the other side of this. Maybe when you get your strength back we can all go out and play. :D
love and light and light and light
deb-o-happydays

[b lake lady]

NN: that is the most wonderful news!

[PMilam]

Blessed be.

That is wonderful.

This morning, I received this quote..

"In spite of illness, in spite even of the arch enemy, sorrow, one can remain alive long past the usual date of disintegration if one is unafraid of change, insatiable in intellectual curiosity, interested in big things, and happy in small ways." --Edith Wharton

I believe it is true. Witness Nafalia!!

Isn't it funny what we will do, under sedation and good news.. who would think.. let's go to Sonic and Osco!?!!?

I'm glad that part was under sedation!

Blessed Be, dear Nafalia.


Just a thought.. those spirits.. could be others that have had similar experiences in that room.. they knowing how hard it is.. want to be helpful.

[Jeannie Jones]

"HOW DO I SAY THIS?", from NAFALIA:

It pleases me so, that everyone found such joy and pleasure in the diagnosis I received yesterday.

Life is such a journey, and it often hands us things that seem difficult and impossible at the time, that later turn out to be wonderful gifts in disguise. This is the experience I feel I've had with the cancer.

Without each and every one of you being with me, it would have been a lot more difficult than it was. You know, the thought that the unknown spirits were of those who had been in that particular area in the past, as a part of the support system rings very true to me. So glad that you brought it to my attention, Patt.

What a lucky girl am I!

Once again I come to all of you with a special request, to send Light and Love to a very special person.

My 39-y/o nephew, Bub, is more like a son to me (and his birthday is the day before mine). About a year ago he began to have a seizure now and then. Well, the seizures have accelerated, and the night before last he had another grand mal seizure.

In the ambulance, on the way to the hospital, his blood pressure bottomed out and they almost lost him. At this point, it was realized it was much more than just seizures.

Bub has no insurance, so the doctors are trying to get him into U.T. in Houston, because they did an MRI in the e.r. and found a brain lesion. It is operable, but must be done very quickly.

All the doctors are working hard to get him in for the surgery. So I'm asking each and every one of you to hold him tightly, surround him with Love, and send him the Light.

He called his mother (my sister, Sue) last night and told her what had happened, and I found out just today.

I know what we all can do, so let's do it, because he's worth the effort.

As we will it,
So shall it be,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
Bub, Brother in LIFE, we meager Workers Of LIGHT send PURE WHITE LIGHT ENERGY to wrap you in HEALING and allow the illness to vanish into darkness and we WILL YOU WELL.
As Above, So Below.
:cool:
Blessing of LIGHT to ALL.

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:

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[Becky Davis]

Prayers and best wishes to your Nephew Nafalia. It's so hard to watch our loved ones be ill.

[DaBee]

Nafalia....Is Bub's real name Bub? If not, what is his birth name? Where is he at right now? I could ask you a bunch more questions, but am just trying to focus and seem to need more of an idea about him. Maybe this sounds silly, but I can't really explain it. I hope that you've had a day of ease without worry....everythings gonna be ok. I just want to get to know Bub a little bit better.
love and light to you and yours
deb

[DaBee]

I've been trying to do my levitation trick on Geekfest, but just can't pull it off here for some reason. Next best thing: levity ......................

Spiritual Jokes: Astrological Prayers


Aries
Dear God, please give me patience... and could you do it right now?


Taurus
Dear God, help me accept change, but not too quick.


Gemini
Dear God! Who is God? Where is God? Why is God?


Cancer
Dear God!!!


Leo
Yes?


Virgo
Dear God, please make us perfect and don't mess it up like You did the last time.


Libra
Dear God, please help me to be decisive, but on the other hand, what do you think is best?


Scorpio
Our Father, forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors, even though the b*****ds don't deserve it!


Sagittarius
Dear Lord, if I've told you once, I've told you a million times, help me stop exaggerating.


Capricorn
Dear God! I'd like to ask you to help me, but I learned a long time ago not to rely on anyone else!


Aquarius
Dear God, I know I like change,
but this chaos is ridiculous!!


Pisces
Dear Lord, as long as I'm going to drink this fifth of Scotch tonight, please use the stimulation for Thy glory.

[Becky Davis]

Funny Dabee.

[PMilam]

Steve, thanks so much for posting that.
I have a dear friend that not only has SADD.. but seems to becoming agoraphobic.

We've been trying to coax her out of her hidey hole.. I sent this to her yesterday.. hoping it will soak in that we miss her very much. I do understand it, though.. I get very hermit-ish in the winter.

[Jeannie Jones]

"BUB'S NAME", from NAFALIA:

DaBee, Bub's real name is Stanley Wesley Hill, Jr. He is 39 y/o, and he lives in Galveston, TX. He is extremely handsome, and the perfect picture of a young Texas man. By that I mean he is darkly tanned, has sandy brown shoulder length or longer hair with blond highlights from the sun, and a lot of it, has it styled nicely, and runs around in very casual clothes. He wears cut-offs and t-shirts and sandals, or tennis shoes and jeans and t-shirts. He spends a lot of time out in the sun, and is absolutely beautiful. And that is my Bub.

He's always very courteous and kind to older ladies, holding the door open for them at Wal-Mart or wherever, and saying things like, "There you go, babe", or "here you go, sweetie". He gets a kick out of them and is not flirty, but he likes to make them feel young, and they just love him. They tell him "You sure are good-looking!" That's just the kind of guy he is.

And when it comes to his mother or me, believe me, he would crawl from Texas if he thought we were in harm's way in any form, because we've always been there for him and he loves us dearly.

Just to keep you up-to-date, he had an MRI done tonight at 9:00, and I guess we'll get the results real soon. Still waiting to see if U.T. can get him in.

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[DaBee]

Thank you for introducing me to Bub, Nafalia. What a guy! I was in Galveston this past late summer, so I can still see it and smell it and feel it. I guess it's something like Reiki without the specific symbols that I send the warm healing light to Bub. Like you, my dear Nafalia, Bub is a light in dark places himself. He will also be glowing brighter with the healing light sent by us all; because it is willed so.
Nafalia, I think about and sense you so much through the days. Your strength is growing and glowing!
Love and light to all that read this which is all in the now.
smile.gif Hugs and warmth to you also, Jeannie....thank you for sharing yourself with NN to be able to communicate through cyberspace with us.
deb

[DaBee]

We may just have another join us soon.
Say hello to Dean, everyone.

All is well
Life is good
Friends are near
We all stood
Like an onion
Peel it slow
There we see
Our inner glow
Take your time
You will grow
In the light
and in the know

love and light and all's well
deb-o-thatendswell

[Jeannie Jones]

"DEAN, YOU SAY?" from NAFALIA:

Dean, Deb says that we should welcome you, so we know we'd better do what she says, :rolleyes: so let me say, "welcome, Dean".

Now, we don't know who you are or where you came from, but knowing DaBee, she might have plucked you right out of the heavens, or snatched you from one of her favorite books. Matters not from whence you came, you're here in the NOW. ;)

As above, so below,

Nafalia

PS: Just so y'all don't forget, because it seems like you might have forgotten already, as I've not reminded you lately, keep those cards and letters coming in, folks! :D

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
DEAN,
We welcome you to a "slightly altered dimension" where hopes are HIGH and promises are kept, as they should be. May health, wealth, and
tWiStEdHeAlInGlIgHt follow you all the days of your life, in this dimension and ALL others.
So Mote It Be.
:cool:

[Jeannie Jones]

Welcome, Dean! smile.gif

I hope you will feel comfortable to post here. You'll find compassion, humor, (OMG that Deb just cracks me up!) support in trying times, perhaps a bit of spiritual exploration and uplift as you tread your path, and we never know what else may pop up here. But then Deb has probably told you this already, so what can I say but "Hi! I'm Jeannie. And I'm a Gratitude-Journal-a-holic." :D

[Jeannie Jones]

Oh, Deb, God bless your sweet heart. Regarding the "mirrors for re-evaluation" idea in the Baby Jesus thread, I mean that some years ago you would probably have simply felt that it was wrong. It was just plain wrong. Now you know that there is no right and wrong, but it's so hard to remember that and make it work sometimes, still dwelling some small part within the context of where the rest of society live. I know, I do it too. I just wanted to say that we shouldn't be placing blame or making judgements there, because that woman is still becoming whatever it is that she will be. This incident may bring her to an understanding that she didn't have before, on the inside, though she might feel that she has to present it differently on the outside, as a "harmless prank" or "joke".

The jokes we also have to look at through new eyes, as you did, if we're going for spiritual advancement. There are so many, many things that we would have thought funny in the past, that are simply not funny. Now we know this, because they have been brought up and we've had a chance to look at them from a different perspective than we had before.

At a gathering in Mt. Shasta some years ago, I told a joke that I had recently heard, and the woman I told it to, (a Texan whom I didn't know very well) said that that was exactly the type of jokes and thinking that we want to leave behind. It was a man-bashing joke. I still wasn't very firmly anchored in the NEW, even though I'd been at it for quite a while, and felt like I'd been slapped in the face by her, and that she took herself too seriously, but inside I knew that her words were right, even though her attitude was snippy and chilly.

There were very diverse people at that gathering, coming from different backgrounds and at different stages of their spiritual journey, and before we were going to go to the store to buy what we needed for dinner, I suggested also some wine and soft drinks, or something, and SHE said that "Spirit says that we should drink more water, so we should only serve water". I've had a really hard time with people who make choices for others, in kind of a forced way. But how did I get sidetracked to here?

Well, I hope at least something makes sense of this post. I keep reading it over and over and realize I'm confusing myself, :rolleyes: so I hope there's something in here for ya, Deb. I sure do love you. smile.gif

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
"LiGhT BrIgHt"

Indian Masters wisdom about attitude

It is our own MENTAL ATTITUDE which makes the world what it is for us.

Our
thoughts make things beautiful, our thoughts make things ugly. The

whole world
is in our OWN MINDS. LEARN TO SEE THINGS IN THE PROPER LIGHT.
:cool:

[DaBee]

We danced across the stage of ether
You and I
Gathering light from the crowded screen
Thought we'd try
To whirl and swirl and bounce and leap
Then we'd fly
In this direction ever climbing
Way up high
We stepped the step
We danced the dance
We flew the fly
Because we try
To show the way
To help the day
To light the screen
To dream the dream

........and it worked. Love you too, Jeannie. You are so often an amazing light teacher and a reflection of the way.
love and light
deb

[DaBee]

Unfolding To Others
The Journey Of Finding A Relationship

Before we embark upon the journey of finding the relationship that is right for us, we may want to take the opportunity to refine our concepts of who we are and what we want from life. That way, we are clearer on the kind of person we want to attract into our lives. Part of the journey of finding a mate is learning how to become our own mate. When we can learn to meet our needs without relying on someone else to complete us, we don't have to form relationships from the space of needing our emptiness to be filled. We can also discover our intrinsic value, separate from what someone else might be reflecting back to us. Getting to know who we are and learning to love ourselves creates a solid foundation of self that we can bring to any relationship.

We are fortunate to live in a time when relationships can take on unique forms and unfold at a pace that is right for us. Friendship, dating, open relationships, long term relationships, long distance relationships, or committed relationships - we are free to choose the kind of relationships that we want. If you want to be in relationship, but haven't found the right one for you, remember that the universe works in perfect order. Maybe all this time alone has been part of your preparation period for meeting your intended partner. Even the relationships in our lives that haven't worked out as we had hoped serve us by teaching us to make better choices in our next relationships.

Finding the relationship we want can come early or later in life. It may even happen again and again in one lifetime. There is no right or wrong for how to find a relationship nor is there a timeline that you have to follow. Follow your heart, listen to your inner voice, continue to become your own soul mate, and stay open to love. Remember that the journey of finding the right relationship begins with being in right relationship with yourself.

[DaBee]

Jeannie or Steve or maybe Nafalia....do y'all remember maybe sometime last year someone gave a link to Francine Jarry and the Abraham tape? Also, there was a song called Everyday A New Adventure sung by Francine. Anybody have that link? I have it on my RealPlayer, but don't know how to find out where it came from. It's really special and I want to share.
Thanks in advance!
love and light and contrasting environments
deb-o-activation of the summoning of energy

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool;
"deb-o-activation"
I haven't a clue, had to be Jeannie or the Mighty Warrior Nafalia. Would like to have it shared if you find out.
:cool:

[Jeannie Jones]

WELL, here y'go, dahlinks

(How did I miss y'all over here?!) Your wish is my command -- in this instance, anyway!. ;)

http://www.abrahamfreemusicdownloads.com/

WELL, did I come on too strong in the CG Baby Jesus thread? Oh, no, I'm gonna hafta go back over there and make things right. I think I got kinda judgemental there. Thank God/dess we can edit! May have to mend some fences.

Y'all just find such wonderful things to post for us over here. Deb, did you write "All is well, life is good" and "We danced across the stage of ether"? They're lovely.

BIG day today. At 10:30 AM in Fayetteville, after 2 1/2 hrs. sleep, I met my new neurologist. Dr. Sharlin left Skaggs Hospital in Branson, and moved his practice to Spfld. and Nixa. Even a trip to Fay'ville is hard on Mom's hands, which tend to cramp up from driving. Making the trip to Branson to see Dr. Sharlin was tough, but we really liked him, so we did it. Spfld. is just too far for her to drive.

He asked me why I hadn't had Botox injections for my cervical dystonia (it IS the first recommended treatment for CD). I told him, and he basically countered all the drawbacks I felt about it. I took a little pamphlet, and there's a website, but I haven't looked at them yet. I've pretty well decided to go with the Botox. It's a nerve block shot into the muscles affected ... or at least the main muscles.

This is a HUGE decision for me. I've been taking 2 meds 3x a day, and another at night. (He wanted me to take that one 2x a day, but I fell down a lot and seemed over-medicated. Two of them are anti-seizure for epilepsy, and one is an anti-cholinergic for Parkinson's. Been taking them going on 3 yrs. now, and dealing with the side-effects. So I can get 1 shot in each muscle which will last 3 mos., with no meds and no med side-effects. AND I can probably drive again! Big stuff!

Mmm...need to take a break, then look around and see what damage I did elsewhere!

:eek:

[DaBee]

You did NO damage, Jeannie dear. At least that is my opinion.....and it's just GOTTA count for something. I did write the 2 "poems" you mentioned and the 2nd one was to you about our "dance" on the other babyjesus thread. I felt it was wonderfully performed; especially since I wasn't in control. Thanks for the link to the abraham message. I love listening to it. Even taught the Everyday a New Adventure to my granddaughter.
love and light and it's good to feel good
deb

[Becky Davis]

Don't think I shared with you that the MRI on my daughters left breast..turned out fine. Still has the right one to go...but what a relief. Thank God.

[Dean]

Hello everyone, this is Dean, and I want to thank you for all your greetings, that Deb, sort of twisted your arm to give me ... LOL. I know that the greetings are sincere.

Hmmm ... have to figure out how to use smilies on here.

Bless ya all.

[Jeannie Jones]

"REMISSION", from NAFALIA:

Went and saw the "Big Dog" oncologist, who is my cancer doctor, today. So here we go. He told me that after the colonoscopy and the endoscopic scope from Dr. Weston, and current bloodwork, everything is exactly where we want it to be at this time.

He explained to me how it goes from this point on. Every 2-3 months I will see Dr. Hoos, the oncologist, and Dr. Albritton, the radiation oncologist, and they will do a cat scan, x-ray, and lab work each time. And if everything remains clean and clear as it is now, in 2 years I will be declared officially cancer-free. Til such time, I am in remission.

Dr. Hoos said the reason that they do this for 2 years is because the first 2 yrs. is when you stand the highest risk of recurrence. So that's where it stands at this point in time.

During the time I've been down with the cancer stuff, I have gained 11 lbs., which they wanted me to gain a little weight in case I got sick, and I asked him if I can start to lose that 11 lbs. now. Dr. Hoos replied, "Yes, but 2 lbs. a month is all I want you to lose. You're not overweight where you're at", but I told him that the extra weight makes it harder on my back. So he said I could get rid of it.

I will see Dr. Sharlin on Tuesday, Dec. 6, at 9 AM, and Dr. Hoos told me to talk with him about how much walking he thinks I should do at this point in time.

Personally, I'm feeling very relieved, and I plan on going out and doing some shopping for just me, and I don't even know what I'm gonna buy smile.gif . I'm just going on a "Nafalia Shopping Spree"! :D

I spoke with my daughter-in-law, Claudia, in Panama City, FL for I made the decision to take the money and do this, and she said, "ABSOLUTELY! You should do this!". She said, "After the year you've had, you deserve it".

I told Claudia this shopping spree is going to be total frivolity. And she said, "Good"!

Jeannie has been reading me the posts that I've missed the last 2 days, and Becky, congratulations on your daughter's MRI, Deb, loved the poems, and "Hello right back atcha, Dean", and Steve, as usual, it's a joy to read what you post every day.

Love you all well,

Nafalia

PS: Keep those cards and letters comin' in, folks! :D :D :D

[Jeannie Jones]

Becky, that's a happy dance for your dil's MRI results. How relieved you all must feel. Know that there's another one, but we'll picture that in perfect wholeness too, rather than worrying about it. (I know, easier said than done, particularly for those closest to her.) I have an issue of either Time or Newsweek, don't remember which, from maybe 8 yrs. ago, and on the COVER is something like "The Power of Prayer". They did a big positive article about it. As mainstream a mag. as could possibly be, and prayer! Well, Becky, I join my prayers with yours, for the best results of the next test. Please keep us informed. smile.gif

[DaBee]

Nafalia..I would love to see you go about on your shopping spree. I can imagine that it would be so much fun. In my mind's eye I can see sparkly long scarves flying about, little shoes with sequins sewn to them tapping all around, long flowy dresses and skirts and blouses twirling and dancing through the aisles....and you smiling as you see and feel all of the fun.
I am feeling so blessed to have been with you as you have gone through so many trials and tribulations, always hanging on, even when there was just a seeming thread left. But you hung on and we all wanted you to and you went through the procedures and tests and hospital stays and doctor's visits and times at home and times flat out with the vertigo and/or pain. And now you're here, standing up and walking a good stretch and getting your strength back and putting on weight and just glowing. I can see you glowing.
So I am blessed to watch it all and see your strength and perseverence and warrior light.
love and light
deb

[DaBee]

Becky...When will the MRI be on your d-i-l's other side? This is very good to hear. Why can't they do both at the same time, though? I'd think it would be less expensive that way, also less traumatic to her and the family.
Saw the pics of Torcan on the other thread. He's growing! Still a cutie. Are all of his tummy problems gone?
Take care. Hi to Leslie for me.
love and light
deb

[DaBee]

Welcome Dean....glad that you could finally make it. I think that you will enjoy getting to know us all and we, you. As you can see, we're all pretty open about stuff, but don't let that scare you....you only have to say as much as you're comfortable with. Except when you go to the Open Forum......you're on your own there ;) . It can get scarey sometimes, but you always have GS to come back to for ease and comfort. It's very comfortable here.
love and light
deb-o-Springforth

[Uncle Ogre]

I don't know if this address has been posted already but www.audible.com (http://www.audible.com) is an excellent site for books on tape...

[Becky Davis]

They will do second MRI Dec 9. They don't have machine yet that scans both sides. Should have one soon at UAMSC.

[Dean]

Thanks Deb, love to see all the healing going on here! Blessings and light and healing and love to all of you

Dean

[Jeannie Jones]

Deb! The meaning of "Dancing Across the Ethers" is so crystal clear, that I can only think that my brain was scrambled from lack of sleep when I first read it, and didn't grasp it fully. :rolleyes: Very beautiful.

I often think of you as a hummingbird as you dance along your path, dancing here, dancing there, "gathering 'nectar' where ye may".

Last night I made a post here saying that I'd be back, but somehow it didn't "take". I thought it did, but when I came back later, it wasn't there. I can only think that I "X'd" out of the site, instead of hitting "Add Reply". One of those cyber-boogideebooboos. ;)

Love to all, and welcome, Dean,

Jeannie

PS: Thanks, Uncle Ogre, for the link. I will pass it on. smile.gif

[mtnviewsteve]

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Again, Dean, welcome. Hope you come to us healthy and unscathed, but just in case you don't, we will offer help, prayers and TwIsTeD-hEaLiNg LIGHT. We also count on you for your wisdom and any in-LIGHTening advice you may offer.
Our resident poet DeBoThEMaGnIfIcIeNt keeps us on our toes and fills us with logic,insanity and most of ALL~~~ LOVE.
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[Jeannie Jones]

"WHAT A SATURDAY!" from NAFALIA:

What a Saturday! When I woke up this morning, I decided it was time to start thinking about what I would do on my shopping spree. I knew that it would not all get done in one day, but I did not want to do it all in one day.

So I decided that I wanted to buy my sister Sue a Yuletide gift, and I wanted it to be an Austin statue from Renaissance. She was to pick me up between 11:00 and 12:00, and the Renaissance opens up at 10:00, so I had to act fast, because I wanted it to be a big surprise for Sue.

Luckily, everyone who works there knows me, because I've been going there for so long, so when I call, they always help me out a lot.

I called and I talked to Wanda and told her, "I want to have a surprise waiting for my sister when we get there, so would you help me do this?" She said, "Of course". What I needed from Wanda was this: I needed her to pull several of the Austin statues off the high shelf, and have them sitting where I could see them. And then I asked her if they had any Maxfield Parrish cards. She said she didn't know, but she'd go look. I told her I'd call back in 15 minutes.

When I called back, Wanda had found a Maxfield Parrish card, which was a print of one of the Maxfield Parrish statues I was going to be looking at. So I told her, "That's wonderful! Whether I get that statue or not, that's wonderful!". That's a wonderful card.

This is what I told her I wanted written inside the card: "Between the world of sleep and wakefulness, there lies a sacred space full of beauty, which is timeless. Art is the physical manifestation, that the realities of this space is there, and will always remain sacred and timeless." And then just sign it, "As above, so below, Just Nancy".

Sue arrived a little late, which is her usual, and we left and she said, "Well, where are we going?" And I said, "We are going to Renaissance and then I have a surprise for you at Hobby Lobby." (I lied to throw her off.) As she was driving, she said, "Well, we should go to Hobby Lobby first, because the traffic is so heavy, and we won't have to double back".

At that point, I had to say, "Hey, you're throwin' off my plans. We have to go to Renaissance first". I told her I have a print at Renaissance that I have to pick up. Well, the Goddess was with us, because the traffic was so heavy, she couldn't get over in time to get to Hobby Lobby. In the meantime, back at Renaissance, I told her, I said, "Why don't we just go on in. You can go back and look at the books, and I have a couple things I want to look at up front." The statue I chose was the one that was on the card. Well, they didn't have time to get it wrapped in a box, so I told Wanda, I said, "Just wait until she comes up, and just tell her that there's something there for her".

Any time I e-mail Sue, or buy her a book or anything, I always put in it "Ho! Little Sister". Basically, "Ho" is "hello" in Native American.

So she was looking around the shop, and I called and said, "Sue, where are you?" She said, "Back here with the books." And I said, "Why don't you come up here. Wanda's got something that she wants you to see." Sue came up to the front, and Wanda set the statue on the counter, and I said, "What do you think of this? Isn't it nice?" And she said, "My God, it's beautiful!". And Wanda said, "Well, there's a card here that goes with it that you might want to read". She read the card, and still did not catch on to the fact that this statue was hers. And Wanda told her, "Well, the statue goes with the card". And Sue looked at the card, and said "Well, they are the same ones!".

Wanda said, "No, the statue belongs to YOU, as well as the card". She said, "OMG, OMG, OMG!". And I said, "Happy Yuletide, little sister". She gave me a big hug, and said, "Thanks, Nan-Nan".

Wanda said, "You wouldn't believe how we've been running around to get this together so that it would be ready when you got here". I thanked everyone for helping me pull off the surprise for Sue, and we did it quite well. She was in total shock! Her very first piece of Austin artwork.

So that was how the day began. We went to Sue's house to decorate, but then we were both very tired, and decided tomorrow would be a good day to start. So I came home, and now I'm posting this.

So mote it be,

Nafalia

[Becky Davis]

What a fun story! Wish we could see it...Doesn't it just make your day to make someone else happy?

[Jeannie Jones]

"BUB IN CRISIS", from NAFALIA:

Since I last spoke to you about my nephew, Bub Hill, in Galveston, TX, things have quickly gone down hill. His life is slowly seeping away.

I'm not going to go into great detail, I'm just simply going to ask everyone, PLEASE send Light, Energy, and Healing Love, to my very special 38-yr.-old nephew.

Bub is like a son to me, and so, for me, as a special favor, I also ask that you wrap his mother, my sister Janice Sue Hill, in the warm light of understanding and acceptance, as she has no idea what lies ahead of her when she lands in Texas to be with her son. I know, but she doesn't. She's never seen a seizure like these he's having, and for any mother seeing her son in this condition is going to be extremely difficult.

Perhaps at a later time, when all is said and done, I'll go into greater detail, but for now, I feel the need to say no more.

As we will it, so shall it be,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

Bub & Janice Sue,
We send the PURE WHITE ENERGY LIGHT, to heal and comfort you in this time of need.
May the DIVINE SPIRIT wrap you and give you peace.

[mtnviewsteve]

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Buddhist wisdom about the Root delusions

The six subtle and extensive delusions
Of [samsaric] existence are:
Attachment, anger, pride
ignorance, wrong views, and doubt

That is there are six root delusions:

Anger - highly disturbed aspect of mind that arises when we see something unpleasant - enemies, and so forth

Attachment - attachment to ego / self / others / things causes suffering (see attachment page)

Pride - is your inflated opinion of yourslef and can manifest in relation to some good or bad object: your power, wealth, good qualities, family, wisdom, pure ethics - even your pleasant voice or physical prowess

Ignorance - not knowing, not seeing, not understanding, being unclear, and so forth. Ignorance is like blindness - not seeing the nature or mode of existence of something. Ignorance is the root of all delusions.

Doubt - directed towards the four truths, the Three Jewels, cause and effect

Deluded Views - there are 5

The view that equates the self with the perishable
Extreme Views - views such as the continuity of the 'I' as being discontinued at death
The view of holding aggregates to be supreme

Holding an ethic or mode of behaviour to be supreme
Wrong views - such as Three Jewels do not exist, cause and effect do not exist

The Causes of Delusion:


Their Foundation
Their Object
Society
Discussions
Familiarity
Unrealistic Thinking

The Drawbacks of the Delusions

From An Ornament to the Sutras

Delusions destroy you,
Destroy sentient beings,
And destroy your ethics.
You hold your equals as inferiors.
Guardians and teachers criticize you,
And you don't heed opponents.
You will be born in conducive states.
Your acquisitions and non-acquisitions
Will decline, and you will have great suffering.


Kyabje Pabonka Rinpoche




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[Becky Davis]

Prayers be with your nephew Nafalia and his parents.

[PMilam]

Love n light to your whole family.

[Jeannie Jones]

"JUST A..." from NAFALIA:

Just a thank you for all those who have responded by posting and all of those who sit back quietly that are sending Love and Energy to Bub and Sue and myself.

As of this time, I've had no other word from Bub today, but do expect to hear from my sister Sue later this evening.

If anything of an emergency basis is in our phone call, I will have Jeannie post it immediately.

Love and Light to all,

Peace always, always Peace,

Nafalia

[DaBee]

Nafalia....I have attempted to post 2 or 3 times about Bub, but no words come. I have been thinking about and sending him energy for several days now. You and he and his Mom have all been in my thoughts and on a particular wave length. I don't know how else to describe it.
love and light
deb

[Jeannie Jones]

Deb, it's like tuning the radio to a different station, isn't it. A different and higher frequency.

[DaBee]

Yes, Jeannie, that's a good description. It's a place that doesn't communicate with words or really even thoughts. I describe it as thoughts because that is the closest word I can come to. Guess being in meditation would really best describe it. It's where thoughts and visions float by, but you don't attach to them....just let them go. It's the space between thoughts and words and visions.
Actually, I'm finding just recently that I'm attaching less and less to anything that is more than calm and serene. The reason seems to be because it is painful when I do attach. It crackles in my ears and sends a current through my skin. It also doesn't bother me if anyone reading this thinks I am way out there and have a few screws loose. Thinking is starting to feel archaic. Thinking gets me in trouble a lot.
Thanks, Jeannie.
love and light
deb

[MotherMoon12]

Attaching is wasting precious energy.

[mtnviewsteve]

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MotherMoon12,
Very well said and Ah-h-h so true.
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[PMilam]

Release!

Uh.. my attitude took a nose dive this week, as I pondered my existence, and let myself rage. I still feel that what I said on the open forum stands.. I just will no longer engage in the fray.

My biopsy was positive. I go Thurs am for a PET scan.. Probably, from the feel of it, there is at least one lymph node involved.
So.. right after Christmas, I'll have surgery to remove the lumps and the node.. and "radiation could be in your future". Maybe chemo. Maybe Tamoxifen.

My prayer now, is that the PET scan will not show anything besides what I already know is there.

Now.. I know you are all praying day and night.. for all the people and places that are in crisis at this time.. please add me to your list.

[DaBee]

I am praying the same prayer for you, Patt.
I understand about the rage....I experienced the same and had to walk away from it as it looked to be a monster that could consume me. Your concern for me helped me to make that choice. I am with you in spirit and, like all of us here, am sending warm, healing light to surround and hold you near.

[mtnviewsteve]

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Sister PMilam,
We as a small part of your soul group send
PURE WHITE HEALING LIGHT to totally wrap and surround you, giving you peace and comfort and HEALING like you deserve. Feel the warmth the LIGHT brings and feel confident. ALL IS WELL.
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[PMilam]

Thank you.

[Dean]

P Milam,

May of 2004, I was told I had incurable colon cancer. I housed myself with shamans and then just set my faith in motion and let all the lessons I had learned by the spirit inside, and after a rough, rough time, I am alive today, and prospering, and very little bleeding or pain in 6 months.

Believe and embrace love and life. The answers are inside, you are indestructable, always alive, always vital and important.

[Dean]

Thanks Steve, and Jeanne for your greetings and warmth. Be happy, take the kindness and love and sweetness offered, is a rare commodity if it is sincere. Once in a while, people in different places in the create and draw love to themselves in the form of another human. To find such is a gift of the Creator, a moment, no, many small moments in time that are rare and precious, and to be treated with respect and selflessness as much as possible a melding, separate yet one in ways.

Recently, from a spark of souls sharing, I found this. I would have cherished and honored, where others had hurt and disallutioned. Brought affection without deceit, and now see it was only a temporary catharsis, or a melding of convenience. I feel abused and hurt, the kind, only the soul can relate too, since that was the origin of the start of something sweet and loving. Only to awaken to a stranger the next day, when it was not convenient to remember that we shared our most precious dreams and heartaches in a special time called NOW. In the nasty lil physical time known as the next day, I became a thorn, a nusience, by the mere fact I existed, and I had shared.

I try and help others and have for years, that is my joy and yet my penance for having been a thoughtless person and bringing pain to self and others in the past.

Too bad, I never got the chance to tell that part to this person, because in it's own way is an inspiritation to the power of love and spirit can do in the life of a person wanting a chance to change. It might jsut show that all the fakes and using people cannot dim the real and living spirit of transforming oneself to a loving, giving entity and creation that the Creator still found worthy to shine his love and forgiveness upon.

Bless you all with love abundantly, the kind that is warm, uplifting and sincere.

Dean

[PMilam]

Glad you have joined us, Dean.

May you find solace and peace in the people that frequent this little corner of the world, as I have.

I'm heading to Fville this afternoon, with my daughter and sister, to beat the snow. I don't want to take a chance on missing my appt.

I'll be back tomorrow evening, hopefully with the news that the only cancer is the one we already found.

Please continue to hold me in the clear light of healing.. as I do with you.

Blessings on this cold winters day.

Patt

[Jeannie Jones]

"SHADES OF GRAY" from NAFALIA:

PMilam, I definitely can relate to what you're going through at this moment in time. Somewhere between the black and the white, there's a shade of gray, that this sort of news tends to put us in.

It's as if that shade of gray that we exist in for a time is a protective space for our mind to clear itself, to handle whatever may come. So know that in that shade of gray where you are at this time, although I just left it, I am more than happy to return, to be there with you.

We stay in that shade of gray until the bright blue sky opens up, to allow the sun to shine in once more.

Love you well,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

"BUB???", from NAFALIA:

Deb, obviously the space you've been in, and with Bub and me and my sister on your mind, you reached out and touched Bub in some way.

My sister, Sue, called me this morning at 7:30 on her way to work, and said she had just talked to Bub, he was very upbeat and positive. Now, are you ready for this one? His neighbor, who knows all about his medical condition, owns a machine shop. He has given Bub a maintenance job on all the equipment, so Bub was at work when he called Sue. He told her that he really likes the people and they really like him, there's no pressure on him, and everything's real laid-back. They keep an eye on him, and told him not to worry. They have said that they would be there if anything occurred, and have been through several of Bub's episodes with Tracy during this time.

Bub made no mention of seizures, episodes, brain lesions or tumors, and, knowing Bub as we know Bub, how this translates is that "I'm going to live my life every day, day by day. I'm not going to seek medical help, and just enjoy life".

So, Deb, we all know the power of the collective consciousness, and we know that you cannot deny that it works. So, go Bub go!!!

As we will it,
Spirit shall grant it,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

"SOOOOO GLAD", from NAFALIA:

Mother Moon, I just felt very strongly that I should tell you that I'm SO glad that you are back home and through your crisis. May your journey continue onward and upward.

Peace always,
Always peace,

Nafalia

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Before enlightenment: raking leaves and carrying water

After enlightenment: raking leaves and carrying water

[Jeannie Jones]

"THIS IS FOR ALL WHO POST, AND ALL WHO DON'T"
From NAFALIA:

My special wish for you, on these cold winter nights,

"I wish you shelter from the storm,
A cozy fire to keep you warm,
This, much more than this,
I wish you love."

Simply,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Dean:
...Be happy, take the kindness and love and sweetness offered, is a rare commodity...
It may be a rare commodity, but it is here. In the Open Forum, one takes his chances, but here in this forum we do not berate each other. We offer encouragement and kindness in trying times, and offer words of wisdom, our own or something we've read somewhere, aiming to help lift each other up, and have developed a pretty strong bond.

[DaBee]

Inner Guides
Seeking Advice From Yourself

Since we probably know ourselves better than anyone else does, then we may very well be the best person to ask for advice when we are in a quandary. One interesting exercise is to try asking for advice from your past and future selves. There is the younger self that you used to be and the older, more mature self that you will become. You can gain a different perspective when you view present situations through your younger self's eyes or your mature self's more experienced point of view. Perhaps, your younger self would view a current dilemma in a more innocent, less cynical way. Likewise, your older, hopefully wiser, self may offer advice from a more compassionate, experienced perspective.

Think back to how you viewed the world when you were younger. What were your thoughts on happiness, love, and injustice? Think about how you would have reacted to a dilemma you are currently facing. The perspective may shed a different light on relationships, money matters, or life decisions. Likewise, think about the person you will become. A more mature version of you might mull a problem or conflict over carefully before taking action right away... or perhaps not. Maybe your older self would be more willing to take risks, care less about what other people think, and want to enjoy life more.

You can even set up an advisory panel of your past, present, and future selves. You might even want to try to have a written dialogue with your selves to record the thoughts, feelings, and advice that your younger and older selves might have for your present self regarding a current situation. Your different selves can give you some invaluable answers. After all, no one can know you better than your selves. You are your wisest guide.

[PMilam]

Good news! Nothing new was shown on the scan.
Now, I will rejoice in this and wait until after the holidays, to have surgery. They want to take out everything on the scar line and take the one lymph gland that is tender. The oncologist feels that even though it did not show up on the scan, my description of the feeling... and his feeling of it.. it needs to come.. better safe than sorry deal..

Then.. after surgery, we'll discuss further what follow up treatment they all feel is right for me.. most talked about is radiation. Perhaps chemo.. but he says there are no studies that can prove that, in this sort of situation, that it makes a difference...


so.. I thank you all, seen and unseen that have been holding me close throughout this day.

And.. added to all that.. because of the weather, Loretta and Jude went with me. We stayed at a friends house, tho they were out of town.. Ben and Farar and Ben McClung came over and we laughed a lot. We had lots of stories of their childhoods to reminisce about.. which usually ended up in a big round of laughter.

I am so blessed..

Thanks Be!

[Jeannie Jones]

"ANOTHER TRANSFORMATION???", from NAFALIA:

HI DEAN,

As Jeannie was reading me your post concerning the situation that, I guess, took place some time ago, where you stated that basically one morning you woke up realizing you were nothing more than a thorn in this other person's side, and the situation had gone from positive to negative overnight, which seemed to be very perplexing to you.

As I was listening to the situation you wrote about, my intuition and my higher spiritual self seemed to be saying to me that you had created this scenario and situation in your life to help you through a transformation, which from some higher level you felt was necessary.

Through my own experiences in life, often I have found that I have created my own situations, to push me through to a transformation, which I was not strong enough to do on my own, because it was so obviously painful.

Hope this gives you some insights into how this all came about, how you "created" it, and the purpose it served. Good luck, good life, and never lose sight of the fact that life IS the enchantment.

As we will it, so shall it be,

Nafalia

PS: This is merely my interpretation of what you wrote, and as we've told you before, we are a group of souls always ready to help another!!!

[Jeannie Jones]

"HALLELUIAH AND JUMP ROPE!", from NAFALIA:

It's time for a trip to Osco and Sonic! :D

Love you well,

Nafalia

[PMilam]

Village Inn and Tuesday Morning.. with a touch of Hobby Lobby!!

Love us all well!

Patt

[MotherMoon12]

Love and light and much happiness. Great news, Patt.

[mtnviewsteve]

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This gift I relay to ALL:

Hindu Wisdom

I was free and I had shrunk. I was so tiny, almost like a minute

particle of dust. Everything was within me. The whole Universe was

inside me. Light beings disappeared and new ones appeared. We were

linked together with connecting radiating beams. We were as one. We

are all connected with each other. If we only realised how closely we

are connected, we would never be able to hurt each other.

Shanti Devi

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[Another Texan]

Steve - please don't take this as trivializing your post but such thoughts always remind me of "Horton Hears A Who". What's to say we all aren't just existing on a speck of dust.

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Another Texan:
Steve...What's to say we all aren't just existing on a speck of dust. Didn't Shakespeare write something like ~~ all the Universe lives on the head of a pin ~~ something like that?

[Jeannie Jones]

Y'know, sometimes later, after I've posted for Nafalia, I get confused and think that I myself have posted. :rolleyes:

PATT, what wonderful news you had today!!!I'm so happy for you, my St. Petersburg sister. ;) You certainly deserve your celebration of choice. Glad you were able to have your laughing loved ones with you. smile.gif

[mtnviewsteve]

Originally posted by Another Texan:
Steve - please don't take this as trivializing your post but such thoughts always remind me of "Horton Hears A Who". What's to say we all aren't just existing on a speck of dust. :cool:
AT,
Guess it doesn't really matter where we are existing, We can improve our journey to "wherever" by treating others as we'd like to be treated, or better~~when allowed.
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[Jeannie Jones]

"LOCATION, LOCATION, LOCATION", from NAFALIA:

PATT, I live about 2 blocks from Tuesday Morning, about 1/2 mile from Village Inn on S. Glenstone, and you go about another mile-and-a-half, and there's Hobby Lobby on Battlefield.

All 3 of these are places I frequent. smile.gif

As above, so below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

"WHO'S TO SAY?", from NAFALIA:

Who's to say we're nothing more than a speck of dust existing on a pinhead? ~~~ Ya think? :rolleyes:

I've been an avid reader all my life, but I truly don't think I ever was a child, as I never read any children's books. So could you explain to me just who this Horton and a Who is? Because I'm in the dark on that one. :confused:

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Me too, I don't know nothin' 'bout no Horton and his Who. Somebody 'splain this, please? :confused:

[PMilam]

Uh... I was in the Fayetteville VI and HL..

I'm pretty sure that Horton and his Who are Dr Seuss characters.

[Another Texan]

Horton Hears a Who! (1954) is a rhyming story by Dr. Seuss.

It tells the story of Horton the Elephant who one day hears a small speck of dust talking to him. It turns out the speck of dust is actually a tiny planet, home to a city called "Who-ville".

The Whos ask Horton to protect them from harm, to which Horton happily obliges, proclaiming throughout the book that "a person's a person, no matter how small". In doing so he is ridiculed and nearly murdered by the other animals in the jungle for believing in something that cannot be seen. Horton tells the Whos that they needed to make themselves heard to the other animals, lest they end up as part of "beezlenut stew", which they finally accomplish.

the above definition is from Wikipedia
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Horton_Hears_a_Who!

[Jeannie Jones]

While looking for something else, I came across this that I had written from meditation in August of '95. Thought I'd like to share it with you:

As I lie back in the water, limbs open in trust, falling backward into the open arms of God, held, supported, nurtured, uplifted, I feel the sense of oneness with the planet.

Molecules - energy - matter - we are one. Where my body meets the ocean we are one. Where the seas meet the sand, we are one. Where the sand meets fertile ground we are one. Where soil meets root, trunk, fallen leaves, we are one. Wind, sunlight, atmosphere, we are energy manifest in this universe, expressed & perceived physically.

My form alters as I float, thinning, reaching outward farther, ever farther until I am the thinnest membrane covering the seas, the earth, until I span the globe. I inhale the golden light of God, and I exhale the golden light of God across the membrane - around the planet - a new-day Midas.

[DaBee]

I floated towards the golden light until we became one.

[Jeannie Jones]

To quote the Hokey Pokey:

That's what it's all about ;)

[Dean]

Great news PMilam! Told ya the loving energy can heal us body, heart, soul and mind. I am a living testament to that!

love and healing energy to you. Choose life always!

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by Dean:
...Told ya the loving energy can heal us body, heart, soul and mind... Yes, Dean, we pretty much all believe that. Is this a new realization for you? Sometimes our guidance leads us to go the medical way, and sometimes not. It's amazing what comes to us at just the right times, health-wise and otherwise. Synchronicity.

Thanks, AT, for the Wikipedia article about Horton and the Who's. That's quite a set-up they have. It's a rare place online that would allow one to edit their site.

[Another Texan]

Jeannie, I never noticed edits were allowed till you mentioned it.

Hoping all continue to receive good news. Ya'll take care, now back to lurk mode for me.

[DaBee]

Patt...I am breathing a bright white breath of relief with you.
May all your Christmases be white.

AnotherTexan.....it was so enjoyable having you here and talking with us. Don't go too far in your lurking mode ;) !

Happy days to all, and to all a ho ho ho, there it is you go, pick up your paw paws and balance on one toe. Chestnuts roasting and I will be toasting, a cold cold night and candlelight, because I forgot to pay the electric bill.

Think my poetry just fizzled out :D .
love and light and thermal socks
deb-o-iliveinanigloo :eek:

[PMilam]

I love Wikipedia.. not just the dry information as from a regular dictionary site.

[Jeannie Jones]

"EXPLANATION", from NAFALIA:

Hi, Dean,

Good to see you posting here again. Want to give you a little explanation of why Nafalia is posted under "Jeannie Jones". A lot of people used to think she was channeling Nafalia (we got a real kick out of that one!). There really is a Nafalia, and that's me. Jeannie posts for me because it's easier for me, due to my own health issues. We do it by phone, and she types for me.

I just finished chemo and radiation for colon cancer, and was told on 11-22 that I no longer have colon cancer.

I did 4 months of alternative healing with a doctor who was in my area. He was also an energy healer, and we had worked together for 3 years. After 4 months of alternative treatment, the cancer had grown only a small bit.

I did enzyme therapy to help build me up for the chemo and radiation (if it was needed, and it was). So through alternative and traditional medicine (which I believe will one day be working hand in hand), I no longer have any bleeding or pain of any kind.

The last colonoscopy and endoscopic scope, done on 11-22-05, showed there was only a tiny scar where 8 months prior there had been a cancer.

So I believe there are times when we must resort to all of the medical help offered on all levels.

During this entire time, the last 8 1/2 months, my wonderful, loving, Light family here in this little forum that we have, continually sent me love, light, and energy, walked the talk with me every step of the way.

So you see, we all know and understand the power of the collective consciousness that connects us all to Spirit, thus the healing was completed.

So mote it be,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
"Nafalia" Our resident LiGhT WaRrIoR,
P. Milam, another Warrior and "C" survivor, J. Jones, our Guiding Force and DaBee, our eccentric social director. Many others known and unknown ALL helping to keep us on OUR PATH. We are thus ALL listening to the sound of one hand, clapping.
In love we Merry Meet.
:cool:

[Jeannie Jones]

Oh, eccentric social director, puh-leeze get thee to the electric co. Monday! I know that wearin' heavy clothes AND your coat on inside does not feel like fun. Can you manifest warm southern breezes inside your house? ;)

[DaBee]

As I was reveling in my new title of Eccentric Social Director , realized what the problem was. So I opened my eyes and I saw the light!!!
:eek:

[Jeannie Jones]

"IT WAS ME", from NAFALIA:

Deb-0-EccentricSocialDirector,

When you opened your eyes and saw the light , didn't you know it was me, the resident Light Warrior??? Just doing my job. ;)

What would we do without Steve? Not only does he give us wonderful titles, but much work to do to keep us on the ball as well as on the path.

So that must make Steve the Wizard of Titles, who holds all our chores in his hands, as well as being the bringer of his special Twisted Light.

Much love and laughter, :D :D :D

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
Another Music Meditation on:
"Meeting Your spirit Guides"
http://www.crystalinks.com/medmusicsg.html
:cool:

[DaBee]

Gosh, I thought that was a familiar glow, Nafalia! I should have known it was you. I sure will from now on. The Light Warrior sure carries a lot of multi-colored wisdom. I'm in awe. Next time I forget to pay my electric bill I'll call for you ;) .
sTeVeOrInO....I really do love being the ESD, thank you for that title. Thought that was a handful until I saw that you were the Wizard of Titles, who holds all our chores in your hands, as well as being the bringer of your special Twisted Light. That's quite a job description!
I guess if other people want to know what their title is, all they have to do is ask you. True?
love and light
DOESD aka deb

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:

Hey gang, I was just throwing out thoughts but by no means "assigning" positions. I just looked at each "omni-present character" and the tasks were revealed. If you accept these positions all evidence of this transaction will
self-destruct.
:cool:

[Jeannie Jones]

:D :D :D

[Jeannie Jones]

Well, also Patt represents that wonderful river energy, and Mother Moon 12 and Becky Davis say so much with so few words, (to me, a great talent) also busy dealing with children's health issues, and we join our prayers and finest energy there. And may Becky's computer be healed very soon. ;)

Love and roses,

Jeannie

[PMilam]

I miss you Becky!

Wanted to let you know that my surgery will be Dec. 30. I will probably be snuggled in my own blankies by afternoon.
Craig will be off for 3 days, and 2 friends, Linda and Mary.. that I miss terribly, and seldom get to see, are both coming... to clean, cook, and put "1000 thread" sheets on my bed! I don't think there is any such thing.. but, i love the image!

We did 1/2 Christmas last night. Over 1/2 of our NWAR family is going to see other family for Christmas. It will be one of few Christmases that we have not all been together.. 19 of us NWAR Farar/Milam decedents, usually a sig other or two and/or some other person(s) alone for the holidays.

It was a little confusing, figuring out who to gift this night.. and who to save for the 25th..
but, we're fairly smart, so we figured it all out!
We had lots of fun, til the 2 near-2 yr. olds got tired, and only wanted to play with what ever the other picked up.
We had pizza, chips n dip, Ruby Red grapefruit, strawberries, Lorettas cookies and a pretty darn good punkin pie from Sun Fest!
Twas a wonderful 1/2 Christmas feast!

So, it's kinda like the day after 1/2 Christmas.. I'm tired, but not stretched out on the floor!! (as seen in several aging photos)

We are expecting a touch of snow.. I'm praying for 2 feet!

I also pray that you are well, peaceful, comfortable, near humans and animals that you love dearly, and are feeling very satisfied in that skin that you are living in.

I love you.. and mean it! ("stolen" from Jude)

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and mostly,
May you recognize your blessings,

Patt

Be the cause of your experience.

[DaBee]

Becky, just want you to know that you are loved and missed here. I know that your son has a tough time pretty often and that it's hard on you too. I am visualizing much white healing light surrounding you and Jeremy and the whole family.

Patt, your family being able to come together and acknowledge each other is a blessing. I know that it is a labor of love to work everything out this time of year as well as on a day to day basis. Strong families don't just fall out of the sky.....they are nurtured and loved into place.
Yummmm....nothing better (to me) than a ruby red juicy grapefruit. Was able to have one this morning because of the kindness of a stranger. It was a nice gift.
I've been trying to keep up with the Open Forum, but it can be quite depleting. The "Goddess" thread reminds me a lot of this thread. That may be why I seem to be posting more over there than here. I can't forget my social director job though. I'm watching to see when I need to jump in and do it right!
Much merry mint and pepper mint and chocolate mint to every one.
love and light and juicy fruit
deb-o-quitsmackin'thatgum!

[DaBee]

A Love story
Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived, Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge and all the others, including Love. One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So, all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the very last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under water, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, "I am sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere" The Love decided to ask Vanity, who was passing in a beautiful vessel, for help. Love cried out "Vanity, help me please!", "I can't help you, " Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat." Next Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now." Then, Love saw Happiness and cried out, "Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling him. Love began to cry, then, she heard a voice say, "Come love I will take you with me". It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder and when she met Knowledge she asked who it was that had helped her. "It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."


Author Unknown

[PMilam]

One of my favorite, and most frequently spoken words..

Time will tell.

[Becky Davis]

Hi Yall...I am so glad to be back. A lot of catching up to do. It sounds like everyone is doing great...even with the news of surgery Patt.
I think of you all often and throw good thoughts your way. You have been in my warm fuzzy feelings.

[DaBee]

Seems that no matter how hard I try (this one might be a clue) or how much I spend or don't spend (another clue) or what kind of happy face I put on (you can tell when I put that one on), this time of year is just a bummer for me. I'm thinking about going to a winter solstice celebration tomorrow night and maybe that will help balance all of this fluffy stuff that I've been wading through. On all of the threads, everyone is joking (including me), and making ha ha and, you know, being jolly. It's always seemed so fake to me.....even when I was a kid. Can someone out there guide me in the right direction?
love and light and ho ho ho
deb-o-christmastreeochristmastree

[mtnviewsteve]

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Sister LiGhT, most certainly go to the Winter soltice celebration and take me in your pocket. I have heard much but never been lucky enough to ever go to ONE. The Magik waiting for you there will put a bandaid on the "blues" and allow you to feel the reason for the season!!! GO-GO-go. do not tary make plans to attend right now but be sure to remember I'll be in your pocket or on your shoulder so I can see better.

You really MUST attend.
BrOtHeRiNlIgHtStEvE
:cool:

[PMilam]

I've never been to one, but, am feeling much the way you describe, DaBee.. just too much going on.. too many decisions to make, too many timetables to coordinate..

Some years ago, when the kids were all at home, I made a shrine. It was a wooden orange crate, with the words "there's not enough nothing in it", and a tiny mirror. It's been a while since I felt that way. In the past several years, I have cleared space in my life for being, and not doing. The background voice of just a little cancer is the seldom stopping voice. Though I feel confident that it is not elsewhere.. nag, nag, nag.

Dennis Leary's song, Merry ******* Christmas rings too true.

I think part of it is that it is natural to us, human animals, like all other creatures to curl up a bit more, rest and renew our own bodies and spirits for the spring and summer.


Tomorrow, after the kids are gone home, I'm going to bundle up against the cold, and go lay out where I can see the most sky.. even if it is cloudy.

A trampoline works really well. Sure wish I had one out here.


I'll bet the celebration will come to me.

[Jeannie Jones]

As Patt said, rest, oh weary Lightworkers. It's been a long journey to get to here, and it's time to take a little rest for healing ourselves. Don't push, but listen to your mind, heart and body. If one of them is telling you to take a break, just for you, go with it. I'd like to share with you a piece I wrote in Hawaii, which follows. (It looks a lot better centered, instead of aligned left, but I don't see a way to do that.)


5-7-98
Norma Jean's
Waimeia

ON HEART HEALING, OPENING, AND EXPANSION

Cocoon, my weary bruis-ed heart,
fold yourself inside.
Hold yourself gently, tenderly, with love and forgiveness,
treating scars with the pink blanket of Mary's nurturing Love.
Wear it always, aware of it always, calming, soothing,
loving your perfection and what you see as your imperfections equally,
no judgement.
As your vibration rises, your imperfections drop away.

Open, my healing, shining heart
and take my family inside.
Enfold us in the Mother's blanket of love.
Hold us all within that we may harmonize our vibration
for a loving flow among us, forgiving and adjusting as needed.

Expand, my happy, loving heart,
to embrace my community wide.
Be a pillar of God's Light
shining above, below, and all through our town.
With our kind words, hugs and support, we can magnify the Light.

Radiate, brilliant, expansive heart
to span the continent.
From sea to shining sea,
the vibration lifts and lifts and covers all life with a thin, blue membrane,
Mary's endless mantle
of cooling, soothing Love's serenity.

Rejoice, radiant, divine heart,
and grid the planet with Love's intent.
Feel your love encircle your world
with a purple coat infused with the golden Light of God,
as this globe hums and throbs and sings the music of the spheres,
the Divine sound of Joy.


(Now here is the abbreviated form):

Cocoon, my weary bruis-ed heart,
fold yourself inside.

Open, my healing, shining heart,
and take my family inside.

Expand, my happy loving heart,
to embrace my community wide.

Radiate, brilliant expansive heart,
to span the continent.

Rejoice, radiant divine heart,
and grid the planet with Love's intent.


PS: Deb, by all means attend the Solstice celebration if you "hear" to do that. It sounds like it would be a wonderfully renewing experience IMO.

[DaBee]

Thank you, Jeannie, for the flavors of peace written on a beautiful island in 1998. I read it as you wrote it as you took me there.
My plan is to attend the Solstice celebration.
It seems like I've posted this before, and if so, just remember that I'm a little dingy (and I don't mean a small boat)sometimes and forget. It kinda pulls together what Jeannie wrote and what it is saying to allow a gentleness to our being.
love and light to all of you this day and all moments to come
deb

Lessons Of Discovery
Instruction Manuals For Living

Depending on what stage we are in our lives, we can sometimes feel like we ought to know more about who we are or how to live. We may even berate ourselves for making the same mistakes, or for just not "getting it," whatever "it" may be. We wonder how our lives would be now, if only we had "known better." During moments like these, it is important to remember that none of us are born with instruction manuals and that learning lessons is a lifelong journey.

Inherent to our being born is that we are here to observe, learn, and grow. Accompanying this is a built-in guarantee that there will be mistakes and misadventures along the way. And while it is only natural that we may sometimes become overwhelmed, especially when the lessons keep coming, it is important to remember that learning to understand yourself and your world is an ongoing and active process where the journey is more important than the destination. Every lesson is intended so you can become more of who you are. And as you grow through this self-discovery, you begin to create your own instruction manual. The "how's" and "why's" are yours to discover, and part of the beauty of being alive is that these rules are always changing.

If you feel that you would like to explore what your personal instruction manual may already say, then try writing down in order some of the significant events that have happened to you. It's also important to take note of what you learned from each one. When you are done, you may be surprised to discover how much you are always growing, and that every lesson learned always informs the next. That being said, there is never any need to be hard on yourself or think that you should have it all figured out. We always know as much as we're meant to know at that moment, and growing into our fullness is a process that unfolds in divine timing. You and your life are beautiful works in progress. Discover yourself and embrace your life's lessons, and your instruction manual will create itself.

[DaBee]

Update....the Winter Solstice gathering has been cancelled. Glad I called before going. Guess I'll come up with my own ceremony and maybe that's just how it is suppose to be. OK, not maybe, because everything is unfolding just as it is suppose to be unfolding.

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
:cool:

Hey gang, I was just throwing out thoughts but by no means "assigning" positions. I just looked at each "omni-present character" and the tasks were revealed. If you accept these positions all evidence of this transaction will
self-destruct.
:cool: "OH GREAT WIZARD" from NAFALIA:

Of course we need you to give us job titles and chores to do, otherwise we might just wander off into Fairyland and just never be found. So speaking for myself, I accept my position and assignment.

But does this mean that I'm going to self-destruct, or did I get that one right??? :confused:

As we will it, so shall it be,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
Nafalia~~self-destruct~~never-when all else is dust~~THE WARRIOR prevails. I just want to still be in your army when the time comes.
As Above, So Below.
:cool:

[Jeannie Jones]

"HIGH EVERYONE!" from NAFALIA:

Jeannie has just been catching me up on everyone's posts for the last few days. Whew! So much going on! Everyone seems so busy, and running hither and thither.

Well, I've been hiding away in the "netherworld". Just wanted to say, "high, everyone" smile.gif . After all, it IS Christmas. ;)

So mote it be,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by mtnviewsteve:
:cool:
Nafalia...I just want to still be in your army when the time comes...
:cool: Of course you'll still be in my army. What kind of warrior would not have a wizard by her side? Someone has to be blowing the trumpet, waving the banner, and directing traffic. Wouldn't even think of trying to do it without ya, oh great Pendragon.

So keep your boots by the door, along with your chain mail and your lance, your horse tethered outside, and keep an extra box of Pringles just in case we get hungry.

See you on the battlefield (mall?),

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
Check out the "The Annihilation of the Goddess. " in the Open Forum.
:cool:
Meanwhile I'm juggling crystal balls and snake tamin' til the moon darkens on this~~~~~
Winter Soltice night~~the dancings already started, just ouside the Circle~~~
:cool:

[DaBee]

I've been thinking about you today, Patt. I have no idea when you are going to have the surgery, but just remember that it is after Christmas. Just want you to know that you are in my thoughts and focus of healing light.
When you mentioned before about just laying out on a trampoline and focusing on the big sky, I thought that was such an excellent idea. I remembered then that my G'babes had their trampoline put away for the winter, so just went out and sat in a chair in the middle of the yard and gazed up. I could see the whole universe from that vantage point. Thank you for the idea.
Very Merry Everything to you and yours.
love and light
deb

[Becky Davis]

I, too, like Deb have thought of you several times today Patt. You sound a little melancholy. Hope you feel better soon.

[DaBee]

Hope you and Maletha had a great Christmas in Eureka, sTeVe. Seems as though I missed you by not much at RTS. Was going to try to peek in on the crow tattooing, but couldn't remember where the studio had been moved to. Maybe next time.
love and light
deb

[Jeannie Jones]

Patt's surgery is set for Dec. 30. Patt, you know we'll all be there with you. Nice that you got to have 2 Christmases. Mmmmm ... 1000 thread count sheets! ;)

Hope all y'all's Christmases were great.

[PMilam]

Keep those cards and letters coming.. I'm holding on.
Thanks to all.

[DaBee]

Feels like I've been out of touch here lately. I've seen you, Jeannie, and Nafalia spreading good cheer and joy around like only y'all can with your sweet, loving ways. Guess we've all made it through so far with the holiday doin's.
I spent today in the ER with my d-i-l as she had a ruptured ovarian cyst and was in a lot of pain. Took a while to dx that and the ER was pretty busy being that none of the clinics around were open today. She's doing much better now, actually, because the cyst ruptured. Needs to take it easy, so it's a good thing that she's off work for the rest of the week (she's a teacher). After the hospital visit, all of the family company from the east coast came in and we had a big dinner and gift exchange and now I'm ready to crash.
Seems it always gets hammered home to me that no matter the plans I make, it's always a good idea to be prepared for changes. For sure I'm learning about living in the present moment. Seems like that would need only be a one time lesson, but the whole concept becomes larger, and you'd think more complicated, but actually much simpler. I think the key to "simpler" is to learn not to fight it. I've heard that the way to find enlightenment (according to Lao-Tzu) is to, "Be like water; formless yet resolute...soft, yet relentless...clear and still...seeking the lowest to achieve the highest. In doing so, you will find the Tao." I always try to visualize just laying on top of the water in a stream, moving along the twists and turns, not fighting it....just going with the flow.
I didn't mean to turn philosophical on y'all, just sometimes when I write, I'm suddenly in the middle of it and there's no turning back.
love and light and there'll be no skinny dipping tonight :eek:
deb-o-brrrrrrrrandgoosebumpstojustthinkaboutit

[PMilam]

It just doesn't stop does it?

As beautiful as this day is.. I wish I could sleep through til the surgery is over.. I'm sick of having it in the back of my mind.

xoxo

[Becky Davis]

I feel like sleeping all day too Patt....only so I can stay up and watch X Files tonight.
My house is a wreck and all I wan to do is step over everything and go to bed.

[Jeannie Jones]

"BULK MAIL" from NAFALIA:

PMilam, just be expecting bulk mail from this moment on, with all the cards and letters that are going to be coming in! :D

I definitely can relate to it rolling around in the back of your mind, as I just experienced that myself for the last 8-9 months.

We will crowd out that rolling around in the back of your mind with all those cards and letters, and all the Light and Love we can send. ;)

As we will it,
So shall it be.
Love you well,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

"DEB-O-FLOATINGDOWNTHERIVER", from NAFALIA:

Deb,

Sounds like you had a very rough day. So glad your d-i-l is better. Of course, we're sending Light and Love, so we know she'll heal quickly. (Don't YOU forget to rest, also.)

And by the way, Deb, the next time you are (in your mind) floating down the river, just open your eyes and look at the moon and give a big wolf-howl. It just does wonders for the soul. :D

So mote it be,

Nafalia

(She be "motin'" again!) ;)

[Becky Davis]

Patt, the anxiety before surgery sucks. We'll hear from you in a couple of weeks and all will be fine. You'll have lots to tell us. If you can draw some strength from Nafalia. A wonderful success story!

[BillVoiers]

We're thinking about you, Patt. With VA's prayers behind you, you can't lose.
Bill V

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
Patt,
PURE WHITE LIGHT ENERGY to wrap and protect you are your's as WE collectively surround you in HEALING LOVE & LIGHT.
:cool:

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
While being able to spend Christmas in Eureka should be "blessing" enough, I was indeed blessed to have selected Tattoo Carrie at "Tattoos Eureka Style" to honor me with my crow tattoo. The tattoo turned out excellent and the "meger" cost was nothing compared to her artistry and the pleasant,professional, entertaining way she made Maletha & I feel like family.
The whole wonderful experience passed "too quickly" and when we left it was like telling family goodbye and wishing Merry Christmas to old friends. She certainly gets my highest recommendation. Thank you Carrie for a fantastic tattoo and a wonderful visit.

Arriving in Eureka two days before Christmas, one of our 1st stops after checking in was to visit "Romancing The Stone", to check out any bargains they may still have. Megan, aka "Daturasgarden" met us at the door and as we introduced ourselves, she assured us anything we found would also receive a "nice discount" as we were regular "GeekFest posters" and she wasn't kidding. She helped Maletha find a beautiful amethyst cluster on our first visit and really made us a "good deal" as we visited and chatted and quickly became friends. She made us feel quite at home and welcome to the store and the community.
Saturday we visited her again at RTS, and Maletha found the most beautiful carved Bali sculpture with a slight flaw, priced way out of our range, but Megan again, made the deal of a lifetime and really honoured us by being her real, friendly, helpful loving self. We made another beautiful young friend we will look forward to talking to and visiting in the NEW YEAR ahead.
Merry Meet Megan.
:cool:

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
"Home again, Home again. Thank you SPIRIT I'm home again."

Your daily Oneness Wisdom
BAHA'I PRAYER FOR PEACE

Be generous in prosperity and thankful in adversity. Be fair in thy

judgment, and guarded in thy speech. Be a lamp unto those who walk

in darkness, and a home to the stranger. Be eyes to the blind, and a

guiding light unto the feet of the erring. Be a breath of life to the body of

humankind, a dew to the soil of the human heart, and a fruit upon the

tree of humility.

Chakras

Balancing and Charging the Chakras

The energy of your body will not be balanced and free flowing if you do not have good emotional balance, good physical health, and good relationships with your surroundings and yourself.


Almost no one is ever perfectly balanced. If you could do this, you would be able to rise from the dead, have a body transformed into a cosmic molecular structure and commune with the gods as an equal.
:cool:

[Becky Davis]

how do I balance my chakras Steve?

[mtnviewsteve]

Originally posted by Becky Davis:
how do I balance my chakras Steve? :cool:
Becky D.,
Hope this helps:
http://www.experiencefestival.com/a/ChakraBalancing/id/35308

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[PMilam]

Just the other day an old friend dropped by, someone I see about 2x a year.
Talk turned to choices, how and why we make them as we do.. ones we wish we could redo.. ones that make us wonder what life would be like if only... if only.. (Makes me want to watch Babe In the City.)


Anyway.. back when it was first obvious that I would have another surgery.. my first and only decision was .. after Christmas.

That's one I wish I could redo. It would be over, I would be well on my way to normalcy (?!?!?)..
So.. now I've caught some bug that has had me laid out for several days. I did not get up at all yesterday. So, surgery is postponed. More time to dread it. I know.. I know.. all the things.. breathe... practice.. calm.. all is as it should be...

I know.. I know.. it's just hard to feel it sometimes.

Good/Bad thing is now I'm feeling better.. still can't keep food down.. but.. I've been up.. well, sitting at the computer for a bit.

Now.. I'm going back to the couch.

You can put my candles on the back burner.. I'll let you know when we schedule next time.


Sure am glad to have you here.

[DaBee]

I'm rite'cheer, Patt. Maybe if you floated down the stream and gave a loud howl/scream out loud to the moon like Nafalia suggested for me to do....never know, it just might help!
deb

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
Get Well Soon, Pure White Light Energy going out to you,
~~~Wishing ALL a Very Healthy New Year.
:cool:

[Becky Davis]

So sorry you got sick....it takes eons it seems to feel better once it gets you.
Do you really have to have this surgery?

[Jeannie Jones]

Oh, Patt, looking at it from the "up" side, I guess this wasn't the right time for the surgery. I'd say, though, that I'll keep my candles on the FRONT burner, girl, to get you through this, then the surgery.

Before this hit you, and you had all that time to fill, I'd have suggested filling it with mindless computer games, but I see that you weren't up to it. Glad you're starting to feel better, and even gladder that you got to see your good old 2x a year friend. smile.gif

Love surrounds you,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

Steve, sounds like you and Maletha had a GREAT time in Eureka, and found some bargains to boot.

Oh, let me ask you this before I forget it. You have the "Animal Speaks" book ... coming home from town tonight, a fox crossed our path. Would you look up the significance of that, please? It just hardly ever happens here.

That chakra site was fun - the test, I mean. Also, the Message from the Master, Lord Sananda, Jesus the Christed One, was especially inspiring:

"MASTER MESSAGE - DECEMBER 2005

GREETINGS!

Turbulence continues…but set your thoughts and ideas high, even higher, dare to challenge yourself for this is the time of moving forward. Trust that we your fellow travellers, are bringing in the World Vision, but this will only happen with your help.

"It against Cosmic law for us, Light Beings, to do it for you; you must hold the vision of how it can be for humanity and all life on Earth within your mind, within your heart, and your soul and we can then work with you to help you, guide you into the Future that awaits you.

Hold within your heart also the vision of how it can be for you personally, especially this lunar month, for the veil is thin between possibility and reality at this time. There are many Christmas joys coming.

The Christmas angels are very close at this time, they descend down around humanity like a delightful cloud of light; breathe the Light in, draw them close, speak to them.

Enjoy the delights!

LORD SANANDA"

(I had some odd editing problems there, trying to put the " marks before each paragraph, so I quit that.)

Anyway, thanks.

[Jeannie Jones]

Here's a link, Becky, from one of my all-time favorite sites. The article is about chakra balancing. I would also suggest that seeing a chiropractor can help support the "balancing act", by helping spinal fluids to flow properly.

http://www.crystalinks.com/chakras.html

[Jeannie Jones]

Deb, how is d-i-l doing? I'm sure she's receiving some tender lovin' care from you. She's so special, and I know you love her so much. Wonderful that you 2 "found each other", in a sense, in this life experience.

Loved the Lao Tzu quote on finding the Tao. (Or was it Lao Tze?) Steve's tag line goes so well with it. I think we can probably all identify with the magic that is water.

Love the wolf-howl idea. Owuuuuuuu, ooo ooo ooo ooooooo.

Love you ooo ooo ooo ooooooo

[Becky Davis]

I need it this morning...went to bed not feeling well. Tossed and turned..felt cold all night.
This morning..promptly threw up my morning meds..feel okay otherwise than this nausea. Guess I picked up a bug someplace. Hope it passes quickly.

[MotherMoon12]

Jeannie, fox can mean camouflage and keeping a low profile to protect the family.


Rarely do members of the same family grow up under the same roof.
The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other's life.
Richard Bach

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
~~~~And a Healthy New Year To YOU.
"The fox is a totem that has touched almost every society on the planet. It is a totem that speaks the need to develop or the awakening of camouflage, invisibility, and shapeshifting."
Card 21 in the tarot deck is THE WORLD. It is a card that reflects a new world opening up, that the process of creation is beginning. It reflects that the world is growing and shapeshifting itself into new patterns that will be beneficial.
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[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
Wishing ALL my old friends, new frends, acquaintances, critics and supporters a very:
"HEALTHY NEW YEAR"
We are all Warriors and have fought a good fight the last year. In the coming year may we see fewer battles and more triumphs, but may we always be strong and stand tall.
So Mote It Be.
:cool:

[b lake lady]

Breaking my silence here. I read, but don't post. Don't know why. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. May this New Year bring health, happiness, peace and love to each of you and yours.

[Jeannie Jones]

Thanks, Steve and MM12, re: the "fox" info. It's amazing. For many years now I've been trying to blend in with Rogers, at Mom's request. In Eureka, I could express myself by wearing anything I wanted to, no matter how outrageous, but I've not thought much about my appearance here, since blending in is not really much fun.

WELL, 2 wks. ago, when I got my Botox in neck & shoulders in Fay'ville, I bought myself some red stiletto-heeled pant boots and matching bag. A couple of days ago my new glasses came, and they're not blend-in frames. Change is DEFINITELY in the wind. Kind of a "cammo's done now" change, and I'm re-creating myself. My room, too. Large energy shift for me, personally. It's like I've thrown off what I was carrying, by choosing the Botox, and now I'm free to re-create myself once again.

The day of the glasses was the day of the fox. We were almost home, when I spied the fox in a cleared but not built on strip along Rt. 12, headin' for the trees at dusk. S/He had crossed the road, but not in our headlights. Mom didn't even see it, so it was definitely for me.

So that is my story of the fox.

Must get on to a project.

Love, y'all,

Jeannie

[Jeannie Jones]

Back later with a New Year's message.

[Jeannie Jones]

Ooh! But before that, Patt, Becky, get well! Now! Get well and come back! You too, Deb. Where you at? How's d-i-l? How are you? Miss your whit (whoops!) and whimsy and loving words.

[Jeannie Jones]

"HERE WE GO AGAIN", from NAFALIA:

Time to watch the clock wind down, for another year comes to an end.

Step outside and look around,
For another year comes to an end.

Take in a deep breath of the new year, and exhale and let go of all that is already gone. Let the new year begin with nothing, for it is "nothing" which we create from.

Hold on to nothing, as all begins again. Step outside and look around at the new year.

From the "nothing" that is our gift, let us all work together to bring about peace and healing to our planet and our people.

And so it is.

Happy New Year, one and all,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
This article introduces you to the other half of Infinite Being
Publishing - Dreama Vance and her expertise on holistic health.


A Happy New Year and A Tiny Bit of Wisdom
by Dreama Vance

Everyone wants to feel good. In our world of duality, there is
nothing like feeling bad to make you appreciate feeling good!

Good physical health allows and enhances good emotional health
and supports spiritual practices. Have you ever noticed how
difficult it is to move into that quiet meditational space when
you have a pounding headache?

We are composed of four bodies - spiritual, mental, emotional
and physical. Spiritual teachings say that what you do to one
of these bodies affects the other bodies. For instance,
frequent meditation brings harmony to your other bodies - to
your emotional, mental and physical bodies as well as your
spiritual body.

When you change your spiritual body it changes your physical,
emotional and mental bodies. When you change your physical body
it changes your emotional, mental, and spiritual bodies. In
fact, you cannot change one without changing the others, too.

While we tend to think of this in terms of healing, wholeness
and well being, the flip side is also true. When we
unconsciously alter our physical body in a detrimental way
(e.g. poor food choices, not enough exercise, too much or too
little sunshine, the list goes on...) we negatively impact
the emotional, mental and spiritual bodies also.

We may not see this side as quickly or as easily; however, now
that you know this, you can be aware and observe. Have you ever
known someone with chronic pain or chronic physical illness and
seen the drain of energy this has on their emotional body? Or,
have you noticed how difficult it is to think clearly when you
are suddenly frightened or afraid?

Change one body and you change the others.

Knowing this tiny bit of wisdom helps us realize the
importance of making wise choices for all four of our bodies:

Choose a healthy diet and exercise plan for the physical body.
Choose peace for the emotional body.
Choose clarity and positive thoughts for the mental body.
Choose meditation and acts of loving kindness for the
spiritual body.

To close with a quote from my favorite Christmas card,

"...Peace and truth be in my days" (2 Kings 20:19)...
and in yours.


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[Jeannie Jones]

... from NAFALIA:

I think we can sum up everything that needs to be fixed in our lives and the whole of the planet if we will just ALL!

COMMIT RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS, and FOLLOW OUR BLISS.

Love,

Nafalia

[DaBee]

make love, not war

[DaBee]

don't worry, be happy :D

[Jeannie Jones]

We are one.

What is done to one of us affects all of us.

[Jeannie Jones]

B lake lady,

Glad you posted. Hope all is well with you and your family, and that 2006 will bring you (and the rest of us) wonderful growth, health, prosperity, clarity, and even more love.

[Jeannie Jones]

Patt, keepin' those cards and letters goin' out to you, dear heart. Is someone with you now? I hope you're not alone right now.

Love to you,

Jeannie

[DaBee]

What a day for a day dream....custom made for a day dreamin' girl ;) .
Give me a ticket for an aeroplane, ain't got time to take a fast train; lonely days are gone, I'm a goin' home, my baby just wrote me a letter. (not really, but I always liked that song)
I'm trying to land here, folks, but my tennies have sprouted wings and I've got my head in the elements and feet in the clouds. What's an old hippie chick earth mother to do? On second thought....I'm enjoying this while it lasts 'cause I'm groovin' on a Monday afternoon (soon).

Patt...you're in my thoughts every day. If, for some reason, noone is there with you...just give me a call (870-545-3000) and I'll hold your hand or bring you some soup.

love and light and strawberry fields forever
deb-o-peacebaby

[PMilam]

Thanks.. Craig has been off since Friday, anticipating the surgery.. so... he's been here to watch me throw up and sleep... keeping me hydrated.

Can't believe my surgeon got the same thing.. anyway.. he's at least 2 days behind me.. I was up for 6 hours yesterday.. the most I've been us before that was counted in minutes.

Most awful virus I've ever had..

And my friends are still coming when ever I call.. I am so grateful for that!!!

Haven't seen my kids since before Christmas.. don't want breathe on them!

Keep those cards and letters coming in!!

Thanks so much!! I've got your # down, Deb!

[DaBee]

Listen to your heart

Horror gripped the heart of a World War I soldier, as he saw his lifelong friend fall in battle. Caught in a trench with continuous gunfire whizzing over his head, the soldier asked his Lieutenant if he could go out into the "no man's land" between the trenches to bring his fallen comrade back.

"You can go," said the Lieutenant, "but I don't think it will be worth it. Your friend is probably dead and you may throw your life away." The Lieutenant's words didn't matter, and the soldier went anyway.

Miraculously, he managed to reach his fiend, hoisted him onto his shoulder and brought him back to their company's trench. As the two of them tumbled in together to the bottom of the trench, the officer checked the wounded soldier, and then looked kindly at his friend. "I told you it wouldn't be worth it," he said. "You friend is dead and you are mortally wounded.

"It was worth it, Sir," said the soldier.
"What do you mean by worth it ?" responded the Lieutenant. "You friend is dead."
"Yes Sir," the private answered, "but it was worth it because when I got to him, he was still alive and I got the chance to hear him say....."JIM........... I KNEW YOU'D COME."

Many times in life, whether a thing is worth doing or not, really depends on how you look at it. Take up all your courage and do something your heart tells you to do, so that you may not regret not doing it later in your life....

"A true friend is one who walks in, when the rest of the world walks out"

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
DaBee,
Sounds like you're doing lot's of soul searching, remember Spirit is constantly trying to communicate with US. We must allow ourselves to be "OPEN' and "GROUNDED" in order to be able to receive the messages.
Sending my little bit of "crow magik" to assist you. You are more "filled with Spirit" than you know. I see it and everyone else you allow, see it. Be proud and stand tall.
Peace & Love, Sister LiGhT.
:cool:

[DaBee]

Thank you for the lightened message, bro. Sometimes I do forget to be quiet and listen. I will spend time in nature tomorrow as that is where crow medicine works best for me.
love and light
deb

[bagboy]

I love you Patt!

[Gaylord Wright]

Don't you forget us, as I posted. We do not forget about you, please post when you can. Excuse the collective 'we' but this is really a community wish. A heart of gold, a firebrand if need be, Patt to me is a number one. Bless your pea pickin' heart sweetheart.

[PMilam]

Thank you bagboy and Gaylord!!
I woke this morning.. well... this noon.. completely soaking wet.. and... feeling like this might be over.

I can't believe I've got to get well... just to get down again!! My house is a wreck.. metaphorically and realistically.

Craig needed this 4 days to rest, himself. He won't ever take it for himself.. so.. since all I did was sleep .. he was able to rest.

Doncha wish you had a recorder to hit, when you start having those weird illness induced dreams.. they combine with tv, reality, memories.. wow.. some are so fantastic.
I wish I could remember.

Now.. I have to ready myself and my space for a different sort of being down. ... ah... this is when I need to be out cleaning out the beds.. watering... fertilizing.. mulching.. oh well.. this comes first.

New schedule is for Thurs. at 4 pm.. my friends are still coming.. to be here to feed and swaddle me! Thanks be!!

Keep those cards and letters comin' in!

Blessed Be!

[Jeannie Jones]

Patt, please go slow in your work. In your drive to get things ready, I'm hoping you'll do only a little at a time. Lean on your friends when need them. Pamper yourself when you can.

Cards and letters and love and prayers still comin' your way. smile.gif

Nice that Craig can get some rest now, and that you're not all alone.

Lots of love coming your way............................................... ..........

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:


Your daily Buddhist Wisdom
Buddhist(Zen) wisdom: The Four Faults

Why is it that people should find it so difficult even to conceive the depth and glory of the nature of mind? Why does it seem to many such an outlandish and improbable idea?

The teachings speak of four faults, which prevent us from realizing the nature of mind right now

1. The nature of minds is too close to be recognized. Just as we are unable to see our own face, mind finds it difficult to look into it's own nature.

2. It is too profound for us to fathom. We have no idea how deep it could be; if we did, we would have already, to a certain extent, realized it.

3. It is too easy for us to believe. In reality all, we need do is simply to rest in the naked, pure awareness of the nature of mind, which is always present.

4. It is too wonderful for us to accomadate, The sheer immensity of it is too vast to fit into our narrow way of thinking. We just can't believe it. Nor can we possibly imagine that enlightenment is the real nature of our minds.

:cool:

[Jeannie Jones]

JUST FOR YOU, PATT, from NAFALIA:

Patt, you can be assured that between now and Thursday at 4:00 and afterwards, I will be holding you very close in my center of peace. I totally understand all that you are experiencing at this moment, and I am so happy that your friends will be there to care for you, wait on you hand and foot, as if you were the Queen of Sheba, and that Craig is there for you with all of his being. No greater gift can I offer than you already have.

Love, Light, Healing, I send from me to you, and will always be there to walk the talk with you.

And so it was,
And so it is,

Nafalia

PS: Please share with all of us how those 1000 thread sheets feel ( smile.gif ) Need I remind you, one and all, this time for Patt, keep those cards and letters coming in, folks!

[Jeannie Jones]

LEAVING PORT, from NAFALIA:

Tomorrow at 10:30 (surgery at 11:30)I am to be at St. John's Hospital Outpatient Surgery to have my port removed (at long, long last).
I should be in surgery and recovery about 1 1/2 hours.

It's rather ironic that as I'm ending my deal with cancer, they're going in to Patt to see what lies there.

As each of you have been with me through this time, and we all know what the power of the collective consciousness can accomplish, let us now turn that focus to PMilam.


During all of this time I've gone through this alone, except for you all, and here as we remove the port, a friend from Kansas City has come down to stay with me for several days to take care of me after the port removal. Isn't this funny how Spirit works things out? Guess I was to walk it alone until the very end. (Interesting, is it not?)

Just wanted to update y'all on what was happening, and that is the news that is the news. ;)

As we will it,
Spirit has granted it.

Nafalia

[DaBee]

Will you be sailing around the universe once you are unencumbered from the port, Nafalia? I can see the headlines now, "Free at last", the Spirit Warrior exclaimed as she set sail on her voyage to the points of life and light awaiting discovery.
Ahhh, but tomorrow at 10:30 in the morning, I shall be there, portside, waving my hankey and blowing kisses to regale the separation of ship and state of medical apparature.
Yes, Nafalia, it is all velly intelesting!
Namaste. Love and light be with you.

[Jeannie Jones]

AFTER-GLOW???, from NAFALIA:

In August a "port" was inserted under my skin, and it was like a metal ring with a soft rubbery center. There was a catheter that ran from the port into the heart, so that the chemo needle, about 1 1/2" long and "C" hooked, in shape, could be inserted into the very center of the port. (Only specially-trained chemo nurses can insert the chemo needle and start the chemo, or even change a bag of chemo on the IV pole.) The port was used for the chemo to run through, directly into the heart. The port is what they use to get the chemo into the body, so it went entirely throughout the body. The purpose of the port is to save the veins, because chemo's so hard on the veins. It was so nice getting it out, because I did not like having that foreign object in my body with the catheter running into my heart.

Got to the hospital on time, the surgery was at noon instead of 11:30, was given this wonderful drug to help you relax as you're waiting, then taken back to the surgery suite and given some sort of anesthetic, which was just WONDERFUL.

The next thing I knew, I was waking up and I had left the port behind. Was taken back to my recovery room, and immediately the R.N. came in and asked me, "How's your pain level?" And I said, "Well, it's beginning to hurt". And she said, "Well, let me catch the doc and see if we can give you something for pain". And he told her to give me some IV morphine, and so the after-glow returned again.

Then I was up in "Recovery" for an hour, hour and a half, and my friend Rick was there with me, holding my hand and being a great comfort.

Was then finally given my release papers and my prescription for Delaudid to bring home for pain. Stopped by the pharmacy, got it filled, came home, up to this point have taken about 1 whole one ('cause I cut them in half), and still just basking in the after-glow.

You know the after-glow I'm speaking of - that warm, fuzzy one ;) where everything is warm and there's no pain, and you're just totally relaxed. What a nice place to visit. Wouldn't mind living there, but knowing that it's not a place that we can live, as it becomes all there is.

Being such a wuss with pain medication and all of that, this is a real treat for me right now. So, that's how it is.

Before the chemo, the drs. had had me gain 10 lbs., in case I was to lose weight from the treatments. Today when I weighed, I weighed 127, which is about 5 lbs. off my normal weight, which is 122 lbs. Dr. Hoos had told me that the weight would drop off after treatment had stopped.

I wasn't so much concerned about the #'s, or the weight, or any of that, as I was about the fact that the extra weight had made it harder on my back. So anyway, I guess everything's beginning to shift, and shift-shape, and return to normal.

Still having a lot of tenderness in my lower intestinal area due to the radiation burn, an issue I will be looking into to see what kind of damage might have been done. Just wanted to wait until the holidays were over and deal with one thing at a time.

As far as what comes next, in a few days, when I feel up to it, I am to go for another Epley Maneuver, and my darlin' Dr. Sharlin has sent word through my sister that he wants to see me very soon. I'm sure it's to check on the Botox injections, and probably do more. And I'm pleased to say that I'm having great results from the Botox. We just have a few more kinks to work out.

As far as I can recall in this fuzzy after-glow state of mind, I've sort of filled you in on everything that happened today. And boy, did it feel good to leave that port behind.

As above,
So below,

Nafalia

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
~~~~Another battle won, Fancy Warrior. Talk the walk, you make us ALL proud.
So Mote It Be~~~~
:cool:

[DaBee]

Please relay to Rick that he is a perfect friend with perfect timing. What wonderfulness to be basking in the glow and having your hand held, too!
Sleep sweet with visions of sugarplums dancing in your head as your do cartwheels through the stars.
love and light and kiss that boy goodnight
deb-o-dreamweaver

[Becky Davis]

Yep...another one. :D

[DaBee]

Patt, you are in my thoughts tonight and will be tomorrow, too. I am looking forward to hearing from you with the news of successful surgery. I am so filled with joy to know that your friends and family are there with you. You only deserve the best....including 1000 thread count sheets! smile.gif
love and light
deb

[MotherMoon12]

Thoughts and prayers and cards and letters from here, Patt.

[b lake lady]

Just checked back in here. I know it's late and you won't see this til you get home, but you will feel the warmth and love of all of us there with you.

[Becky Davis]

Yeah Girl...get this behind you. 2006 is going to be the best year ever. You'll have plenty of time to recover before spring gardening and you need to be in shape to beat off those armadillos.
Please have someone post for you to let us know how you are faring.
Love ya Patt...

[Jeannie Jones]

You're already at the hospital, but just wanted to add that we've got you surrounded, as you know, and visualizing your totally successful surgery.

Love, Love, Love,

Jeannie

[Becky Davis]

I'm totally anxious to know how our Dear Heart is doing.

[Jeannie Jones]

Originally posted by DaBee:
...cartwheels through the stars... Just a little swerve here, but wouldn't this make a great title for a children's book? An adult book?

[Jeannie Jones]

Perhaps we'll hear word of Ms. Patt today. I don't suppose she'll feel well enough to use the computer, but maybe we'll hear through a friend, as Becky suggested. Continuing cards & letters comin' in!

As for Ms. Nafalia, she's doing quite well. She let Rick go home, and is sounding good. Challenging telephone situation at present on my part, so was not able to get a post out from her to you.

Love and blessings to all who are reading.

[PMilam]

I"m home.. doing well.. wonderful caretakers.
more later, my dears.

Thank you so much for keeping me uplifted.

[Another Texan]

Glad to hear you are doing well. Take care, Mary

[mtnviewsteve]

:cool:
White LiGhT Energy blessings to you Pat.
:cool:

[Jeannie Jones]

EXHALING, from NAFALIA:

Well, Patt, we can all finally exhale now that we've heard from you. It was not difficult at all, holding our breath while we waited.

For, as we held our breath, we also held you. So now let's all give one great big exhale!!! smile.gif

Love you much,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

FANCY WARRIOR???, from NAFALIA:

Gosh, thanks, Steve, for the compliment. Just trying to keep ahead of the battles before they get to me. By doing that, perhaps I can outrun them.

Oh! Warriors don't run! Whatever was I thinking?! ;)

Warriors walk, not away from, but into. Now my thinking's working again. :confused:

As above,
So below,

Nafalia

[Jeannie Jones]

CARTWHEELS?, from NAFALIA:

Deb-o-nighttime-dream-weaver,

I can tell you one thing for sure, when I'm well enough, strong enough, to bust out of this joint, you can be assured that when you look to the heavens, you'll see me cartwheeling everywhere!!! :D

Yes, it was wonderful to have Rick here. He was a great help and very considerate and thoughtful, and did everything he could for me.

It's just really fortunate for me that he has such a wonderful sense of humor, because in my after-glow state of mind, I kept telling him, "Boy, you're an old guy!" And he, being the sweet person he is, just laughed at me. I said to him several times, when he'd be sitting on the floor by my chair, "You're an old stick-in-the-mud. You've been hanging out with too many old women. You need to lighten up and get a new image", is what I'd tell him. And to think he drove all the way from Kansas City, and was such a good friend, just so I could verbally abuse him. smile.gif

He's still laughing at me over it. Really a special kind of guy.

As we will it,
So shall it be,

Nafalia

[Becky Davis]

So glad you are home Patt...today should be a better day. Some of the anesthesia should be out of your system and that drunk feeling should be leaving. Drink lots of fluids and tell doc to give you some good drugs. No sense in enduring pain ya don't have to.
Though of you off and on all weekend. Thinking I should look and see if anyone had heard...and walla..we heard from you.
Take care..let everybody baby you..Love ya.

[PMilam]

I'm doing soooo much better on #2 surgery.. of course it was one side, and not the whole chest being removed this time.
Got good drugs... enough food for an army, and Mamoo is a whirling dervish when it comes to cleaning.. every gee gaa in my house has been cleaned.. some removed.. packed away for the day when my house is enlarged... (I'm still in a dream, you understand).

Perfect weather to sit on the porch.

I'm even able to type!!

Thinking back two years.. what a world of difference. And.. I didn't know what to fear before. This time I knew what to fear... and it is not the same at all. Thanks be to God.. and all of you.


AND... all the prayers, candle, thoughts, calls, emails, messages... have made this an easy time for me. I thank you ALL!

[Jan Ridenour]

Glad you're able to enjoy the day Patt..it is gorgeous outside!

and with good drugs to boot! smile.gif

Don't hestitate to post whatever you need and it will be there in a flash...

We love ya!..now get back to those drugs..